Hiding in the volcano

Lizardkin/Birdkin. Messages from ancestors.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Some Years Later, I realize my spiritual experience was an earthly message from earthly ancestors across time, not from otherworldly planes

The growth of demon/devil wings was the manifestation of spiritual rodent wings, the ancestors' way of asking me to learn more about them and to carry on their shamanistic legacy.

Why a rodent? Because the imperialists demonized our local belief systems and so a respected creature, a rodent with wings, became associated with otherwordly planes and of course, evil.

This had been hinted at by one of my dreams of me involuntarily shapeshifting into a large bird and flying fast over a great distance. I had no sense of myself as a bird and was confused for a long time why I had this dream.

Years later I realized that a sacred bird is the central figure in our local belief system.

Imperial rule disrupted our society so the lizard is seen as a sign to turn back, to not complete the journey. It is seen as a punishment to turn into a lizard.

Thus the lizard during imperial rule had become a transgressive symbol. Reptilian shapeshifting, however, was once the purview of powerful shamans holding important roles in our ancient society.

Learning the human history of shapeshifting into animals or other creatures and accepting that I am physically human does not contradict me being lizardkin. The lizardness has always been there, it is just how I have seen it has evolved, from within an imperialist framework, to a framework rooted in centuries of culture and tradition.

The birdness is a request from the ancestors to accept their preferred form, the sacred bird.

I have always related to what has been characterized as the demonic because of that religious story, of the devils being rebels against the heavens. But of course I could not see myself in another fashion, because I felt rootless, without my ancestral memories or a place I could belong.

It turns out the ancestors were calling me home, back to where human society has a strong link with the natural world and it is an auspicious occasion when, for example, a human child is born with a reptile twin.

Back home, non-animal forms are sacred...not sacred according to that religious story, but to our own stories, that have been usurped, distorted, and decimated by imperialists.

Years later, I am still lizardkin, and the acceptance of being sacred birdkin is my agreement with the ancestors to carry on their shamanistic tradition.

To the demonkin/devilkin who follow me, I never intended to mislead you. I was interpreting the spiritual signals from a foreign religious framework instead of my people's own spiritual and cultural framework.

I wish you clarity in your journeys.

This is the last post that I will use the demonkin and associated hasthtags.

-Affectionately, Lizard-bird.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

An Unknown Quality

@locaiintersex

Hello, I don't have the time or resources to get tested to find out if my sex characteristics are natural or because of a pubertal tumor and/or possibly another hormonally active tumor now, so I am grateful for the term locaisex.

The fact we have no flag is comforting to me. No flag, no strict parameters for belonging under this label, no problem.

I finally feel at home.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Perspective as a gendered being

As this is a non-human blog, I haven't used any gendered terms to refer to myself on the blog.

For a long time I felt agender because my human body had not developed much physically.

Now that it has developed somewhat more I most prefer AGAB (assigned gender at birth-less spaces rather than cisgender, traditional transgender, and even traditional nonbinary spaces.

Assumptions are made depending on what a doctor said one was at birth. So better to minimize assumptions by detaching one's gender or genders from the AGAB.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Tuesday is my night for 🐦🍃🐍🦎 This song is "Wolf In Sheep's Clothing" and the lyrics I drew the sigil from are "Karma's gonna come collect your debt." It's a 🦎🐍🍃🐦 to be put on local and state politicians, on whose hands are the illness, death, and/or suffering, of millions. These politicians' negligence of and outright malice towards racialized and Native communities, especially the ones who are incarcerated, incarcerated people in general, poor and unhoused communities, and trans* communities, is inexcusable. May these government officials not escape punishment in this life.

Also, it says a lot, that some of us demons and/or devils, infamously egotistical and narcissistic, give more of a shit about human life than these parasite politicians.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

More music magic! The music is "Time's Scar" from the video game Chrono Cross. A strong theme throughout the game is the six elements named by color: Blue, Green, Yellow, Red, Black, and White, encompassing the elements of Water, Plant/Poison/Wind, Earth, Fire, Gravity/Dark, and Sky/Holy. This specificity makes a bit more sense to me than the traditional four elements. This sigil helps me to focus when I'm trying to use an element outside of my wheelhouse, so Water, Wind, Plant, Sky (but not Earth, which is my tertiary element). As for Holy energy I don't think I can use that. Maybe some other Hell creatures can, but not me. But I can use Sky energy to shapeshift and in my mind's eye, fly long distances in the sky. My demon wings/my devil wings are for flying over only short distances.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Music magic time! I made some sigils based off of some video game music. This song is "Corridors of Time" from Chrono Trigger. This music and the accompanying sigil helps me to focus my objective second sight/clairvoyance so the visions I see outside of scrying are clearer.

