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21 the sound of the ocean is dead, it's just the blood echoing inside of your head insta: goofington.smelvin

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shuttershy

there are worlds between the words i speak and galaxies between the meanings of each when i come back down and lay my head to rest won't you please absolve me of this stench

i saw you skinned and emptied on a forest floor all i wanted was to crawl closer to your bones when i reach out and i don't feel you there nothing will make this nothing i feel okay

i came and saw because you asked me to look the blaring horn will never stop sounding beckoning me to an end i can't return from i watch the cracked bowl slowly leak soup

i watch the blood dripping from your nose and if you weren't staring at me, i'd lick it clean just to know that we are one, as we're meant to be i only feel my heart beating now, and i reach for you

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orbit of you

it's not as bad as you want it to be it's not as pretty as i wished it was there was a dead finch on my windowsill the sweetness only a rotten apple can have

if it's sour you're supposed to spit it out but i like the way it feels in my mouth i wish your fingernails were sharper i've done it so many times in my head i lost count

and if i could be in the orbit of you i think i'd pray to be pushed closer i don't care who's in the way when we collide into one

i've said the same thing too many times now and you're getting tired of me repeating this instead of doing what i told you i'd do but i just wanna stay in the orbit of you

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the weather's no matter

it's never too cold to stargaze with you let's lay on the frozen ground and stare up map our path along each and every star memorize it so the sun can't take it away

when your letter came, i heard the birds again singing in time with the rhythm of my heart as if everything had led to this moment in time feeling your hands gliding against mine

there's a million things for us to do but i'm content to lay here with you watching the sun rise and fall unknowingly that it can never get us, when we're in here

i'd meet you halfway if the ocean wasn't there no one's home and the door's unlocked for you i count each tick of the clock, as i melt away dreaming of all the promises i gave to you

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to give birth

the tv reminds me i'm gonna die soon and be a burden to everyone around me but i can change that with a slip of paper and a signature, written neatly, in the corner

my phone says i'm an affront to modern life my presence and opinions are disgusting that i ought to just end it all now either from a rope or a bottle

my computer knows it's smarter than me already knows where i want to be an algorithm crafted out of clicks watching as my eyes drift back endlessly

a bird said it was much smaller than me that i could keep it warm against my chest that a crumb would keep it fed for hours that my self deprecation was a bit annoying

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thinking of you

the prettiest girl i ever knew came in a pill, light blue never asked much of me except to stay still and breathe

i knew i'd do anything to hear her talk she gave so selflessly, while i took so needily i know we were made to drag each other down because i don't feel at peace until we're one

black and blue, yellow too there's nothing that i wouldn't do i miss you, though i know you never left thinking of you while i'm in this bare room

i once thought i was too good for you you humbled me, like i wanted you to on my knees begging for one more hit just to get me back to you

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our names sound good together

all i'd need is your voice in my ears you'd never hear me complain then until it was taken away from me just tell me no and i'll go

i'll stare in awe as you prove me wrong never thought i'd make it this far i know i'm nowhere near done yet and i know i won't be the one to die

so i'll slam my head against this forevermore until i figure it out, or i fall over dead i heard you tell me that i'm far too hasty what else can i be in a world like this?

just tell me when i can come to you and show you that everything is okay your word is all i've ever longed for so let this be the right thing for me

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it's a curse to me

there's no use counting days in a year when i know i'll only end up here and yet again i'm staring into your eyes knowing absolutely nothing has changed

all i remember is a cat coiled on my chest and i'd have laid there till the end of time but life could never be that kind another empty day, another pill taken

i'm imagining hanging off a tree with a bag around my head and a chain around my neck but it's too early for that yet

save it for later and trudge onwards they promised me so much more than this as the train's horn blares through every evening i'm thinking maybe we should get together

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as above, so below

a river splits and leaves a city stranded a rickety bridge connects them to life though they haven't passed over it yet an island in the middle of the mainland

the clouds and rains drown this place as they seem to float further away rejected by the land itself some native curse at long last felled

partners joined in interlocked hands stared as the land vanished before them the bridges snapping and falling and going thinking, maybe this is the river of styx

though no two coins can get you there a generation of downtrodden charted off suffering as though nothing had changed before long, no one remembered they were there

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there'll be no end

i'm thinking of you when i drown in all the dreams i've ever had the bubbles from the sea floor they just can't sustain me anymore

though you were never here before all i can imagine is your hands on me holding me in the ways i've pleaded for i cry and drink this in once more

the ocean can stand a little more salt but i don't know where to even start so we can fly back to when it all began and i'll ask if we can do this all over again

give me a chance to prove we are right i know we exist in every lifetime i feel this has happened before i won't be the one to let this die

