Quixotic*Exotic

Name: Jessy Age: 28 Occupation(s): Superheroine, gunslinger, Cumberbitch, Whovian, and misanthropic humanitarian Interests: Vary in various ways, but mostly bookwormin', procrastinatin', and shoutin' at inanimate objects

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Happy National Dog Da— Squirrel!

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Still alive. :)

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Stuck in there.

I know I don't use this very often, but needed to let out whatever paranoid nervousness is buzzing in my head hive. This year has been really remarkable. Over one year sober, quit smoking, switched from one dead-end job, to a temp job, to an unrelated and unexpected position as an assistant manager in a children's science museum (unrelated to anything I've done before; unexpected because children nor science have ever been my strong points), engaged, renting a charming house with fiancé and another great roommate, adopted a cat and a dog... Things have definitely turned around, and I couldn't be happier. Nor more terrified. Because the more you gain, the more you take on and love and offer yourself, the more you have to lose. I don't think about it all the time, but every so often, some bitchy little voice from my high school years would whisper, "You don't deserve it," or, "Best quit while you're ahead," or (the worst), "What more can you possibly accomplish? Just end it now." That last one is the most scarce, and the most scary. And once I let myself ball my eyes out when I'm feeling especially fearful and morbid, I can realize that accomplishment is a wonderful thing, but it's also terrifying-- because you're never really done. Nor should you be. Sure, enjoy the sweet moments and congratulate yourself and marvel at what you were vs what you are now...but there's that shadow to the bright spots in life, to remind you that nothing is stable, nothing guaranteed, no matter how secure you are financially, nor how well your performance review, nor how many times a day you are told you are loved and appreciated. There's always that risk of loss. But even the loss is unknown, where that'll put you. Life's amazing and tough and terrible and liberating. It's about as lovely and insane as you can imagine (for better or worse, my imagination is vast). Anyway. No real point to any of this. Just had to let my mind ferrets run amuck until the melatonin kicks in.

[consultingbeekeepers]

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Do you mean “The Hound of the Baskervilles”?

Excited for this!!!

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culturenlifestyle:

Vinyl Library Opens in Seoul

Ga.A Architects founder Moongyu Choi designed a music library in the heart of Seoul, Korea. Commissioned by the credit card company HyundaiCard, the building is composed of three-stories and a concert room. In the catalogue of the vinyl library, one can find 10,000 vinyls with available turntables, 3,000 books and every issue of Rolling Stone since 1967. 

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“Kill switches. I set the sequence myself.”

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We got a dog!

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Harley and Ivy to the rescue.

Batman: Black and White #3.

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It's been a small eternity since I've used this thing (or any of my Tumblrs, really; how many do I even have? 2? 7?).

I hope everyone's been doing well!

I also hope to get back in to blogging-- or, rather, to become committed, instead of reblogging cute animal pics once every few months. Not that there's anything wrong with that.

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Black Widow #3, March 2001, cover by Scott Hampton

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If Widow ever gets her own MCU flick is should be exactly about this.

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[nathanourhero]

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I'm sure what I'm about to say may piss some people off, but really, that's no real challenge to accomplish nowadays.

I saw all sorts of shit exploding yesterday when the "Fifty Shades of Grey" trailer went viral, but let's not keep in mind what is actually is: a woman wrote the series as a "Twilight" fanfiction. As a FAN. FICTION. Because it's fiction. So is "Twilight." And any other book listed as, "fiction." I can't comment on how much actual research she did into the BDSM lifestyle, but she wrote what she wanted, what she fantasized about. Anyone seriously curious will hopefully go to more reliable sources.

I know I've said some stuff in the past about "Twilight," but I at least read the books, and even seen some of the films, so I wasn't just ranting to rant. No matter my opinion on the quality of the stuff (errrr...), I'll always defend the author's right to publish. Freedom of speech and all that. Which goes both ways, duh, so of course everyone else has the right to talk about, "triggering" and "abusive relationships," or what have you.

I also want to really say this: we have choices. We can read or watch, or not. We are not fragile creatures, okay, especially if we've survived something 10x worse and (important) REAL. If it takes a book, or a film, or anything created by someone else to set others reeling with delusions and false perceptions of "functional relationships," then frankly, they have something else going on, and it's just a matter of time before something else deluded them (if they're not delusional already).

There's always going to be "triggers." But let's just take some personal accountability for our OWN actions and our OWN decisions, to turn away, to avoid. I do agree and even identify with some things I've seen, but y'know what? I don't count myself as a victim anymore. I've survived. I've grown. I don't forget, but I don't dwell. I fought long and hard to get to where I am, but it's because I chose to live not in the shadows of someone else's fucked up actions, but in the "now" of my own making.

Unless, of course, the point of all of this hub-bub is just to bitch about something. In that case, yeah, fire away.

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Another productive day.