Believe in Steven!

Indie Steven Universe roleplay blog: written by someone who is kin with him! M/A and starter friendly. selective

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Eyyy we love you ♡♡♡

(( I love you too nonny!Thank you, I don’t know what I did to deserve such kindness.. 

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You're such a good Steven! Most people aren't too good at playing younger characters but you do it really well.

(( Thank you so so much!! ))

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So I’m probably gonna come back to this account in the next few days. I'm in a slightly better place mentally than I have been, so I think I can manage it.

I’m open for new threads if my rules are read, though I’ll probably take it kinda slow... If anyone’s interested, anyway. I may even answer some old drafts, though nobody is obligated to keep them going if they don't want to. Anyway, expect to see me tentatively creeping around here in the next little bit. And thank you all so, so much for the kindness and support... Its more than I coud have dreamed I would receive. You are all so wonderfully sweet, I would hug you if I could! Or just give you a high five, if you preferred But thank you, so much. It really means the world. <3

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Hey guys

(( I can make no promises about tonight because its after 3 am but would anyone want to start something new with me..? I know I’ve been very slow, partly because I haven’t been very well lately. Recently my motivation to get out of bed has been fading, much less my motivation to try and be happy go lucky as Steven on here but. Its also because I feel like my writing has stagnated.

Most of my partners have deleted or gone inactive, and it seems that most new blogs already have running things with Stevens. My few threads are getting repetitive which is making my writing quality slide, and… I dunno. It doesn’t seem like most people want to write with me a lot anymore, and the few that do request it don’t read my rules.

Maybe I’m being silly, trying to keep this blog alive. I won’t totally abandon it in any case, I’ll keep threads with a couple of people but. I dunno. I don’t get asks, I don’t get memes, almost nobody asks to rp and those that do don’t read my rules, most of my threads get dropped… I think most of the people who really wanted to write with me aren’t rping now. This isn’t a guilt trip though, with the repetitiveness and decline in quality of my writing, as well as my slowness, I can certainly understand why! It’s just an explanation.  Ah well… I’ll keep a couple threads going. Maybe something will happen, maybe not. ))

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Hey guys

(( I can make no promises about tonight because its after 3 am but would anyone want to start something new with me..? I know I've been very slow, partly because I haven’t been very well lately. Recently my motivation to get out of bed has been fading, much less my motivation to try and be happy go lucky as Steven on here but. Its also because I feel like my writing has stagnated.

Most of my partners have deleted or gone inactive, and it seems that most new blogs already have running things with Stevens. My few threads are getting repetitive which is making my writing quality slide, and... I dunno. It doesn’t seem like most people want to write with me a lot anymore, and the few that do request it don’t read my rules.

Maybe I'm being silly, trying to keep this blog alive. I won’t totally abandon it in any case, I’ll keep threads with a couple of people but. I dunno. I don’t get asks, I don’t get memes, almost nobody asks to rp and those that do don’t read my rules, most of my threads get dropped... I think most of the people who really wanted to write with me aren’t rping now. This isn’t a guilt trip though, with the repetitiveness and decline in quality of my writing, as well as my slowness, I can certainly understand why! It’s just an explanation.  Ah well... I’ll keep a couple threads going. Maybe something will happen, maybe not. ))

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//would it be possible for anyone to send positivity over at @h-o-l-o ? The Mun hasn’t been farring to well so anything would help! it won’t take up too much of your time!

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(( Also, new faceclaim! From now on Ill be represented by Frisk from Undertale!

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I've heard you're having a bad time. Whatever you're going through, I know you have the strength to overcome it. We believe in you!

(( Thank you so much, kind friend.. I’m doing my best, I promise.I’ll find a way through, I’m not finished just yet.But I could never do it without people like you supporting me.and @h-o-l-o too! ))

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*runs inside through the front door* *hugs you* *gives you some candy* *hopes you like them* *runs back out through the front door* *closes the front door* *soars away on a golden cloud of spiderwebs* *screams in the distance 'stay determined!'* *flies up up and awaaaay into the constellation orion*

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I’ll do my very best, mysterious sweetheart! Thank you for the love and candy! <3 ))

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(( <3 ))

[inimoose]

Please don’t tell me everything is wonderful now.

