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Watching HeartStopper season 2, again. Either Kit Connor is genuinely in love with Joe Locke or, he is the greatest actor of this generation. ❤️

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Does anyone else wonder if Sid from Toy Story committed suicide when he grew up? It seemed to me as though he had a somewhat neglectful childhood. He would probably spend years under psychiatric observation if he openly spoke about the toys coming to life. The overwhelming fear would eventually lead him to suicide, right?

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Watching The Office season 6 episode 5 and remembering that you will never be that happy because your Jim is with someone else.

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Poor Kit Connor. No one should have to publicly identify themselves, gender or sexuality. Someone who portrayed and embodied an iconic role that will bring joy and peace to so many people for decades to come. How tragic that people are still obsessed with labels. Clearly they’ve missed the whole point of Heartstopper.

People should stop trying to define others. Stop forcing people into a box. Stop pressuring people to reveal their private information. Stop thriving on the lives of others. Just stop.

My heart goes out to you KC!

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Taking daisy for a ride round Holland Park

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After a couple of months without watching Heartstopper, I needed some wholesome ‘me’ time and decided to curl up in bed with my beautiful puppy and rewatch the show for the millionth time. Still as beautiful as I remember from watching it the first time; funny, witty and magnificently filmed. It astonishes me how they captured the beauty of Alice Oseman’s drawings and recreated them with such amazing actors. The casting is pure genius! I’m completely in love with Kit Connor.

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Seeing Joe Locke and Sebastian Croft on the underground today has been the highlight of my year.

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The last two days have been super stressful, and I've felt very emotional. However, I realised that I could watch Heartstopper on my VR headset! So I'm curling up in bed, putting on the Oculus and delving deeper into the world of Charlie Spring and Nick Nelson; oh, how I have fallen through the looking glass. Having the headset on also feels like added insulation from the outside world. This is my new safe space. Goodbye cruel world, hello Kit Connor.

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I’m single; not actively looking for a relationship, but I find myself consumed with the fictional relationship of Charlie Spring and Nick Nelson. People would say it isn’t healthy to live vicariously through literary characters, although, I’m not sure how healthy my mental state is at the best of times. There seems to be a beautiful escape in the pure and sweet relationship written about in Alice Oseman’s work.

Sometimes I feel as though I live in a bubble, undisturbed by reality and the struggles of modern life. Aside from working and paying bills, I don’t think I have a foothold in the ‘real’ world. Idealising the relationship of two young men from a graphic novel seems bizarre as I write it; sadly, I think it’s the healthiest relationship I’ve had in a decade.

I need to make friends with actual human beings. Does anyone live near Kensington, UK? Likes walking in Holland Park and feeding squirrels? Are you obsessed with Heartstopper, massively antisocial and awkward? Fancy a walk?

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No amount of shopping, Lady Gaga Beat Saber or feeding squirrels can satiate my longing for Heartstopper. I have the utmost respect for Alice Oseman’s hiatus and her need for self-love; we could all benefit from regular periods away from the stress of modern-day life. I shall indulge myself in a further rewatch of the adorable series, using that time to recharge and energise myself for the week to come. Thank you, Alice Oseman, for your wonderfully written work, filled with love, humour and kindness. Thank you to the actors for capturing the essence of those beloved characters, and thank you, Netflix; just when I was about to deactivate my subscription, you lured me back in.

I hope you enjoy this little fella eating from my lap.

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Like billions of other people around the globe, I am obsessed with Heartstopper by Alice Oseman; both the graphic novels and the Netflix show.

Beautifully written, drawn and acted. I don't mind admitting that I watched the show back to back three times over in 48 hours.

Kit Connor (spelt correctly) epitomises all those teenage crushes I had in my younger years. However, he's far more charming and kind.

Like many older LGBTQ+ individuals, I too, feel a slight sense of melancholy that I grew up in a time where this would not have been acceptable. Although, I appreciate the struggles that Charlie Spring endured when he was outed. That resonates with me; I imagine things would have been all too similar had I been open and honest about who I was back at school. I wish I'd been braver, I wish I hadn't cared what other people thought about me back then. I wish I hadn't missed out on my ‘Heartstopper’ moments. Mr Farouk represents so many people feeling that way.

Alice Oseman, you have touched generations of people across the globe. I can't even begin to imagine the immense pressure that must put on someone. I hope that people will be kind, patient, grateful, but mostly understanding. I hope people remember you are human and that you need time for yourself. You owe us nothing, and yet you've given so much of yourself. Thank you.

Also, Oliver Coleman is the most outstanding actress in the world. The natural and raw emotion in those few scenes, her love, conviction and passion, simultaneously broke my heart and filled me with acceptance and peace.

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People seem to be mistaking my desire to focus solely on myself and what I want as gaslighting. Why do I need to apologise for the perceptions and interpretations of other people? I’ve spent years moderating my language, tone and behaviours to accommodate the feelings and desires of other people. Now, I want to do what I feel or think; I want to behave and live my life for me. Is that so wrong? I don't mean being an inconsiderate arsehole, but why do people stop themselves from saying what they think, feel or mean just because of a stranger, acquaintance or relation? It's not their life that is being limited.

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I don’t believe Boris Johnson would know the truth if it slapped him in the face at this point. I don’t think he has any dignity or sense of shame, either. However, he would retain some respect if he admitted to breaking the rules. Hold up your hands and say, “yes, I flouted the rules and breached lockdown. I attended these parties, and I am sorry”. He’s prolonging his embarrassing ordeal, pretending that he didn’t know the rules or he was conducting an interview. Ignorance is no excuse for breaking the law, and being a buffoon is no excuse for lying.

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I am often perplexed by the British political system, none more than when watching PMQ. Jeering overpaid fools are leading the country. What is it society tells children? Listen to others, let them speak, don’t talk over, don’t interrupt. Tradition can be a wonderful thing, but so too can evolution. Why, in this modern era of surveillance and complete technological proliferation, do we as a society allow our elected leaders to behave in the archaic, nonsensical jeering, ‘rhubarb’ and ‘here here’ ways? Isn't it time for stuffy traditions to evolve? Rhubarb belongs with custard!