"HE WOULDN'T DIE A LIE."

neil josten lover, tea-drinker, mediocre writer, rikoneil shipper

[redravened]

#REDRAVENED

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BLOOD- SERIES

-> BLOODLUST | multi-ch | andreil, serial killer neil, raven au, t4t andreil, MAJOR angst | 10/30ch | 34k

-> BLOODLINE | on hold, multi ch | andreil, hunger games au, jostwins au | 2/20?

-> BLOODBOUND | on hold, multi-ch | andreil, ichineil, memory loss, raven au, after tkm | currently being revamped lol

-> BLOODBORNE | coming soon | vampire neil, andreil | unreleased...

DIVINE INTERVENTION

-> DIVINE INTERVENTION | lowk on-hold | lesbian andreil, butch/femme (sue me) angel/demon | 52k

ONESHOTS

-> keep the change | coffee shop au, soft andreil, fluff, comfort no hurt, very cutesy idk | 5.8k | 1/1

-> he says to be cool but, i'm already coolest | cheating au | past riko-neil (neil cheats on him), smut, bottom neil | like 3k

-> hot to go | pizza delivery au, mafia restaurant coverup au, no smut, no-exy au | unreleased

-> high on helium | psych ward au | lesbian andreil | dead dove, good ending, hurt/comfort | unreleased

-> a girl like me | but im a cheerleader au | lesbian andreil | a little bit of smut, bottom neil, butch/femme yk the deal | unreleased....

-> paint white roses red | psych ward au | normal gayboy andreil | tbh its the same as the other one they're just boys | bad ending, hurt no comfort, dead dove | punishing them cause theyre boys | unreleased

-> exy simulator | css game-like fic | andreil | long ass oneshot, gonna take a while | unreleased

-> cherry ice | redraven (rare) | high school au where neil and riko have to raise an egg baby together | unreleased

[soyaa19]

"Everything must have a reason." Riko Moriyama

[officialgleamstar]

you characterize that man as a strict domtop because you think he’s domineering and suave. i characterize that man as a strict domtop because i think he’s repressed and weird about penetration. we are not on the same team

[officialgleamstar]

you characterize that man as a strict domtop because you think he’s domineering and suave. i characterize that man as a strict domtop because i think he’s repressed and weird about penetration. we are not on the same team

[redravened]

thinking about mary hatford.

wide-eyed young british girl coming from old mafia money meeting this suave polish man with flaming hair and stunning blue eyes. Too charming to be true but to alluring to leave - he promises her freedom from her family, from this life she didn't choose. He's a millionaire, he's handsome, and she's young and beautiful and she'll be safe. His smile doesn't reach his eyes - she ignores it.

She meets his parents - odd crooked smiles and thick polish accents, welcoming nevertheless. They die soon after. She finds bloods on his suits and cuffs, his house smells like metal and the air near his basement's thick with something nasty. She ignores it.

They get married, a gorgeous ceremony which her family begrudgingly attends - and then he turns on her. He's a demon - he locks her up in their bedroom, bruises on her skin and blood in her teeth. His money is of blood and his tales of inheritance were lies. She cries and cries and cries, wishing she hadn't ignored it all. But Mary's not stupid. She knows how to run.

One bag to her name, for he'd confiscated her money, and a loaded gun in her waistcoat. The day of her almost departure she feels nauseous - she blames it on stress before she upends her guts into the toilet.

Baby Nathaniel - named after the bastard, of course. But she got his middle name - Abram, always her Abram. He looked just like his father, but walked the same height as his mother. Inherited his horrible temper, but she had tried her best to beat it out of him.

They were going to take him away - they couldn't, not her Abram. If he failed, failed their damned test of their stupid little sport, he could die. Running with him was dangerous, but Mary knew how to run properly. One bag for both of them and a loaded gun, just like all those years ago, though her beauty was aged by postpartum and her soul-sucking husband.

Him and his lackies catch up to them after twenty identities - Chris McCann and his aunt Sheila. Mary is cornered, and she knows she won't make it. She throws herself into a car and tells Abram to drive for his life - one of them had to make it. It was never going to be her.