[Inspired by the chorus of the song Wonderful by Everclear]

Set right after Lapis is finally free? I wanted to draw this after we actually get to see it, but I couldn’t wait that long.

I can’t imagine anyone being okay after going through everything Lapis has. Her gem being cracked and imprisoned in a mirror for thousands of years, finally going home just to see everything has changed and immediately imprisoned again… and then being forced to fuse and trapped on Earth yet again (even if she did take control, Jasper didn’t give her much of a choice)…

It’s too much.

Please help her Steven. I want to see Lapis Lazuli smile again.

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@hivaeth

[h-o-l-o-deactivated20160912]

"No more tears" (If youre up for it ;w; )

Send “No more tears” to discover my muse sobbing

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   Only with the companion of the orange skies in the Battlefield dimension and besides one of the big statues that lied on the pillars, the digital Pearl left her pixelated tears abandon their luminous white eyes. Her voice accompained the act with accidental sobbing, but she simply didn’t mind. Who would be around at those hours? It was, even, ridiculous.

   Short and fast steps made echoe in the vast silence. She looked at her surroundings, finding nothing. Her sobs stood slipping, she was too clumsy to hide.

«Purple One?   C r e a t–(It cannot be Creator)» She inquiried, then correcting herself when she was about to say the second name.

(I do want to be alone, please.   I do deserve to be alone) She whispered, curling up and hidding her face on the statue.⌋ 

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   Approval was hard objective to reach. Holopearl understood that the right pathway to redemption required time, and patience. At simple sight, such challenge was going to be easy. Gems would see who the virtual Pearl was and she’d surely be another one of the family. However, she didn’t count with all the awkward moments and bitter situations that would be clung to her way. Obstacles, that caused cracks on her emotional being.

   Late days have consumed the hologram at all. She wasn’t only acting clumsy during her nervous mood, impulsed by nightmares projected on her memory banks while she engaged the sleep mode; with every mistake done, including Pearl seemed to act distant at her.

   (Or, at least, that’s what she could process. Her fears were such that to still struggling with this all were dragging her to a deep abyss whose exit reached the domains of the impossible).

   She left then. Hopefully, nobody would realize she was lacking. In the best of the cases, somebody would simply say ‘everything’s so quiet…’ and the entire conversation would die there.

     (The digital doll didn’t realize about Steven.   Not until he found her).

   It was then, when his soft voice sounded again, nearer. It was comforting, an umbrella in the middle of the storm. A feeling of protection has taken control on the holographic gem. She could relax her tense body, to let all their pixelated tears to form into the air to be embraced by the gentle whispers of the wind; but, she has chosen to curl up, to applicate a bigger tension on her body, to bury her fine nose on her legs, to rub her gem against her knees, to contain her cry, the loud amount of strength that accumulated on her vulnerable chest.

   She kept like this, silently, ignoring he was around. The pression her body was making, the intense ache on her head and all those confusing situations has distorted their thoughts, to the point to ignore the limits between reality and a subjective parallel personal experience, independent of what was really happening.

(Such instance made her believe Steven just left.   Possibly to ask for help to Pearl?)

Her head separated from her legs, their arms still wrapping around them though, quickly their white blank eyes pointed behind. He was still here. He spoke again.

Concern, such an abstract conception were completely reflected on the other’s eyes. His gaze, so pure and innocent darting at the one that once has unchained a torturing suffering on him, and their friends as well.

(Regret was starting to crawl on the unstable fibers of her skin).

«I am wrong…     I am hopeless…

(I am starting to think I cannot be good at other thing that would not be dueling—)» She broke in the last words, curling up again as she started to cry loud, her shoulders finally shaking violently.

