Ravynn

23 (she/her) Bi

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A Cozy Chair

Word Count- 3953

Warnings- cursing also not my best work but I still think it's fun.

About- Fred and George tell you about their latest plan that pushes you into making one of your own

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A cozy chair in the corner of a room. A spot I had sat in so many times before. Listening to the boys tell me their big dreams about a shop, about a prank, about a plan. A plan to leave Hogwarts. To make a name for themselves outside of the boring day to day life of the school. Outside of the list of rules made impossible to follow. It wasn’t a question or a maybe. It was a plan. They knew how they were going to do it and they knew when. So I sat in this chair and made a plan of my own. I’m going to tell Fred about the feelings I had towards him, before he leaves. As the twins start to plan out what to take with them and what to leave behind, I excuse myself to find the only other person who knows my secret, Ginny.

I had told her last year as a way to vent how I was feeling after Fred didn’t ask me to the ball. I'm not sure why I was surprised, everyone thought Shawn Martin was going to ask me and he eventually did. Shawn and I had gone as friends and while the schools thought that we were an excellent couple the truth was the only thing between us was a secret that I had found out by accident. Shawn was gay, and not ready to come out, we had helped each other lie during Amortentia day in potions. Shawn didn’t ask why I needed to lie but he told me why he did after class that day. I suppose the two of us could just sense that the other was in need.

I quickly walked to the courtyard to find Ginny, and while I did find her I found her with Hermione. With no time to think I used the new found fire under my feet to practice telling my deepest secret.

“Hey!” Ginny said as I plopped down confusion slowly crowding her face as my anxiety started to visibly creep up. “What’s going on? Where are Fred and George?”

“They're in their room, everything’s fine. Well mostly fine. I just- I have a- I need your help with something.” I was tripping over my words as I looked between the two girls. Hermione glanced between Ginny and I trying to figure out what could be happening. “Okay, so, I have a crush… on someone.” Ginny's confusion remained as Hermione clearly got more curious.

Hermione leaned in closer to me “Who is it?” She asked as a smile creeped onto her face. I glanced at Ginny who was still confused.

“It’s- well it’s Fred” I said, ripping up grass from beside my leg suddenly very interested in not looking at either of the two girls. Ginny let out a breath as Hermione did the opposite. She gasped and placed a hand on my knee.

“Fred?” She asked, the smile on her face filled her voice. I just nodded, keeping my eyes on my growing pile of grass “Did you tell him?”

“Not yet,” I found the courage to look up at Ginny who now also had a smile on her face.

“You’re finally going to tell him?” She struggled to keep the excitement out of her voice.

“Finally?” Hermione looked to Ginny who was more focused on my answer to her question.

“Yeah, well so here’s the thing and this is a secret you can tell no one. I paused and waited for the girls to agree, after they had both nodded I continued to talk, “So they’re leaving, soon, like in the dropping out way.” Hermione's eyes almost fell out of her head and Ginny looked unsurprised. “So the plan is to tell him before he leaves because then I figure he has some time to, I don’t know, not hate me.”

“He wouldn’t hate you,” Ginny said, rolling her eyes, followed shortly by Hermione's shock and the whole situation.

“They are dropping out?” She asked as though she hadn’t heard of the concept.

“I mean you don’t need to graduate to open a joke shop, plus with everything that’s happened they aren’t the first to consider the idea.” I defended.

“How much time do we have?” Ginny asked the only one of us who was ready to get started.

“Two days, I figure we plan today and execute tomorrow?” I answered suddenly unsure if I could even go through with it. Ginny shook her head.

“Where in your timeline there are you giving him time to even respond?” Hermione nodded as Ginny spoke.

“So- what,” Before I could even figure out what I was asking, Hermione was handing me a piece of parchment and a quill.

“Write him a letter, that way you can’t chicken out and we can deliver it tonight during dinner.” My heart started racing, dinner was only a couple hours away and I wasn't sure I was even ready for a response. What if he said no? What if he didn’t want to talk to me any more? What if-

“Okay, so just write it all down, pretend like he’s not even going to read it, and while you do that Hermione and I will figure out how to sneak it to him.” Ginny was already turning herself towards Hermoine ready to leave me to my writing.

“We should put it on the chair in their room so it’s waiting for them after dinner,” I spoke up, partially to avoid my part of the plan and partially to save myself from having to watch him read it. The two girls nodded at each other in agreement and I took a deep breath and started writing.

