I can’t stand Luke or Moira. Like… they treat June like Gilead is behind her, like she’s supposed to be all focused on the future and that’s just fucked up.
Yes, they’re severely traumatized too. Moira lost her girlfriend, Luke lost his family and when his wife returned, she was changed.
And OF COURSE SHE FUCKING WAS!!! She’s been in Gilead, as handmaid, for about SEVEN YEARS.
She’s been raped multilpe times.
She’s witnessed countless bodies hanging on the wall.
She’s witnessed plenty of executions.
She’s been forced to take part in stoning and hanging people.
She saw a 15-year-old girl (Eden) being drowned in a swimming pool for running off with a guardian.
She’s been used as a propaganda tool for Gilead and seen handmaids with their mouths sealed with metal rings.
She’s given birth alone in an abandoned house.
She’s been transported alongside other panicked and scared women in cattle trucks, watching disabled women being brought away in another truck - most likely to their immediate death.
She’s had her own daughter torn from her arms.
She’s lost her mother.
She’s gone undercover for the resistance as a Jezebel, only to nearly be raped by a commander, being forced to kill him.
She’s arranged an escape of 86 children from Gilead to Canada.
She was brutally raped while pregnant to hurry up the labor.
She’s been on constant edge for YEARS, been forced to scrutinize every person around her, loosing any sense of normal relationships, normal reactions, normal behaviors.
She was robbed of her own name, her own body, her own self.
But yeah, it’s TOTALLY normal for Moira, Luke and others to tell her to leave the past behind, not having too unhealthy thoughts, focusing on HEEEEALING, being here and now, acting happy and gratetful, play happy family, pretending Hannah isn’t in their thoughts, ignoring all the unspeakable horrors June has been through WHILE saving 86 kids AND fighting to bring Gilead to their knees.
Because it’s fine for MEN to go full on Rambo on villains for less than a tenth of what June went through, but June is a woman and a MOTHER and SAFE NOW and that means she’s supposed to see her justified hatred as something that should just be felt and talked about, with the goal being some sort of healing.
And guess what?
I fucking LOVE that June doesn’t do that. I love that she’s nowhere near any healing because why the hell should she?! She’s been through more than most of the really fucked up war vets. Her PTSD isn’t even on the same level as Luke’s or Moira’s.
June hasn’t been in Canada for long, that seven year long nightmare isn’t over just because Luke and Moira desperately want it to be.
And it bugs the hell outta me how there are no trauma specialists seen or heard of here and that Moira clearly hasn’t been told that she has no business telling people what they can and cannot think and feel, that she’s not a licensed therapist, not some trauma specialist and should stop telling June how to handle her feelings.
It also drives me absolute crazy with how DUMB Luke is. Did he not fucking listen to June’s testimony? Does he think he can just walk around talking about daily normal things and tell June that she should forget about Gilead and focus on the now.
I just can’t understand how the hell he’s functioning.
The fact that so many people in the Canada storyline - and real ass people watching the show - can’t grasp that June isn’t primarly a wife, mother, friend, woman etc. in this season, but a fucking Rambo, a goddamn Beatrix Kiddo, a woman driven purely by a very justified and blood thirsty revenge, that has twisted her into someone else than the June she was before, is beyond me.
I love this June. I love that she’s bloodthirsty, that she admits how much she loved killing Fred, how she relished in being covered by his blood, how she doesn’t regret it one bit.
I love that she’s not thinking straight, that she’s more driven by her revenge than by being a mother to Nicole. I love that she steps outside of the safe bubble she knew all along she couldn’t remain in and took matters in her own hands.
The fact that Luke doesn’t understand her is infuriating, yes, but I have a lot more anger towards Moira, who’s developed into a nagging, accusatory, mother henning moron since she left Gilead.
She should have a lot more sympathy and in the cases she can’t - which is valid - she at least shouldn’t judge and DEFINITELY should stop fucking compare. June has been through more and worse and for a lot longer and Moira is an idiot for not grasping how her own way of handling her own trauma, can’t be applied to June.
To quote Budd from Kill Bill 2: “That woman deserves her revenge.”
Anyone who doesn’t get that by now, hasn’t been paying attention.
