I canât stand Luke or Moira. Like⊠they treat June like Gilead is behind her, like sheâs supposed to be all focused on the future and thatâs just fucked up.
Yes, theyâre severely traumatized too. Moira lost her girlfriend, Luke lost his family and when his wife returned, she was changed.
And OF COURSE SHE FUCKING WAS!!! Sheâs been in Gilead, as handmaid, for about SEVEN YEARS.
Sheâs been raped multilpe times.
Sheâs witnessed countless bodies hanging on the wall.
Sheâs witnessed plenty of executions.Â
Sheâs been forced to take part in stoning and hanging people.Â
She saw a 15-year-old girl (Eden) being drowned in a swimming pool for running off with a guardian.
Sheâs been used as a propaganda tool for Gilead and seen handmaids with their mouths sealed with metal rings.
Sheâs given birth alone in an abandoned house.
Sheâs been transported alongside other panicked and scared women in cattle trucks, watching disabled women being brought away in another truck - most likely to their immediate death.
Sheâs had her own daughter torn from her arms.
Sheâs lost her mother.
Sheâs gone undercover for the resistance as a Jezebel, only to nearly be raped by a commander, being forced to kill him.
Sheâs arranged an escape of 86 children from Gilead to Canada.
She was brutally raped while pregnant to hurry up the labor.
Sheâs been on constant edge for YEARS, been forced to scrutinize every person around her, loosing any sense of normal relationships, normal reactions, normal behaviors.
She was robbed of her own name, her own body, her own self.
But yeah, itâs TOTALLY normal for Moira, Luke and others to tell her to leave the past behind, not having too unhealthy thoughts, focusing on HEEEEALING, being here and now, acting happy and gratetful, play happy family, pretending Hannah isnât in their thoughts, ignoring all the unspeakable horrors June has been through WHILE saving 86 kids AND fighting to bring Gilead to their knees.
Because itâs fine for MEN to go full on Rambo on villains for less than a tenth of what June went through, but June is a woman and a MOTHER and SAFE NOW and that means sheâs supposed to see her justified hatred as something that should just be felt and talked about, with the goal being some sort of healing.
And guess what?
I fucking LOVE that June doesnât do that. I love that sheâs nowhere near any healing because why the hell should she?! Sheâs been through more than most of the really fucked up war vets. Her PTSD isnât even on the same level as Lukeâs or Moiraâs.
June hasnât been in Canada for long, that seven year long nightmare isnât over just because Luke and Moira desperately want it to be.Â
And it bugs the hell outta me how there are no trauma specialists seen or heard of here and that Moira clearly hasnât been told that she has no business telling people what they can and cannot think and feel, that sheâs not a licensed therapist, not some trauma specialist and should stop telling June how to handle her feelings.
It also drives me absolute crazy with how DUMB Luke is. Did he not fucking listen to Juneâs testimony? Does he think he can just walk around talking about daily normal things and tell June that she should forget about Gilead and focus on the now.
I just canât understand how the hell heâs functioning.
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The fact that so many people in the Canada storyline - and real ass people watching the show - canât grasp that June isnât primarly a wife, mother, friend, woman etc. in this season, but a fucking Rambo, a goddamn Beatrix Kiddo, a woman driven purely by a very justified and blood thirsty revenge, that has twisted her into someone else than the June she was before, is beyond me.
I love this June. I love that sheâs bloodthirsty, that she admits how much she loved killing Fred, how she relished in being covered by his blood, how she doesnât regret it one bit.
I love that sheâs not thinking straight, that sheâs more driven by her revenge than by being a mother to Nicole. I love that she steps outside of the safe bubble she knew all along she couldnât remain in and took matters in her own hands.
The fact that Luke doesnât understand her is infuriating, yes, but I have a lot more anger towards Moira, whoâs developed into a nagging, accusatory, mother henning moron since she left Gilead.Â
She should have a lot more sympathy and in the cases she canât - which is valid - she at least shouldnât judge and DEFINITELY should stop fucking compare. June has been through more and worse and for a lot longer and Moira is an idiot for not grasping how her own way of handling her own trauma, canât be applied to June.
To quote Budd from Kill Bill 2:Â âThat woman deserves her revenge.â
Anyone who doesnât get that by now, hasnât been paying attention.