Fred,

I don’t know how to say this so I suppose it’s a good thing I’m writing it down. Do you remember the first Christmas I spent at the burrow with you and George? You snuck out with me on my first night there just to go on a walk because I couldn’t sleep. It was all so overwhelming in the best way. When you put your arm around my shoulder to keep me warm I told you that the burrow was going to be my new favorite place. It’s true, however it wasn’t the day leading up to this moment that made me believe that. I was you, it's the way that you opened up away from school and more than that it was the moon light bouncing off the frozen lake and into your hair that made me fall in love. That night I fell in love with the burrow, the lake, and most of all I fell in love with you.

I should have told you then. Instead I let it build until the secret felt like it was a part of me. Loving you from a distance became part of my everyday life. I am so sorry I didn’t tell you when I knew but I was so scared of losing you, both of you, that it felt impossible. You don’t have to like me back, you don’t even have to respond.

I just needed to finally tell you and I know that things are going to change when you leave, and while I am so excited for you I also knew that I couldn’t let you leave without saying this.

I love you

I let out a big sigh, catching the girl's attention. “I hate it” I grumbled leaning back in the grass. Ginny slid the paper from my lap and started to read it with Hermione just over her shoulder.

“I think it’s sweet,” Hermoine said.

“I think I should rewrite it,” I sat up to grab the paper but Ginny moved it out of reach. “Ginny I am serious,”

“No,” her voice was stern but I moved up to my knees to reach further to grab the paper. Hermoine stood up and took it from Ginny, clearly backing her up.

“Please, you guys, I just- I need to rewrite it,” Before either could respond Harry and Ron had started to make their way towards us. Hermoine slid the parchment into one of her books that she quickly put away before sticking her tongue out at me. I layer back in the grass accepting my fate and only slightly considering running away into the forbin forest to take my chances.

“What are you guys doing?” Ron asked mostly gesturing towards me and my obvious lack of twins nearby.

“I can’t want some girl time, Ronnie?” I ask, keeping my eyes on the sky, maybe I’ll sink into the grass if I remain still enough, I think to myself. Ron looks at Harry who just shrugs and I can hear Ginny's small giggle. That was enough to get me to my feet, I trust Ginny with my life but I suddenly feel like taking no risks.

“Well Fred and George were looking for you in the common room, said they would just see you at dinner.” Ron shrugged. Hermoine looked at me with a grin and I rolled my eyes. They were right though, it was about time to head to dinner.

“Did they head down already?” I tried to seem casual as I asked, Ron nodded but before he could say anything he was interrupted by Hermoine.

“Can you guys walk back to the common room with me? I don’t want to bring my bag to dinner,” she asked turning to Ginny and I, We both nodded and she turned back to the boys, “See you at dinner, try not to get into trouble on the way there,” and with that she turned on her heel and Ginny and I followed behind her.

After what felt like the most stressful ten minutes of my life, the three of us finally headed down to dinner. My nerves had spiked to an all time high. Per the rules I sat across from the boys and next to Hermoine who tried to keep me sane throughout the meal. As the minutes ticked by I almost forgot what was waiting for Fred in his room.

We joked as usual only this time with a lot more Hermoine who was my absolute hero, while she kept me out of my own head Ginny, on the other side of her, shot me dramatic barely subtle winks. Dinner had started to wind down and while most of the students were still in their seats talking to friends they otherwise couldn't. I felt like I was going to explode if I sat at the table any longer.

“Well I don’t know about you lot but I can’t eat another bite so I’m heading up,” Fred and George got up with me as well as Ginny and Hermione who were desperate to see what was going to happen. Once out of umbridge's sight Fred swung an arm over my shoulder.

“So where were you all day?” He asked with his signature grin, I laughed and shook my head.

“You mean the two hours I wasn’t with you two?” He nodded, “I ran into Ginny and Hermoine and decided to talk to them for a while. Why? Did you miss me?” I teased scrunching up my nose at him.

“Terribly, had to talk to George and all he wants to talk about is Angela,” Fred nudged his brother from over my shoulder.

“The absolute horror,” I joke walking through the door to the common room. George scoffed as he followed his brother in.

“You two are just jealous,” he said plopping in the chair Ginny and Hermione were sitting at one of the tables doing a very bad job of pretending to study and I sat down in the love seat where Fred had sat as well.

“What are we jealous of?” I asked George who sighed like it should be obvious.

“Love,” he responded and I bursted into laughter, I couldn’t help it given what I had just spent the day doing. I cleared my throat before I spoke.

“Sorry, I just thought you were going to say that we were jealous because you have the record for most words spoken in a single minute,” I teased, causing Fred to laugh, I tried to hold back my blush.

