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human android!gojo x fem!reader
warnings - mdni 18+ - 7.1k wc. plot heavy. emotion based. fluff. very little smut. reader is mentioned to be in therapy. gojo is an android but is self aware. strong language. dry humping. showering together. p in v. not proofread. ۫ ꣑ৎ .
“I think it would be best if you had someone else living with you. I know it’s difficult for you to make friends and put yourself out there again, but you’re beautiful and you’re still so young. Therapy can only do so much.”
You squirm in the seat across from your therapist, that was easy for her to say, she had a life with a husband and kids. While yes, you’re young, you’ve always had a difficult time around others. It was easier for you to stay inside and keep to yourself.
“Look, I’m not entirely fond of this idea, but…there’s a company that makes android companions. They’ll make one completely tailored to you and your needs.”
Your therapists voice became distant as you got sucked into your own thoughts. A robot? She wanted you to get a robot?
You don’t remember anything she said for the rest of the session, you just know that she sent you off with the company’s name and their website scribbled onto a paper meant for prescriptions.
You’d crumpled up the paper, shoving it into your purse as you board the train.
Day in and day out, it’s all the same.
You don’t have problems being outside, but you don’t like talking to people unless you have to. That certainly has put a damper on meeting people.
The fact that your therapist thought you were so bad to suggest you get a robot? It was absurd. So why did you find yourself staring at the crumpled piece of paper while you pushed your dinner around the plate?
You’d fished it out of your purse seemingly against your will.
Why did you keep thinking about this?
What was even good about this idea? It was probably expensive and what if it gets here and it sucks? Or what if it malfunctions and goes on a murderous rampage?
You shiver at that thought. Shaking your head as push the paper aside, standing up with your half eaten food. You pack it away for later before calling it a night.
A couple days go by before you work up the courage to look at the website.
Soft rain patters against your windows, barely drowned out by the trashy reality tv show you’ve got playing.
It’s close to midnight, and you’re curled up on your couch. Blanket pulled over you with your laptop balanced on your legs. You hesitantly click onto the website.
The website itself was modest, at least that’s what it looked like on the surface.
The main page talked about the company and what they do, it showed a few of their companion bots, and some of the different models.
It was a lot of information, but you started at the ‘about us’ page. Learning more about the company, why they created the companion bots, what makes them stand out from other companies and how much time and effort goes into creating each companion.
The page also features the different options for companions in detail. It was almost scary how real they looked.
You’re able to fully customize one from head to toe or choose one from their ‘available now’ page. Although, most of those seem to be similar in model with little to no variation.
You briefly scroll through the available companions thinking none would catch your eye.
However, there was one base model that you did like.
It was a little jarring to have that realization, that you liked one of the companions, or at least parts of it? There were things you would change if it was something you ended up purchasing.
You close your laptop, trying to ignore the way having a companion completely tailored to your needs and desires made you feel warm inside. Made you feel like maybe you don’t have to be alone for the first time in a long time.
Another week goes by, you find yourself looking at the website almost daily. There’s so much to take in and learn about the companions so it’s good in a sense that you’re doing your research on them.
Tonight though, you’d finally decided to customize your own companion.
The clock on your nightstand read 2:03 in the morning. Aside from the light coming from your laptop, the room was washed in a silvery hue from the moon. It was quiet aside from the soft hum of a fan. You were lost in concentration.
Clicking through the selections, you have a rough idea of what you’re going for.
Bright, icy blue eyes, check.
You quickly move through the rest of the selections. Picking out height, weight, body type, gender, and appendage… Yes, apparently the companions can be used for intimacy.
There was a note on one of the pages informing you that the companion bot will eat, can digest food, will use the restroom, can shower like a normal person, and that conceiving with a companion bot is impossible.
You’d done more research about the company and the companions themselves, resorting to watching videos of people who’d purchased companions.
There was one video you watched of someone who lost their husband and had a replica made which you’ll admit was strange, but you also can’t fault someone for greiving.
You watched a few of people who use them for chores and cooking.
Some people used them solely for the intimacy…No surprises there.
