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[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello! Welcome to

The RatKing's Museum!

Like what you see here? Consider following my side blog for a more personal look into our lives and interests—

RatKingsJournal

This account was made to bring awareness and teach people about Dissociative Disorders!* Specifically DID!*

First, a little background about who you're hearing from!

You may call us RatKing, Rat, Ratz, (king o' rats was brought up and I absolutely LOVE THAT) or anything along those lines when referring to us generally. We generally go by it/its pronouns. We alternate between using I/Me and We/Us pronouns.

I made this account because I want to help destigmatize dissociative disorders, and possibly(hopefully!) help people who are impacted by this disorder to live happier and fuller lives.

That being said,

! ! ! DISCLAIMER ! ! !

I am NOT a professional.

Everything that I say or do on this blog is due to research and/or lived experiences.

Everyone's experience with these types of disorders is different. There is no "correct" way to experience and live with these disorders.

If what I say is based upon research, I will post sources either in the post itself, or in the comments. Otherwise, whatever I say is just my experience and should be taken with a grain of salt.

DO NOT BELIEVE EVERYTHING THAT I SAY BLINDLY. I AM HUMAN. I MESS UP. DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH.

Who are some of the people you may meet on this blog?

Some people may prefer to go by codenames, or emojis, or both! But a list of people who may contribute are—

Bug (Signoff, –🐞) She/It

Roach (Signoff, –🦷) He/Him

Amelia (Signoff, – 🧡) She/her

Prince (Signoff, – 🐈) He/It

Snail (Signoff, –🩵) He/Him

Sparky (Signoff, –❤️‍🔥) He/They

Cloud (Signoff, –🕊️) It/Its

Sushi (Signoff, –⚖️) She/It/He

Damsel (Signoff, –🪄) She/He

Peach (Signoff, –👾) He/It

Paper (Signoff, –📽️) He/Him

T (Signoff, 🌌) They/He/She

This list is subject to change at any time if the comfortability of any alters change. This includes changing and/or removing names/emojis for alters on said list. We do not owe you any explanation of anything going on in our lives or why we do something. This includes asking about trauma and/or triggers. We will not answer and you may be blocked. This is your first and final warning.

Also- Littles will not be featured on this page. Do not ask about our littles.

Tags for this page:

Meet the alters – #MtARKM

What is Dissociation?*

Learn about DID – #LADIDRKM

Know the symptoms – #KTSRKM

Dissociation is a mental process of disconnecting from one’s thoughts, feelings, memories or sense of identity. -betterhealth.vic.gov.au

What is DID?*

Dissociative identity disorder (DID) is a mental health condition where you have two or more separate personalities that control your behavior at different times. When personalities switch, you’ll have gaps in your memory. The identities are usually caused by living through trauma. -my.cleavelandclinic.org

DID was formerly known as MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder)

There is more to Dissociative Disorders* than just DID.

Not everyone who has fragmented personality states will fit into the criteria of DID, and not every person with a Dissociative Disorder will have fragmented personality states. Dissociation and the brain itself are still not fully understood.

Dissociative disorders are mental health conditions that involve experiencing a loss of connection between thoughts, memories, feelings, surroundings, behavior and identity. These conditions include escape from reality in ways that are not wanted and not healthy. This causes problems in managing everyday life. -mayoclinic.org

Something to keep in mind:

Dissociation is a spectrum. Everyone dissociates. That does not mean that you have a Dissociative Disorder. See: Structural Dissociation.

How do I tell if I have DID?

I cannot tell you that. I do not have a degree and I do not know you. I am a stranger on the internet, as are you. If you believe that something is wrong, or if you need assistance, please go to a medical professional.

I believe that DID is caused by repeated and severe childhood trauma that started before/by the age of 7-9. This can cause amnesia barriers to form. This creates the separated identities to help shield the child from the memories and keep them alive.

On that topic—

My stance on Endogenic (Endo) systems—

I am not a professional in DID, OSDD, or Dissociative Disorders. Nor do I claim to be. I do not care if endos, pro endos, or people who are neutral to endos learn something from this blog, or if I learn something from them that is backed by peer reviewed research.

