Bonnie & Clyde - Johnny Cade
synopsis - johnny finally breaks down y/n's walls
warnings - mentions of suicide, talk about criminals, mention of abuse, not much😙
pairing - johnny cade x best friend!gn!reader
authors note - my first fic posted on any platform, don't judge me xoxo (jk, if I need to improve, give me some tips!! x) not edited cuz it's 4am..
Both y/n and Johnny faced problems at home… these problems leaving them with a bond so odd that not even they could understand it
Johnny was emotionally and physically abused by his parents, and y/n had their unsaid problems just the same..
often, when nights got bad. The pair would spend the night in the lot together..
it was silent, other than the crackling of the firewood, and the subtle breeze picking up.
they sat close to each other, for body heat. Johnny sighed before speaking.. “I can’t take this anymore.”
y/n looks up at him, a slight look of curiosity in their eyes, "Is it getting worse..?" they ask.
“I-It’s like everything’s falling apart.” Johnny’s voice was shaky, and cracked in many places.
“M-My p-parents, t-they just..keep getting worse by the day.”
“It’s like..I’m n-nobody to them..” Johnny let out a deep sigh, and then took a long drag of his cigarette.
y/n shifts in their spot, turning their gaze back to the fire for a minute until looking back at him, "We've got each other at least.. That's what matters most right?"
“Y-You think?” Johnny smiled faintly at y/n. He exhaled a gust of smoke into the air, before leaning back on the wall. Johnny looked down at the ground, and took another long, deep drag from one of his cigarettes.
y/n didn't answer for a minute or two, just thinking of what to say next, "I like to think of us as Bonnie & Clyde, y'know..?" they pause, "all we've really got is each other, and that's all we need.."
“Bonnie and Clyde..?” Johnny repeated, then paused for a moment and thought of the criminal duo. He took yet another puff of his cigarette..
“I guess you’re right…all we really have is each other.”
Johnny shifted in place. The cool breeze seemed to be irritating him, causing him to shiver slightly. “Damn, it's really freezing out here.."
y/n gently rests their head on his shoulder, closing in their distance on one another.
Johnny could see his own breath, due to how cold it was outside… It didn't help that his clothes were thin and worn out. He appreciated the warmth of y/n's head on his shoulder.
Johnny sighed, and looked over at them..
y/n murmured back, "Mmm..?" Their voice was soft and quiet.
Johnny went silent, and smiled softly at them. He was surprised by how comfortable this felt..he was actually able to relax, and be himself. His cigarette was down to the last few puffs..as Johnny watched it slowly burn.
“y/n…you know how much I appreciate you..right?”
"Y-Yeah..? I think so" they mumble back.
“You mean a lot to me.” Johnny continued, as he took a deep drag from the cigarette, exhaling thick plumes of smoke from his mouth.
“I feel like I got nobody, but you. It’s me and you against the world.” Johnny paused for a minute, and smiled softly.
“We have a bond…a connection that nobody else has. Nobody else understands..”
A small smirk appears on y/n's face, "just like Bonnie & Clyde, right..?" a small giggle leaving their lips.
“You know what?” Johnny chuckled quietly, and nodded his head. “Yeah…just like Bonnie and Clyde.”
His cigarette was burnt to a short stub, as Johnny tossed the little bit of the cigarette that was left to the ground.
“Now that.. makes me Clyde, right?” Johnny said, and looked at them with raised brows.
y/n murmurs under their breath, "mmhm.."
“So that means I get the ladies, right?” Johnny continued to joke around, and gave an innocent smile to y/n. They were both close in age, but Johnny certainly seemed older than y/n..in an emotional sense, at least..
"Mhm.. but Clyde chose Bonnie over anyone.." y/n speaks softly "..you'd do that for me too, right..?"
“Hey…” Johnny turned his head towards them more, and gently placed a hand on their cheek.
“I’d choose you over anything or anyone.” Johnny’s voice was quiet, but he seemed to mean every word.
“I wouldn’t trade you for the entire world..”
They both gave each other innocent smiles.
Johnny brushed a strand of messy hair away from their face, looking into their eyes with tender affection.
“I don’t know what I’d do without you..”
"Crash and burn..?" y/n quickly replies.
“Definitely crash and burn.” Johnny chuckled, a small smile spreading across his face.
“How about you though? How would you be without me..?”
y/n suddenly goes quiet, tension rising in the air as they seem a bit nervous to answer the question.
“y/n…” Johnny’s voice was tinged with concern, as he noticed the slight pause in their answer.
“Wouldn’t you crash and burn too..?”
