finding yourself
Be original, be yourself, be the leader that I know you are. These are all quotes or sayings that I’ve heard in the past pertaining to how I should act, but how can I be myself if I haven't completely figured out myself yet? How can I be a leader if no one’s taken the time to show me how to lead? Am I supposed to go through life making mistakes and wondering if things should’ve been done or should’ve been said a different way?. How am I, a young black man, that is walking through life hitting walls and being forced to climb them alone supposed to represent himself in a way that’s not hostile but also in a way that’s doesn’t come across as weak?
I think finding my true identity has been a hard task for me, but in a way what I’ve been through in my life so far, has definitely shaped who I will become in the future as a black male trying to beat the odds that were set against me. Being a young man in this world today I feel like the opportunities are endless. In since that I’ve been put in a situation to get a higher education and put in a different atmosphere to branch out and make new connections. My representation of myself should be one that comes across as a passionate dower who creates opportunities for himself. My representation should be different than the others around me not because I feel that I’m better than them, just simply because my dream are different than theirs. The places I want to go may not be the places they want to go. I understand that I’m not just representing myself but I’m also representing my family and my race all in one, which makes it hard at times to not act on how I’m being looked at or treated.
I feel like it’s harder on females then it is males, simply because they aren’t viewed as equals. In the world we live in “the man” is technically speaking the one who works hard, and in my opinion that’s completely wrong and fucked up.
All in all this world is messed, but being yourself is something that doesn’t come with ease. Mistakes will be mad and learning how to address certain situations probably will be easier the second time around. Your representation and how you carry yourself does tell people a lot about how you are and in my opinion can get you further in life so be mindful of it.













