heās heard the whispers, how it would be better to leave the pilot onboard the medical ship thatās nearly run out of fuel. how it would be easier then carrying her onboard the carrier. she wasnāt worth saving, they had said. yet he has hope. is certain she will wake and if he can speak to her might even join their side. her choice had already been made the moment she fired upon her own. so he sees her when he can, brief moments when he places a hand over her own to let her know she wasnāt alone. that once she woke up sheād have a place in the resistance.Ā
they are down to one carrier with enough fuel to last six more hours. leia rests beside the woman, body still unconscious yet he knows the fight is not lost. sheād live, she had to live. he never had seen anything like it, she floated so peacefully and then the desire to keep fighting kicked in. hand outstretched as he called for the door to be opened. their general had lived.Ā
heās argued with holdo, whoās constant reminder that heās been demoted stirs something within him. he knows his actions had been reckless, a failure on his sense of leadership and yet heās learning. learning what it truly means to be a leader and right now he doesnāt see that in the fancily dressed woman. and so he waits. waits for finn and rose to do their part of the plan as he keeps holdo at bay. itās time heās allowed to spend in the medical bay since he had been removed from the bridge.Ā
time had seemed to slow and now itās rushing forward. marching straight ahead as they formulate a plan on crait. old monoskisā¦ fantastic. his desire for familiarity in an x-wing tears at him. the rust buckets will have to do. itās a risky move and yet this is their final stand. the resistance could die here in the caves. he would do whatever it took to ensure that didnāt happen. the pilot whoās been in another wold all this time finally speaks. first words spoken besides forĀ ātrust meā were to call him an idiot. perhaps he was. the plan had failed, the first order taking out too many of their pilots and he ordered them to turn back. to retreat into the cave once more knowing that it was no use. for a moment he thinks all is lost. that the spark is truly out.
they are saved. a temporary distraction getting the better of kylo renās rage in front of closed doors. it was an opportunity, a cover for them to flee yet rocks stand in their way. his leadership ending by a barrier he couldnāt move. his head turns to the pilot beside him, eyes full of woe as he attempts to apologize to her. she had survived this long only to die at the hands of the first order. trapped in a cave with no way out. the impossible had happened, rey had found them. ushered the remaining resistance onboard the falcon and piloted them away from the salt covered planet.Ā
finally they are granted a moment of peace. a chance he takes to sit with the pilot whoās hands are still bound. he leans forward and removes her restraints. heās exhausted, features worn out and visible in the dark circles under his eyes.Ā ātheyāll have questions for you.ā his words are quite, a warning before anyone comes to interrogate her.Ā āall mine have been answered.ā lips curl into a small smile. she wasnāt the enemy, not anymore.Ā
strain creases features, a sense of being kicked in the stomach taking over her the longer captainĀ jessika pavaĀ remains restrained in cuffs. except, she supposes sheās no longer a captain or a commander now, stripped of any ranking sheād worked toward within the first order. she had turned, become a traitor to every ideal she had been force-fed since childhood. sheās lucky kylo ren had been preoccupied, she knows sheās sealed her eventual fate. if the resistance didnāt kill her, he would. maybe not today, but someday. and so here she sits in a secluded section of the ship, kept at a distance from others as if sheās suffering some kind of plague. yes, she had aided them twice but how could they risk trusting someone who had until a few days previous been of her rank? the resistance was in tatters, she wouldnāt trust her either.
still, jessika makes an attempt, informs them of her capabilities, no more and no less. a system needed fixing and she held the knowledge to do it. it was a bid to get out of the binds, to have some form of control back. it had failed. smart on their part yet increasingly distressing on her own. fidgeting becomes a new normal, features clammy and uncomfortable despite her work to reign in her emotions and outward appearance. flashes of memory are waging a war against her, her sister, her mother, her father, the pirates. the feeling of being powerless, of being bound and unable to act. she had believed for so long that the first order had been her savior but now even memory was being called into question. had she simply rationalized their arrival and ignored their purpose of being there in the first place? she had witnessed it after, the first order working with shady groups in order to further their own agendas. if they had worked with that group of pirates then..Ā then was the organization she had trusted for the better part of her life truly at partial fault for her familyās deaths? and in turn.. taking her? indoctrinating her?
mind becomes chaos, male voice offering her a reprieve as he sits next to her and speaks to her. the urge to call him an idiot again is strong. he was so trusting, so willing to believe that someone could be redeemed or at least be fully turned and that his precious resistance would welcome that person. if it was the other way around she would already be killed or subjected to torture for the information she held. her actions on starkiller hadnāt been about aiding the resistance as much as preventing something terrible, doing the right thing as she saw it. and at the resistance base? it had been about her own survival-- and maybe his-- rather than rallying to the resistanceās cause. sheād suddenly found herself in a grey area she didnāt want to be in but held no choice over. a traitor to the first order and thrust into a resistance she wasnāt confident she believed in either.Ā
jessika ignores the first statement, unsure how cooperative she plans to be in the resistanceās lines of questioning or at least, how quickly she will provide answers. information was her only bargaining chip and she would use it to itās fullest.Ā āwhy?ā a pause as he removes her binds. she didnāt do well in binds, not when they flooded her with memories she didnāt want to see. āwhy did you save me? yes, i aided your squadron against the ties but i was still the enemy. it would have made more sense for you to leave me and continue on. my life was irrelevant...Ā to your mission.āĀ was this what the resistance was about? making inefficient calls and compromising missions to save one life? or was there something deeper to be taken from it? that maybe when you actually had a cause life became something more than protocols and perceived order.
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