(I am sorry…)⌋

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The second he had seen Holopearl Steven had known she was not doing well. Every movement had suggested it, from trembling shoulders to tensing arms, right down to the way her legs curled in so tight to her body, as though she hoped to become smaller and smaller until she vanished from existence entirely.  (He had seen another pale gem sit this way once, Holo really was a perfect  mirror of Pearl in some ways, wasn’t she?) Whatever suspicion or doubt may have lingered in his heart when he followed her here disappeared like mist, lifting away for good and being replaced instantly with a thick blanket of worry for the other. With his mind made he did not hesitate. Holo would not be suffering this despair alone.       He watched her hide away at first, and paused to try and figure out how to gain her confidence. Before he could try a single thing however, she had lifted her head again and was glancing back at him with those bright, pixelated eyes. Once upon of time he might have been scared, afraid to be caught in her stare, but now there wasn’t so much as a shred of fear within him. He knew Holo now, he knew she was different, and much to his own surprise...                    He trusted her. Those eyes had frightened him before because before they had seemed empty, devoid of anything akin to emotion, but that was far from the case now. As sparkling tears slid down her cheeks he met her gaze and found that he could see despair there, and pain, and a million other things. She wasn’t a robot anymore. She was her own gem, and she was part of his family. And she was hurting. Immediately he scooted up beside her, so close that he was no more than an inch from being pressed against her side, and there he listened as she spoke.

Her confession of hopelessness made his heart ache. He couldn't help but wonder if he had contributed to that somehow, in his slight nervousness when she first had reappeared... In any case, he would make it up to her now.  “ You aren't hopeless, Holo. I know it seems really hard right now, but you're not hopeless. It’s just a rough patch, that’s all!...” His optimism trailed off as she broke into sobs, the sorrow she’d been holding back finally bursting forth. From the way she choked and cried he could guess this had been building for some time... Had she been feeling this way ever since she’d come back..? Slowly, the small boy leaned over, placing his hand on the hologram’s arm in a gesture of comfort. The cheery, sugary tone in his voice faded a bit, but it was replaced by a genuine warmth, sad and gentle and earnest. “I think you are. You're good at lots of things besides just fighting, you're nice and fun and caring and loyal, you’re really smart too! You have a family now, you’ve got a place with us, even if it’s hard to see sometimes I promise you do. Everyone's still getting used to having you there, but they like you... Especially me.” The last words were slow, but they weren’t uncertain. He meant them absolutely.  The small hand on her arm squeezed a bit, a tiny motion of support from the hybrid boy. “Don't be sorry, it’s okay.. You’re going to be okay.”

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"Write it down" (if that's okay, friend )

          It wasn’t that Lapis couldn’t speak, she just refused to. Not even Steven could convince her to open her mouth and talk. But, well, she was willing to write.

          The ocean gem hesitated before taking the pen in her hand and turning the paper to face her. She struggled a moment– not being very familiar with the written English language– before jotting down two words in a messy scrawl.

                                                                  I’m sorry.

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hivaeth:

          She shook her head rapidly as he spoke– no, no, this was all wrong, this wonderful and loving little boy shouldn’t think that all there was to him was to be a shield. She hated that he was causing him this much stress just because she couldn’t keep her own emotions and breakdowns in check– she was convinced that she was a horrible person, a horrible friend, because of it.

            Lapis was, perhaps, a bit overwhelmed as well as emotionally unstable– she wasn’t used to being loved and cared about, as she hadn’t been genuinely wanted since before the war when everything went to hell. She wished she could make things better, make everything she’d just caused go away forever, but she couldn’t bring herself to talk.

             As tears streamed down her face, she tried in vain to wipe them away with the heel of her hand and force herself to calm down and stop. She’d never cried in front of anyone before, much less Steven, preferring to keep it bottled up until she was alone in some shipwreck and could let it all out without bringing a sledgehammer to everything she’d tried to build up in her time in the mirror. She was supposed to be strong, and angry, and she definitely wasn’t supposed to cry and have a breakdown with her only friend there to witness it.

