hello! love your work!
i was wondering if you could write a story with bayverse raph x reader where she has a chubby body, big boobs etc. and he's obsessed with her regardless. maybe she's getting ready for a date and she can't find anything to wear, she's so upset about it and maybe angry. eventually raph comes to check up on her since she's late and hasn't turned up at the lair for their date and he finds her at her apartment holding clothes and crying. have him comfort her, make her feel better about herself, etc. lots of encouragement and self-esteem boosting, please.
sorry if this request is weird. thanks if you do it!
A/N: This request is not weird, anon! This situation, much like a previous request Iâve done (this one here), is very relatable to many people. I just hope everyone that feels this way has someone supportive in their corner to help them get through the worst days.
Enjoy! đ
A Better Reflection (angst/fluff)
â€ïž Bayverse Raphael/Female Reader â€ïž
CWs: Angst, size insecurity, self-esteem issues, negative self-talk, body dysmorphia, emotional breakdown, and hurt/comfort. All characters are aged-up.
You stand in front of your full-length mirror, clad only in your underwear, holding a dress. Itâs too tight across your chest, making it look cartoonish. It clings stubbornly to the soft curve of your stomach, outlining a shape youâve spent a lifetime trying to hide. Your hips, your thighsâitâs all too much.
A disgusted groan escapes your lips, and you hurl the dress onto the growing pile of clothes that litters your bedroom floor. You stare at the mess, at the mountain of fabric. You tried on dresses, jeans, blouses, sweatersânearly every piece of clothing you ownâand deemed each a traitor.
Because nothing fits, nothing feels right. Every item you tug over your body makes you feel like youâre pretending to be someone else. Someone smaller, someone neater, someone more âacceptable.â
You stand there in front of the mirror and try on another dress. It looked so promising in the store: soft and flowy, with little embroidered flowers on the sleeves. But now, under the unforgiving glare of your bedroom light, you see every flaw it accentuates. Your throat tightens.
You know youâre not supposed to feel this way. Inches and size tags donât determine worth. Youâve repeated those mantras in your head a thousand times. But right now, all of that wisdom feels distant, like a song playing in another room. Muffled. Unreachable.
Your eyes sting, and you blink hard, refusing to let tears fall. Because crying over a dress feels stupid. Weak. And yet, your chest feels like itâs caving in.
You were supposed to be at the lair ten minutes ago for a special date night with your boyfriend, Raph. You were going to eat pizza and watch old action movies until dawnâand maybe do other less wholesome things between flicks. The thought had filled you with a giddy warmth all day.
But now, that has curdled into a hot, angry frustration thatâs directed squarely at yourself.
This shouldnât be so hard. But why canât one thing in your wardrobe just ⊠work? Why canât you look in the mirror and see what he supposedly sees?
The anger gives way, as it always does, to a wave of crushing sadness. Your shoulders slump, and a single, hot tear escapes and traces a path down your cheek. Then another. Soon, youâre sinking to the floor, dress still clutched in your hand. Your body shakes with quiet, miserable sobs. Youâre not just crying about the clothes anymore.
Youâre crying because you feel unworthy, unattractive, and utterly hopeless. Unworthy of the adoration he gives you.
âWhy the hell did I even think I could look good?â you whisper through your tears. âI hate this. I hate how I look. I hate everything.â
A sudden thump on your fire escape jolts you from your misery. Your heart gives a frantic leap, a mix of panic and relief. Itâs followed by a familiar, rhythmic tap on your windowpaneâtwo quick knocks, a pause, then one more. His signature.
You hastily scrub at your wet cheeks with the back of your hand, sniffing hard to clear the blockage in your throat. âOne second,â you call out, your voice a wrecked, wobbly version of itself.
After you slide the window open, Raph ducks inside. âYou okay? You didnât show, and I got worried.â
He takes in the pile of rejected clothes, then his gaze lands on youâstanding there in your underwear, holding a dress, with tears streaming down your face. His tough-guy demeanor melts away in an instant, replaced by a deep, furrowed concern.
âHey, hey, whoa. Whatâs this?â he asks, his voice dropping to that soft, protective tone he only ever uses with you. âWhatâs wrong? Talk to me. Did someone hurt you?â His voice hardens on the last three words, a dangerous growl lacing the question.
You shake your head, unable to speak past the lump in your throat. You gesture weakly at the clothes, then at your own body. âI ⊠I canât,â you choke out between choked sobs. âNothing works. Nothing fits. I look ⊠disgusting. But I just wanted to look pretty for you.â
Raphâs expression morphs from concern to baffled disbelief. He glances at the clothes, then back at you, a frown creasing his brow. He leans down, bringing his face level with yours despite the massive height difference. His thumb comes up to gently wipe a tear from your cheek.
âDisgusting?â he repeats, the word sounding absurd and offensive in his mouth. âAre you kiddinâ me right now?â
He takes the dress from you and tosses it aside. His large hands come to rest on your hips, his thumbs stroking the soft skin there with a firm, possessive gentleness. His gaze isnât judgmental; itâs full of a raw adoration that makes your breath catch.
âLook at me,â he says, his voice firm but laced with kindness. You hesitantly lift your tear-filled eyes to meet his. âYou think I give a damn about fabric? I care about you. And you âŠâ He shakes his head, as if searching for a word big enough for the feeling. â⊠are the most beautiful thing Iâve ever seen.â
You open your mouth to argueâto list all the reasons heâs wrongâbut he continues, not allowing you the chance to protest.