“You two are mean,” George said, standing up and heading towards the stairs only for Lee to come down them before George could say whatever he was about to. Lee had a huge grin on his face and it was like the missing piece to a puzzle clicked in for Ginny Hermoin and I all at the same time, Lee shared a room with Fred and George, Lee was not at dinner tonight, the letter. I looked at Ginny in horror who had the same look on her face.

“Where have you been?” Fred asked, causing Lee to grin.

“In our room, reading.” Fuck.

“Reading?” George asked, dropping his dramatics. Lee just nodded, stealing George’s seat by the fire. I sat hoping that he left the note alone. By the way he looked at me. I know he had read it.

“Why weren’t you at dinner?” I asked desperately, needing a change of subject. Lee once again just shrugged the small grin on his face growing. I pleaded with him silently to stop. Lee may be an ass but he’s a good guy. He let out a sigh.

“With upcoming events I figured I should clean up and besides I stole food from the kitchen earlier.” His eyes slid from Fred to the stairs and back again. I risked a glance at Ginny and Hermoine and by the looks on their faces I knew that George had gon upstairs.

“I’ll be back, I am freezing.” I said as casually as I could. Once I reached the stairs I turned back around and pointed at Lee. “Do not steal my spot,” I hoped it came off as a joke and based on Freds laugh it did, I hurried up the stairs and rushed to Fred's room. As soon as I opened the door I saw George reading the letter. “Please, don’t do that.” I said, trying to catch my breath.

George turned around with a grin on his face, “Well you put it out in the open,”

“Hermoine, put it there,” George laughed.

“That's what you get for not having me help you,” I let out a sigh. I couldn’t even think of what to say. “Come on, let's go back down there before everyone comes up here looking for us” George put his arm around my shoulder and guided me to the door.

“Thanks, but also you are an ass,” He laughed, pulling a smile to my face as well. I broke off from George to go to my room and get out of my school uniform. A nice pair of sleep short and a tank top, as I was about to leave my room I remembered the excuse I had given to get up here and grabbed the seater off of my bed before heading down after pulling it over my head.

Making my way down the stairs I heard George and Lee arguing about who had to sit on the floor, trying not to draw either attention. I climbed over the back of the couch and slid back down in my seat next to Fred to watch the two argue. Before I knew it I felt a brush of hair against my cheek and Fred was whispering in my ear. “When did you steal my sweater?” I looked down and he was right, of course, A big F was plastered on the front of the sweater I was wearing.

I turned to face him, our noses almost brushing and I felt my face heat up, “You left it in my room, so it's more of an abandoned property situation.” Fred laughed and gave me a small shrug “Keep it for when you miss me,” he said with a wink before pulling away. I forced myself to laugh and look back at the two fighting boys, who were now peacefully sitting Lee on the chair and George sitting on the ground looking grumpy.

“You know there is more than one chair right?” I asked a very unamused george.

“This is the best chair,” Lee said with a grin. I rolled my eyes. Ginny caught my eye and waved me over.

“Well Georgie, it is your lucky day you can have my seat, I am needed elsewhere,” I said standing from my spot and walking to the two girls.

“Nice sweater,” Lee yelled after me. I responded by flipping him off causing the twins to laugh. Once safely at the table Ginny leaned over to me and whispered.

“What happened? Did George read the letter?” I nodded.

“And so did Lee,”Hermoine looked cranky that the plan didn’t work out smoothly.

“Well the night is not over,” Ginny added.

“Don’t remind me,”

It seemed like forever had gone by when I felt someone slide into the seat next to me. I looked over to see George glancing over the papers in front of us as though we were writing more love letters. “Don’t freak,” George said and I turned around to see that Fred was gone from his seat. The girls grinned as they caught on to the conversation and I looked at George in a panic.

He dropped his grin and nudged my shoulder pulling my attention back to the stack of papers in front of us, “what are you guys working on?” I knew he didn’t actually care but I welcomed even the weakest distraction.

“Helping Ginny with an essay,” I kept listening for any sound coming down the stars but everything was quiet. Ginny started to explain what her essay was about to a very uninterested George while I watched the stairs from the corner of my eye.

An excruciating amount of time went by before Lee went up to the room, probably just as impatient as the rest of us. We heard his laughter coming down before we actually saw him. Panic once again ran through me.

“He’s asleep,” Lee said almost doubling over, “Didn’t even see it,” He added once catching his breath.

“How could you possibly know that,” Hermoine asked.

