I needed a place to scream into the void about shit, so hello blog.
i'm a 29 y/o afab enby living in southern usa trying to rebuild my life after shit hit the fan. january 2025 due to 2 doctors failing to pregnancy test me, i almost died from organ failure due to untreated pre-eclampsia. my birth control pill had failed, and i'd had a cryptic pregnancy, which was discovered to be 32 weeks along during a CT scan because ✨we all thought i had cancer✨
one emergency c section and a whole daughter later, in 2026 i'm still reeling from PTSD and postpartum depression. i'm a late diagnosed autistic and adhd which i was already coming to terms with before everything turned upside down. my daughter means the world to me, but the adjustment has been difficult as parenthood was never in my plan and also the whole lack of 9 months to actually mentally, physically, and financially prepare for it thing.
i'm doing a lot of heeeeavy heavy lifting in therapy as i come to terms with what's happened, so why not document it here.
p.s. here's how i told a family member what was going down. i will indeed apparently die for the bit.
