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Random thoughts by Jeremiah van Wagenen / Project Fabulosity ~ Heart of an Activist

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Random thoughts on a Tuesday night by Jeremiah van Wagenen ~ Media's Not So Hero / Your Voice Matters #dailythoughts #heartofactivism #powerofvoice #divapower #divosupportingdivos #mensstyle #health #fitness #instagay #feminism #fashion #artoflife #projectfabulositybyjeremiahvanwagenen

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Random thoughts on a Tuesday night. I'm tired of how Commentators are treating Harvey Weinstein's sexual harassment casses as something new and the first scenario for people to come forth to speak out. I'm tired talk shows bringing the attention that now people need to be speaking up and raising attention towards sexual harassment. Wake up! Sexual harassment cases have been in the media for decades from all walks of life including those who are in Religious Leadership Roles, Media Moguls / Entertainment Professionals, Heads of major Corporations, Athletes, Politicians etc.. Reminding people to speak out shouldn't be a per case deal on television. It should be an everyday reminder you have a voice and an opportunity to be someone else's who's afraid no matter where you are. Our Media in general can get so blindsided by not taking authority on how they address serious topics and how they address awareness and support to the millions being victimized daily by these serious issues. Love and Respect should always be a constant reminder no matter where ever you are. Jeremiah van Wagenen / Project Fabulosity

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Random Thoughts by Jeremiah van Wagenen ~ Survival New York Fabulosity Elsewhere

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Random thoughts on a Tuesday.. it's always to take time out to rethink and recover. An update from what happened from getting off a few weeks past. I was fortunate to freelance non stop and pick up a possible part time opp. For those those who know personally over the past few years I've barely taken a handful of days actually off. Last week I became sick and a huge part of it was from not fully recovering from the past time not taking time to fully rest, recoup, rethink about everything that's important to life. Stressing about money's one thing. Not living life is another. I know so many and beyond are going through their own. And many are going through it alone. My heart goes out. No matter what happens with in the Universe.. Love and always be appreciative. The hardships are your journey to understand life and how you conquer your battles. The love, the laughter, the random crazy shenanigans are to uplift your heart and body in reminder to enjoy every thing you work oh so hard for. I love you all and thank you for your support. I pray for you all daily. I pray for a better Universe full of love and compassion daily. Wishing everyone a beautiful night xo Peace Love Happiness Spirituality Fabulosity xo Jeremiah van Wagenen / Project Fabulosity

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Random thoughts on a Monday afternoon.. Being sick sucks when you know you have so much to get done. Other thoughts the past while.. Sadly I'm not to fond of hearing about survival of 2016. Things can happen any day. And really it feels each day needs to have more in depth perspective on what it means to positively survive, create, pursue, and live. It's horrendous the media is on a surge about a celebrity mis-hap. When below listings are also showing what's going on the World and in our country with political and economic disasters. Perhaps the focus of nonsense is supposed to enlightened the real hardships being faced daily. Finally.. I can't post this enough.. Peace-Love-Spirituality-Happiness-Love-Inspiration to Love Daily-Create Beauty-Fabulosity is an affirmation of supporting and believing the beauty we're all capable of becoming. Wishing everyone a fabulous Monday xo Jeremiah van Wagenen

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Random thoughts over the past while by Jeremiah van Wagenen ~ Love not Hate ~ Never give up on your voice ~ Support and believe in others fabulously xo Peace Love Happiness Spirituality Inspiration to create and support Fabulosity Jeremiah van Wagenen #loveandpeace #divosupportingdivos #divapower #projectfabulosity

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Random thoughts over the past while by Jeremiah van Wagenen ~ Love not Hate ~ Never give up in finding Beauty of in yourself and support others no matter how hard times are. #heartofactivism #loveandpeace #supportyourfellowdivasanddivos

