Thought I Was Cured

cw:240 hw:270 ugw:120

[msry34]

I don't know yet if I want to be a "I want everyone to worry about me" anorexic or a "I want everyone to love me" anorexic

[walmart-satan]

I just realized that this disorder has literally ruined my perception of normal eating. I don't know what a good amount to eat in a day is, eating 3 meals and having snacks feels like binging. I don't know what a good portion is, I don't know what a proper calorie amount is, and i don't know how to eat 'healthy' without restriction. fucking hell

[relapse-babe]

I think I need to buy a new scale. I’m currently using a second hand one given to me by from my grandma and it acts weird sometime which freaks me out so bad. I just want an unused one so I know whether or not I’m really that fat or if the scale is broken...

[ssweetize]

—purple thispo <33

[greenteah0ee]

oh to have long and skinny legs, i think all my problems would just ✨disappear✨

[self-love-is-fragile]

i feel like im addicted to my ed now

[ghore]

I’m on a new diet called don’t fucking look at me

[buzzyfuzzybee]

I don’t think enough people talk about the social hierarchy of eating disorders.

So, this is simply a reminder that Bulimia is NOT “failed anorexia.” Binge-Eating Disorder is NOT laziness and voluntary lack of self control. OSFED is NOT any less valid that anorexia. And, Anorexia is NOT cute or desirable.

These are all horrible and deadly disorders, and there is no way to “fail” at having a mental illness. We are all suffering is different ways and that is always valid and deserving of help.

[relapse-babe]

currently resisting a Dominos binge. for fucks sake, why do i always do this to myself. all i have ever wanted is to be thin. i’m on the right track and i’m losing weight. why do i insist on trying to sabotage myself over fucking pizza.

[blackdots-coldspots-deactivated]

💌nice thoughts for ed peeps who're rlly going through it rn 💌

litterally everything you do burns calories, laughing, sleeping, dancing, singing, even just sitting there, your burning calories right now just by existing, thats neat :)

you probably have some form of body dysmorphia if u have an ed so no matter how big you think you are you're def just focusing on ur flaws, a fresh pair of eyes on you most likely see you way thinner than you see yourself

a 10 minute workout is amazing compared to no workout, and just 100 calories over ur limit vs thousands is awesome too, just because you fell backwards a bit doesn't mean you lost everything you worked for, you're still farther than you were weeks ago and that should mean something

every day is a new day and a new chance, if you messed up, the little reset button is pressed in a few hours and you have a chance to forget abt the past and focus on the now. you're doing great <3

[oxygencals]

October gives me skinny vibes. If any month was a skinny month it’s definitely October

[binkybois]

[runawaylatte]

me: *fasts for days*

*excessively works out*

*gets dizzy/lightheaded*

*is exhausted in the middle of the day*

*cries when food is offered*

everyone I know : doing great girly😊💖💕✨keep it up🤪 🤪

me:

[aljdkskjx]

someone: “yk it’s crazy i eat so much and never seem to gain any weight haha”

every bitch with an eating disorder:

[relapse-babe]

I just died my hair bright orange. I look like Frankie from Fosters Home For Imaginary Friends. 

I love it.

[missingvibrance]

People with eating disorders who don’t exhibit noticeable signs of having one are valid.

People with eating disorders who aren’t skinny down to the bone are valid.

People with eating disorders who aren’t consistent with their disorder are valid.

People with eating disorders that don’t involve restriction or purging are valid.

People with eating disorders who don’t experience one the way the media portrays having one are valid.

People with eating disorders who are trying to recover and love their body as it is are valid.

People with eating disorders who have yet to recover and still hate their body are valid.

People with eating disorders who have one out of stress and not body dysmorphia are valid.

People with eating disorders are valid in their experience with having one regardless of your perception of them.

Anyone with an eating disorder deserves love and kindness even when their struggle with one doesn’t fit society’s criteria of what an eating disorder is/looks like.

[etherealxtrash]

just a reminder: