i see a lot of people making jon unbelievably hot as a reason for why martin would like him in s1. and i won’t deny that he could be (and if i did i would be a hypocrite since i’m putting him in a whole ass lehenga rn) but also i think it should be reversed. jon should think martin is one of the hottest motherfuckers to ever grace this earth. the thoughts he has when he first sees martin scare him because even he didn’t know he could yearn that hard. so he represses his feelings so hard he convinces himself he just hates martin. this totally isn’t projection because i think martin is the most gorgeous man ever whattt noooo that’s crazyyyy
See, from my point of view, I think they both think the other is unbelievably hot, but they are alone in this. The general reaction to anyone outside their immediate selves finding out they are falling all over themselves for the other is "I'm sorry, that?!"
The difference is that Martin will wax poetic about specific details (his voice, his eyes, his hands, etc.) and the inner beauty shining through and making something outwardly ugly not conventionally attractive more beautiful, whereas Jon will indignantly demand to know if the other person has eyes.