She tries to hold on, she really does. Abram drives fast and well, she's ever so proud of him. But her vision is spotting black and her blood is running out, out, out, out. Mary Hatford is out. She's gone. She dies with hopes that Abram could make it, make himself happy, make his own life.

One of them had to.

(thesis moodboard)

[redravened]

lesbian andreil palmetto psych ward au you are NOT lost on me... 💔

[nyaar0n]

raffle prize for @rottenroyal !

[bastam]

spent the whole day trying so hard not to be evil and pissed off but when I was taking the bus back today there was a white lady with her enormous black lab (not a guide dog or an emotional support dog, no harness no fucking nothing) sprawled out in the middle of the narrow bus aisle, you know, the one people use to get to their seats. Harassed and beet red mothers were compassionately having to coach their squealing shrieking kids into stepping over this dog without stomping directly on its tail and paws. a coordinated activity that children are famously known for being extremely skilled at. old arthritic ladies were having to do the equivalent of the long jump with their fucking canes to get to the back of the bus. And the woman was doing jackshit and not even addressing the fact that her dog was lying down like a polar bear rug in an animated villain's castle, legs akimbo, tail completely covering the direction of the next empty seat. Anyway I started to get pissed off but I calmed down like idfk maybe this woman's stupid. we need to be nicer to stupid people. That's what people say, don't they? That you have to be nice. You gotta be a nice, polite little fella to everyone. Smart or stupid. However then the bus stopped and idled at a corner for a grand spanking half an hour while the bus driver talked to another bus driver about how HIS bus had broken down and how he's so mad he doesn't know what to do and how was your day, oh and uh, come to think of it, how's that cousin of yours, etc etc. keep in mind she's still on the fucking route. every five minutes or so she says well, I'm on the clock, gotta get moving. But she doesn't. A whole half hour winks by like the god of frustration showing you a glimpse of his butthole as he jumps over the moon. Passengers are getting restless. I'm already yelling shit from the back of the bus over the top of their conversation like "sergeant I have been ordered to bring this bus to a standstill until we receive further communication from headquarters. Only a mile ahead we have begun construction of a blockade as we have reason to believe the enemy is lying in wait in the forests of hill sector 2.4. Reconnaissance has not returned. It is currently 0500 hours and I intend to waste as much civilian time as possible until someone comes along and kills me", which eventually started to freak the bus driver out and got her moving. Lady with the dog thought I was schizophrenic and jerked the leash out of the aisle, choking her animal self-protectively and allowing me to pass without accidentally curb stomping her dog. I tried so hard not to be evil and crazy today but people force me to make spectacles of both myself and others and get hit and punched I tell you. They force me to

[scavengedluxury]

Sainsbury's redcurrant jelly packaging mock-ups, 1960s-70s. From the Sainsbury Archive.

[elucubrare]

one of those days when the shard of ice in my heart & the mirror fragment in my eye are really acting up

[devilsskettle]

i just really enjoy characters who aren’t just “weird” but who genuinely experience the world differently than most people especially wrt how they experience their own emotions like i will always be a sucker for characters who don’t really know if they CAN experience “normal” emotions figuring out how they can relate to other people etc. and i basically never enjoy the “solution” to this being assimilation or like exceptionalism of a love interest character. i never want to see a character realize that they’re experiencing “normal” romantic feelings but the tension and possible conflict of “idk if i can even feel love like that but this might be the closest i can get” do you see the difference??? and i also love low empathy characters and never want to see a low empathy character get “positive character development” where they can suddenly feel empathy like “normal” i want them to be bad at it forever okay thank you

[dorothylarouge]

[medraut-pendragon]

ever since I was a little girl I've had an adoring for characters who are bottomless sinkholes endlessly falling into themselves

[sivavakkiyar]

[skinlessbanana-deactivated20160]

[pistil-whipped]

wedding ring concepts by sillda

[metagnostic-deactivated20200809]

old men to young women: damn bitch you look kinda dead inside in a public space ... if you don't smile for me right now i will turn you into a little marionette and shackle you in my attic forever