Out of all the videos you watched, though, there was one constant. Glowing reviews for the company. There wasn’t a single bad thing said, it felt too good to be true, but with all the videos you’d watched and all the reviews you’d read, it pushed you to make your purchase.
The fact that you built your own from scratch meant yours would be pricier than the other models, but you knew that when you made this decision. This wasn’t something you were just going to half ass.
As you continue with the process of creating your companion, you have to upload several photos of yourself so your companion knows who you are. You also enter some information about yourself like hobbies, favorite color, favorite foods…The list goes on and on, the entire process being quite extensive.
It makes sense, though, all your answers will be used in the creation of your companion to make them more suited to your wants and needs.
It is stressed several times throughout the process that companions will have a personality of their own, but will not reflect bad on the company, nor will companions be rude or mean. It’s not in their nature.
By the time you reached the checkout page three hours had gone by, it didn’t feel that long at all, but you got so lost in creating your perfect companion.
You’d convinced yourself this was something you needed. And yeah, maybe you did need this. Maybe this companion would be the best thing for you. You intended for this to be platonic, it is a robot after all.
Biting your lip, you type out your credit card information, opting for a payment plan that was similar to that of a car payment.
You checked over everything again, then twice and three more times just to ensure everything was how you wanted it.
And once you were content, you hit complete purchase.
It only took a few minutes before you received your email confirmation, and information about the process.
You hated how your heart dropped when you read it was take five to six months for production.
Was this really that important to you already?
Sighing, you set your phone and laptop on your nightstand. Sleep making your eyelids heavy.
It didn’t take long for you to fall into a deep sleep if only for a few hours.
When you woke, you reread the email you received, and you faced the harsh truth that you did need this companion.
Now you just had to wait.
The waiting only seemed to heighten the fact that you truly did need this.
Minutes became hours and hours bled into days then weeks.
You sluggishly take yourself to therapy, you don’t tell your therapist about purchasing a companion. At least not yet, even though your mind is screaming to talk about it.
The apartment became your safe haven, more than it already was.
You try to imagine how drastically your life is going to change when your companion arrives.
It means buying more groceries, going through more dishes, sharing the bathroom, sharing your space in general…You only briefly had a roommate in college so you weren’t used to having to share your space.
Weeks turned into months.
Rationally, you chalked it up to just being excited to meet your companion. Like how when you go on vacation and it takes so long to get there becuase you can’t wait, but the ride home seems so short because you don’t want to go home.
Going home is always the hardest.
Eventually you lost track of time for how long it had been since you placed the order. At one point you’d even wondered if you got scammed. You were totally going to fire your therapist if that was the case.
It had been four and a half months since you ordered your companion. You hadn’t been updated by the company at all, so naturally unease settled in your gut.
You knew you could reach out to the company, but how would you formulate an email without sounding desperate? You weren’t desperate…
The day was long, filled with the chores you’ve left piling up from the past week.
Doing the dishes, several loads of laundry, cleaning the bathroom and bedroom.
At least the living room was clean-ish. Truly it wasn’t bad, just a few blankets strewn about the couch and recliner, as well as some books and papers cluttering the coffee table.
You finished your extensive chore list a bit before dinner, you’d just decided to order in since you were tired from all the cleaning. Cooking would be too much work, and then you’d have dirty dishes again…Nope, not happening.
After placing a delivery order from your favorite local restaurant you take a quick shower so you could get cozy and just rest. Maybe rewatch your favorite film while you eat. Yeah, that sounded nice.
Warm water spills from the shower head, your body beginning to relax. A heavy sigh passes from your lips as you wash your hair then body. The bathroom filled with steam the longer you stayed in the shower.
You stayed in until the water began to run cold, which didn’t really take that long, you lived in a large apartment complex, hot water was a rare commodity.
Just as you finished changing into your pjs there was a knock at your door, and you swore your stomach grumbled on queue.
Opening the door, you see your food, not really paying any mind to the delivery person, you’d already tipped when you ordered anyways.
You take your food, already able to smell it, and it took everything in you not to moan at the thought of eating this.
