I am always in a constant battle in my head. It is like a gang war, two sides fighting for their turf. The sane side of my brain is telling me to calm down, breathe, and realize that things will get better, while the other side is screaming FUCK YOU, life sucks, nothing will ever change, I don’t want to feel anymore. Yeah try living with that everyday of your life. It is not a fun game. I have tried the meds, I have tried to talk out my problems, and in the long run nothing ever truly helps. It is a bandage, a temporary fix for my depression. On the outside it looks like I am fine, I am in a good relationship, i have a decent enough job, and I know how to throw a fake smile on my face because it is easier then trying to explain to someone that I am in a bad mood and there is no reason behind it other then I am awake and trying to function like a normal human being. If you have never had depression then you have no idea what it is like, what looks you get, how it makes you feel when someone throws bullshit sympathy your way, and never being able to just be happy for long periods of time. So I go through the motions, I try my best to get through each day trying to tell myself that it might not get better but it could always get worse. This is the happy medium I guess, and with that I am done ranting for the time being.
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