PAIRING:Â Minghao x f. reader
SUMMARY:Â As the second daughter to one of the most powerful businesses under the Choi Syndicate, youâve always lived your life free of responsibility - until your sister dies and you become the heir. So when your family announces one of your new responsibilities as heir is an engagement to the son of a powerful shipping conglomerate, it comes should come as no shock. Minghao, however, is full of surprises, each one of them more deadly than the last.
WC:Â 33,779
AU: Mafiaverse, Cyberpunk, Arranged Marriage
GENRE:Â Smut, Angst
RATING:Â 18+ Minors are strictly prohibited from engaging in and reading this content. It contains explicit content and any minors discovered reading or engaging with this work will be blocked immediately.
WARNINGS: Graphic violence and assassination attempts, descriptions of blood and on screen murder (two with a knife, one with a garrote), mentions of off page deaths of a sibling and a parent (one via suicide), references to organized crime/syndicates with political marriages, power plays, and illegal activities, references to physical abuse from a family member but honestly very vague and ambiguous, hemes of grief, trauma, deception, and identity secrets, some power imbalances throughout, lots of showcasing of disparity of wealth throughout, some angst and a lot of lying, reader is kidnapped, explicit language, explicit sexual content featuring oral (f. receiving), vaginal fingering, unprotected penetrative sex, multiple orgasms/positions, uhhhhh I think that's it. It's a Syndicates fic y'all, as always read with caution. Smut is warned in-text when it starts and stops.
A/N:Â I have been working on this chapter since November 2025 and it is finally here. I'm going to apologize in advanced if the plot seems a bit twisty turny or if the motives are a bit weak - taking that long between the first 15k I wrote for this fic and the second 15k I wrote for this resulted in me writing a completely different story than what I started with. Also - reader was supposed to be a lot more mystical but it's just sort of vague in this. She is not literally magical in a fantasy sense, but rather the same way that there are mysteries of the universe and energies etc. i really hope this makes sense - thank you for being patient with me as I put this chapter out. I think I like this one... maybe. Also, we are introduced to three new characters who are relevant in the rest of the series - especially Kero :) This fic takes place during the events of Baby for your timeline purposes.
A/N 2: It is recommend you read the other works of the Syndicates collection before you read this fic - specifically Baby. You don't have to read the others to understand the fic as I try to sum up the world and plot well, but I'm not perfect so ready this totally separate of the other stories might not be as easy as I crack it up to be!
A/N 3: This is un-beta'd we die like men.
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THE EVENING OF YOUR SISTER'S DEATH, YOU HAD DRAWN THE WORLD, REVERSED FROM YOUR TAROT DECK. You remember staring at it, unsettled, tracing the details as if the lines themselves could tell you what was coming.
It was one of those rare, hand-crafted decks, a fragment of the old world, tangible and delicate. In a world with so little physical art and so little understanding of the universe, you'd cherished the deck, a small luxury in a world where most people wouldn't have understood.
You remember knowing the card was a warning. The only trouble was you didn't know what for. You left the card face up on the desk and blew out your candles, your mother's voice calling through the estate's intercom again, impatient and angry because you were late.
Again.
To her, being late was a condition, not a habit. To you on that rainy November evening, it had been a kind of salvation, though perhaps salvation wasn't the right word. You didn't believe in gods or higher beings, but you did believe in the strange, quiet ways of the universe.
Strange, like how lingering over a single tarot reading could keep you from stepping into the restaurant when the gas explosion tore through the back of the block - when your sister, waiting at your usual table, became the first member of your family to die.
Gone in a moment, the entire direction of your life rearranged.
The world, reversed.
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The rain over the Upper District is thin and metallic. It sheets off the glass buildings in vertical lines, turning each tower into a waterfall of neon and water. You watch the rain from the back of the car, forehead pressed to the cold window. The city slides past, a smudge of light.
Nexus Capital rises ahead of you, a monolith of glass punch through the low cloud ceiling. You stare at the building that's a feat of architecture with a list of awards and features in architectural magazines. You don't understand why a banking building needs to be an architectural work of art.
You don't find it to be very artistic anyway. Nexus Capital is one hundred and twelve floors of smoked glass and carbon fiber, no logos and no name, but a solid black tower threaded with light that everyone knows when they see it glow against the horizon.
Most nights, it turns invisible, like a trick of the light. If it weren't for the purple LEDs pulsing through the building's framework now, lighting it up to make air travel safe, you wouldn't even see it, though you know exactly where to look.
The car turns into the private ramp beneath the plaza, the security gates opening slowly. The car pauses as the driver cracks the window to state your business and clearance information. You wait, staring dully out the window as the scanners read the car for weapons and trace the plates. When it clears, the driver pulls through, continuing down the spiraling ramp toward the sub-level reserved for people who don't use the public lobby.
