I NEED to find her!

singingxgem

#sapphire;;#myself;;

musxng

i could say the words ❝I LOVE YOU❞ in a t h o u s a n d different languages yet you still wouldn’t understand just how much i mean them

#musings;;

emerypens

OKAY BUT I’M ALL HERE FOR RUBY SO CONSUMED WITH FEAR OF HER CRUSH ON SAPPHIRE BEING DISCOVERED THAT SHE COMPLETELY OVER-LOOKS THE NINETY MILLION FUCKING NEON SIGNS THAT SAPPHIRE IS IN LOVE WITH HER 100 FUCKING %

#myself;;#sapphire;;#(sCREAMS....)#(I dunno if I reblogged this before but)

singingxgem

musesgonnamuse

i’m not from this planet —-but—- sometimes i wish i was

#musings;;

She’s just going to stare with a goofy grin on her face.

#ic;;#open for mutuals;;#(idk why she's even grinning okay)

(Yeah, okay. Whatever.)

#nice #ooc;;

(If anyone doesn’t like my blog, please don’t follow it. Just don’t. And definitely don’t send me any negative comments about it or my style of writing. Or how I portray my muse.)

#psa;;#ooc;;

the-write-ideas

YET ANOTHER KISSING MEME

Send kissed! and my character will react to receiving this type of kiss from yours… (some NSFW apply!)

#1-65

(opposite of this meme)

#memes;;

Sapphire just stared between them both, meeting Ruby’s gaze with a look that showed she had no idea what they should do to help her in this case. She felt like the answer was right there, but she could not see it.

That was…concerning at best.

“Pearl, stop apologizing, its okay.” she began, immediately regretting that comment. “Look, you are special Pearl, we all appreciate you around here. Steven does, Steven loves you especially Pearl- just like Rose did.”

Just like Rose did.

Pearl managed to finally look up at Sapphire, tears running down her cheeks and making her face look just a tiny bit scrunched up and wrong. She sniffled, a hand lifting to wipe at her eyes, even though it seemed that she wasn’t close to being done with crying.

“Do…y-you really think…?” She managed to say, finally. “B-But I’ve made so…so many mistakes, I…what would she think-”

#singingxgem #thepetalsdance

“Rose would think you’re strong.” Ruby answered, closing her eyes. “You CAN’T keep beating yourself up over past mistakes! It’s not just you who makes mistakes, y’know.”

She sighed, “Sapph’s right. You’re very much appreciated here. It doesn’t matter if you slip up, we’ll always care about you.”

Sapphire did not react visibly to any of the yelling, looking between the two of them as necessary. She listened to them both go on, not stepping in until it seemed like everyone else was finished.

“She has a point, Pearl.” she began. “Steven looks up to you as a pillar of strength from what I saw.” she noted. “Fusion is not there for you to use it to power-boost yourself. It is so much more then that.” she explained. “To us personally it is anyways, its–”

She fell quiet and decided to mirror Ruby’s action and put her hand on the other shoulder, brushing her hair from her eyes to stare at Pearl with a visible expression.

The words did little to comfort her, and it made her feel guilty. She knew they were right, at least in this instance…Steven always looked up to her. And yes, there were certainly moments where she noticed and it made her feel the way she wanted to.

But that kind of feeling never lasted. It was always so fleeting, and it was exhausting to almost constantly feel like she had for so long. Tears gathered at her eyes again, and her head lowered as the guilt was building up more and more. “I’m…I’m sorry-”

And now, she was crying, audible sniffles and sobs forming in her throat. Her hands clung tightly to the front of her shirt again, and she subconsciously curled in a little on herself.

#singingxgem #thepetalsdance

Ruby was prepared to say something else, something about ROSE, but that’d most likely just make things worse than they already were. So, she simply sat down beside the taller Gem and hugged her.

She was silent, her gaze drifting toward Sapphire, the expression on her face asking something along the lines of ‘what should we do’. Ugh, she felt horrible for yelling earlier. This was just fantastic.

Sapphire felt some of the tension (and heat) leave Ruby’s body, so she released her and moved to her side instead, locking their hands after a moment. She looked up at Pearl, shaking her head slowly, as if denying what she was saying.

“Ruby is right Pearl, you’re strong, just in different ways than us or Garnet or whoever.” she explained, her tone still calm. She released Ruby’s hand after that, sure that it was not a good time for this. They had their own problems to talk about, but now was about Pearl, not them. “You’re a strong person, and you’re very important to us.”

“But I don’t feel like it!”

She was immediately silent for a moment, almost recoiling at how she raised her voice at them. The emotions that were threatening to bubble over now seemed to currently be bubbling over, and she didn’t want them to. She pressed back against the door, sliding down until she was sitting upon the floor.

“I…I feel useless, on my own. I need others to…to make me feel like I matter. Like I mean something. But even then…it just doesn’t feel like it.”

She squeezed her hands together, looking down at the floor. “I was so desperate to fuse because, for a few minutes…I could feel it. I could feel like everything I wanted to be.”

#singingxgem #thepetalsdance

“Don’t you GET it?! You’re strong in your own way!” Ruby shouted, though she wasn’t steaming anymore. Just... irritated. Upset. Not angry. She looked at Sapphire and sighed before glancing back at Pearl.

Slowly, she approached the taller Gem and carefully laid a hand onto her shoulder. Her voice was quieter than before. “What about... when you’re around Steven? H E doesn’t make you feel like you matter? Like you’re wanted?”

"Maybe I will!"

INCOHERENT GRUMBLING.

#gemsandwires

"Ha! You're not so tall now!"

“FIGHT ME!!!”

#gemsandwires #(F ITE HER)

Sapphire did not want to raise her voice, but at the yelling she frowned, ice beginning to form on the back wall. “Ruby!” she forced out, sound upset.

“I-I’m sure you had your reasons Pearl, and they are valid.” she addressed the other gem, still grasping onto Ruby. “She’s just angry, she’ll burn herself out eventually and this will all pass.”

“I…” She had to turn away, fingers curled to grip at her clothing, almost so hard her knuckles were white. She was barely holding back a tidal wave of emotions right now, tears managing to gather at her eyes despite her efforts.

“I didn’t want to feel…feel weak, anymore,” she murmured, closing her eyes and still turned away from the two smaller Gems. “I wanted to be strong. I-I wanted to…feel important. And confident. And needed.”