However— I will not stand for these types of people claiming that endogenic systems are DID or OSDD on my page. I do not care what you do on your account. Just leave it over there. I firmly believe that dissociative disorders are caused by trauma. Dissociative disorders are horrific to live with. It is cruel to make fun of or mock/imitate these disorders, especially if you do not have them.

This does not apply to plurality that is a sort of cultural aspect. I don't know anywhere near enough about those types of plurality to sway one way or the other.

This account is ANTI endogenic. Though I do not mind if you interact if, and only if—

You are respectful.

You do not claim DID or any traumagenic terms

You understand that claiming to have DID while being endogenic is mocking the very real and horrific trauma and experiences that people with dissociative disorders have gone through and continue to go through every day.

You do not harass anyone who comments on/likes/reposts/follows my blog.

You do not harass me. Whether that be in comments here, comments somewhere else, or DMs.

You do not cross any boundaries that have been previously and/or later put onto this blog.

You do not try to convince me or anyone else who comments on my blog about the existence of endogenic DID/OSDD.

! ! I'd also like to say that one person messing up does affect the entire community. If I get harassed by pro endos, I will close this account to anyone who is (pro/neutral)endo. ! !

You are not immune to consequences on my page. I can and will post to and for myself. I am NOT afraid to block anyone. This is a safe space for people with dissociative disorders. Endogenic DID is NOT a thing. And I am very trigger happy when it comes to the block button.

We do not owe anyone anything on this site.

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Links to Tumblr pages are green

Links to outside websites are purple

Resources:

NIH- Dissociative Identity Disorder - StatPearls

mayoclinic.org - dissociative disorders

isst-d.org

[tidesandtwilight]

what is with the cop hate??

Oh sorry for the confusion. It’s because I hate cops

[ratkingsmuseum]

I'm back but I'm not slim shady. Im just lonely.

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello, RatKingsMuseum! Bug 🐞 officially back for posting, but I don't think I'll be interacting much on here- simply because I don't want to get back into syscourse.

But , I'm back from a nearly year long hiatus!

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello all! I need to come out here with something:

Bug🐞 has been away from front for a long while, and nobody else wants to upkeep the education part of this blog. We will most likely do a rebrand *again* and try to just do what we want, or just delete this blog altogether. I'm not sure yet. Thank you all for supporting me throughout the way.

But for now, we're on our official hiatus. Thanks for sticking around so long 🫡

[ratkingsmuseum]

Meet the Alters

Snail 🩵

My Role - physical protector

This is the role I've been stuck with my entire life. It's not the nicest role, being as I'm supposed to be the "brawn" of the system, and... Well... This is what I look like

This picture was found off Pinterest

Luckily for me, I think of this as a good thing! I used to have more of an "edgy" persona, and as I've grown into myself, I've become more confident and happier with myself! :)

I am a part of a large subsystem. Instead of breaking off my parts, I seem to have them inside of me. Kind of like sysseption (I hope I said that right)

Music I like —

- I monster

- Will Wood

- KiNG MALA

- Musical theater (Hadestown is my favorite right now!)

- Apollo Flowerchild

Hobbies that I'm into right now include —

- Bleach painting clothes

- Writing

- Singing (which has been just a bit hard recently)

- Drawing

Foods I like —

I'm really liking Miso soup as I'm healing from my wisdom teeth removal 😊

Favorite animal —

I don't think I'm ready to let go of foxes as my favorite animal just yet 🤭

[wysecollection]

To all the DID/OSDD havers dwelling in the US with trauma around fireworks I wish you well this weekend ❤️‍🩹 Be safe and remember it's only temporary noise.

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hi all! I'm still alive!

I have been off of Tumblr for a good reason this time, I am starting to do my artistic hobbies again! Yayyyy! So I think I'm going to be setting up a side blog for this sort of stuff 🙂‍↕️

Just wanted to give an update, since I did just disappear again

[notabled-noodle]

because I haven't seen a whole heap of decent information about this... I thought I'd do a beginner's guide to dissociation

disorders that can cause dissociation include:

DID

OSDD

PTSD

depression

OCD

BPD

DPDR

anxiety

eating disorders

some people also experience dissociation due to chronic pain

being dissociated can feel like, but is not limited to:

feeling disconnected from the world

feeling "blurry", "buzzy", "foggy", or "out of it"

not feeling any emotions

not feeling any physical pain

not remembering whole periods of time

feeling like you're floating outside of your body

your brain constantly going in and out of focus

dissociation is generally broken down into two categories:

derealisation: the feeling that the world around you is unreal, foggy, or just out of reach

depersonalisation: the feeling of being outside of yourself, or of not feeling real

I hope this is a helpful post, and that I've made people more aware of what dissociation actually is. if you have any follow-up questions, please feel free to ask!

