what's up, country club?

a blog dedicated to rafe & barry from outer banks || we track #rafebarry

[hartigays]

can u pls do something with rafebarry jealousy like either way or both ways 😍😍

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

now posted to my ao3! hope u enjoy beloved <3

[antimasculist]

"i dont ship them theyre too toxic i just think their dynamic is interesting" i hope they kill each other mid-fuck

[gaycommunist]

why didn’t you make me good enough.. so that you could’ve loved me?

“washing machine heart” mitski // eila chatti “faulty” // livia laing “the lonely city // anais nin // normal people (2020)// @ibvyache // @psychwarded // neta l. @psychicdonuts // noor unnahar

[gaycommunist]

i’ve got all this rage in me and i don’t know where to put it

@rbhvleo // paul miller “utopia” // “the book of promothea” hélène cixous tr. betsy wing // gillian flynn “dark places” // ginger snaps // @heavensghost // @vawium // @traumathoughts // lucille clifton “leukemia as white rabbits” // ahamkara lustre print @artofmaquenda // audre lorde

[ID: a collection of text excerpts:

“TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER / TELL ME WHERE TO PUT THE ANGER”

a drawing with a deep red background with unidentifiable black text scribbled on the top and bottom right corners. on top, a white face is drawn - the mouth is open as if in a scream with teeth baring, the right eye is slightly bigger.

“i exist, i am, don’t come near, i have teeth, i have claws”

“I was not a lovable child, and i’d grown into a deeply unlovable adult. draw a picture of my soul, and it’d be a scribble with fangs.”

“Ginger: I get this ache... and I thought it was for sex but it’s to tear everything to fucking pieces.”

“I AM AN ANGEL FULL OF RAGE / I CAN’T TOLERATE THIS PAIN”

“never again will i be gentle / I will be bloodied knuckles and scuffed elbows / I will remain rough”

“i am i am i am furious”

an ahamkara lustre print of black dogs baring teeth

“I feel it’s my anger that has / helped keep me alive,” /end ID]

[gaycommunist]

love as horror and violence (3/3)

part 1, part 2

ingmar bergman // helene cixous // @seravph hannnibal “mizumono” // @vawium // @filmnoirsbian // little beast, richard siken // hannibal “mizumono”// james baldwin “if beale street could talk” // unknown //@heavensghost // hannibal “mizumono” // toni morrison “the bluest eye” // “start here” caitlyn siehl // laura maw

[annabelle--cane]

it's rotten work. especially to me especially if it's you. I'll fucking do it but christ alive.

[viaunduende]

[rafebarry]

I thought I was okay, but I’m not. I just keep…I keep having these, um…these thoughts in my head and I don’t…I don’t know if I can control them. And I’m just…I’m afraid of what’s gonna happen. I don’t know how much more of this shit I can take, okay? I'm just afraid. [in/sp]

[araekniarchive]

for request, may I ask for something with the theme "devotion as violence?"

@achillics, vulnerability

Joan Tierney (x)

Richard Siken, Wishbone

Ada Limón, The Good Fight

José Olivarez, I Wake in a Field of Wolves with the Moon

Lady Gaga, Judas

@bipeds (x)

Tom Lehrer, The Masochism Tango

Yves Olade, When Rome Falls

Florence + The Machine, Kiss With a Fist

Schuyler Peck, Horoscope for the Heartbroken

Venetta Octavia, I Set It in Stone

@heavensghost, Dead Girls Don’t Lie

Richard Siken, Snow and Dirty Rain

Dead Girl Walking, from Heathers: The Musical

Terrence Hayes, American Sonnets for My Past and Future Assassin

Richard Siken, Primer for the Small Weird Loves

Margaret Atwood, We are hard

[metamorphesque]

— Franz Kafka, The Castle | The Lovers of Valdaro

[taiyami]

Villain apologist? Nah, I don't apologize for anyone. What my lover does on his days off is not my business.

[skubricks]

“Hey Dad… You’re gonna be okay. It’s all gonna be good, all right? We did it. All this, it’s over. All right? It all worked out. I got the cross. We got the gold. We got everything. We’re done, I got everything… We’ll find her. I’ll bring her back for this family. I promise. For our family, Dad. It’ll be just like you wanted. But listen, while you’re down, I’m gonna step up. Okay? I’m… gonna be a better man. Just like you. Okay? Just like you.”

Drew Starkey as Rafe Cameron in Outer Banks, Season 2, Episode 10: The Coastal Venture

[satyriconmp3]

[rosecrystal]

When someone asks what my hobbies are

[dogmotif-deactivated20240505]

attempted murder is a form of intimacy by the way . don't listen to people who tell you different

[bloodycapulet-deactivated202206]

blood is romantic you guys are just cowards

[twinnedpeaks]

journal excerpt, july first

[sasukesplug]

[gayanese]