Feeling really negative lately
I need to find a better way to cope with uncertainty and bad choices. I need to learn to forgive myself so that I can move on. It's a lot harder said than done but I am in need of strength and an open heart. I have been doing things lately that are not for my best interest. I am punishing myself constantly and disappointing myself. I just need to realize that it is ok to fuck up and forgive. Putting things down the drain and checking if they are still there later doesn't solve anything. I need to slow down and analyze my choices as they come and not in the aftermath. Life is serious. Life is made up of consequences so I need to live with purpose instead of avoidance. Don't feel. Don't think. Just do. That motto just doesn't work for me; I need to take my time and stop rushing. Analyze. Think. Feel. Then do. I am worth making wise decisions and not half ass with the flow. I am the driver of my life and need to take the wheel. I need to stop finding other people to drive me or guide me. I am here and need to live and stop just existing as if I don't matter. I do.