“Talked to him before he fell asleep, said he laid down, didn’t turn on a light or anything,” The laughter started to bubble up in Lee’s voice again and for the first time since writing the letter I felt like I took a full breath.

“Well, in that case, I am going to bed.” I said getting up from the table. Once in bed I couldn’t stop my mind from running. Part of me wanted to sneak into the room and take the letter back, the other was just happy that the secret was finally going to come out. I fell asleep that night thinking of the what ifs.

The next morning I woke up to Hermione yelling at me to get up. I pulled the blanket over my head, and mumbled something about going away.

“If you don’t get up right now we are going to be late!” The panic in her voice pulled me out of bed and as I threw on my uniform I glanced at the clock to see we had seven minutes to make it to class. I threw my bag over my shoulder and followed her down the stairs

“Why didn’t you just go?” I asked as we made it down the girls stairs.

“Didn’t want you to get in trouble,” she replied, not turning around. Climbing down the last couple stairs I almost ran right into Fred.

“Hey,” he started before I cut him off.

“Hey Freddie, no time is going to be late.” I threw over my shoulder as I rushed out the common room. We made it with seconds to spare.As we left class hermione kept giving me weird looks. She said nothing as we made it back to the common room where Fred, George, and Ginny were sitting at one of the tables Hermione and I dropped into nearby arm chairs and for a moment I felt like I could fall asleep.

“You look dead,” Ginny said with a laugh. I opened my eyes to see she was talking to me.

“Yeah, well, I’m the idiot who let Hermione talk her into taking early morning classes with her.” I fought off a yawn before sitting up. The whole table was looking at me like I was supposed to say something. “What are you guys doing?” I asked and looked at Hermoine who was also looking at me like I was crazy. George started to laugh, bringing Lee with him Fred on the other hand continued to fidget with a piece of paper in his hands.

Fuck.

I didn’t know what to say. I wasn’t even sure I knew how to think but before I could panic too much about it my mouth started to speak.

“You read it?” Fred looked over to me and the table fell quite once more.

“Of course.” Ginny ushered everyone away from the table and I sat up straighter suddenly feeling the anxiety closing in.

“I’m sorry, I wanted to rewrite it. I should have let them rewrite it. I shouldn’t have-“ Fred suddenly stood up and slipped the letter into his pocket before walking to me and holding out his hand. I took it hoping that he couldn’t feel my heartbeat the way I could.

“You love me?” He asked, his gaze locked on my hand. I nodded.

“Yes.” I said I needed something, anything, to fill the quiet. He pulled on my hand tugging me to his chest, his eyes suddenly locked on mine.

“Say it, please” something about being this close to Fred gave me all the confidence I could need. The way he was looking at me felt like we were the only two people in the world and I had no problem giving him what he asked for.

“I love you,” the words had barely left my mouth when his lips touched mine. He let go of my hand in favor of putting one hand on my waist and the other on my cheek to hold me closer. I allowed one of my hands to play with the hair on the back of his neck.

He pulled away, pressing his forehead against mine and meeting my eyes. “I love you,” he said smiling, pulling a soft laugh from me before I pulled him back in for a kiss. I could feel him smiling into it and I couldn’t help but smile back.

The sounds of clapping pulled us from our moment and I turned to see a very amused Lee and George clapping away as Hermione and Ginny looked at them in disappointment. I couldn’t help but laugh as I looked up at Fred and rolled my eyes.

He pulled me into him before leading us to one of the couches to sit down. “I’m going to write to you everyday.” Fred whispered in my ear as our friends chatted away. I looked up at him before speaking.

“You better,” I joked, pulling a laugh from him. My eyes drifted to his smile and before I knew it he was kissing me again. It wasn’t as long as the others but it was just as perfect.

Later that night I sat in the cozy chair in the corner of a mostly empty room, my cheeks warm and the echoes of fireworks in my ears counting how many days till I could feel his lips on mine again.

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I've Loved You Since Eighth Grade (rewrite) Chapter Eight/ Ending

Chapter eight

Word Count: 816

Description: Last chapter!!! I finally finished this thing. I don’t know why it kicked my ass so hard but thank you for sticking with me through this crazy journey.

A/N:

I spent most of the day lounging around my house. Watching whatever is on TV letting the hours tick by. I called Donna and let her know I talked to Jackie and that I wasn’t running away just yet. Now that the sun had just about set I was sitting on my window sill smoking a joint I found tucked away in a stack of old books.