[uncleromeo]

if you don't do anything else today,

Please have a moment of silence for the people who were killed instead of freed when news of emancipation finally reached the furthest corners of the american south.

have another moment for the ledgers, catalogs, and records that were burned and the homes that were destroyed to hide the presence of very much alive and still enslaved people on dozens of plantations and homesteads across the south for decades after emancipation.

and have a third moment for those who were hunted and killed while fleeing the south to find safety across the border, overseas, in the north and to the west.

black people. light a candle, write a note to those who have passed telling them what you have achieved in spite of the racist and intolerant conditions of this world, feel the warmth of the flame under your hand, say a prayer of rememberance if you are religious, place the note under the candle, and then blow it out.

if you have children, sit them down and tell them anything you know about the life of oldest black person you've ever met. it doesn't have to be your own family. tell them what you know about what life was like for us in the days, years, decades after emancipation. if you don't know much, look it up and learn about it together.

This is Juneteenth.

white people CAN interact with this post. share it, spread it.

[wolfertinger666]

I'll make a separate post but big happy Juneteenth!!! us black folks are far from freedom as we are still systemically oppressed, but today we celebrate the day where we get a step closer to liberation.

big hearts for black folks out there, especially black trans people who carry the American LGBT movement on their backs yet don't receive much flowers. ily

[ratkingsmuseum]

(https://www.tumblr.com/ratkingsmuseum/779484844423102464/cw-dermatillomaniaexcoriation-disorder)

i’ve heard of these things called picky pads that may help!

I also pick at our skin, and personally we pick at cotten pads or try our best to stay constantly busy.

You’re doing great by the way! Your amazing and deserve love!

Cotton pads 😰/lh (sensory nightmare)

But in all seriousness, I checked out those picky pads. How do you refill the reusable ones?? And if it's a big inconvenience, I'm afraid I won't be able to use them because my ADHD would only alow me to refill them every blue moon /silly

But thank you so much for this recommendation! I'll keep looking around and see what fits my needs and all that jazz!

And you are doing amazing too! You lovely, kind person!

[ratkingsmuseum]

I'm back here to update. We are now using gloves, a mask, music, lotion, and a bunch of stim toys to go around this!

We figured that we would want things that are reusable and more easily accessible in public that we can keep in our bag and not have to worry about taking out and refilling. That does not mean that these won't work for everyone, though! They do look like they would be good for people who crave specifically picking instead of a regular energy outlet like we do.

Thank you for the recommendation!

[ratkingsmuseum]

So sorry about dropping off the face of the earth again, we forgot to take our meds one too many times. We should get back to regular posting soon!

We have also started reading a book on dissociative disorders that has inspired us to branch out and try something new soon, but we'll see how we fair with our usual stuff for a bit before trying that again.

As always, thank you for your patience, and we will be back to our scheduled posts soon!

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello friends, enemies, and those in between. We're here with our first post in our new series that we don't have a name of:

How our dissociative symptoms present for us

Doesn't roll off the tongue, does it? /lh

Feel free to drop name suggestions in the comments

This week's post is talking about derealization:

Derealization is often trademarked by a disconnect from reality. People describe it as an out of body experience

This is very different from how we experience it. We describe it as "the inside out effect". If you have ever watched inside out, you'll know what I'm talking about. It feels as though I'm watching through a large screen. And everything feels like a video game.

This is also accompanied by an increase in my visual snow symptoms, a buzzing sensation and / or numbness in my body, and a fuzzy feeling in my head.

In this state, it is easier to contact and talk to my head mates. They fill my head pretty quick, and most of the time I can barely hear myself think.

And yeah, that's about it. This post is pretty unprofessional, because Cloud 🕊️ isn't here to proofread and edit it.