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Random thoughts on a Sunday night.. I've been ending my night eating dinner at a local go-to around the corner quite a bit as of late. At the bar where I normally sit at a couple sat semi tight to next to me at the corner of the bar. Probably mid to late 20 something. A man and a woman. On a rather slow night I couldn't help to over-hear the conversation. Rather dull about how was your day and so forth. Actually quiet odd how they seem to semi live together but the woman kept telling the guy.. I never hear about your day. They continued talking about small nothings. I couldn't help but notice and even feel something just felt so beautiful. The guy was calm and was so in the moment of just being with her. There was a warmth of his natural ability to understand they could talk about nothing or anything and you're reminded it's not about that. It's about the warmth when someone looks at you.. You exude a heat of passion and sympathy of appreciating that special someone. Anywho.. Single in New York eh.. I'm truly happy people can still connect with all of the mainstream of gadget and instant expectations to get your socks off. Sweet dreams xo Jeremiah van Wagenen

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Random thoughts on a Friday night.. Been a long week. I read a post on something I thought was clear and powerful.. A Pastor stated people need to stop stating / classifying people who live in America now along with the country they are from. People need to state themselves as Americans period. We live in this in this Country.. We are Americans. I'm not a person of hate.. But I will say.. I'm not a fan of the Slogan.. Let's make America great again. Every day should be a day of progress no matter what the past have lead. It's the purpose of having a new day. To open new doors with confidence from what was built the day prior. People can not state let's make America great again and be full of hate and disgust towards each-other. Make America beautiful should be words of inspiration to show what greatness is. It's love and respect. It's how you build opportunity for the Universe to appreciate human life. Wishing everyone a fabulous Friday night!! Jeremiah van Wagenen

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Random thoughts over the weekend.. It feels as if this week has gone into being a month. Odd how your mind can dive into things you make more present in creating a stress of it’s own when really the deeper issue overall is about what what you’re not doing.. Taking care of your own pursuits with life both personally and professionally. On another note.. Great about the Olympics happening. Dear Giselle.. I’m a fan of your modeling career. The Olympics I’m sorry doesn’t have anything to do with it. Note to also Kate Moss, Naomi Campbell, Lily Cole, David Gandy, Jourdan Dunn who walked previously at the London closing ceremonies. Your Olympics is being on the runway for some of the most incredible designers who too have the blessing of showing their work to the World. Every strutt for fashion is something to great pride on for being a working model / designer. I’m routing these games for Serena / Venus Williams and Simone Biles. Not because of taking a glance at their careers during the Olympics but because I’ve actually followed their careers from the get-go of reaching senior competitive ranks. Women of color will dominate even if it’s a loss. It’s an amazing year for sure. Serena who’s still the top woman’s player really in over the past decade. And Venus who’s making an incredible victory for herself is only awe inspiring. Simone Biles will likely end up even prior to these Olympics one of the most dominant female gymnasts the World has seen compete in the past twenty years. To me her 3 World all-around golds is actually more impressive than what any Olympic medal could be. Johnny Weir said it best.. “Competing at Worlds is a lot harder than any Olympics due to having to defend your title from one year to the next. ” I’m still saddened also in gymnastics there will be no Team Romania in the women’s event. Catalina Ponor will be the lone ranger. I wished they could’ve sent Larisa Lordache also who was 3rd in the all-around last year and 2nd the year prior. Any who thanks for reading!! Wishing everyone a fabulous one xo Peace-Love-Spirituality-Happiness-Inspiration to Create-Fabulosity xo Jeremiah van Wagenen‪#‎Rio‬ ‪#‎ProjectFabulosity‬