The weed was old and gross. It burned my tongue with each hit but I needed my anxiety to go down. I needed to stop thinking about Hyde and how the longer I stay away the harder it becomes to go back. The phone behind me once again started ringing and I thanked my lucky stars I could Reach it from where I was perched.

“Hello?” I asked watching my joint burn down.

“How long are you planning on staying gone?” it was Hyde any thought I ever had left my brain and I was left there staring at the ground below me as though he was just going to appear there if I didn’t answer right now. “If you don’t start talking I’m coming over.” Fuck. say something. Say anything. “Fine be there in ten.” I heard the click of him hanging p the phone and just let it drop causing it to swing on the cord.

If I was a smarter person I might get out of my dirty PJs and start thinking about what I was going to say. Instead, I slid down from my first-story window, joint still in hand, and walked over to my old swing at the edge of my yard.

As I waited I convinced myself it’s best to have your heart broken in your pjs because you don’t have to worry about heartbreak ruining your favorite shoes or shirt or whatever. Yeah, not getting dressed was a good call. Sleep shorts can’t be ruined and this is Hyde’s sweater anyway so he will probably want it back. I peek inside the sweater to make sure I had some sort of shirt on for my walk of shame back into my house.

“What are you doing?” Hyde’s voice cut through my thoughts causing me to almost fall of the small wooden swing.

“Jesus Hyde! Are you trying to kill me? you have to warn a girl,” he smirked for a second before it was gone again. He started walking behind the swing.

“Says the girl who disappeared for two days after I found out she might actually like me,” he took the joint from my hand and dropped to the ground crushing it under his boot before giving the swing gentle pushes not letting me get too far away.

“I’m sorry, I just didn’t know what to do or how to handle that, I just froze,” I said looking back at him. He sighed twisting the swing so that I was facing him.

“You’re telling me you want to let Jackie ruin our friendship?” He looked mad. I felt myself starting to panic.

“No. I’m telling you that… I’m scared my feelings for you are going to ruin our friendship.” I couldn’t look at him.

“So, she was telling the truth?” all I could do was nod as I finally looked up at him. He started to laugh and let go of the swing. I stood up ready to walk back to my house.

“You don’t have to laugh at me. Just say you don’t feel the same and leave,” I said backing away. In a second his hands were on my face, gently holding me in place.

“For how long?”

“It’s like she sai-”

“No. I want you to say it” I took a deep breath.

“Hyde, I’ve been in love with you since we were in the eighth grade.” his eyes were searching mine and they must have found whatever they were looking for because in the blink of an eye his lips were on mine and I was melting into his slightly chapped lips.

“I’ve been wanting to ask you out since that stupid eighth-grade writing contest”

“So do it,” I said looking up at him.

“Was kissing you not enough?” his thumb ran across my jaw and I shook my head “Fine. (Y/N), will you please go out with me so I can stop trying to find friendly ways to touch you?” I couldnt help the laugh that escaped me as I nodded. He pulled me into him kissing me one more time, his tongue ran across my bottom lip and he pulled away. “I can taste how shit that weed was,” he joked causing me to smack him in the chest.

“Is that really all you are thinking of when you kiss me?” I joke holding on to the shoulders of his jacket

“No, I was also thinking about how sexy you look in that sweater”

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I've Loved You Since Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Seven

Word Count: 223

Description:

A/N:

My bedside clock says it’s two in the morning, so why is my phone ringing. I take a deep breath and answer the phone. “ Donna when I said I would call you tomorrow I didn’t mean call me as soon as you can call it morning.”

“It’s not Donna,” Jackies voice came through

“What do you want Jackie?” I asked letting my exhaustion drip into my voice

“I wanted to say I was sorry, I was mad and I took it out on you. I really do want to be your guy’s friend. I was just so mad. I’m really sorry. I’ll tell Hyde I was lying if you want.” she sounded so sad I couldnt help the word that came from my mouth.

“It’s fine don’t worry about it I’ll figure it out.” I heard her sigh on the other side. “But you are going to have to earn your secret privileges back” I continue trying to joke. Jackie lets out a soft laugh.

“I really am sorry”

“I know, Jackie”

“I’ll see you tomorrow?” I really didn’t know how to answer that.

“Yeah, we will see.” before anything else was said I hung up the phone. Maybe I should have taken her up on her offer to do damage control. Maybe I should just suck it up and talk to Hyde.

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I'm having some writers block with my slow burn Georgie fic. I would love some requests for either Fred or George ❤💛💚💙

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I've Loved You Since Eight Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Six

Word count: 277

Description:

A/N: TWO TO GO!!! this is unreal

The morning sun was blinding me through the window but I didn’t feel like getting up just yet. Not after last night. Maybe not ever. Maybe I was onto something with that whole leaving the country thing if my crush ever found out.