Thanks for coming, Peach out 👾

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello! Welcome to our Meet the Alters series!

This series is going to take a LONG while to finish, because some certain alters don't know what to write, and others don't front that often.

!! Just as a disclaimer, none of these nicknames are our real names. We will not be giving any sensitive information away. We don't owe you any information we don't want to give. !!

My name is Bug! I am represented by the ladybug emoji 🐞 !

I am the host of the system! This means a lot of things, but it does not mean:

That I am the loudest voice

That I make all of the decisions

That I "own" my other alters

That I do EVERYTHING

I am not THE RatKing. I am Bug. I am a singular piece of the personality.

I would say that I am just... Sort of a filter for the rest of the system. I am the driver receiving directions from the rest of the system half the time.

But enough about my role,

Here's some things about me!

I am an adult alter!

I love ladybugs, and also a sort of vampire grunge aesthetic.

I love the arts! Music, drawing, painting, sculpting, writing, it all amazes me! The fact that humanity can be this creative and create such amazing things is— just wow!

I love watching TV shows with our littles! And I love writing stories myself! I'm working with a few alters to write a full form book at the moment 🙂‍↕️

I would like to say I'm nice, if a bit of a pushover sometimes :')

My favorite food, or my favorite type of food is going to be that apple pie-esque kind of dessert.

My favorite animals are stingrays!

My favorite song currently is Killer by The Hoosiers !

I can't think about anything else currently... So if you have any questions, you can ask them in the comments, and I'll do my best to answer 🙂‍↕️

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[ratkingsmuseum]

Hello! Welcome to post two of our Learning About DID series!

This is 🕊️, and I'm happy to say that we're talking about what causes DID. This is a very controversial topic, so feel free to ask questions in the comments, but please do not harass or start arguments with anyone. Only polite discussion is allowed.

If this is your first post you're seeing from us, we'd really appreciate it if you went to read through the first post in this series!

! ! As I've stated previously, I am not a licensed professional, and doing your own research is vital ! !

So, What Causes DID?

DID, or Dissociative Identity Disorder is a dissociative disorder, as the name suggests.

This causes it to fall into the same category as derealization / depersonalization disorder, and dissociative amnesia.

So in order for us to understand what causes DID, we need to understand what causes dissociation.

Dissociation can be defined as:

"Dissociation is a mental process of disconnecting from one’s thoughts, feelings, memories or sense of identity." –(Betterhealth)

That definition may make dissociation seem scary or painful, but for better or for worse, everyone dissociates to some level! It just so happens that most instances of dissociation are so minor, that you might not notice them.

Some examples of low level dissociation include, but are not limited to:

Driving somewhere, and realizing that you remember little to none of the drive.

Okay draft of post 2 of learning about DID

Being so absorbed in a book that you don't realize the passage of time

Spacing off and daydreaming

! ! After this point is where things get into theory territory. The theory I'm basing this post off of is the structural dissociation theory. I'd recommend you also do your own research, it's very interesting! ! !

These examples of dissociation are on the lower end of the dissociative spectrum.

Wait, What is the dissociative spectrum?

The dissociative spectrum is a tool used to classify these experiences and disorders between two opposite ends on the scale of dissociation. Think of it like an iceberg, or a pool:

The shallow end of the pool is when dissociation may be at your ankles. You feel it, and it can be nice- maybe even relaxing at times.

In the 3 foot deep zone, it may be disruptive to your movement and comfort. Maybe it's cold and uncomfortable.

In the deep end of the pool, the dissociation is so deep that you need to tread water to stay afloat. And when it gets in your nose, eyes, and mouth, it's uncomfortable and can hurt.

Picture taken from here

The spectrum goes from normal, everyday dissociation, to dissociative identity disorder. One extreme of barely feeling it, and still being able to continue on with normal life- to full memory blackouts, and alters with different memories and characteristics.

This spectrum is very closely tied to structural dissociation in the way of there being different levels of dissociation that can impact your life in different ways.

The difference is structural dissociation focuses on the different types of dissociation in the personality, which starts at a disordered level, instead of the different types of dissociation itself. Structural dissociation also goes into more detail of what is actually happening in the brain.