You finally look at the person as you were about to thank them.
They were tall, excessively so.
Snowy white hair that looked a bit chaotic but also effortless.
And then you saw the most beautiful crystalline blue eyes you’ve ever seen before.
You think the wind was knocked out of you, because wow, he was handsome.
Confusion washed over you upon noticing the suitcase the person had with them along with a backpack flung over one shoulder. An envelope held snuggly between the fingers of the hand holding the backpack strap.
A low chuckle vibrated from the persons chest.
“Satoru Gojo, nice to meet you.”
The tone was so smooth, almost lazy in a way. A grin tugged at the corner of his mouth.
He passed you the envelope then pushed his way into your apartment.
“Food smells good, by the way, hope there’s enough to share.”
He says as he stands between the kitchen and the living room, taking in his surroundings.
You blink wildly at the man who is now just standing in your apartment like he lives here.
You scrambled to open the envelope, quickly reading over the contents of the letter.
“Congratulations on the purchase and subsequent ownership of your very own android companion. Due to the nature of the companion their software has not been fully updated to your specifications until they get settled in the living space. Please allow 1 to 2 days for the software to fully update. You can restore to factory settings at any time as well as make changes to your companions software anytime in your account. Per your specifications, your companions main traits will be smart, charming, funny, and diligent. We hope you enjoy your companion and will consider leaving us a review.”
The letter had been signed off by some engineer from the company.
In the time you’d read over the letter Satoru had moved through your apartment and was now standing in your bedroom, already unpacking the suitcase and backpack.
No wonder the company had amazing reviews.
There was nothing animatronic about the movements, nor glitchy.
“Um…There’s space in the closet for clothes…”
Your voice trailed off, folding the letter back into the envelope. The company never did mention anything regarding the delivery process, but you hadn’t expected your companion to just show up at your apartment and move in like it’s nothing.
He nods and takes some clothes to the closet, taking his time to hang them up.
Twenty minutes later, he was sprawled out on your couch, and yes, he did eat half your food.
“Satoru, your companion.”
“Yes, I’ve gathered that, but—“
“Don’t worry, you’ll get used to havin’ me around, just give it some time.”
You blink, shaking your head. Despite how excited you were, you couldn’t deny it was a little strange at the moment.
“Well, I’m going to get washed up, I’m beat.”
Satoru stands, stretching his arms over his head before walking to the bedroom. A few minutes later you head your shower turn on.
Maybe he was right, maybe you just needed to give it time, plus he hasn’t even configured to the correct settings yet so you’re sure that’ll help.
You ended up sleeping on the couch that first night, Satoru had the audacity to just flop into your bed and sleep there without asking after his shower.
Yes, the first couples days, no, weeks were strange. It did take about a day for Satoru’s software to configure, there was a clear shift when it happened.
At first you thought he was self aware about the whole android thing, but it became obvious that wasn’t the case.
The dynamic felt like a platonic, roommate type situation, which was what you’d wanted.
Satoru did chores and slept on the futon in the spare room.
He shared the bathroom with you, keeping his little area neat and tidy.
After a month, you got used to seeing him, growing more used to his antics because for some reason he turned out to be sillier than you’d expected.
Days felt easier with him around, lighter.
You were going to have to thank your therapist.
By the three month mark you started to feel like you were going insane.
You started forgetting that he’s an android, he wasn’t human, yet he felt more human than most of the people you knew.
Satoru knew you better than anyone else, and despite knowing that you programmed him that way, it was sweet in a way.
You stepped into the apartment after a particularly rough day, the smell of your favorite food immediately hitting you.
Satoru poked his head out from the kitchen, smiling as he tilted his head, like he already knew you’d had a hard day.
“Well you’ve definitely looked better.”
You flip him off, rolling your eyes as his laugh fills the room. This seemed natural, all of it did. You couldn’t believe how…domestic things had become.
Six months after Satoru arrived was when things took a turn in a different direction.
“Hey, I changed the light in your bedroom that’s been burnt out.”
Satoru’s voice carried from the living room as you kicked off your shoes by the door.
Why did that of all things make your heart flutter?