              And then she felt a warm weight against her, and was stunned momentarily– upon opening her eyes and blinking her way through the haze that tears had left her with, she realized that he was hugging her. Lapis didn’t know how to react at first, had absolutely no clue how to respond to receiving comfort and affection and kindness after all but forgetting the time she’d spent outside of captivity and being a ‘member’ of the Crystal Gems.

               Slender arms quickly wrapped around Steven and held him tightly, a choked sob forcing its way past her throat as she bit down a wail. She was crying harder now, letting it all out like he said it was okay to. Being a gem that thrived off of saltwater, she had a lot more tears to shed than a human or a normal gem– and it probably showed.

               “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry–”

                She couldn’t talk right through the sobs and her constricted throat, but she gave it her best shot, apologizing rapidly.

hivaeth:

          She shook her head rapidly as he spoke– no, no, this was all wrong, this wonderful and loving little boy shouldn’t think that all there was to him was to be a shield. She hated that he was causing him this much stress just because she couldn’t keep her own emotions and breakdowns in check– she was convinced that she was a horrible person, a horrible friend, because of it.

            Lapis was, perhaps, a bit overwhelmed as well as emotionally unstable– she wasn’t used to being loved and cared about, as she hadn’t been genuinely wanted since before the war when everything went to hell. She wished she could make things better, make everything she’d just caused go away forever, but she couldn’t bring herself to talk.

             As tears streamed down her face, she tried in vain to wipe them away with the heel of her hand and force herself to calm down and stop. She’d never cried in front of anyone before, much less Steven, preferring to keep it bottled up until she was alone in some shipwreck and could let it all out without bringing a sledgehammer to everything she’d tried to build up in her time in the mirror. She was supposed to be strong, and angry, and she definitely wasn’t supposed to cry and have a breakdown with her only friend there to witness it.

              And then she felt a warm weight against her, and was stunned momentarily– upon opening her eyes and blinking her way through the haze that tears had left her with, she realized that he was hugging her. Lapis didn’t know how to react at first, had absolutely no clue how to respond to receiving comfort and affection and kindness after all but forgetting the time she’d spent outside of captivity and being a ‘member’ of the Crystal Gems.

               Slender arms quickly wrapped around Steven and held him tightly, a choked sob forcing its way past her throat as she bit down a wail. She was crying harder now, letting it all out like he said it was okay to. Being a gem that thrived off of saltwater, she had a lot more tears to shed than a human or a normal gem– and it probably showed.

               “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry–”

                She couldn’t talk right through the sobs and her constricted throat, but she gave it her best shot, apologizing rapidly.

There was a brief heartbeat of something like limbo, a moment in which Lapis was completely tensed and stiff and Steven was overwhelmed with the cushing fear that he had done the exact wrong thing to do. For a second his heart stopped, and he almost drew away, almost yanked is arms from around her and tried to apologize for not asking, for grabbing her, for thinking that something as silly as a hug could possibly help anyone but him…  And then she was hugging him back. Not just hugging him, even, it felt as though she were clinging to him like her life depended on it. The way she clutched him felt as though she intended to remain there forever, never letting him go, and in this moment he was perfectly alright with that. He wondered if she’s had a hug since she’d been in the mirror, or even before then. How long had it been since someone had been truly affectionate to her…? The question made him tighten his grip a bit, and he chose not to ask. Probably not ever..

He held her even as he felt tears begin to soak into his shirt, pouring forth as if she had the entire ocean pent up inside her, while he just snuggled a little closer. One small hand rubbed her back in a soothing motion, his face pressed into her shoulder as she cried. And he let her cry. He had already decided that he would gladly sit here with her until she was done; if she needed to sit and cling to him and sob all night long he would wait it out with her. With all the internalizing she did, Lapis honestly probably needed the chance to not be strong for once. He was just honored to be the one she so trusted.