âNo. Donât even start. You know how I feel about you.â His eyes travel over your body with genuine appreciation. âI love this.â His hand slides up your side, over the curve of your waist and ribs. âAnd this.â His gaze lingers on your stomach with open affection. âI love that youâre soft. That youâre real. When I wrap my arms around you, Iâm holding a whole woman.â
He looks at your chest, and a smirk plays on his lips. âAnd youâre seriously gonna stand here and tell me youâre upset about these? Sweetheart, I could write poetry about them. Do you have any idea how gorgeous you are? How you fill out a simple t-shirt in a way that drives me crazy?â
Your sobs have slowed to watery hiccups. Heâs not saying these things to make you feel better; he actually sees you this way. Itâs written all over his face.
âI donât want some perfect doll,â he continues, his voice lowering into an intimate rumble. He leans in closer, his forehead resting against yours. âI want you. I want your loud laugh. The way your nose crinkles when youâre trying to figure something out. I want the way you feel when I pull you against me in the middle of the night.â He pulls back just enough to look you in the eyes. âAll of you. Every single, perfect, beautiful inch.â
He steps back and scans the room, his eyes landing on a pair of black leggings and one of your biggest, comfiest sweaters draped over a chair. He picks them up. âHere,â he says, holding them out. âPut these on. I donât need you in some fancy dress. I want you to be comfortable because I just wanna hang out with my girl.â
You nod, still a little dazed, and take the clothes. As you pull the leggings on, he respectfully turns around, giving you a moment of privacy. Then you pull the oversized sweater over your head. When youâre done, you touch his arm. He turns back around, and his eyes light up, a grin spreading across his face.
âThere she is,â he says, his voice brimming with warmth. He cups your face in his hands, his thumbs stroking your cheeks. âThe most beautiful woman in New York City. Hell, the universe.â
You canât help the smile that tugs at your lips. âYouâre such a sap.â
He grins. âOnly for you, baby girl.â
You pull back enough to meet his eyes, your hand resting over his chest where his heart beats hard and steady beneath his plastron. âYou really think Iâm beautiful?â
âI know you are,â he says without hesitation. âAnd if anyoneâs too blind to see that, Iâll punch âem. Simple.â
âBut I donât feel beautiful.â
âThen lemme remind you,â he murmurs.
He draws you into his embrace, his enormous arms curling around you, pulling you impossibly closer. You sink into the familiar solidness of him. His scent wraps around you like a blanket. He holds you like heâs shielding you from every cruel thought in your head, like his arms can protect you not just from the world, but from yourself.
âBetter?â he murmurs against your hair.
You nod, your cheek pressed against him. âYeah. Kinda.â
âGood,â he says, his voice rumbling low. âBut Iâm not lettinâ up till itâs more than âkinda.â You deserve better than that.â
He pulls back just enough to look at you again, and you hate that he can see the lingering doubt in your eyes. But he doesnât flinch from it; he meets it head-on. âI donât care if it takes one night or a thousand. Iâm gonna keep tellinâ you. Keep showinâ you,â he says. âEvery day. Every chance I get. Youâre not just beautifulâyouâre mine. And Iâm damn lucky for it.â
You manage a chuckle. âYouâre really laying it on thick, huh?â
He smirks. âWhat, you want me to tone it down?â
You snort. âNah. I like sappy Raph.â
âDonât tell the others, though. I have a reputation to protect.â
You canât help but laugh. âYour secretâs safe with me.â You fall quiet again for a beat before you glance at the clock, seeing the time. âDate nightâs kinda shot, huh?â you murmur, guilt creeping in.
âAre you kidding me?â he says, tightening his grip on your waist. âItâs the best one yet. Got to see your face, hear your voice. You let me be there for you. That means more than any pizza or movie.â
âBut I ruined it. I made you come all the way up here and ⊠and Iâm a mess.â
Raph scoffs. âA mess? Sweetheart, you call this a mess? Iâve seen Donnieâs lab after an all-nighter. Thatâs a mess. This is just ⊠laundry day gone wrong.â He gives you a small, lopsided smile that makes your heart ache in a good way.
He steps back, his hands finding yours and lacing his fingers through them. His grip is firm, grounding. âYou didnât ruin anything,â he says, his gaze serious. âYou just hit a wall. Happens to the best of us. Even me.â He says it with such a simple certainty that you believe him. He pulls you gently, taking a step towards the open window. âSo, new plan. Weâre getting out of here.â
Your eyes drift back to the hill of clothes. âBut ⊠all of this âŠâ you start, your voice trailing off. The sheer scale of the disaster feels overwhelming.
âForget it,â he says immediately, his voice so firm it leaves no room for argument. âWe can deal with it tomorrow. Or the day after. Or Iâll come by and just stuff it all in a bag for you. I donât care.â He squeezes your hand, drawing your attention fully back to him. âIt doesnât matter. Right now, you matter. The clothes can wait.â
After a few moments, his practical side kicks in. âYou got your keys? Phone?â
You shake your head, still a little dazed by the sheer force of his care. You move automatically, plucking your phone and keys from the nightstand where youâd tossed them hours ago. When youâre ready, he leads you to the window and helps you out onto the fire escape.
The cool night air is a sudden, welcome shock against your tear-warmed skin. It feels good. Cleansing. He slides the window shut behind you, sealing the chaos of your bedroom away.
âLetâs go home,â he says, and the way he says itâlike the lair is your home, tooâmakes another wave of warmth spread through your chest.
With his hand on your back and the city lights blurring below you as you travel across the rooftops, you feel like youâre finally leaving the mess behind. Not just the one on your bedroom floor, but the one in your head, too. And youâre not leaving it alone.
Youâre leaving it with him.
















