Hold still right before we crash.

Mason James Mccarthy • 18 • taken by eli ♥ Congratz, you have found the blog of the most badass ex male cheerleader you will ever meet. I'm Mason McCarthy, but you probably already knew that. I love music, I play guitar, sing, dance and partying is also one of my many McCarthy talents. I think I'm pretty much an ordinary 18 year old with some extradordinary talents (Not trying to toot my own horn...), except I'm living in the loony bin for reasons that are totes stupid.

[life-is-an-art]

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We’re a perfect match, perfect somehow.

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: Just talked to me about my family... nothing too bad but it was a sore spot. I'm sorry that they do. They pull out some annoying topics sometimes to talk about, huh?

Eli: That's gotta be cute, him all curled up in the grass. Any favorites of the day that you've played? I mean... I could. I'm enjoying my room though, and it's quiet. But I can, sure. As soon as I calm down more.

Eli: I love you.

Mason: What did he say about your family? Yeah they do, sad stuff mostly. Sometimes I don't know what to answer.

Mason: I guess so, I wanted to play with him but he wasn't feeling it. Can't blame him for being tired though. Um, I played some Oasis songs. Maybe fresh air will help? I don't know. I can come to you instead if you want me to.

Mason: I love you too, shawty

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: I just feel gross, and kinda confused... therapist guy scrambled my head a little bit and made me feel kinda anxious.

Eli: That's good to hear, I'm glad the weather is nice. How's Freddie doing? What did you play on your guitar? Nothing... just in my room. I miss you right now, which is dumb because you're literally in the same building as me but I do.

Mason: Anxious? What did he say to you then? Something bad? They sometimes make me confused as well with all the talking.

Mason: Sleeping mostly, the sun is making him lazy. I played a lot of songs. Do you want to come outside too? Then you don't have to miss me and stuff.

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: I don't feel good... and talking to you always makes me feel better. So, how's your day going? What have you been up to?

Mason: Wait, why don't you feel good?

Mason: Um, it's going okay-ish? I'm outside with Freddie and the weather is nice and stuff. Played guitar for a bit. What's up with you?

[elijahoakley-blog]

Wonderwall || Elison

Who: Mason McCarthy & Elijah Oakley When: Saturday Evening: May 7th, 2016 Where: Eli’s Bedroom Summary: Mason and Eli do some kinky things, and then get all cute and happy…. like for once they aren’t sad. This is a milestone guys. Warnings:  Mentions of BDSM at the beginning, sex bruising. 

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[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: It can be today if you like... later? I mean, I assume we would anyway considering... yea. In a bit?

Eli: I guess so.

Eli: We could always fix that you know... as soon as possible on that too.

Mason: Yes! I'll be there in a bit.. or maybe a little longer. Need to make my hair look nice.

Mason: Not I guess so.. I mean it, he can probably help you and stuff with your uh, problems.

Mason: Um right, that would be totes fair, since you made me feel like that and all.

Mason: ..Can I put them on you like, /really/ tight?

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: The second we're in each other's presence.

Eli: It's complicated Mase... it's just how we are.

Eli: Kinky.

Eli: Good, because I really really love you a lot.

Mason: Um okay, I hope that's like really really soon.

Mason: Maybe you two just need to talk more without getting mad and stuff.

Mason: Kinky.. and distracting. I'm like horny now and it's your fault..

Mason: I love you to the moon and back~

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: If I could hold out my pinky to you right now I would.

Eli: He is nice, to a lot of people. I've just known him to long, he gets on my nerves and I on his.

Eli: ahhh... by what?

Eli: By the way... I love you.

Mason: Pinky swear next time you seem me??

Mason: Um, but why? What do you not like about him, and what doesn't he like about you?

Mason: Um.. just.. thinking about you.. uh, handcuffed to the bed and stuff >

Mason: I love you too

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: Yep, a promise.

Eli: He's not mean to me, no. We just never got along much.

Eli: Yea, I think I'm in the mood for that kind of a set up tonight.

Mason: Pinky promise?

Mason: Why not? He seems nice so far.

[a few minutes later]

Mason: That's totes hot.. sorry uh, got distracted for a bit..

[loyal-lulu-blog]

I mean… it was definitely part of why I didn’t push myself to try, but I also didn’t go because it was outside. I’m always awake at night these days, so… I can keep you company a bit and try to help you stay wakeful. Why aren’t we sleepin’, babe?

[recoveringmason]

Wait, so you’re like still in your room all the time and stuff? Doesn’t that get boring though? I just don’t like sleeping anymore.. I always have nightmares, really scary nightmares. Why aren’t you sleeping, Niamh?

