Death was based on luck? Was he drunk? Who was lucky to die? The only time Bo would consider death to be lucky, was if you died of old age or natural causes. Not eaten by titans, or by an enemy. Death is inevitable in any sense, not just by being in the Survey Corps. Bo leaned forward, her arms crossed on the table. She eyed him for a moment. Did he really think he needed to lecture her about her isolation?
She smirked softly. āMy parents are dead, Captain. You wouldnāt have anyone to write to. Much less anyone to write about,ā Boās other problem was that she thought very little of herself. Another reason she isolated. She didnāt want anyone telling her that her life mattered when it didnāt. āI donāt need or want anyone to save me. You think just because you went through something similar, otherwise you wouldnāt be talking to me at all, that you can lecture me about trust?ā
Bo knew she was out of line and would promptly be punished in some way by Erwin and or Levi. But she hated how he thought they were anything alike. To someone on the outside, they were. But in Boās mindā¦there were no similarities between them.
Well, this is a really tough case. Not only did she not have people to hold on to and want to survive, she was also stubborn and could easily cross the line of subordination. It was a bit annoying.
"So you came here to die behind the walls, did I understand correctly? No courage to end your miserable life with your own hands?"
This also went beyond the scope of subordination. But since she wants it that way, so be it.
"I can talk to Erwin and you will be kicked out of Survey Corps by evening. And then you can go to the garrison and throw yourself off the wall to the delight of the titans. We don't need suicides that can kill people who have families. You want to die "It's up to you, but try to exchange your life for the lives of your comrades, but not the other way around. Despite everyone's opinion, we are not just feeding ourselves to the titans here."
He was silent for a moment.
"I was the same. I walled myself off from everyone except my two friends. And on my first mission, they died because of me. Therefore, I do not want my comrades to die because of someone's selfishness or desire to die. We are a team, a single mechanism. And if this mechanism breaks, it is likely that more people will die than they could. If people die because of you, but you survive, can you live with it?"