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As you can see, there are more EPs as the types go from primary to tertiary. Though, there are also multiple ANPs in the tertiary bubble.

These ANPs are the main difference between secondary and tertiary dissociation, but are not what directly cause DID.

Hold on, what are ANPs and EPs?

These two terms describe states of personality.

ANPs, or Apparently Normal Parts, handle the normal parts of the systems life. These include resting, socializing, relationships, intimacy and play.

EPs, or Emotional Parts, handle the trauma and survival parts of the systems life. They deal with the fight, flight, freeze, and fawn responses.

System is a medical term that is referred to in the theory of structural dissociation. Though there are other terms that can be used if this is not preferred.

This is cool and all, but how does this even happen?

I'm glad you asked!

Dissociation on a low level is caused by things that the brain seems unnecessary to recall, or things that might draw attention away from the task at hand; while dissociation in higher levels is caused by extreme stress. This happens to help the ANP to continue on with normal day-to-day life.

PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), for example, is what happens when an EP dissociates from an ANP during one extremely traumatic event. Unlike Acute Stress Disorder, this disorder lasts for over one month. Presumably because the EP is able to fully integrate with the ANP.

As well known as it is, PTSD is still severely misunderstood. While it is most commonly known as the war disorder– marked with flashbacks and blind rage; this disorder is more than that.

PTSD symptoms can include rage episodes, and is trademarked by flashbacks, but it can also include;

Avoiding the area of where the trauma occurred

A loss of interest in hobbies and activities

Intrusive / unwanted thoughts

Hypervigilance

Insomnia and nightmares

This can continue into C-PTSD (Complex PTSD), where multiple EPs are present. But typically, the younger this stress and / or trauma starts, the more damage it does to the integrity of the personality. See: Borderline Personality Disorder.

However, when the person going through this strenuous trauma is young enough that the personality has not fully integrated- and the trauma is prolonged and horrible enough, it can cause fractures in the personality and ANPs themselves.

The age of personality integration can begin as young as two years old, up to around 10 years old. Hence the "terrible twos".

This is what causes the amnesia barriers, and by proxy, DID. To block out the horrible trauma, these amnesia barriers are raised to help protect the ANP from the abuse. DID is a survival system used to help the ANP to live as normal of a life as possible. It is a defense mechanism.

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As you can see, DID is generally marked with multiple ANPs, though this is not necessary as long as the amnesia barriers are present.

I would like to mention that DID can have any number of alters. The requirement is 2+, but this doesn't mean more or less alters are any more or less valid.

In conclusion, Dissociative Identity Disorder is a dissociative disorder caused by grueling and ongoing trauma / abuse from a young age. This causes amnesia barriers to raise and spare the ANP from the full force of the trauma. This can cause disruption in day to day life due to blackouts and severe trauma flashbacks.

Now we know what DID is caused by, next week I will go over how it can present. This will be fully personal experience.

Thank you so much if you read all this way, and congratulations! I yap a lot, so it's crazy that you read all this way.

These posts are very fun to create, so I really appreciate any interaction these posts get! Thank you for the support!

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Key:

Green – Links

Blue – Keywords

Purple – smaller facts

Red – disclaimer text

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As always, do your own research!! I'm not a licensed professional, just a system talking about my own experiences in essay format.

Links / sources:

Dissociative Disorders — Nami

dissociative spectrum — CharlieHealth

Dissociative Identity Disorder — Cleveland Clinic

Dissociative Disorders — Mayo Clinic

Dissociation and dissociative disorders — Better Health

Dissociation and dissociative disorders — Mind

Structural Dissociation of the Personality — Linda Meredith, Jan 2, 2024

Dissociation and Trauma — Emily Rose

[ratkingsmuseum]

Hey! I've got some ideas to bounce off of you people! What ideas sound like something you'd like to see??

Post Ideas

meet the alters

coping / grounding skills

a day in the life of a DID sys

funny convos we've had taken out of context

how some symptoms present for us

2 or more (clarify in comments)

Something else (clarify in comments)

Voting ended onJun 3, 2025

[ratkingsmuseum]

Alright, meet the alters and how some symptoms present for us will be discussed in between each of the big posts! Thank you for your participation!

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