It was just a stupid lightbulb. You didn’t even mention it to him. It didn’t bother you, and honestly you were just too lazy to change it anyways.
You plop down on the couch next to him, mumbling a quiet ‘thank you’ but your eyes meet his and you’re just…stuck.
His eyes have always been so beautiful. Sure, you picked the color, but actually looking at them was different than picking a hex code on your laptop.
And it’s not just his eyes that have you enraptured, it’s all of him. The way he looks over at you when he talks, the way he looks when he fixes his hair in the mornings, the way he’s able to make you smile so easily. It’s never been that easy.
It’s just his programming. That’s what you try to tell yourself.
But there’s a voice in the back of your head, and you know…you just know you’re developing feelings for him.
You shake your head, clearing your throat. No, you can’t possibly have feelings for him, he’s a fucking robot.
So why does your breath catch every time he says your name, and why does your heart slam in your chest when talks about his day?
Why do you find yourself wishing he was human?
You avoided Satoru for almost a week following your revelation.
Brushing him off, you say you’re just busy and stressed right now. Not to read too much into it.
But Satoru doesn’t like that answer.
His fingers wrap around your arm after you deflect another one of his questions. His thumb runs across the inside of your wrist. Gentle, caring.
“Look, I don’t know what’s going on, and I’m not usually good with stuff like this, but somethings up with you, and I want to help you.”
That was the first night you allowed him to hold you while you slept.
After that night, it became normal for Satoru to stay in your room.
Whether he followed behind you when you told him you’re going to sleep, or if he climbed into your bed during the middle of the night, he always slept with one arm over your waist, keeping you safe.
And he was warm, always so warm.
It was nice to have something someone lay next to you at night.
Another month goes by, you’re both sitting on the couch, curled up together.
Satoru’s arm lazily draped over your shoulder as you both laugh at the comedy special he put on the tv.
“I was thinking about taking you to the aquarium next weekend.”
Satoru says out of nowhere.
You look up at him a bit confused as to where that even came from.
The single word was all you could manage.
It wasn’t that you didn’t want to go, but the whole thing was random.
He shrugs, doesn’t say anything for a while, his eyes trained on the tv before whispering.
“I was hoping it would be our first date.”
All the air was taken from your lungs, and your head swam at his words.
Yet, you found yourself at the aquarium the following weekend.
Satoru paid for the tickets at the counter, the lights were dim in the entrance way. A giant fish sculpture hung from the ceiling.
Satoru was beaming as he passed you your ticket then ushered you inside, one hand resting on the small of your back.
You hadn’t been to this aquarium before, you’ve drove past it, but from the outside you’d never know how big it actually is.
“I think we should start with the kelp forest exhibit then work our way through the open sea exhibit. After that we could either go to the touch tanks or shark cove!”
Satoru continued rambling on about the different exhibits around the aquarium as he looked over the map he had been given.
It was endearing to see him so excited about visiting the aquarium. A date, he called it. And you were here, so by that logic, you also thought this was a date.
Even if you were hesitant to call this a date, it doesn’t change the fact that you spent a stupid amount of time picking out an outfit this morning.
You eventually settled on a simple sundress and a comfortable pair of sandals.
You gently take the map from Satoru, “maybe we should just go with the flow, yeah?”
“Go with the flow? But the kelp forest-“
“We can still start with the kelp forest exhibit, ‘Toru.”
The nickname slid off your tongue so easily, like you’d been calling him that for years, but you hadn’t. In fact, that was the first time you’ve called him anything but Satoru.
His expression softened, looking down at you like you were the most wonderful thing he’s ever seen.
He says simply, eyes shining in the soft blue lighting. It did nothing but accentuate his features, the sharp angle of his jaw, the color of his eyes.
It was almost unfair how handsome he truly is.
You open your mouth to say something, you don’t know exactly what, but before you can his hand moves from your back to your hand and he practically pulls you towards the damn kelp forest exhibit.
The afternoon was spent in the soft light and ambient music of the aquarium.
Satoru made it his mission for you to see every exhibit and experience everything you could.