"I've already crashed," their voice was hushed, "the burning is just slower than it should be.."
Johnny was silent for a moment, letting their words sink in. He took a slow, yet drawn out drag of his cigarette, his heart aching for them.
Johnny shifted, and rested his head against the wall, before looking back over at them.
y/n subtly shakes their head.
“I wish I could make everything better for you..” Johnny sighed quietly, and took another drag of his cigarette.
Johnny’s eyes shifted to the darkness in the lot, as a chill shuddered through his body.
y/n's gaze was locked on the fire that was burning in front of them.
“y/n…” Johnny’s voice was quiet, and his demeanor changed to that of slight worry and concern as he noticed the silence from them. His brow was furrowed.
“Look over here for a sec..?” He softly asked.
y/n shakes their head again.
Johnny’s expression was concerned, almost frustrated. He reached over and gently tilted their head up towards him.
”What’s wrong..? Please..”
y/n's expression was weak as they held back tears of pain.
“Hey..” He brushed a tear that escaped their eye, and ran his fingertips alongside their face.
“Hey…c’mon..” Johnny was soft, and gentle with them.
“Don’t fight it…just let it out..”
They immediately begin to sob into Johnny's shoulder, never once having cried in front of him before.
Johnny immediately softened, his arms wrapping around them and holding them as close as he could. He had never seen y/n in such a vulnerable position before. They were so sweet and innocent…Johnny couldn't stand the thought of them hurting.
Johnny rubbed their back, as he spoke to them in a soothing tone.
"Shhh..it's okay..it's okay.."
Johnny had never even had a glimpse of them outside of their playful, flirty demeanor.. As he saw their walls fall down, he felt shocked.
Johnny had never realized how much pain they had been in, and the sight of their pain…made him hurt too.
Johnny gently squeezed them tight, and he sighed softly. His eyes were fixated on them, watching their tears fall..
Johnny wanted to protect them, and never let anybody else hurt them.
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It took y/n about another ten minutes to finally calm down, they kept their head on Johnny's shoulder and stayed quiet.
Johnny didn’t mind it at all when they kept their head on his shoulder, actually enjoying the intimacy of the moment. There were moments where he wished this moment would last, and they could just sit here forever. He enjoyed being someone that y/n could let their guard down around, and feel comfortable around.
“You alright..? You done crying..?” Johnny softly asked. His voice was gentle, as he kept his arms around y/n.
Johnny smiles as he sees them nod, ”Are you gonna go back to being playful now..? Or you still gonna be a sad, crying ol’ crybaby?” Johnny teased with a smug grin.
y/n smiled weakly, laughing briefly at his behavior.
Johnny let out a soft chuckle, and smiled at them Even through their pain, they remained the same beautiful, playful y/n he knew and loved.
“Okay okay..now that’s more like it…” Johnny brushed their back again, and then gently took their hand into his.
“You good now? You feeling alright?”
y/n lets out a soft sniffle, followed by a small nod.
Johnny smiled at them, and squeezed their hand a few times in reassurance.
“Alright, that’s good to hear.”
Johnny sat in silence for a few moments, looking at their hand holding hands. “They're so beautiful…” he thought to himself. He wanted to keep staring, but quickly looked away.
“So. What made you cry anyway?” Johnny asked, hoping to change the subject away from how vulnerable they had been for a moment.
y/n hesitantly speaks up, "Johnny.. If you weren't here, I don't reckon I would be either.."
Johnny immediately froze, his heart shattering in his chest.
Did they mean what he thought they meant..? Were they saying that he was the only thing preventing them from taking their own life?
Johnny quickly squeezed their hand, and looked at them, his voice full of concern.
"I don't think I need to explain," y/n says.
Johnny went silent, thinking over what they just said for a few moments.
“So you’re saying..” Johnny hesitantly spoke, trying to ask them. “That you would take your own life..?”
y/n softly speaks, "I'm not trying to be a burden or anything.." they pause, "but yeah.."
Johnny’s voice was a combination of panic and concern.
“y/n…” He gently squeezed their hand, and spoke to them again. “You’re not a burden. In fact…you’re the opposite…”
“You mean everything to me…my life would be ruined if something ever happened to you.” Johnny paused for a moment,
“Do you know how much I love you..?”
"Yeah.." y/n weakly smiles, "I love you too, Johnny.."
Johnny smiled at them, as he squeezed their hand a few times.
“And you know..?” Johnny paused for another moment. “I’d choose you over anything.”
"Just like Bonnie & Clyde, right..?" y/n mutters.
"Yeah.. exactly like Bonnie & Clyde" He replied.
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