I don’t know how long I fell back asleep before my phone started ringing. I answered it hesitantly.

“Hello?”

“Are you okay?” Donna's voice came from the other side.

“As okay as I can be” I respond dryly

“We were all worried, we tried to find you.”

“I took a long way home,” she sighed in response to my attitude.

“You know you can’t hide from him forever, right?”

“I don’t know, I was thinking of running away to Canada. I think I could survive in Canada” Donna's laugh came through on the other side and I felt a little better.

“Not without me you couldn’t,”

“Oh, do you want to come with me?” I joked

“What are we going to do in Canada?” She asks to entertain me.

“Start new. Become strippers and live off the grid.” She laughed again

“Fine, we can go,” I knew she was joking but I still felt a small thrill. “Under on condition, you have to talk to Hyde.”

“Well, it was a good idea while it lasted.” She just sighed. “I should go eat. I’ll call you tomorrow Donna,” I hung up before she could add anything else. Staring at the phone I debated dialing Forman’s number. I’m sure Hyde was there and rejection over the phone has to be easier than face to face. Instead, I slid out of bed in search of breakfast.

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ILYSEG Chapter 6 Tomorrow

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I've Loved You Since Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Five

Word Count: 753

Description:

A/N: this takes place the day after the last chapter.

After Jackie's big blow up the group did what we always did. We smoked. We laughed until our stomachs hurt and then when it was all over I crashed at Donnas. The next morning I walked down to the kitchen to Donna talking to her dad.

“Yeah, Whatever,” she said before motioning for me to follow behind her. Once up in her room she started putting on her shoes. “Sorry, I have to go with my dad to the store for a little bit but you can eat here, and then I’ll meet you at Eric’s?” She looked up at me finishing up the tie on her shoe.

“Yeah, sounds like a plan to me,” I say with a grin. She nods. Whatever she and her dad were talking about was clearly messing with her. “I’ll make sure to keep everyone in line while you're gone,” I joke. She cracks a smile and looks up at me.

“ You'll be too busy flirting with Hyde,” she says with a wink.

“Yeah well if you can do it while making lovey eyes at Eric, I can too,” I joke as she walks out the door. She flips me the bird before disappearing around the corner.

I take my sweet time eating breakfast before heading back upstairs to dig through my bag of clothes I’ve been keeping at Donna's house. Pulling on my burnt orange pants and zeppelin t-shirt I call it good and start to head out after sliding on my jacket.

I walked to Eric's house trying to follow Donna and I’s footprints from last night to avoid the snow. Still, when I made it to the house my toes were freezing so I knocked and quickly slid in through the basement door.

“Look who decided to show,” Jackie said tucked under Kelso’s arm

“That was fast you two” I joke hoping to lighten whatever mood I just walked into my eyes jumping over to Hyde who looked exhausted with the whole thing.

“You know, I’m a really good friend to you too and you guys are so mean to me, “ Jackie says, getting out of her seat to walk over to me.

“Jackie-“ I’m cut off before I could continue

“I keep your secrets, I’m nice to you, and if you had a boyfriend I would totally back you up if you guys were fighting!” She was yelling now and all I wanted was to get out but everything was happening too fast for me to even fully understand.

“Can you guys not fight,” Eric said from his spot on the couch.

“Look, Jackie I-“ once again I am cut off before I can finish.

“I didn’t even get mad at Donna for telling you that she’s crushing on Eric before me!” The room was so quiet I felt like I could hear my blood pumping. How much did she hear? What did she know and how do I get her to stop talking?

“Donna likes me?” Eric asked, looking directly at me I couldn’t even think of an answer over the sound of my heart beating.

“Didn’t you guys make out? “ Kelso asked with a huge grin. Before I could say anything I’m interrupted by the door opening. Donna came in looking confused at the state of the room. “Donna and Eric sitting in a tree” Kelso started singing. Donna's head snapped to me and I shook my head indicating that it wasn’t me.

“It’s not that big of a deal everyone already knew “ Jackie defended.

“I didn't,” Fes added. I just wanted to leave and I could see that Donna was about to explode.

“Jackie, shut up!” I yelled finally finding my voice before turning to Donna “we should just go cool off for a bit,” I said to her but before she could respond Jackie spoke up again.