It was the best date you’ve ever been on.
Truthfully, it was a dream date.
He was a gentleman, not surprising, but it still caught you off guard. He was also super protective, always having his hand on your lower back, or his fingers laced through yours.
The only times he wasn’t touching you in some way was when you visited the touch tanks, got lunch, and visited the gift shop.
At the touch tanks Satoru had able to touch a few stingrays no problem, even being able to reach far enough to touch a horseshoe crab and a starfish. Meanwhile you were only able to reach a few stingrays, but you still had fun. Plus the smile on Satoru’s face made it all worth it.
His favorite exhibit ended up being the sharks. So much so that when you two were in the gift shop he found a headband with a plush shark that looked like it was trying to bite his head. You’re pretty sure it was for children, but he was very adamant on purchasing it. He even bought you one with a plush sea otter on it since you mentioned the sea otters had been your favorite.
As you two with your silly headbands made your way through the rest of the exhibits, you found yourself reaching for Satoru’s hand.
Wanting Needing to feel close to him.
Your heart swelled seeing the bright smile on his face as you led him through the tunnel tank where you were completely surrounded by fish, making it seem like you’re underwater.
Little fish swam near the bottom while shadows of larger fish pass overhead.
He looked so stupid with that shark headband, but at the same time, you wanted to kiss him and tell him he looked like an idiot. You wanted to do a lot of things.
Satoru stopped halfway through the tunnel, you realized it was only the two of you there.
He raised your clasped hands, twirling you once. A laugh bubbled in your throat when he spun you as he pulled you closer to him.
He made you wrap your arms around his neck, you unconsciously play with his snowy hair.
Satoru’s hands find your waist and he pulls you closer until you’re pressed against him.
For a while he looks around the exhibit, eyes wandering at all the coral and fish completely surrounding him.
Eventually, Satoru looks down at you, finding that you’ve been looking up at him. Your lips curled in a tight smile, but your eyes tell him everything he needs to know.
“Do you have any idea how beautiful you are?”
He asks, but you don’t answer, that’s when the smile goes away and you turn your head. Avoiding his eyes.
Satoru doesn’t let you run, one of his hands leaves your waist, gently moving to your chin, he turns your face back towards his.
“Do you have any idea how long I’ve waited to ask you on a date?”
He asks another question, voice softer like he can’t comprehend why you’re trying to run from him in this moment.
You want to scoff, he talks like he’s known you for years. He’s your creation, you tailored him to your needs, granted you don’t remember inputting anything that would’ve resulted in a relationship, but still, he’s a robot companion. He’s not real—
“Please treat me like a person.”
Your eyes snap to his, wide and almost scared. You thought he wasn’t self aware…
“I have feelings too. Just because I’m different doesn’t mean my feelings aren’t real.”
Both of his hands are holding your face now, his thumbs caressing your cheeks.
You try to take a deep breath. Suddenly needing air, feeling suffocated right now.
Satoru doesn’t stop talking.
“My feelings weren’t programmed into my code, those developed naturally because I’m capable of that. I’m just as much of a person as you, so please, don’t push me away.”
For a second you want to. You want to reject this. The entire reason you got him was to have a companion, nothing more. It wasn’t supposed to turn into a relationship with actual feelings.
But you see the desperation in his voice, the pleading look in his eyes.
Satoru has been a lot of things the past seven or so months, but he’s never disappointed you. He’s never made you feel insecure, and he’s never let you down.
You got Satoru to help with the loneliness. To help with the fear of having to meet others. You felt alone for so long, but because of him, you don’t feel so alone anymore.
“I’m sorry, I just…This wasn’t my intention, I didn’t plan for- for feelings.”
You tell him honestly, you want to be honest with him. Even though the expression that falls onto his face hurts your heart so terribly.
“But I guess that was stupid of me because I haven’t felt this way about anyone in a very long time.”
Hope flickers in his eyes, his thumbs press into your cheeks more, feeling the softness of your skin.
He starts but doesn’t know what to say.
“So, I understand your feelings, but I’m still working on mine, so please be patient with me.” A beat passes, “And I’ve always seen you as a person, never less.”