People like you.
You step out into a cold, concrete garage. Security guards are waiting on either side of the elevator for you, their charcoal suites pristine. They nod politely as you approach, heels clicking. One presses his palm to the panel, the lift doors opening with a soft hiss.
Your ride is eighty-nine floors, no stops. You breathe slowly, in through the nose, out through the mouth. Four counts in, hold for four, exhale eight. Even numbers. Good numbers. Your pulse steadies.
The reflection in the glass wall of the elevator is jarring: black dress, black blazer, hair tamed, heels, minimal jewelry. The girl who used to sneak out of charity galas to stare up at the moon and fill jars of water to collect its energy is nowhere in sight.
A chime indicates your arrival and you stiffen. The lift opens directly into an executive corridor of basalt floors and recessed lightly. It smells faintly of cedar in the hall, no doubt pumped in by an unseen air filtration system, meant to give the offices an old, serious feel.
The eighty-ninth floor is nothing but meeting rooms and executive spaces. You walk along the network of empty rooms now, knowing the way by heart - you'd practiced the route a million times. Normally, even after hours, the meeting rooms would be full of people. This evening's meeting is high profile though, so the entire floor has been reserved and dismissed.
Double doors greet you as you turn a corner. A security guard is outside, tipping his head to greet you before opening the door to let you in. Inside is a massive board room full of people.
One entire wall is made up of glass, Hyperion glittering on the other side: neon arteries, ribbons of traffic, the distant strobe of a casino in the Pearl District. The table in the center of the room is a massive rectangle of smoked quartz, lit from beneath so it looks frozen.
You go straight to your side of the table where your father and board members sit. There's a single, high-back chair for you next to your father - it used to be your mother's, but after she'd killed herself a few months ago, she bequeathed the chair to you.
Her ghost clings to you every time you sit in the chair, a coolness sticking to your skin. You grit your teeth. This room needs sage and perhaps some selenite. It has neither, so you ignore the way a shiver slides up your spine, phantom fingers reminding you of the heaviness of her absence. Ghosts don't like to be ignored, but no one else in this room can feel the way spirit lingers, the way memories have a way of clinging to a place.
Today is not a day for fear and superstition. Today is the kind of day where you have to ignore all of your instincts in favor of being practical and analytical - the kind of girl your sister would have been, instead of you, the strange one who believed in the energies of the universe and its strange higher powers.
Lifting your eyes, you peer across the table as your father clears his throat to settle the room. Xu Minghao is seated directly across from you, the polished surface of the crystal table stretching like eons between you. He's narrower than the file photos, dressed in a suit so dark that it seems to eat the light around him. His hair is longer too, styled neatly around his ears to rest against his collar bones. It suits him, you think.
He's prettier than you realized, too. His face is exquisitely balanced between sharp and soft, his eyes fierce and burning as he stares at you, his mouth soft and supple. His equally sharp jawline is offset by a gentle nose, a blend of contrasts that make him breathtaking to look at.
And extremely intimidating.
"Shall we begin?" Your father asks. He's using his calm voice, the one he likes to use to show he isn't intimidated.
The Xu side inclines heads in near-perfect synchrony. Minghao's father, Xu Jian, sits at the center opposite your father, his hair dark and long like his son, threading with silver at the temples. Odd, you think. In a world where showing age is so rare, you find it fascinating that the Xu family's patriarch has deliberately decided to show his age. A powerplay, perhaps, that he does not fear how fast the world around him is moving, nor is he influenced by the trends of appearing young.
Xu Luli is the opposite. Minghao's mother is a radiance of youth, dressed in immaculate dove silk with a single jade pendant the size of a small egg pinned to her blazer. Her face has no obvious lines, full and flushed with color like she's still in her twenties. It's unsettling, and when your eyes flick to Minghao, you realize how much he looks like her with his full lips and sharp eyes. He's nearly her mirror, save for his eyes are dark and near-black where hers are uncanny stormy grey.
Across the table, Minghao sits perfectly upright, his hands folded loosely on the table. No rings, no watch, no jewelry at all. There's just a faint scare across the first knuckle of his right hand, pale against otherwise flawless skin.
Your father gestures to the lead counsel on your side to begin. She taps the table and a holo screen blooms above the quartz, rotating for all to see. It's a splitting of proposed assets, tallied net and financial worth, assets both tangible and liquid, and everything else about you both true and not splayed for everyone to see.
"Xu Worldwide Logistics currently moves forty-three percent of all container freight through Hyperion's docks in the Civ District," the lead counsel begins. "Post-marraige, joint control of the merged entity will be split sixty-forty in favor of Xu Worldwide Logistics, with veto rights retained by Nexus Capital."
Xu Jian smiles. "Forty-three percent is a conservative assessment of our business. Perhaps seventy-thirty would be more appropriate."