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Random thoughts this week..  For those who get the Summer blues.. Be sure to get out and let your mind wander around the great city of New York. Reminding self on a constant basis millions would only dream of being here. I've never been a huge fan of Summer. People think rainy days are depressing. In my eyes most sat moments in movies happened on Sunny ones. Beautiful moments happens on rainy days. My favorite.. When Ethan Hawke took Gwyneth Paltrow out of the restaurant in Soho running through to eventually be making out in the rain in Great Expectations. My New York.. I appreciate being able to dine alone and yet be open to random conversation. Yet alone great bartenders who are fabulously part of the mix. I appreciate seeing art on weekends as oppose to the actual openings not being a fan of crowds for not so important reasons. A real Artist should appreciate the time of the eye being spent to fully observe and appreciate it. I appreciate the quiet side streets which has nooks and crannies one could only imagine the stories that gone through from past decades. And lastly.. lastly.. I love letting my mind loose at every spotlight I see hitting an area as if a Film Director's about to shoot a scene in a movie. Thinking about about the various plots one could make in such a space in various time periods. Oh and of course.. Those glances from people who look at you while you're walking living your day as if they know you were meant to be here for a reason. Even if you're still figuring it out yourself. Wishing everyone a beautiful night. Never be afraid to dream. It's easier said than done that yes.. Stress sucks. But what is it good for. And if people don't know how spectacular you are.. There's no point of proving them other wise. Likely they need a boost in finding their inner fabulosity. Perhaps a hint of something out of the unknown might fabulously spark a light Love xo Jeremiah van Wagenen / Project Fabulosity

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Random thoughts this week.. Universal Peace - Black Lives Matter - Universal Love - Heart of Activism Random thoughts on a Thursday evening.. People need to be really speaking up and letting the heart of an activist shine through by showing the power of love through actual actions. To help, to give, to grow doesn't mean joining a political movement. It means to acknowledge, to appreciate, to help by the bare of your hands and the sound of your voice by listening to your heart and the natural born effects of being a positive human being. I've posted in the past about showing the appreciation in giving a compliment. Well a compliment isn't just a brush of something pretty... It's an acknowledgment of appreciation someone has given light showing appreciation for life. Peace-Love-Spirituality-Happiness-Fabulosity xo Wishing everyone a peaceful Thursday evening xo Jeremiah van Wagenen ‪#‎UniversalPeace‬ ‪#‎BlacklivesMatter‬ Random thoughts on a Friday morning.. Some words come to mind.. Respect, Love, Being Thankful, Giving Thanks, Spirituality has heart, Fabulosity.. When I was a teen I heard something I would never forget. An incredible Diva who naturally inspired Fabulosity from her heart and how she lived wife passed. I met her from a special youth conference I will hold forever in my heart .. Peace Trees. A speaker said.. " Jan lived her life everyday as if it were her last day to live. " In life its easy to surpass the simple beauty of opening your eyes and allowing the beauty of life to say hello with out even saying it. Random thoughts on a Friday evening.. To those who push out the views people must speak up with what's going on in the World. People do have the right to be quiet in hard times. Hard times requires thought and recovery. Hard times acquires emotions beyond words. Support is great but you also have to deal with over coming hardships which can take a very long time. It's not a turn of switch. It's not covered with a flag. It's not a sign on a poster. It's the reality of a human's mind / body seeing / experiencing / witnessing life in a position we would hopefully wish no one to go through but do. Laughter helps. I've always been a big fan of comedy. My mouth is rarely filtered. If you can't have some humor in life. It's crazy thinking how you get through it with out it. Wishing everyone a fabulous weekend!! Love Jeremiah ‪#‎UniversalLove‬ ‪#‎UniversalPeace‬

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Random thoughts on a Tuesday evening.. Back at work and back to the grind. I spent the weekend rather quiet for birthday and for the Holiday. Went to the gym.. Explored the city a little.. Thanks Wendy.. A couple thoughts have crossed my mind the past few weeks. To get my views on the 4th out of way.. I think it's great to have pride for Country. However yesterday marked the last 4th we will have with a great President who's lead our Country very well. Whether you're for him or not.. He had a huge job after having Bush in office for eight years prior. I think yesterday's celebration for Independence Day needed to have more awareness of what that actually means. To be a free Country. I'm not going to go further as that meaning should have special importance to everyone that lives here. Including to those who lead our rights in Politics. My other thought.. I've been in New York for twelve years. I'm blessed to have great people in my life here. A lot's changed. And a lot are not in my life physically who I do get withdrawals over. It's interesting.. For a teenager who lived lived life very huge in a small town. A big town became just as small by oneself never really catching on to what others saw in that small town. What I've learned over the years.. Cities are cities and people are people. You can live by the millions.. You can live by the few. But what really separates us from conquering a big time dream.. Isn't the number in the crowds.. But the heart of what a dream is really about. I still can't believe I'm New York. I still can't believe I've been away from people who I've cared so much for for so long. I can't believe that after all these years and experiences I've had in life.. The big thought still leaves me at a point in my teen-hood of where I was wondering around Salt Lake City making moments feel larger than any stage New York has to offer. If you knew me back then you'd get what I mean. If you've been around to hear me talk about here.. You'd get what I mean. For those who get lost in the daily of figuring out life. Don't think about a huge picture. Think about following where your heart beats faster and body shines through a thrill rush of power. Thank you for all who read. Wishing everyone a fabulous week! Peace-Love-Spirituality-Finding who you are-Happiness-Fabulosity xo Jeremiah van Wagenen / ‪#‎FindingwhoYouAre‬

