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clai/mordecai/aether ✧ 21 ✧ fae/they

[razormain]

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[minart-was-taken]

I am once again offering some HSR redesigns! This episode: Blasian Rappa and The Herta with AGE. 👏👏👏

[drawing-in-teyvat]

Kinich Vision Story - part 1

Characters in Natlan are so casual when it comes to death. Kinich mentioned almost in passing that he died during the war, but this series of events was TRAUMATIC.

[rei-plswork]

NAH OKAY AJAW JUST DANCING IN THE BACKGROUND WHILE KINICH DIED WAS DIABOLICAL 💀💀

[chromajistyle]

GRAB THAT TOOTHBRUSH DATTEBAYO

[erabu-san]

K'uhul Ajaw

[chernkii]

some xilonen drawings

[kindrehd]

kinich doodle page

[kindrehd]

olorun fandesign

[razormain]

a quick and rough thing, i hope i've done him SOME semblance of justice

[havanillas]

SUNDAY IS ALIVE??

[redthemarten]

The unequal treatment of the dads

[chromajistyle]

come back

[chromajistyle]

breaking my silence. I damn near have to strain to hear the "l" in Luocha's "bloom" line.

[doodlerh]

dancae you will always be famous

[havanillas]

it's been a while for merventurine

i thought it'd be interesting to have roleswap ratio and merven ratio to have their gay realizations in similar ways but take them in very different directions

link to rest of the series -> here

kinda unrelated but i didn't wanna throw it out so here's a bonus page

[towomey19]

I think they would be friends

[mymarifae]

it's a pretty popular fanon idea that aventurine has abandoned his birth name and no longer thinks himself worthy of it which i guess seems fitting given how deep his own self-loathing runs but tbh? "selfishly" (whether it's actually selfish or not is irrelevant because that good ol' self-loathing clouds his objective judgement) clinging onto the things he feels he doesn't deserve is just as in character for him. and like

i've said this before but i really do think his future self calling him kakavasha indicates that he primarily thinks of himself by that name. sunday's order fuckery be damned, everything he hallucinates in this segment comes from himself. idk, i guess we'll never know unless we get another visualization of his inner monologues, but i prefer the idea that while both names are his now, kakavasha is the one he defaults to. it's the name his mama gave him; you really think he'd let himself abandon it? like, this is the guy who has clung onto the scraps of his papa's old shirt, even through allllll the shit he's gone through over the years, just to have something - ANYTHING - to remember him by. it's not an aspect of his character that was explored a ton, but it's still obvious: his family is extremely important to him, and he will always treasure every possible connection he still has to them, even if all that remains is rags, a charm, and a name.

he's come to accept it as his also but aventurine is... secondary, and the only reason why people don't know him as kakavasha First is because he doesn't trust anyone enough to give them such an important piece of his heart. as he moves forward, post- nihility and acheron, and tries to cherish his life a little more, maybe he'll figure out how to be vulnerable. to let someone else in, for once. and he can be kakavasha again, to at least one person other than himself

[starcurtain]

This is great, so I wanted to reblog it, but also, I can't resist some tiny additions!

When the "future" Aventurine accuses real!Aventurine of having changed as a person now that the IPC has given him wealth and power, he immediately answers: "I've never changed."

He hasn't abandoned his past self or forgotten his roots at all.

And I think it's particularly interesting that Jade tells Kakavasha his name is destined to be "buried in the dirt":

Which is a perfect mirror of another line that comes later:

"Kakavasha" was buried in the sands--but they could not kill him.

He's still the same person as he's always been. I definitely agree, OP; I can't think of any reason he would cast aside the name that has suffered and survived with him all these years.