[crescentchaos]

nature. it calls to me for some reason. through these shadowed urges, through my own struggles to overcome, the beauty and treasuring of nature falls into my palm softly.

power. it’s like surrounding yourself with things you can’t control. your hands release nothing, your ears small and stubly, your unique attributes gone, leaving you nothing but a shell of your old self.

but that’s okay. it’s time to reclaim that, and bring it back to life. that side of me, that life that I crave, that I miss. the oceans, the fire, the darkness, the misty woods; the feeling of being alone and yet not.

those vintage themes and historical treasures, hay in a wagon; even a walk through the woods. apple picking, or going into a dark cave, finding myself standing in front of thousands of flying sparks of flame that float into the night sky, slowly falling back to become ash.

yet it doesn’t burn; only a dull sting at the reminder of the power I crave to have back. the abilities that I try to do and cannot manage. even my own appearance, it’s but a dream...attainable, but to what cost?

just to go on an adventure, with a group of friends. all of us understand each other in some weird way. we camp out in nature and watch the stars before we sleep, boiling water in a pot we’ve brought, or nestle in a tree to rest. we traverse the land, stopping at villages and continuing on with our unique group; simply moving around.

i miss this.

this has been a ramble 🌊

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Sorry, I kept on referring to phantom wings/tails/horns as astral rather than phantom, I've since corrected that.

I will never willingly go into the Astrals. I've only ever done so involuntarily, and it was always a hostile environment. In the Astrals I'm always a human, but I haven't wound up in the Astrals after I realized I was kin, so I don't know whether or not I can shapeshift in the Astrals, nor do I care to know. There was a force that was trying to tear my soul out from my body. A lady in the Astrals played jarring music and then shrieked loud in my ear to try to destroy my eardrums. There was hardly a time I was in the Astrals where I wasn't filled with dread or terror. When I landed in the Astrals I just knew I was in the wrong dimension and the formless beings were converging onto me from all sides.

Even though now that I have learned magic in this life, I might be able to protect myself, the Astrals aren't a place I want to land in again.

I wonder if it's because I willingly tormented others in my previous life, that the Astrals are awful for me to go to. Maybe I actually know some of those beings, who then exacted their revenge by filling me with blood-freezing terror.

[iclosed]

the many faces of saturn

the archetypes have many faces. mercury is not just about being a tricker and the moon doesn’t cry all the time. we’re predisposed to seeing mostly those faces of the archetypes which are strongly expressed in our chart and often remain blind to the rest. 

how do archetypes express their different sides most clearly? through aspects. in this post, i’m gonna go quickly over the expressions of saturn, one of the most multifaceted gods. it’s very easy to conclude saturn is one-dimensional and lacks complexity since it’s an archetype known for its connection to limitations and respect for clear and direct laws and authority. that’s why we often forget how complicated structures, one of the main things associated to the saturn archetype, are.

saturn is also connected to conflict. yes, we’re used to think about mars when it comes to confrontations or about mercury when it comes to arguments and debates. but saturn really steps in when things are about to get tense. this is not the martian way of stepping up face to face to the problem and telling it to shut the fuck up. this is not the mercurian propensity to turn everything into an intellectual butting of heads or the jupiterian inclination for endless philosophical debates where they get the final word. no, this is about friction between two opposing archetypes that you can’t turn away from before you raise your level.

i’m gonna explain this a bit. saturn is, in its very nature, an androgynous archetype. just like mercury. this means it combines two opposing principles - this is also what it teaches us how to do. that’s why when saturn is aspecting a planet, it’s there to teach that planet how to balance its nature with the exact polarity of its nature in order to attain its most perfect and elevated expression. saturn pushes you to gaze into the abyss of the negative expression of every archetype it aspects and to work hard on managing it and containing it. and to use it for your own good rather than just run from it. 

that’s why saturn demands conflict. it doesn’t let you turn away from the tension and it keeps you in its chokehold. “choke me daddy”, as the memes would say lmao

let’s have a look at the polarities it underlines when it aspects the planets.