“You are such a bitch!” She yelled turning to Hyde and she started up again “ I bet you didn’t know that (Y/N) has a big crush on you. Has since eighth grade and she wouldn’t shut up about it during my sleepover!” She turned back to me ready for a fight but my blood had run cold.

“Fuck this,” I say barely above a whisper before leaving not even turning around when Donna called after me. I took the long way home in case Donna talked Eric into coming after me in his car and once I was safely in my own room I let the tears start to fall.

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tomorrow

ILYSEG chapter 5 tomorrow at 9 am pst

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I've Loved You Since Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Four

Word Count: 329

Description: This is where we start getting into the drama.

A/N: HALFWAY THERE❣️

Donna and I had finished our homework and were making our way to the Forman house. It wasn’t a long walk but neither of us really said much which made it feel long. As we were walking down the stairs to the basement we could hear Jackie yelling. We exchanged glances but still decided to go in anyway. I mean it kind of was a free show. As the door closes behind us I heard Eric’s voice

“Kelso’s Right Jackie, you can be annoying,” Kelso held his hand out to Eric in a ‘see” kind of motion suddenly I wished I could be anywhere else. It’s no good when everyone gets involved in their fights.

“Donna! (Y/N)! Tell Kelso that if he doesn’t start acting right he’s going to lose me,” Jackie practically yelled at us. I looked at Donna in a panic.

“We are not getting in the middle of this,” Donna says with a small laugh. At that moment she was my real-life angel.

“So you are on Kelso’s side?” She yells at us.

“We are not on anyone’s side-“ I tried before being interrupted by Kelso.

“Of course they are! They were my friends first,” he yelled at Jackie. She looks around the room hurt before storming off. Kelso looked almost pleased until Donna smacked him on the back of the head.

“You are a real asshole, you know?” I add before sitting on the floor next to hyde. My whole body ignited as he gently rubbed my back. Kelso looked around the room only to find nods of agreement before leaving himself.

“Any takers?” Hyde asks, sliding a joint out of his jacket pocket. I nod eagerly up at him. He hands me the joint motioning for me to put it between my lips. I do as he asked, allowing him to light it for me. Our eyes met over the flame and I could have sworn I saw wanting behind his eyes.

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I've Loved You Since The Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Three

Word Count: 344

Description: This picks up at Jackie's house after the last chapter.

A/N:

Donna and I were laying on Jackie's floor sharing the same pillow. Not four hours ago I felt as though I was seconds away from kissing Hyde and now it seems as though that was all a dream. It didn’t feel real. I almost don’t feel weird. I was so deep in my own thoughts that I didn’t see Donna watching me.

“What’s going on with you and Hyde?” She asks so quietly that I wasn’t sure if she really did. I waited for a few beats before answering listening for Jackie to see if she truly was asleep. Letting out a sigh I turn to face Donna.

“I don’t know,” she was clearly unsatisfied with that answer so I continued “We’ve always been close so I truly don’t know. I… I like him a lot but I don’t know what he’s thinking.” Donna rolled her eyes and turned her body to face me too.

“That’s stupid, He obviously likes you. He doesn’t even let anyone else touch him.” She was right. I knew she was right.

“Donna, I have liked Hyde since eighth grade. I've never said anything and I never planned to tell anyone because he’s one of my best friends. I can’t lose that. I don’t want to even risk losing that. I don’t know what I would do without him in my life.” This is the most honest I had been with her about a crush ever. Not because I didn’t trust her but because saying it out loud felt too real. Even now It felt like I had finalized it.

“Why would you lose him if he likes you too?”

“What if it doesn’t work? What if we don’t like dating and just prefer being friends? It would never be the same.” I let myself trail off for a moment before adding “What if I like him more than he likes me”

“Then he’s stupid,” she’s so sure that I feel me believing her without any real hesitation.

With a smile, I ask, “So what about you and Eric?”

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I've loved you since eighth grade chapter three tomorrow at 9am pst

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I've Loved You Since Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter Two

Word Count 440

Description: If you are reading this one I imagine you know the drill.

A/N: Week Three. Can you believe it cuz I sure can’t ☺️

Somehow we managed to cram ourselves into Forman’s car after a shitty house party. Eric was driving, to no one's surprise, Donna was sitting next to him in the middle, and next to her was Fes. The back was even cramped and much louder than the front. Jackie was sitting on Kelso’s lap, her back to the rest of us, I was in the middle with Hyde on the other side of me.

I rested my head on Hyde’s shoulder allowing the music and conversation to melt together. I was so lost in my own world that I didn’t even notice Hyde linking his pinky with mine until he gave it a gentle squeeze to get my attention.