"Sixty-five," your father answers, smiling. "Thirty-five. That feels more appropriate. Our assumptions of your capital are conservative, as you say."
Jian bows his head and agrees.
You watch in silence as your assets are debated for you - assets you didn't have until a year ago, when your sister had been blown apart in a freak accident. Your hands sweat looking at the figures and numbers that shouldn't belong to you, the endless amount of credits, properties, offshore accounts and liquid assets you don't even understand.
Swallowing past a dry patch in your throat, you glance at Minghao. He doesn't look at the rotating holograms of your entire net worth reflected for a room full of suits - he looks directly at you. He's not staring, exactly, but you fight the urge to shiver anyway. His gaze is intense and cataloging, like he's reading every tiny expression on your face.
In fact, he probably is. Minghao's family isn't from Hyperion, but they've clawed their way to the top with the money and empire they've built in Hyperion, which means they know how to play the game. After all, if they didn't know how to play, they wouldn't be sitting at this table negotiating a political marriage to gain access to the one of the city's most powerful Syndicates.
"Along with the marriage comes guarantees," your father says, catching your attention. "Of additional security for shipments."
No one says Choi Syndicate. No one has to. This entire marriage is for the Choi Syndicate, who are seeking an advantage in the Yong Syndicate-owned shipping yards in the Civ District. While the Xu family has remained neutral thus far, the fact that you're all sitting in a room discussing your legal marriage to the heir of their business is an aggressive move for the Xu family.
"Additionally," your father adds, as though sensing the unsaid danger in the room, "Nexus Capital is partnered with Aegis Security Corp. They're a long-standing client of ours, and are happy to provide additional support, both personal and professional to the Xu family and clients."
You can't help the way you start to roll your eyes. Aegis Security Corporation is a legitimate business portfolio pledged to Nexus Capital, but that certainly isn't the security your father is promising. He's promising the Xu family Choi Syndicate protection, a silent acknowledgement that by being here in this room, they are agreeing to the risk of being targeted by other Syndicates but will be offered the protections of guns, money and blood that the Choi Syndicate can offer.
The smile the Xu patriarch gives assures you that he is right where he wants to be, though his son remains expressionless, eyes unreadable.
Minghao's mother leans forward, her jade pendant catching the light. "And the personal union? We understand the principal heirs will co-own the new holding company directly. We would like the details of residence, public representation, and succession details clarified."
This time, you do cringe. You can't help it. The word succession details crawls inside of your ribcage and threatens to start corroding. She means where will you live, who gets to be the press's shining star, and who inherits if someone dies inconveniently.
Or conveniently, depending on if you die and all your assets default to the man across the table. Which is a real threat that you've talked about with your father, knowing that he could be signing you over for someone to assassinate you and claim rights to all that you own. It is exactly why the proposal keeps the shipping assets in favor of the Xu family and the banking assets in favor of your family, a shared split but a majority of both residing with the original shareholder.
Your father looks to you to answer Minghao's mother. The message is clear: youâre the woman of the family. Speak to your counterpart.
"Residence will be the penthouse at the Observatory," you answer. "It's at the edge of the Upper District near the Estate District."
"The Observatory?"
"A starter home for us to settle. When we decide to have a family, there is a private residence left to me in the Estate District as dictated by my mother's will." She leans back, pleased. Your eyes drift to Minghao. "I assume Mr. Xu has no objection to living above the clouds to start."
"Height has never bothered me," he answers. His voice is soft, but the way he says it makes the hair on your arms raise. "It's a generous gift."
You learn forward, resting your forearms on the cold table top. The sleeves of your dress ride up just enough to show the faint bruise on your left wrist, fingermarks from last week when your father decided punctuality required emphasis. You adjust the sleeve, but when you look up, you see Minghao's eyes latched to the spot.
"Public representation," you continue quickly, trying to keep him engaged, "will be joint. Galas, council meetings, the usual. We smile, we shake hands, we let the photographers snap pictures. Public image is a joint effort and a joint success."
Both of his parents nod, pleased. Minghao is still staring at your covered wrist. "As far as succession, if one of us dies, the surviving spouse inherits full voting control of the merged entity for a minimum of five years. After that, it reverts to the strongest board proxy. Standard widow's clause."
"What is your security like?"
Minghao's question catches you offguard. You're unsure if he means the traditional security you use as the heir to one of the city's richest families, or the Choi Syndicate security you use to ward people away from you. You're sure he doesn't mean the spell jars hidden in the drawers of your room or the spell oils you tinker with.
"Standard," you offer. It seems like a safe answer.
"Standard." He frowns. "I find that the standard rarely does the job."
