To start. I’ve never been one to go crazy over and idolize celebrities. Back in school when all my friends were going crazy over celebrities with posters all over their walls and talking about how their idols to them I was just like...how? Yeah, they make good music or they’re good actors but what’s so great about that? I didn’t understand how you could idolize someone you didn’t know and would never know you. Then, one day I was riding shotgun with my hair undone in the front seat of...my Moms car. All of a sudden they announced a new song Tim McGraw by a new up and coming singer Taylor Swift. I instantly felt something I never felt before. I felt like this instant connection, and just this instant feeling I can’t describe and don’t know how to put into words. I went home and fell into a deep hole on YouTube I spent hours listening to Taylor Swift songs and learning about her. As soon as her CD came out I went out and brought it. I listened to it constantly and rarely shut up to anyone about Taylor Swift. The day came around that Taylor Swift was touring in my area. I FREAKED out to my Mom about it. Unfortunately she told me it was sold out. I was so sad. Then comes Christmas I walk out to see what Santa brought me(Yes, I believed in Santa for a long time but I was still young okay.) So, I walk out and on top of my brand new trampoline “Santa” brought me was an envelope. I open it and almost faint. I take it out the envelope and look at my Mom hands shaking. Me: WHAT!!!?!?! HOW!?! My Mom: What is it?! Me: TAYLOR SWIFT TICKETS!!! HOW’D HE DO THAT!?! NOW I KNOW FOR SURE HE’S REAL!!!(Like I said I was young okay LOL.) So, I go and buy like every bit of Taylor Swift merch and have an absolutely amazing night. I become even more obsessed. Flash forward to the first day of high school. I turn on “15″ being 15 and starting my first day and I feel so much better with Taylor there with me in some way. I have my friends write Taylor Swift lyrics on all my folders and such(cause that was the cool thing to do back than.) I had my friends do it cause I have crap handwriting. With having to work super hard to do so I made it to every tour except my favorite RED cause of course with my luck it didn’t come near me. That was just a few memories I wanted to share. Anyway, I learned how you can idolize a celebrity. Even though Taylor is more like a sister to me even though she’ll never know me. On with getting to the thanks. I have neurofibromatosis. It’s a genetic neurological/nerve disorder. It causes tumor growth in the brain and on the body(it can be in or out, mine are in.), it can also cause scoliosis, learning disorders, bone deformities, hearing loss, loss of sight, poor balance, often headaches, depression, anxiety, and a longgg list of other things. I have to have MRIS and visit a long list of doctors every year. I have one REALLY bad tumor on my calf behind my knee calf that could eventually take my ability to walk and even my life(the removal of it could cause a pain that isn’t bearable for humans to live with.) it causes me pain just randomly sometimes and excruciating pain if touched or bumped. To the point it makes me fall to my knees and unable to move for awhile because it’s wrapped around my main nerves and goes through my whole body. Taylor helps me get through the stress and worry of all that and I want to thank her for that I have pretty bad depression and anxiety because of the NF and she helps me get through that so that’s another thank you. Just by being the amazing, thoughtful, helpful and selfless person she is she helps me. She is the only person besides my Mom and my dogs(I love them that much judge me for it I don’t care. I would love to be the person they see me as.) that I really look up to as an idol and wish to be like. I know this is long and no one especially Taylor will ever read and I didn’t say half of what I wanted to or how I wanted to cause I suck at expressing my feelings and getting my words out haha but I just wanted to say thank you anyway. Thank you for helping me through my dark day, my pain, my stress, and just everything. I’m your biggest fan and I will always love and support you. No matter how in other peoples words “too old to like Taylor Swift that much” I get. I love you.
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