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not today

a reminder of tomorrow the stars piercing the fog their light makes its way to me all so i can say, not today

rearrange all the clouds for me the brush bending to my will the roots upturning for my steps all so i can say, not today

i'm lying on the linoleum floor wishing for something more your hands in my hair as i cry all so i can say, not today

the flowers fall apart in front of me the day is dark and cloudy the wind burns right through me all so i can say, not today

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a new day in paradise

as above, so below, or so they say the wind blows right through bones your skin is a sail, but it gets in the way when all you've ever needed is to be still

lying in your bed as you look at the mirror yet again staring at the reflection of you we both know nothing will change soon trying to be perfect for the worst of me

spring comes, but i'm freezing still in comes the sound of the birds now reminding me that i'm not so alone as i watch the sun rise yet again

maybe it's not over just yet as long as the trees bloom as long as the grass grows as long as you look at me

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from me, to you

i'm locked into this death spiral now i'm one leg down and turning round a thousand dead, count me in there another body being shipped away

they told me the world would be mine well i saw the sky reaching forever on and i planted my flag among the clouds but as i lay here, none of that matters now

i remember being born yesterday and here i am, just as useless as before i was glad to have a moment to myself in the desert i always dreamed about

all that comes to mind is your face now wondering if i could summon you here i can almost feel us joining into two my eyes shut, dignity i can trust

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was it yes, or was it no

all i think about is your lips on my throat and your hands pull my hair back it never felt so good to be told no to be denied something i couldn't take

i think back to that night and regret it was fine till you chose to speak tainted everything that came before ruined it all with your hands on your knees

still i lay here and remember you above and me below, like i was always meant to be but you'll call me over and we'll do it again because you never did mean what you said

but you saw my fingers and lips die it will never be as good as the first time too soon to say i love you, but i do my neck exposed, just tear me away

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i kissed my arm for 12 hours straight, then i laid in bed and thought of you until the sun rose

there's nothing new here for me to see nothing left that i haven't felt before i have nothing left for you to take from me and these words are melting into one another

i look into the stars and trace the path we'd take knowing that i'll always be stuck on earth with you i know better than to question the things you do but still, i can't help but ruin the only thing i have left

i opened my eyes and watched you carefully i opened my mouth and chose to speak honestly i realized the mistake i made far too late the open mouth will always lead to another end

so i lay here quiet and let it happen to me empty and beautiful like i always should've been my mind filling up with dreams i can't fulfill leaking out into my pillow to taint it red

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it's the polite thing to do

i've only ever wanted to be perfect for you but each drip of blood you bleed is too much for me looking down at my hands sewing shut images of you just asking why this doesn't bring me joy anymore

we could've shared a bed in the middle of the summer and sweat until our bodies fused with one another but nothing i have left to say matters anymore i was just banking on the fact that you still care

we're not too different, and maybe that's the issue because all i can see is us in ruins after another dead year sharing a pipe as our tendons lock in place for the last time mummifying ourselves just to shed another pound off

well i guess it makes sense in a sick way to me i can't explain these words, you just have to get what i mean and if the meaning fails to make any sense to you well, then it wasn't yours to understand at all

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it's okay if you don't care

there's nothing prettier than a woman playing guitar my uncle died and left one, black and white, to me every time i play the strings break and cut me open so, uncle alton, tell me, what shall i do with you?

i pick at the strings and it's the most beautiful thing i've heard i've tuned that poor guitar more than i've played it wondering if one day i'll grab it and play it effortlessly but until that day comes i am relented to stewarding it

when i begged for attention while banging on your door did you know i dragged myself to an empty house my fingers pale and number, my lips blue and purple now all i can do is think of how you left me out there

i know there's no one that truly cares about my plights but i thought if i went into the parking lot that night and wailed, screamed, and cried into the streetlights that someone would come by and make sure i was alright

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this is not my life

everyone i've loved died before i was born you forced your life into my hands cried when i begged for release from this now there's no out except waiting for you

i couldn't find the answer that was right you always expected something of me when i never even knew where my foot landed i was just walking like i was here before

a handful of pills makes everything okay the goosebumps i get when i feel you near it's a little happier than a florescent room it's a little better than a suicide

our sadness entwines and drains perfectly like blood disappearing into the drain of the sink the stainless steel thankful for my warmth tonight anything can be pretty if you think about it right