You can see the weight come off his shoulders instantly. The sigh of relief that passes his lips.
He presses a tender kiss to your forehead before wrapping his arms around you, pulling you into a tight hug. One that told you he desperately wanted you, and that he didn’t plan on letting you go so easily.
You weren’t entirely sure how or why Satoru became self aware, but in a way you’re glad that it happened. You didn’t feel so bad about your feelings or admitting them after the aquarium date.
Rationally, Satoru is still an android. Always will be, you can’t change that, but you’ve come to terms with it.
He’s everything you’ve ever needed.
You’ve know some of his mannerisms and emotions are due to the programming you picked out. Satoru tells you that’s not the case, but you’re not entirely sure how that works, even if he is self aware. You’ve made your peace with it either way.
Regardless, Satoru is without a doubt the best thing in your life now.
And yes, technically you’re dating him now.
You were laying on Satoru’s chest, one of his hands combing through your hair, the other hand holding one of yours. His fingers gently threading through yours.
Satoru stopped paying attention to the tv a while ago, he’s been intently staring at your hand. Turning it over, looking at the lines on your palm, comparing his hand to yours.
He hums in response, tilting his head to look at you. Sometimes it’s hard to tell what he’s thinking.
“I’m fine, sweetheart. Don’t worry your pretty little head.”
He boops your nose, giving you a soft smile.
“I’m just…appreciating, ‘kay?”
“Yep, got a problem with that?”
Shaking your head you sit up, fully intending to stay nestled between him and the couch, but Satoru had other ideas.
He whispers as he hauls you up into his lap. Hands grabbing at your thighs. Satoru maneuvers you with ease until you’re straddling him. His smile growing wider as his hands rub up and down your sides.
His words trail off as his hands move down over the curve of your ass, fingers digging into the plush of your cheeks.
Your eyes widen, hands braced on his chest as a surprised sound leaves your throat.
You’ve grown accustomed to Satoru being more hands on with you since the aquarium, but this was new.
His voice quiet, a low chuckle passing his lips.
He grinds you down against him, his head falling back onto the arm of the couch.
Satoru groans, his fingers bound to leave marks on your ass with the way he’s holding you now.
“Fuuuck, sweetheart, you feel so good.”
His eyes are half lidded, looking up at you with almost a manic grin.
It’s been a while since you’ve felt anything remotely close to pleasure coming from something that wasn’t a toy.
You can feel the dampness soak into your panties, the way they suddenly clung to your folds.
You can feel him beneath you, the hard length in his sweatpants.
You gasp, it wasn’t that you’d forgotten that he has…that, but you’ve never seen it or felt it since he arrived. Sure, you customized his appendage to the size of your favorite toy, but you hadn’t really intended to use him in that way. At least not until now.
You squeeze your eyes shut, focusing on the pleasure, you can ask him about his dick later.
A few days later you saw him completely naked for the first time.
He waltzed out of the bedroom, grabbed his phone from the coffee table in the living room then paused to look at you on the couch.
You tried not to look at his body, but your eyes were just drawn to him.
Satoru grinned then held out a hand for you to take, “come shower with me.”
It wasn’t a question, and you weren’t about to argue with him about it.
Once in the bathroom, Satoru turns on the shower then looks over his shoulder in time to see you strip out of your clothes.
His eyes are glued to you, taking in your body top to bottom, over and over.
“You are…Fuck, you’re sexy.”
Your eyelids flutter, a smile slowly creeping onto your face as you look away. You still weren’t used to having someone be so kind with your heart. Someone who wanted to know you, inside and out.
Satoru steps into the shower with a chuckle upon seeing your shy reaction.
He stands under the hot water, starting to wash his body while he waits for you to join him.
You bite your lip, watching Satoru behind the glass door for a few moments before you step into the shower yourself.
Satoru’s voice comes out like honey, his eyes scanning over you once more as he starts lathering shampoo into his hair.
You whisper, hands moving to cover your body.
Satoru gently pushes your hands aside before pulling you under the stream of water.
