My best friend told me I`m the most happy furry he has seen in his time in the fandom. The truth I`m more messed up than everyone thinks I am. I`m almost mad 24/7, I suffer from daily headaches, I`m losing sleep every two nights, I have a mountain of unresolved and unneeded anger, I`m slightly depressed, I`m not that talkative, I never talk to anyone 90% of the time in real life, including my family and relatives except my cousin, all I do is sit here on G+ and hangouts, I waste most of my time on You Tube, drawing, and just staying quite and interacting with my dog. I guess you can say I`m about 36% anti-social.
For most people who thinks I`m a happy person, you are right, but its only because I found something I can actually do without hearing any bullshit from people who is doing the same thing. I have a lot of things about me that you guys nor my family hasn't seen. The only I`m keeping myself from going down that route of utter destruction is to continue to do what I do now. Be a furry and be around y`all.
Be honest the real world that my mom and dad keep telling about, it doesn't phase me, me personally, I don't see what the real world has to offer me besides death and depression.
Someone told me a couple of years ago you shouldn't live in a fantasy world because you`ll always be hurt and be lied to, I told that person, then the life we are living isn't real either, because all around this planet people are hurting and being lied to on a daily bases, so I don't see how the real world is better. The reason I choose fantasy over fact because you can control your fantasy and live it how you wanna live it. Like homeless people, if they are somewhere where its dry and warm and somewhere that provides food, they are living they way of life. We might not care, but they do.My fantasy is like Jupiter, it has many different layers on the planet and each layer is more deeper than the last with something new is always appearing. For all the time I choose fantasy to real life it helped to make me the person I am now and just like Jupiter I have many layers in which ONLY I can see. Its up to me to to allow people to see those layers of me without being hurt.
Most of the time I don't talk about stuff like this but when I do its only let some steam and anger like the Red Spot on Jupiter`s surface. So, even though I`m most chaotic on the inside and its difficult to venture though what I`m going through, just know that the surface of me doesn't change. Like Jupiter, I have the force and gravitation to pull you in, but be warned about what`s on the inside of me. You may not survive nor like it.Its the one reason my connection between my furry Reis Kito , me, and Jupiter all share.
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