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Random thoughts on a Sunday.. Final Words to my Father by Jeremiah van Wagenen

Random thoughts on a Sunday.. Final words to my Father by Jeremiah van WagenenIt's been an interesting past couple weeks.  My mother's addressed my Father's critical health conditions.  I haven't spoken to my father on a personal note in a very long time.  I was pushed out of home while being an early teen.  And then in and out till I was eighteen.  In 2001 I addressed the issues not only I was going through with my parents.. But what it seems quite a few were going through having similar struggles with their parents by writing two poems f got presented at the Utah Pride Art Exhibit.  Before this leads into that.. I would like to share my final words to my Father. Hello,It’s Jeremiah. I’ve heard about your health.  I’m sorry going through that.About twelve years ago In Canada I wrote a letter.   I never knew if you got it or not.  Basically the letter was about apologizing and forgiving everything that went on in that house on both of our ends.  And hoping you’d be a better parent to my siblings and a better husband to my mother.  Thank you for being there for my siblings and for my mother.  I know Mom has tried to justify a lot and make excuses for a lot of things.  I understand she just wants things to be happy.  And no matter the reality of what actually happened the past..  I get it.  She’s being a Mother.  I know she would get really emotional reading this is.  Bless her for that. Between me and you..  Man to Man..  Son to Father..  All is fully forgiven between us.  Please continue to take care of Mom and the family best to your ability. Jeremiah Father Please Stop Hating Me / I want my Mommy - Poems by Jeremiah van WagenenTwo poems displayed at the Utah Pride Art's Festival and Young Gay America I want my Mommy!! Written by: Jeremiah van Wagenen Mom always came to strangers with a smile. I come to strangers as some messed up queer, strutting with flair, and an innocent boyish look on my face. Mommy always welcomed people with a hug, a kiss, and a friendly “Hello!” I welcomed men with no disturbing thoughts. She always knew how to carry a fun outgoing conversation with her sense of charm. Who ever knew body language could such harm. Men? She never had a clue. Mother taught and treated me like a woman. I never wanted to rip her heart.. Coming out did for a year or two.. If she only knew what I was going through after everyother week fling or one night stand.. If she only knew how much I tried to hold it in… Drinking alcohol, Smoking cigarettes, Exercising my body more, Just desperately to feel notice, Dying to feel thin.. Mom, If you only knew how much I’d silently scream “I WANT MY MOMMY!!” And noticed I’m not letting myself be there.. I love you Mom. I’ve always known you cared. Father Please Stop Hating Me!! Written by: Jeremiah Van Wagenen I know I wasn’t your football player, Soccer kid, Basketball jock, Baseball boy.. I love to dance, Sing Broadway show tunes, Play gymnast in the front yard, Prancing around in sissy’s slip, Twirling a baton, Pretending I’m the Fairy Godmother.. Daddy, I’m GAY. It hurts me when you yell “FAGGOT!” “WHORE!” “FUCKING QUEER!” And when you say “You’re going to burn in Hell” Or “You chose what you deserve.” Dad, I’m not a molester, I am your SON. I’m not a pedophile, I am you your SON. I’m not your daughter, I AM YOUR SON!! I’m sorry I never turned out the way you wanted me to be.. Father,PLEASE STOP HATING ME!!

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Random thoughts going into Pride Weekend by Jeremiah xo