A thought?
Is there a thought to be thunk ? I must confess myself conflicted, a person on my Facebook page passed away today, and though I didn't know him I feel sorrow and sadness for their loss on this world, and confusion to why I care as much as I do, when we pass, will you say nice things about us? Will you mean such nice things? Or is a roux to show us you actually care when you don't? How does a person simply forget how much their loved ones care for them? I can not answer this, however I can tell you how I feel. I have for the past few days become completely numb when it comes to feelings, I have simply not cared, then this news hit me and with all my conflicts going about in my head. What is it I am actually thinking about? Have I gone numb for a reason, why has this news hit a numb person with shattering force which then makes him re-think. I have not felt happiness in a long time to the brink that I have no idea what that means anymore, does this makes me depressed? I don't think so, cause I am not sad, and to those who think you can only be either happy or sad, needs to re-think the word emotion. I am not happy, I am not sad, although sadness does come often to me, I am not hiding anything, just being honest. On the subject of love, I have not found such overwhelming feelings for another person, and I believe your love for your family and for another person are completely different. I have tried to display these feelings but have been unable to do so, perhaps because of this "nothingness" I am unable to feel such positive feelings? I refuse to think so, I do often look on the brighter side of things, but my feelings keep to the nothingness, is there one person for everyone? That without this one person the other person seizes to exist? I only hope not to know this ever in my life. I guess I am fooling myself or my head is full of questions that don't make sense. If you have read this far, I thank you, thank you for taking time to read my questions. I need not know the answer, just need to understand.