[harrison-miller]

Mommy and daddy lost any kind of seniority they had over me the second I turned 18. I was allowed to move facilities, since I’m not refusing treatment just seeking a better option. It’s not a dream, sweet pea. Don’t go barging into random people’s rooms! Having flash backs isn’t a good thing either, whoever this Eli is needs to stop trying to do other people’s jobs. Don’t be scared to talk to this Dr. Morgan, that kind of stuff is what he’s here for, okay? And anything you feel you can’t tell him I’m here to listen to. Always am. And don’t be embarrassed, it’s just me. You know I never judge you for anything less than who I already know you to be.

[recoveringmason]

So are you saying that mom and dad don’t know? This is sorta a lot to take in. You’re here, you’re really here! Like. I’m excited about that really, I miss you a lot! It’s been like over a year now?? Can’t you just come into my room so I know that you’re not a dream? Oh.. Eli is like my boyfriend, but he used to be a therapist so he knows his stuff. I have talked to Dr. Morgan in the past and he’s nice I guess. I just don’t want him to think I’m crazy or anything, because I’m not, and I don’t want to stay here even longer. I’m still sorry.. I wish I was stronger, you know..

[rodermeeks]

What would make you feel good right now? I’ve mostly been worried about my boyfriend, but he’s leaving his room and talking again, so… progress. To stay awake, I take a lot of walks. Outside is good because it’s cold at night. I set alarms on my phone to go off every hour so if I do fall asleep, I don’t sleep deeply. The deeper the sleep, the more likely I’ll have nightmares or sleepwalk. I don’t really strip as a hobby, so I don’t know.

[recoveringmason]

Going home, obviously. Not having flashbacks would help a lot, even if they aren’t dangerous, according to Eli. Would also love it if my boyfriend was less sad about everything. I didn’t know you had a boyfriend too. Those sound like some helpful tips, I’ll totes try them out. Any idea on how to feel less exhausted, without sleeping? I have nightmares too, which is why I don’t wanna sleep either. Oh, you just don’t like clothes?

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: Right... obviously.

Eli: Yea, he's great at his job. My dad loves him, thinks he's one of the best who's interned for him. I personally don't ike him though.

Eli: No, definitely something.. uh... cuffs maybe? Not really in the mood for the rope burn.

Mason: Is that a promise then?

Mason: Why don't you like him? Is he mean to you?

Mason: Oohh, does that like mean that you wanna be the one that gets tied up? :P

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: ... You know, you're right. It's bad, and I shouldn't even bother looking for that stuff. I should probably steer clear of whatever people that do that... who would it be that does? They should probably be stopped or something.

Eli: Yea he did... and I wouldn't doubt it if I'll have to soon anyway. But, I'm not voluntarily signing up to be taken care of by the shithead.

Eli: Whatever you want, babe.

Mason: Um, the ones that look really shady? I don't know, I always asked you, remember? I steer clear from the scary looking people. You should do the same.

Mason: Um, the shithead? Didn't you just say her was really good?? I'm confused.

Mason: ..Or neither.

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: I'm not having this conversation, Mason. Besides, you know I can't.

Eli: Dr. Morgan? Cool, that's nice. He's really good at what he does, so you're in good hands okay? Who knows? Might as well give it a shot.

Eli: Kinky... yea sure.

Mason: Why not? You probably could if you wanted to.. which I assume you do. People smuggle stuff in here all the time. Just promise me, please..

Mason: He used to mentor you when you were an intern, right? Maybe you should talk to him too, since you already know him.

Mason: Ropes or cuffs? ;)

[recoveringmason]

Text ✉ Elison

Eli: Right, yea.

Eli: I'll figure that all out, therapist myself or something. I have the training. It doesn't matter though, because we were talking about you anyway. You aren't crazy Mason, you just need a little bit of assistance.

Eli: I won't be sad in my sleep. I won't be anything in my sleep. And I'd really like to sleep in your room with you, if that's what you need. It would possibly make things easier on my end.

Mason: I mean it.. please don't do that..

Mason: I heard today that I have a new therapist, Dr. Morgan. I talked to him once previously and he's nice, I guess. Is therapisting yourself a thing you can do?

Mason: Okay, then let's try that.. maybe it will help. If not, we could always have sex to stay awake.

[rodermeeks]

It’s just difficult to find things to be excited about most days, don’t you think? I spend most of my time worrying and not sleeping.

[recoveringmason]

I don’t know, I still get excited when something good happens, it’s just that not a lot of good things have been happening lately. Not for me, at least. What are you worried about? And same, about the not sleeping stuff. Do you have any tips on how to stay awake? Like, does stripping actually help with that?