1. I love you. I love you. I love you. I’m sorry if I don’t show it enough. You make me happy. You make everything better. There are days na you stress me out, I’ll admit, days na I’d wanna punch you but I’m still thankful for those days kasi they made me realize how much I love you. Everytime mag-aaway tayo, I’d need some space, sure, but afterwards, I always miss you. I know sometimes I am difficult to love. Labo. Sensitive. Sometimes irrational. Despite all that, you’re still here. You stayed. And you still love me. And for that…
2. Thank you. Thank you for everything. When I’m with you, I feel safe. It’s times like these na gusto ko sana kasama kita. I feel so unsafe, Jr. I cry sometimes because I don’t wanna die. Not this way, at least. I feel so alone. I’m scared. Talking to you somehow gives me a lil courage to go through the day. Thank you for believing in me. For comforting me whenever I feel like shit. For the jokes that make laugh. For showing me your true self. For kinda spoiling me in your own little way. Food trips, libre dyan, libre doon – thank you. I loved every single moment of our dates. I wish and hope and pray na in the future, magkadates pa tayo.
3. Sorry. I’d like to apologize for all the shitty things I’ve done and said to you. I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to hurt you. Sorry kasi minsan pag nagaaway tayo, sobrang stubborn ko and mapride ako. I guess that’s the way I am. But hey, one time, I texted you first! Thats an improvement, right? Sorry being passive aggressive. I don’t know how to change it, it’s difficult but what can I do? Sorry rin kasi lagi akong asar sa mga ex mo. Kahit past na, asar parin ako. I just don’t like the fact na you were once associated with them. I know… Irrational, again. But. That’s how I feel eh. Maybe it’s because I’m insecure. Yeah, I know confidence is sexy but idk. Guess I’m not sexy. Sorry for being needy and clingy. Pero thank you kasi di ka naaasar sakin dahil dun.
4. Sana. I wish wala talagang mangyaring masama satin. Pinapanalangin ko yun lagi. Every time na may mararamdaman akong takot, I’d say a short prayer and pray for our and our families’ safety. Buong Pilipinas na rin. If it happens, its so hard to recover. Very difficult. I don’t wanna even think about it. But worse comes to worst, it happens. I’m pretty sure I’m gonna die (with the construction of our apartment and all) and I hope yall survive. Know that you are my favorite. You are my sunshine. And I wish I could keep you. Ahehe naiiyak na ko bc fuck I really want to be with you. We really can’t do anything about it.
I asked you awhile ago if ano beliefs mo after mamatay ng isang tao. I honestly have no idea. But, Jr, if ever man… Maybe I get to go in Heaven. I promise to always watch over you. I’ll be your angel. You wont lose me. I’ll always be in your heart. Sana. If hindi man, well, that sucks. Hahaha it’s okay though. Mabilis ka naman magmove on. I hope you recover. If I get reincarnated in another life, I hope I find you. I wouldnt want anyone else. If wala talaga and it’s all gonna stop when one dies, then… Okay. At least I met you. You made me believe in forever again, for that, I am grateful. I love you, Jr.
