Who Am I?

My name is Ame and I am still trying to figuring out who I am. 26 // Queer // Bpd

[rebekahamethyst]

I’m not sure why but I’m currently feeling overwhelmed by everything and barely holding everything together.

[rebekahamethyst]

I hate that I’m not sure if my fear of abandonment is playing up or if what my head is telling me is real. I honestly thought my partner/owner/fp would’ve messaged me before the weekend getaway tonight but they haven’t. If they’re being distant then I’ll be sleeping alone while my other friends who are in couples will be sleeping together. Either it’ll be a good weekend or I’ll just get more depressed

[rebekahamethyst]

Torturing myself by not talking to my fp because I feel unwanted by everyone in my life. Does it make sense? No. Will I keep doing it? Yes.

[rebekahamethyst]

I did some weird emo shit and wrote the word unimportant on my leg in eyeliner then put hairspray over it in an impulsive moment. Guess I have a temporary tattoo now to remind myself of how I feel.

[rebekahamethyst]

I’m worried I’ve gained weight but I’m too scared to find out. I also don’t have a way to check my weight right now. I can’t talk to anyone about this because they’ll just tell me I look fine the way I am. That’s why I’m shouting into the void here on tumblr where I can vent and no one gives a damn. Thank you tumblr.

[spookitake]

teacher: write about who you are and your identity!

me: my what

[what-even-is-thiss]

Reblog if you’re actually 1 to 10 mental illnesses/disorders in a trench coat.

[npd-and-me]

neurotypicals who don’t realize how privileged they are make me want to punch them in the face

I have no idea what it’s like to not be battling a mental illness 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, for my whole life, but it sounds luxurious

[bisexualgambit]

Too depressed to be awake? Not depressed enough for a Depression Nap™? Welcome to Existential Crisis Wrapped in Blanket!

[scientia-rex]

Raise your hand if you have ever felt personally victimized by this post

[abusedkidgooglesearches]

why do i always feel as if everything’s my fault?

[mackenziesummertime]

That constant struggle between “I can’t show my symptoms or I’ll be a burden” and “why doesn’t anyone realize I’m suffering?”

[spiderdumpling-deactivated20230]

*sees anyone interacting with anyone other than me* wow I guess you just forgot all about me. I guess it was all just lies and I read too much into it but I actually thought you liked me? what a fool I am

[ttrajeudi]

me: wants to be healthy and recovered 

also me: actively enjoys self destructive behaviour

[fjordhulder]

*has no plans* wow I’m wasting my youth away my life is a wasteland I wish I was like one of those busy people

*has two things coming up in the same week* omg ok no I can’t handle the pressure of this wow my anxiety is off the charts this is too much

[bpdisfun]

Anyone else feel like they’re just procrastinating their suicide

[rebekahamethyst]

I think I’ve gained weight (but have no proof because I’ve been sick) and it’s kind of distressing me.

[princessdanhowell]

people are always like “are you a morning person or a night person” and I’m just like buddy I’m barely even a person