sun in aspect to saturn - expression of the self vs control of the self. if you consciously develop the sun more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to rebuke anything you perceive as an attempt to restrict your self-expression, identity, and needs of the ego. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to suffocate your desire to shine and express yourself authentically and to live feeling as if you’re not fulfilling your creative & individual potential. the key to balance is use control on the self not as a form of restriction but as a way to direct your growth and expression in the direction that you authentically feel inclined to take.

moon in aspect to saturn - nurturing the inner child vs telling it to behave. if you consciously develop the moon more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to expect everyone to baby you and go around calling everyone who isn’t eager to be your emotional slave “toxic” - you might also focus hard on meeting everyone else’s emotional needs and on making them feel completely comfortable, thus disregarding your own comfort. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to scold yourself for every emotional expression or even for feeling anything and to expect the world to always treat you coldly, which will make you react to it with the same harshness. there will be a feeling of “the world is hostile so it’s not safe for my soft parts to be out there”. the key to balance is to let yourself feel emotions without trying to restrict them or encourage them in the process and to take a more analytical approach afterwards when you decide whether you need to provoke more of this feeling in your life or to learn how to avoid it.

mercury in aspect to saturn - theory vs practice. also known as intellect vs experience. if you consciously develop mercury more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you are going to focus too much on rationalizing things and analyzing them, leaving behind any practical understanding of the matter. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you will scoff at people who don’t have substance behind their theories and speak without experiencing something first. you may be inclined to disregard the power of the mind and to be the kind of person that wants material proof of everything and “won’t believe it until i see it”. the key to balance is to accept the importance of both functions and to put them to work together - theorize boldly but then try to apply it in practice or freely analyze your experience in order to crystallize their essence.

venus in aspect to saturn - loving yourself & others as they are vs pushing yourself/them to be better so you/they are deserving of love. if you consciously develop venus more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to lack the drive to develop your gifts because you’re going to feel like what you have now is enough. there is a tendency to stay in bad relationships because it’s easy for you to see the beauty in everyone and to not demand anything better. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to struggle with maintaining a healthy self-esteem and you’ll find it extremely difficult to love and accept yourself. you’re going to feel like you’re never good enough - the same might be seen in your relationships with other people, you’re often focusing on their weaknesses and pushing them to be better, forgetting to celebrate their strengths. the key to balance is to learn the importance of every stage in life and that living in the present is vital for creating the future - love the Self that lives in the now because she is the creator of the Self you’d love to be in the future. the artist is just as important as the artwork and in the end, they are one and they have been one all along.

mars in aspect to saturn - acting on impulse vs planning. if you consciously develop mars more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to look down on all sorts of thought out and structured long-term investments and actions and lack impulse control, acting mostly on your instinctive drive. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to feel your impulsive drive constantly restricted and as if you constantly have to restrain your instinctive urges like some sort of wild animal. there is a difficulty in starting any action. the key to balance is learn how to harness the impulse so it can drive the plan forward. know yourself better and learn how your impulses arise and why - then be prepared to use them when it happens in a way that benefits your goals.

jupiter in aspect to saturn - puer aeternus (the eternal boy) vs the old man. if you consciously develop jupiter more or it’s more prominent in the chart, you’re going to experience difficulties settling down and being responsible, you’re going to feel as if everything is trying to “tie you down” and is an obstacle to your personal freedom. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to purposefully restrict your freedom and constantly create structures and hierarchies that give you the feeling of stability that you crave. a part of you, the part of unlimited creative potential, may feel suffocated. the key to balance is to understand they are both sides of the same coin and can’t live without one another. the old man can teach the eternal boy how to realize his creative potential and the eternal boy can help the old man reconnect with that part of us that feels free and just experiences life without judgement or limitations.

uranus in aspect to saturn - the perfect world of the spirit and the mind vs the flawed and mortal world of matter and physical incarnation. if you consciously develop uranus more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to seek out an escape or a way to defeat the messy world of emotions and matter and you will live mostly in your head, denying yourself the rest of life. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to try to castrate the immortal and limitless world of ideas and abstractions and to deny yourself the power of rebellion against the prison of matter. the key to balance is to channel the hunger for perfection into incarnating physically that world of ideas and abstractions - can be through your work or your art. this is a generational aspect so it affects on a less personal level.