His lips brush against your ear as he reaches past you for the body wash.
Your knees feel weak and your heart thumps wildly in your chest.
Satoru makes quick work of lathering your body. Despite moving quickly he pays extra attention to some of his favorite parts like your chest, thighs, and stomach.
His lips press against your neck and move up to your jaw then cheek.
You stumble closer to him as his hands move down your backside causing your breasts to press against his chest.
You feel him smirk against your skin as he continues peppering kisses along your face.
And then you feel something pressing against your stomach.
“Uh…How does…” You trail off, not entirely sure how to word your question, and you’re feeling a bit embarrassed about asking in the first place.
Satoru snorts a laugh, pressing a light kiss to the corner of your mouth before pulling back.
“Are you asking how my dick works?”
You nod, cheeks burning. You’re completely flustered because why is he so nonchalant about this?
And why the hell did he have to say it like that?
“Like a normal one,” he starts explaining with little to no regard for your mortified expression, “you did pick the best model after all.”
Satoru winks as he starts to rinse off the body wash then begins washing your hair.
He doesn’t mind that you’re wanting to know how it works, he’s willing to explain it all, and he does.
“Seriously though, everything is pretty normal about it. I get hard, I’m sensitive around the tip, I can orgasm. The only difference between me and an actual human is that I can’t breed you, kinda wish I could, but that’s not the point. I’ll still cum, but it’s just that fake cum lube so you’ve got nothing to worry about in that regard,” He states with a light tap on your nose. “Oh, and I’ve got unlimited stamina so I won’t tap out after one round.”
He grins wildly and you have to squeeze your thighs together, you’re only growing more and more turned on as the conversation continues.
You’re also a bit horrified that he said he wished he could breed you. It certainly doesn’t help that he threw quite a bit of information at you just now and you’re trying to process all of it.
You nod, still feeling a tad embarrassed about asking, but the way Satoru just explained it all made you feel better. He didn’t question you, and he didn’t make you feel bad for asking. It’s one of the many things you’ve grown to appreciate — love — about him.
“Any other questions, sweetheart?”
He asks as he guides your head under the stream of water, gently washing the soap from your hair.
Satoru leans down, pressing his forehead to yours.
“I’m happy to answer any questions you might have for me.”
Satoru’s lips found yours in a heated kiss, walking you backwards until you hit a wall. His hands scramble for your thighs, lifting you effortlessly.
It’s been a year since Satoru arrived, and he said he wanted to do something to celebrate.
You’re not complaining, but this is definitely not what you thought he meant.
His tongue slid against yours as he deepened the kiss. After your legs wrapped around his waist his hands left your thighs. One went to the back of your neck, squeezing just enough to make you moan. His other hand was under your shirt, he groans at the fact that you’re not wearing a bra.
Satoru pulls away from your mouth, moving down to your neck. Leaving sloppy, wet kisses in his wake. Teeth nipping at the soft skin above your collarbone.
You lean your head back against the wall trying to catch your breath. Satoru is very thorough, he’ll make sure you’re covered in his marks before he’s done with you.
His name coming out in a high pitched moan as he deliberately bites a little harder. His thumb and forefinger pinching one of your nipples at the same time.
Your fingers dig into his shoulders, squeezing your eyes shut, trying (and failing) to maintain your composure.
“Keep making those pretty sounds for me, baby. Wanna hear ‘em all night long.”
Satoru practically purred the words against your skin.
A few seconds later, Satoru crosses the apartment in long strides.
He kicks the bedroom door shut behind him before laying you down on the bed.
The dynamic changes immediately, going from playful to serious in seconds.
Satoru stands over you, head tilted as watches you prop yourself up on your elbows.
You both know that tonight has been a long time coming. You’ve fooled around quite a bit, mostly dry humping and oral, but no sex.
You can feel the difference between tonight and all the other nights, though.
You know this is going to end with finally feeling Satoru inside you. The thought alone makes your breath quicken. A new wave of warmth shoots through your core.
Clothes are shed, Satoru is kneeling over you.
The sheets feel cool beneath you a stark contrast to the warm air surrounding both of you.
