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2020 is going to be a year of manifestation. 2016-2018 were full of seeds being planted and tended to. 2019 those seeds grew into the tiniest but toughest little sprouts of real change. And next year, we’ll see the first tiniest fruits of everything we’ve been experiencing and choosing.

From becoming a better friend to getting back in shape to discovering my ministry to finally getting my ears double pierced–in so many big and little ways, God’s calling me out and calling me to be the person He designed me to be. I’m rediscovering the little girl who was fearless and odd and curious and outspoken and who wasn’t afraid to love on people shamelessly. I’m becoming that little girl again as I grow into the woman I was always meant to be.

Progress is happening. I forget the subtle ways it's coming about, but it's happening, and I have to keep fighting for it.

I feel like I don't deserve prayers sometimes, especially about what's going on. I chose this life, knowing there would be long, tough stretches when it seemed like nothing would work out. And I don't want my husband to feel any worse than he already does. But it's so lonely keeping it inside...

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knitting-ace

Hey fiber artist

Knit a stitch, crochet a row, make just a little progress on your current project. If you don’t have a project find a pattern, even if it’s just to stare at it in longing. Just a little progress every day keeps your project from falling into dust and disinterest.

Jason Gray - I'm Gonna Let It Go (Official Audio)

Current anthem!!

Finally planning my first crocheted tapestry! Yay for scraps 😄

Move #3 is beginning. Hopefully #4 will be the last.

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Damn

Things have been...rough, to say the least. It's been non-stop ups and downs over the past 5 months. We've had a baby, received a job promotion, lost a loved one, purchased a much-needed minivan, paid off a couple of students loans, moved into our first apartment, lost a much dreamed for job opportunity and realized this apartment is definitely where we don't want to live much longer (due to constant cigarette/weed/incense smoke saturating our whole home). And that's just the big stuff. The left side of my body's been really weird since I was pregnant and my doctor doesn't seem interested in doing testing. Our oldest daughter went through a horrible stomach bug. I have become indescribably frustrated with my weightloss journey. My husband is struggling with the idea of purpose. And I'll probably have to have my wisdowm teeth removed soon. As someone who wasn't allowed to be angry for basically the first 22 years of my life, I feel like a dormant volcano coming to life. And not in a good way. I'm so sick of crying when I'm angry and overwhelmed, because that was the only way I was allowed to express my emotions, and even then, I had to do it in private if I wanted to uphold some sense of dignity. I'm. SICK. of. crying. I want to yell and slam doors and throw things and break things and scream FUCK and SHIT and DAMN IT! And for anyone who knows me, that's entirely out of character. But I want to release. I NEED to release. Because every day, I feel myself wearing down in the worst way possible... And I'm so tired of it.

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“One day I’ll miss them not wanting to sleep in my bed anymore.”

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You’ll find us crocheting….all day, every day

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The softest blanket by Mama in a Stitch

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One must take 'sent to try us' the right way. God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He knew it already. It was I who didn't. In this trial, He makes us occupy the dock, the witness box, and the bench all at once. He always knew that my temple was a house of cards. His only way of making me realize the fact was to knock it down.

C.S. Lewis

You can't keep God's love from loving you. You can put up an umbrella to keep yourself out of the rain, but you can't stop the rain from falling.

J. Vernon McGee

No. More. Velleities.

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