neptune in aspect to saturn - perception vs judgement. if you consciously develop neptune more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re focusing too much on understanding others and putting yourself in their shoes. this emphasized connection to the entirety of the human consciousness may drain you and leave you unable to define and defend your own boundaries, to choose what is good for you as opposed to what is good for others - sometimes we all need to make that choice if we don’t wanna turn into doormats. and this kind of behavior can be extremely damaging for the people around you too, not just yourself. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to put effort into shutting yourself away from anything that makes you feel connected to the whole and a part of everything. you may be too cautious of who you let close to you and who you approve of in general and to judge everything harshly, thinking everyone is always out to get you. the key to balance is to perceive the world in its wholeness and to judge what is best for every part of the whole, realizing that everyone deserves to be happy and satisfied without someone having to sacrifice themselves for it. this is a generational aspect so it affects on a less personal level.

pluto in aspect to saturn - tearing yourself down vs building yourself up. if you consciously develop pluto more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’re going to always seek out for ways to destroy yourself even by creating drama and harmful situations/relationships for yourself in order to become someone else, someone stronger and more powerful. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you will be stuck on bettering and maintaining structures that are no longer necessary or useful just because you don’t want to destroy what you’ve invested time & effort in. the key to balance is to work on knowing yourself better so you can pick which structures of your life/personality are needed and which aren’t and to fearlessly destroy those that serve no purpose, building the new ones from scratch. this is a generational aspect so it affects on a less personal level.

ascendant in aspect to saturn - who you are vs who you think you should be. there is a limiting quality to your self-expression and fear of being judged for behaving in a way that’s not approved by whoever you see as an authority. if you consciously develop your ascendant more or it’s stronger in your chart, you may develop quite a scandalous reputation or appear as someone inconsiderate and uncooperative. you may give off a “i will not give you what you want” vibe that pushes people away subconsciously. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you may restrict yourself painfully and feel like you’re suffocating from pretending you’re someone you’re not. you’re the voice of the inner judge that is constantly scolding you for being who you are and giving off the wrong message. the key to balance is in self-reflection - you need to learn how to discern between who someone else wants you to be, who you are and who you want yourself to be. certainly there are traits that others want you to be that you aspire to develop for yourself simply because it will elevate the Self you are now. instead of adopting those traits out of fear for being judged or abandoned or alienated, focus on filtering out those that truly don’t match your authentic desires and on trying to develop those that you find worth in.

north node in aspect to saturn - the road ahead vs blocks and obstacles. if you consciously develop your north node more or it’s more prominent in your chart, you’re going to rush forward to fulfill your life purpose without stopping to learn the lessons that the path is actually paved with. and that sorts of…defeats the purpose. if you consciously develop saturn more or it’s more dominant in your chart, you’ll be so stuck on removing any barier from your way and on dealing with your hardships that you’ll get carried away from actually moving forward and from remembering you have aspirations you wanna reach. the key to balance is to deal with obstacles in the way that the person you imagine yourself to be after fulfilling your life purpose would deal with them. that’s how you become them.

/conjunctions, oppositions and squares will be felt the strongest and demand attention; trines and sextiles are more balanced in general but there is still work to be done; inconjunctions often manifest in your life in ways that you’re not quite aware of and need extra conscious effort to be noticed/

[reclaimedlizardbird]

So I've never ridden the Hedge, and don't plan to, partially because the risk is too great, and partially because I've received plenty of information from other planes as it is.

The first time I heard from another plane was through art and writing. I felt like the painting was being painted through me and the story was being written through me rather than by me, which is different from when I struggle and sweat to construct a painting or a story using my own frame of reference or an earthly frame of reference. I heard the official term for it is called channeled writing.

Second way, which is most common for me is through subjective clairaudience, where visitors from other planes speak to me through my mind's ear.

The third is a bit difficult to explain. It's not controlled like visualization, it's not Hedge Riding, more like a light trance where part of my soul is still in my body and the other part makes a journey to an in-between plane. If the Astrals and the Hedge are solely the other beings' turf, this intermediary plane between the Hedge and this plane is like neutral ground where we can meet and exchange information more directly. Either this, or I was somehow in the other person's home plane while still being in my home plane simultaneously, which is bizarre. Normally the visions in my mind's eye are of other planes, and of people from another plane visiting this plane, and I usually can perceive them objectively, but only very faintly. For this particular instance, I saw myself in human form in my mind's eye going to meet with this person from another realm, clear as day. The point of view was third person, so that's why I believe a portion of my soul left and travelled to this intermediary spot. I know I was travelling and not visualizing because it was involuntary. My clairaudience, though still subjective clairaudience, was very sharp, and the other person's voice was resounding in my mind. The person was directly beside me rather than how the person usually communicates, which is from the person's home plane. I'm not sure if I was able to travel while still partially in my body because my soul is a demon's/a devil's, or because it's a common witch ability, it just hasn't been described in official terms.

