🎧

drums, please, fabs.

[quietbetts]

The only difference between me and a pendulum is that a pendulum was made to be swung in opposite poles for the end of time. I was not. I was meant to pace in branches of a living equilibrium. I was meant to live. I don't know how I ended up swinging from pain to lies. I'm hanging on to the thread of routine.

-quietbetts

[quietbetts]

January 16, 1922, from The Diaries Of Franz Kafka

[quietbetts]

"I'm searching for a phrase that will release everything that's pent up in me."

-Henry Miller, in a letter to Anaïs Nin, featured in A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin and Henry Miller, 1932-1953

[quietbetts]

Words. Words. I play with words, hoping that some combination, even a chance combination, will say what I want.

-Doris Lessing

[millie-r-carpenter]

Mae: "Anger was.."

Ruby: "Better than tears."

Hawkeye: "Better than grief."

Saphir: "Better than guilt."

[crimsolyn]

I think the purest form of love is just wanting someone to notice life with you. "taste this. look at that. hear this song." again and again. until you can't imagine noticing life without them.

[quietbetts]

Ohh, I just can't remember 🎧

[quietbetts]

"I am in the mood to be forgotten."

-Hanif Abdurraqib, from "FOR THE DOGS WHO BARKED AT ME ON THE SIDEWALKS IN CONNECTICUT," A For-tune for Your Disaster

[quietbetts]

I was drawn to all the wrong things:

I liked to drink, I was lazy, I didn't have a god, politics, ideas, ideals.

I was settled into nothingness; a kind of non-being, and I accepted it. I didn't make for an interesting person.I didn't want to be interesting, it was too hard.

What I really wanted was only a soft, hazy space to live in, and to be left alone.

-Charles Bukowski

[quietbetts]

Didn't you wake up feeling that you had no future? Didn't you walk around drained of all meaning, without the right to even the slightest danger? Didn't you have to promise, a hundred times, not to die?

-Rainer Maria Rilke, from "The Prodigal Son," The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge (The Selected Poetry of Rainer Maria Rilke)

[quietbetts]

"Then suddenly you're left all alone with your body that can't love you and your will that can't save you."

-Rainer Maria Rilke, from Book of Hours

[quietbetts]

I say the right thing, but act the wrong way

I like it right here, but I cannot stay

I watch the TV, forget what I'm told

Well, I am too young, and they are too old

Oh, man, can't you see? I'm nervous, so please

Pretend to be nice, so I can be mean

I missed the last bus, we take the next train

I try, but.., you see, it's hard to explain

[quietbetts]

"Jessica has a forehead scar from the deep end of a pool. 1 ask Jessica what drowning feels like and she says not everything feels like something else."

Not everything feels like something else.

-Angie Sijun Lou, from "Jessica gives me a chill pill," published in Muzzlen.

[quietbetts]

i am too insane to explain and you are too normal to understand.

-Unknown

[quietbetts]

And this urge to run away from what I love is a sort of sadism I no longer pretend to understand.

-Martha Gellhorn, from a letter to Stanley Pennell

[quietbetts]

You killed the way I loved you.

-Chuck Akot, from Memoirs, Mort d'amour

[quietbetts]

I can't abandon the person I used to be so i carry her.

Unknown