“Are you okay?” He whispered into my hair. I nodded.

“Yeah, that party just sucked,” I said with a small laugh. He echoed my laugh and squeezed my pinky once again.

“At least it had free beer,”

“And yet it still managed to be the worst, that’s almost an achievement,” glancing out the window I watched as we approached Jackie’s house.

“Roberts an asshole” Hydes whispered, trying to keep my attention as the car came to a stop. I laughed and looked up at him.

“Yeah, but the cheap beer was the worst part,” he laughed at my half-assed joke and turned his head as Eric and Kelso got out of the car to say goodbye to their girls. “I’ll see you tomorrow?” I asked quietly, very aware of Fes’s presence.

“Yeah,” he said with a nod. Turning to slide out of the car I saw Kelso leaning against the door. I rolled my eyes and looked to hide. He smirked and opened his door gesturing for me to climb over him with a smirk. I knew it was a joke but I just couldn’t help myself.

With pink cheeks he lifted one of my legs over his lap leaving me straddling him, hesitating for a moment to grab my bag. I froze, completely locking eyes with the boy in front of me as his hands found their way to my hips. His eyes flicked down to my lips and I sucked in a breath.

“Are you guys going to make out?” Fes asked, pulling me out of my hyde-induced haze. I slid out of the car the rest of the way and looked over at Fes.

“Only in his dreams,” I joked, hoping my blush had gone down enough. “Goodnight, Hyde,” I said before gently closing the door and meeting up with Donna.

“ I won't bring up Hyde if you don’t bring up Eric '' she said, holding out her hand.

“Deal”

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I've Loved You Since The Eighth Grade (Rewrite) Chapter One

Word Count: 515

Description: This is a rewrite of Chapter one of I’ve loved you science eighth grade in which you, the reader, are in love with Hyde but he is also your best friend.

A/N: When this is posted it will be week two of my return to Tumblr which as a write this out feels unreal. I want to add to this note ( because it is shorter) that I also have an AO3 account where I post all of this stuff as well. If there is somewhere else you would like to see my work feel free to let me know. Any of my other accounts will be listed in my bio.

The smoke pooled around the room, dancing around our heads. My head was resting on Hyde's knee as I watched it swirl. The sound of Kelso's laugh echoed around in my brain for a bit before I turned to Hyde with a silent question. He shrugged indicating he also didn’t know what all the giggles were about. I giggled a bit at nothing in particular causing him to send me a quick wink. Quickly, I turned my head to avoid him seeing my blushing cheeks.

“Hey, Donna?” I asked, turning to the redhead laying across the couch. She hummed in response, slowly bringing her attention to me. “ Is it still cool if I crash at yours tonight?” She nodded before I was even finished with my question.

“A slumber party? Can I join?” Fes asked from across the table. Donna and I just laughed in response. I turned to Hyde with hopes of seeing him laughing as well but instead his gaze was fixed on the ceiling. Slowly I reached up to grab his hand to get his attention somewhere along the line. I decided that I was going to place a soft kiss on the back of his hand and once the plan was in motion it was too late to stop it.

Hyde's eyes caught mine as I grabbed his hand he had a soft smile gracing his features. As my lips gently brushed the back of his hand I could have sworn that I saw his eyes darken. Before I could explore this thought though I heard Jackie.

“I’m hungry” she whined looking at Kelso expectantly. Quickly I turned to Donna and whispered.

“Oh my god. Me too,” she laughed, turning to Kelso letting him know that she was leaving. Somewhere along the line Jackie and Kelso started fighting so I took that as my cue to leave while I still could. I stood up and turned to Hyde to say goodbye. “I’m going to go with Donna. Mostly because I’m starving but also because…” I trailed off looking at the fighting couple.

“Are you really going to leave me for food?” He teased with a smirk

“You are the strongest person I know. You’ve got this, just don’t let them destroy your fun-loving spirit,” I joked back, placing my hands on his cheeks and kissing his forehead. “ I’ll see you tomorrow,”

I met Donna at the door, stopping her before she said goodbye to the whole group. Quickly we made our escape hoping to avoid a night full of hearing about how much of an asshole Kelso was.

Donna and I giggled our way through grabbing up all the good snacks from her kitchen. Once in the safety of her room, she asked “Do you have a crush on Hyde?”

“Do you have a crush on Eric?” I challenged causing her to laugh and focus back on her bag of chips

“When did you start kissing Hyde?”

“I don’t know, I guess since now” I answered avoiding looking up from my cookie. From the corner of my eye, I could see Donna nodding.