I'll map it out:

Consciousness/this plane

Semi-consciousness/Light trance leading to being able to travel involuntarily to intermediary plane between the Hedge and this plane.

Out of Body: Hedge Riding, Astral Projection

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Shifts. So I describe a lot of otherkin occurrences intuitively, but I realized it's good to describe them with the specific terminology that's already been developed.

So what I've experienced is:

Sensory shift: when I suddenly became aware of the shadows, that the shadows too have a life force just like plants, flames, streams, and wind. At first I was afraid, because the shadows are a living presence that I just noticed when I hadn't before. After I realized I'm demonkin, I was able to use the shadows and the night to psychically heal myself. It helps with my insomnia and reminds me that I'm a devil comfortable in the shadows and at night.

Aura shift: I couldn't see the actual color of my aura for most of my life, it was this kind of blurry haze. The first time I used fire magic to psychically set myself on psychic fire, then I could see that my aura is yellow light in the shape of flames. I think I might have been using the fire of my aura to use fire magic, because I wasn't drawing on an external energy source like I would for water magic or wind magic.

Phantom shift: When I grow my devil wings, tail, and horns. The tail is the most consistent, it's always long and black ending at an arrow-shaped point. The wings are usually black and the part facing outward is gray but they also are sometimes yellow, sometimes red, and when I feel my best they are black and part facing outward is red. My horns range from small goat horns to upward-facing bull horns turned outwards at the ends. When I'm feeling proud, the horns are black.

The claws are black as well, I don't see them often.

Sometimes I can induce my arms and hands to become covered with shadow. But I'm guessing that's shapeshifting because it's voluntary. I have never seen my whole devil form except for in my mind's eye, where it was an involuntary flash.

Cameo shift: Most common cameo shifts for me are phantom earthly lizard or lizard monster tails. Occasionally, dragon wings, and it's always a gray dragon. The dragon tail usually appears separately and it's a lot longer than my devil tail. It feels strange. Very rarely, my wings shift to angel wings, which is horrifying but soon the feathers fall off and they are devil wings once again.

Dream shift: During my dreams, my shifts are always cameo shifts, sometimes lucid dreams and I can control the shift, other times not.

Voluntary: Manatee

Semi-voluntary: Frog, through a magic talisman given by my frog grandmother, but I activated the transformation.

Involuntary: Bird wings, but I was able to control where I flew. I flew fairly near the ground.

Mental shift: Feeling of great confidence, strength, of wisdom, the sense of being ancient, feeling mischievous glee, and feeling not only competence but mastery over certain knowledge or skills.

Mental cameo shift: Lizard monster, I shift to the perspective of an earthly lizard while in the psychic form of a lizard monster. Cameo shift is phantom tail only, the whole form of the cameo shift is in my mind's eye. I have not ever shifted into a dragon in my mind's eye, though I have sometimes gained a dragon's perspective while maintaining my separate consciousness.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

How I visualize my mind's eye when it opens. I've always skewed towards vision when it comes to the mind-senses, which makes it easy for me to visualize and do magic, but my reliance on my mind-vision makes it difficult to distinguish visions of other planes, of which I see many, from past life. I was finally able to recognize past life and it had the following dissimilarities with the visions:

Visions:

Are clear, but I feel like I am receiving new details, as I look further around on that plane.

I have trouble taking a first-person perspective. It often shifts to a third-person perspective and stays there for a long time. I might follow a particular inhabitant on that plane and thus gain multiple perspectives. I absorbed the particularly strong points of view and got confused, thinking it was a past life.

Uncertainty. I had to feel my way around the plane, trying to figure out if the inhabitant on that plane is me, trying to study my reactions to the inhabitant, if their experiences felt familiar. A lot of uncertainty.

Affinity. I had an affinity towards these lifeforms, and mistook them for past lives.

Past life: Only a bit of information, location, feelings. I gained no new information about the plane (Hell).

Consistent first-person perspective.

Certainty. I knew the moment I saw my demon/my devil form in Hell, that that was me, and that Hell was my home before Earth.