“It’s okay Lapis, it’s okay, it’s okay.” For every apology she managed to choke out, he answered with the same soft reassurance. It was okay. It was okay for her to cry, it was okay that Blue Diamond had called, they would find a way to best her. True to the nature of his optimism, Steven truly and utterly believed that despite the odds everything would somehow be alright, and so he told her so. As it went though, his reassurance changed a bit, no longer quite as repetitive.

“Were gonna be safe, all of us. You don’t have to be sorry, it’s alright, you didn’t do bad. You’re good Lapis, you’re a good gem.       I love you.”

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"No more tears. (If that's okay friend c: )

She didn’t understand what was going on with herself other then the fact that she couldn’t full stop. There was a pain that she hadn’t felt before and holding onto her leg and looking to the voice. This was the first time the small gem had fallen from Steven’s room to the floor below.

“It hurts!” She cried keeping her knee to her chest.

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Amethyst Knew Steven was right. He hadn’t lied to her before so why start now? All because she was in pain. She took a deep breath and nodded lightly to him slowly but surely letting her hands fall to show that there was a big bump where her hands were only moments before. She eyed the spot and then looked up to Steven. 

“I-It bad?” She asked a mixture of a sob and a hiccup up coming out as she spoke. She just wanted the pain to go away and trusted Steven to do so. “Wh-what you gonna do?”

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Steven waited nervously as Amethyst thought it over, and was beginning to believe she was going to refuse again right up until she nodded. Instantly he heaved a quiet sigh of relief, smiling at her to help encourage. Anxiously he waited as her hands dropped away from the injury... Oh thank heaven it was only a bump. Granted it was a bad one, bad enough to already be swelling and turning dark, but certainly nowhere near a broken bone or any of the hundred other possibilities he’d feared. His heart untwisted in his chest instantly, his shoulders slumping as his worries faded. Smiling a little more genuinely, he lifted his head to answer the small gem.

”It’s not nearly as bad as I thought, this’ll be easy to fix! It’ll be over in a flash, don't you worry. Now, I have healing powers, so I’m going to fix you up, but they work a little funny, okay? So this is gonna seem a little weird, but you just have to trust me.” And with that little disclaimer for a warning, he promptly licked his hand and pressed it to the bump on her leg, letting his healing spit do its job.

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He was right…with how small she is, she wouldn’t be noticed in a crowd. Maybe they had just assumed… “…okay…” She whispered, wiping her tears away. She sighed as she looked up at him, before glancing around at herself. “Uhm…m-my back…stomach…face…head…”

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Steven smiled as she dried her tears, his expression bearing nothing but warmth and gentleness for what should probably be considered an enemy gem. He had no reason to fear her though, or to believe that she meant him any ill will. Right now she just seemed very lost, and very very alone. She was no threat to him, and he knew it. Homeworld or not, she was just someone who needed a hand.

Her list of injuries was longer than he initially expected; Steven had been so surprised by finding her that he’d managed to overlook how badly wounded she was. Now that he was up close, and she was pointing it out, he could see better how extensive her wounds actually were, and there sure were a lot of them. Not many looked especially serious, mainly scrapes and bruises and small cuts, but there were a couple of larger ones in the mix. This was gonna take a lot of spit.

“O-okay, I can do that. Let’s start with the worst ones though, okay? Can you show me where they are?” Tentatively, he crawled the last bit of distance between them to sit just beside her. His voice growing almost apologetic as he continued. “I’m gonna warn you, the way I heal things is.. kinda weird, and it might be a little uncomfortable, but it’s all I’ve got and I promise it works. You're gonna have to trust me a little bit, and not hurt me, okay?”

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Send me “/)///v///(\” to see how my muse would talk about yours, to another person.

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“Beni is this really cool gem Jasper introduced me to!He's really fun and cheerful, and super nice!Sometimes he has a temper, like when he went after Jasper, but I just think hes tired of bad things happening. It can’t be easy for him to trust too much after everything he’s been through. I still think hes a really great friend, and I even got to heal his gem! I learned that I could heal cracked gems because of him!I wish I got to talk to him more...”

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