The pain that Magda’s words caused in her was one she had never felt before. Nothing in her entire life that had led up to this point could ever equal the pain that she was feeling right now, standing in front of the woman she loved, truly loved, and who seemed to believe that she had forgotten about her. In reality, Sarah had thought about Magda the entire time, and if she’d had the possibility to do so, she would have returned to the village only for her ── to get her and bring her to the castle as well, for it seemed to be a much better place to be.
Sarah shook her head immediately, stepping closer towards Magda and gently placing her hands on the woman’s shoulders, her own brown eyes fixed on Magda’s blue ones, almost as if she was capable of looking right into her soul that way. And maybe she was and simply did not know about this ability, but what did it matter? All that mattered was that she could see how much she had hurt the other woman, and so Sarah stepped even closer, her face now only inches away from Magda’s.
❝ I am happy about the life he has given me ❞, she replied. There was no point in denying that being a vampire was so much better than being human, at least from what she could tell right now. She was not only free, but also stronger, finally willing and able to stand up for herself in the way she had never dared to before, even though she had wanted to do so for years. She didn’t have to sneak out at night anymore, for now, she could leave whenever she wanted.
❝ But I would not be if you weren’t here. ❞
The lump in Magda’s throat dropped straight down, through her chest, past her heart, and into her stomach, releasing new feelings in its wake. Surprise, longing, fear, love, worry all swirled within her, creating new anxieties in their wake. Magda looked away from Sarah’s deep brown eyes and squeezed her own shut, trying to distance herself emotionally from the situation as much as possible.
She wanted nothing more than to close the remaining distance between herself and Sarah, to pull Sarah into her arms and never let her go. She wanted to bury her face in Sarah’s soft curls, to whisper words of love and devotion in Sarah’s ear. But, she couldn’t stand to the pain again, the pain if Sarah left her behind again to chase a dream disjoint from Magda. Had the cards of fate not dealt Magda eternity, she would have lived out the rest of her days with a question that would never be answered, uncertain of the fate her love had met.
But this was not what had crushed her soul. Magda would bear any and all grief and sorrow for someone she loved. But Sarah had simply forgotten, likely only too willing to cast off all ties of her former life - including Magda. If life had taught her anything in the course of her twenty-three years on the Earth, it was that actions spoke far louder than words could ever hope to.
Magda’s lips tightened into a thin like as she smiled the same sad smile. If Sarah was lying to her, Magda would rather simply let her go here and now. After all, what right did she have to infringe upon Sarah’s eternal happiness? She had no right to burden Sarah with her unwanted presence, no right to force herself into Sarah’s life, no right to twist her destiny and Sarah’s into one.
❝ It’s alright Sarah, truly, it’s alright. I understand. Please don’t worry about sparing my feelings, I beg you. ❞
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