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Delusional

I am delusional. I truly am. I can’t say I’m not from what I spend my days doing. All day and all night I spend daydreaming I live in a different world and I begin mixing my two worlds up. :i just washed the dishes and cleaned the house!” But no, no i didn’t i only did that in fiction. I daydream of love and comfort at night, being held in a warm embrace being told it’ll get better soon and I…

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Mathematics

I’ve hated mathematics for a long time. Ever since I could remember really. I never was good with numbers. Everything felt like it was mixed up and as the year progressive it only gets harder and I really begin to wonder where I will use some of the things I learn. I had a strong understanding of the importance of the equations and ideas but the more time I spent crying over the numbers and…

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Skill

I’ve never been the best at something. Every time I pick up something new and I find I’m pretty good at it, someone, someone always beats me. I’ve been passionate about art my entire life. All types of art, from music to drawing, I’ve been fascinated with its creativity. When i thought I was good at drawing my friends were already creating masterpieces worth a frame and display i was stuck being…

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Homestuck

Homestuck has become an important part of my life ever since I finished it. The story tells a lot to any person reading it. A good example of such things is how the stories show so much how friendships can help you and how they can be betrayed. The story really writes out how important it all is to create friendships and yet be weary of them. Along with bringing up the idea of loving yourself for…

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People Pleaser

I can most likely call myself a people pleaser. And it’s really begun affecting me as a person. I’m beginning to realize that I am being used for my inability to deny or make my own decisions. But at the same time I don’t want to make others feel bad. So I take on the workload when I finish a group project by myself. I lie when asked if the other group members did their parts. I know it won’t…

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The Hope For Comfort

Here I sit again. Staring at a laptop screen my fingers dragging aimlessly across a keyboard unable to find a topic to rant about. And then I found it. Through a simple song reminding me of my past. Not even that long ago my parents found out about my attempts at my life. As some may expect they were worried and my mom signed me up for a meeting with a psychiatrist. I only had 2 before I was…

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Death

I’m sorry for the large amounts of posts today I’ve bene ranting a lot lately Why do humans fear death? Is it because it’s unknown what happens after or is it the way it comes suddenly. Maybe people who fear the unknown fear death more than that. They watch as people pass them  constantly, scared maybe they notice everything. They see everything but stay silent because they don’t know how…

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Testing

I hate testing and so do many others. It’s a difficult time for many students. They get overly stressed and school doesn’t seem to really care do they? My school has a thing called MAP testing, a test made to grade a student’s education level so that teachers will know what students need help with. Of course students take this as a way to grade each other’s smartness. I can recall the comment…

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Bodies

I hate my body. And so do many others. Be it man or woman they may hate themselves. Some people hate their minds. In a book called “metamorphosis’ ‘ by Franz Kafka the main character one morning turns into a beetle. After that he is shunned by his family. In the story he runs into many problems and tries to overcome them in his new body. He learns to accept himself for what he now is even if it’s…

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Analysis

this ones a bit longer

apologies for the long wait i was unable to use my computer for sometime so i pulled this out of my drafts. There are many shows and movies out there that speak with people. Many genres and topics which can make people feel deep emotion. I have watched a few movies and shows which have made me feel such deep feelings and emotions. 1 movie, 1 short film and 1 show have made me feel these deep…

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Validation

I crave validation. I don’t even know why. But truly what is validation? The dictionary definition defines it as “the action of checking validity of something” or something like that. But what is validation in an emotional sense? I would describe it as the sparkling glow in your chest with a smile tugging itself onto your face. You. you’re finally worth something! You have become valid to others!…

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what do you really want? https://reevioon.wordpress.com/2024/03/23/what-do-you-really-want/

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How am I supposed to feel good about myself? I’m surrounded by people who have more talent than me. Especially in areas I used to believe I was best in, I suppose I wasn’t meant to reac…