Phantom wings, tail. Regarding most of the lifeforms I initially thought myself to be, I didn't grow a phantom tail. The other times I grew a phantom tail, it did not match the rest of the body of the lifeforms I initially thought myself to be, as if I was approximating the tail without actually knowing what the owner of the tail looked like. It was only my demon/my devil wings and tail which matched the form in my mind's eye: my original form.

No affinity. I've never had an affinity towards demons or even flying creatures in general. I was shocked and a little freaked out when my phantom wings emerged. I don't particularly like the edgy aesthetic associated with Hell creatures: as I said, I like bright colors. When I identified as an earthly lizard or even a lizard on another plane, something felt wrong, as if I had gotten it only half-right. I kept on coming back to feeling like I was some kind of lizard monster, because my phantom tail was always that of a lizard. I have an affinity towards earthly lizards and I could mentally shift into an animal lizard, but not into a lizard monster. And having an affinity towards lizards in my case, means that I wasn't an earthly lizard. The final piece of the puzzle fell into place when my demon/my devil tail emerged, and that explained why I had persistent feelings of being specifically a lizard monster: I was very unremarkable in Hell, but was a monster on Earth.

My own criteria for identifying my past life might be a little weak, but aside from the phantom wings and tail, it was the very vagueness, that lack of detail, that confirmed it for me as my past life. I don't think I was meant to remember too much anyway, because when I was physically a demon/a devil, I was actively malicious, and constantly adversarial. I could touch lava with my claws and had no shortage of fire to throw around that I materialized. I was always wickedly gleeful at something and I used to hate both Earth beings and Heaven beings. Obviously, now as physically human I can get along with both a lot of Earth people and some Heaven people now, though in general, I still distrust the Gods. It's interesting that I'm never able to see Heaven/Above World in my mind's eye, my perspective is limited, even limited in that I have few memories of Hell, but I have all the emotions that come with adjusting to Earthly, human life.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Misconceptions about demons and devils: having a consistent affinity towards dark colors. Of course the Inferno is dark and the way I remember it it's full of fire and rocks and not much else, and that's why I personally like pinks and greens and green-blues, there is a lot of variety of colors on Earth. What I don't like is the cold. Even being physically human I have a low tolerance for cold and I set myself on astral fire just to beat the cold, leading to mixed results in that I was on psychic fire for several days afterwards. I tried everything to put out the psychic fire: psychic cascades of water, a psychic blizzard, even visualizing myself buried in the cool earth. Eventually I stopped being on psychic fire but since then I haven't set myself completely on psychic fire again, only partially. It's therefore nice to see energies and objects that are not fire or darkness and to appreciate all the millions of different colors in flowers, trees, water, and the sky.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

While I like both night and day, you can find really deep shadows during the day that you can use for shadow magic. You can visualize the shadows swirling up from the ground like streams of water. I draw upon the energy of shadows to reduce my anxiety. I visualize myself absorbing the shadow energy and growing stronger.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

I hope that everyone's having/had a good Full Moon! 🌕 The Moon is something we can all appreciate, venerate, or worship, regardless of whether we're from Hell, Earth, or Heaven! Of course, many night creatures have a particular affinity to the Moon. I do have a hard time asking the Full Moon for its blessing, but I can appreciate the Full Moon, even though I flourish during the New Moon where the darkness is at its height and I can draw upon the darkness' energy like drawing upon the energy of fire, earth, air, and water.

[fallen--flower]

Reblog if you ARE a FALLEN ANGEL, SUPPORT FALLEN ANGELS, or SOMETIMES FEEL LIKE SMACKING GOD WITH A BIG STICK

[reclaimedlizardbird]

I definitely get this. I support fallen angels, they tend to be kinder to demons/devils, are more critical of the divine authority, and are just generally cool overall.

[reclaimedlizardbird]

Hi, I realized definitively that my soul is a nonhuman soul, a demon's/a devil's. I had the feeling years ago that my soul is nonhuman, but because I'm a shapeshifter, (numerous cameo shifts) I was able to take on several different phantom tails and got confused as to who I was for awhile. Now I'm no longer confused and realize I'm a demon/a devil in a human body. I like hanging out with some angels and demons. I also practice magic. It's not nearly as effective as when I was physically a demon/a devil and able to wield physical fire, but it's amazing how strong psychic fire is. I hope to make friends with other infernal creatures as well as heavenly beings, or other nonhuman souls whether mystical, animal, or both.