Satoru trails one hand down your bare torso, his fingers brushing over your core.
Smirking when he finds you soaked, a smart remark on the tip of his tongue but he stops himself. This moment was way too important to ruin.
“No, I want this. I want to feel you, ‘Toru, all of you.”
He nodded, understanding what you meant.
Satoru slid one finger inside you, feeling your walls clench around him almost instantly.
He leaned down, pressing a gentle kiss to your cheek, then temple, nose, and finally your lips. Each one was unhurried, a complete 180 compared to how he was in the living room just a few minutes ago.
Satoru could feel your rapid heartbeat, his expression softening as he takes in your expression. How beautiful and flushed you looked. How out of breath and needy you were.
He wanted nothing more than to devour you on the spot, but he understood now wasn’t the time. He would have plenty of time for that another day.
The nickname slides off his tongue, soothing your worries.
You know what he’s asking, he wants confirmation that you’re ready. He doesn’t need to say it, you know.
Your hands slide up his arms to his shoulders, pulling him closer.
You nod, giving him silent consent that you’re ready and this is what you want.
You couldn’t think of a better moment for it.
Satoru moves between yours legs, wrapping them around his waist. He slides himself through your slick folds, eyes flicking to yours asking once more.
The single word was devastating to his already frayed emotions. Satoru’s breath caught in his throat. Even with all the physical intimacy you’ve done before, nothing prepared him for this moment.
He took a moment to steady himself, having a difficult time believing this was actually happening.
And then, Satoru slid into you with one gentle thrust. Nestling in until he bottoms out, until there’s no space separating you and him, until he’s feeling you in the most intimate way possible.
He leans down, one hand braced on the bed, the other holding your face. It was a tender moment.
Satoru slowly pulls out until only his tip is surrounded by your walls before sinking back inside.
“Oh f-fuck…You’re so warm, and tight.”
He hissed, your name falling from his lips with a soft grunt. Satoru starts with a slow, measured pace. Nothing about his movements are rushed, all he wants in this moment is to feel you, and make you his.
He wants to make you feel loved.
He wants to make love to you.
Your lips part, soft moans spill from your mouth.
Your eyes meet Satoru’s, breaths tangling…A shared look that tells you everything you need to know.
When dawn broke the next morning, Satoru was still curled around you. One arm firmly locked around your waist, keeping you anchored next to him. You’d slept with your face buried in the crook of his neck all night.
The soft sunrise filtered in through the blinds, pinky orange hues decorating Satoru’s bare chest.
You trace random shapes on his skin, watching him sleep so peacefully. You note the way he sounds, the slight changes in his breathing, the way he unconsciously pulls you closer to him.
The whispered words leave your mouth before you can stop yourself. Following the aftermath of last night, it seemed like the right time.
Satoru’s voice is raspy, still tangled with sleep.
Warmth spreads through you, he feels the same.
“I didn’t mean to wake you.”
You nuzzle back into the crook of his neck.
Satoru mumbles, kissing the top of your head.
Sleep caught up with both of you once more.
Things will creep up on you, sometimes slow, so slow you don’t even know it until it’s too late. Other times it feels like you’ve been hit with the force of a bullet train with how quickly change can happen.
Things can be messy and devastating, but they can also be beautiful and devastating.
Like the late nights that turn into deep conversations, the kind you don’t have with just anyone.
Like the simplest words or the lingering glances that just drive you crazy with desire.
Like the arguments that resolve themselves in minutes.
Like the way your bodies fit together.
Like lovers entwined, it’s the one who touches your soul and latches onto it because it’s the most precious thing.
‘You’re the most precious thing.’ Satoru had whispered once when he thought you were asleep.
As for your feelings…You’ve never felt so alive.
You’ve never been so seen or heard or understood.
And for Satoru Gojo, he thinks the world of you, and he’s so incredibly proud that he’s your companion.
(a/n - this took me so far out of my comfort zone. it’s plot heavy, and the longest piece i’ve written. i doubt this will do good, but this one was extremely self indulgent for the emotional aspect, so if you’re reading this, thank you <3)
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