His father starts to speak, but Minghao lifts a finger, barely a centimeter. You watch in shock as it silences his father. It's so subtle you're unsure if anyone else notices it. Strange, for a son to dictate what a father does. You file that bit of information away for later.
"Do you have a recommendation, then?" You ask. "Feel free to propose something less standard."
His mouth twitches, a ghost of amusement. "Security protocols should be put in place. Travel routes, choices of driver, general schedules, should all have a shared veto. If one of us believes a risk is unacceptable, the other yields. No appeal."
Your father makes an angry sound. "You're asking for the right to countermand my daughter's security detail? That's entirely too controlling and rather convenient if you wanted her assets."
The accusation ruffles the feathers on the other side of the table, but Minghao remains nonplussed, eyes flicking to your father. His expression has barely shifted, but there's something subtle there, something sharp.
"I'm asking," he corrects, voice soft, "That neither of us dies stupidly because the other was too proud to listen. I find that joint decisions on matters of travel and security are often best, especially considering that this marriage will be highly publicized."
"Fine," you answer before your father can object. "Shard veto, with the amendment that our security teams are jointly chosen. You may not employ any member of security who has not been vetted and agreed upon by me personally."
Minghao inclines his head. "Agreed."
Above the table, a redline version of the agreement drafts as you trade amendments. Your eyes drop down to the scar on his knuckle again. It's thin and precise, the kind of mark left by a wire garotte or a very sharp knife. Not the sort of scar you get from yachting around the world like you've been told he does frequently.
Strange. In just a short manner of time, the list of strange things about Minghao grows longer. Something about him tugs at your tuition, a feeling of premonition you can't place.Â
When you look back up, Minghao is watching you. His mouth twitches and your skin burns like you've been caught. You try to work out the expression on his face, but as his mother brings up the section regarding children, it's like dunking your head into ice cold water.
"Two," she says smoothly, fixing you with a pointed stare. "Minimum. More is fine. Bloodline continuity is non-negotiable. Two is safe, should the other-"
She cuts herself off, face going white. No one speaks. Your father is stiff next to you - you don't even think he's even breathing. Luli looks like she doesn't know what to do, caught between needing to apologize and the terrible of making such a bad social faux pas.
It's a reminder that the Xu family isn't from here. Arkos isn't a city that far away, but it's foreign enough in social structure, political makeup and culture that you're reminded how hard the Xu family must have worked to adapt to Hyperion's complex pecking order and social norms, and Luli has just made a terrible mistake. Were she in a room of Hyperion socialites or Syndicate women, she'd probably never recover.
"Should the other die," you finish for her. "Yes, we're quite familiar with the concept. Two minimum makes sense. Do you have a preference on gender?"
The silence in the room is so complete you can hear the faint echo of the city outside. You wait, staring across the table, trying to do anything but think about how intimately familiar you are with parents needing an heir and a spare, especially in a city like Hyperion. Luli's lips part, then close, surprised at how quickly you've addressed her concern and moved on.
"So do you?" You ask again, eyes flicking between Minghao and his mother who glance at one another. "I'm only asking because some families still care about sons carrying the name. Saves awkward paperwork later."
"Gender is irrelevant," Minghao answers. "Healthy heirs are all that matters."
"Yes," his mother agrees. "Healthy. And timing?"
You lean back in a dead woman's chair. Not for the first time, you wonder if this is what your sister had to sit through. Though you were only a few years apart, your sister is alien to you. Unfamiliar. Did she have to sit through board rooms and negotiate terms and rights to her womb? She did have to pledge herself to a total stranger and promise to pop out heirs?"
Of course she did. You wonder if she was any good at it. You never asked her. You'd been too busy hiding away from your family in the gardens, watching butterflies land on the water lilies while the house keeper told you about craft and how certain herbs had metaphysical properties. Youâd been fascinated by her and her practice, an ancient, earthy belief that most people thought was nonsense.
"Five years," you tell her. "Minimum. Our data shows that the city's current climate is not ideal for infants." You pause as the lead counsel shows the data in question. "After that, we can revisit timelines. Medical oversight may be split eighty-twenty, with my priorities and preferences emphasized."
"I would prefer-"
"Accepted," Minghao says softly, cutting off his mother. She leans back, pursing her lips. You don't know much about Xu Luli, but she looks like someone who would prefer far more control over the birth of her grandchildren. Minghao's eyes slide back to you. "A final item, if you will."
Your father gestures for him to continue. Minghao reaches inside of his pocket and produces a matte-black rectangle no larger than one of your tarot cards. There's no logo or text, so dark that it drinks the light in like his suit does. He sets it on the table and flicks it with a finger, sliding it across the table like oil slick.
You blink in surprise when you realize it's a comm device, thin enough to slice paper with the faintest holo-sheen on it. You've never seen its make before, and you look back up at him, questioning.
"A private channel," Minghao says, addressing you. "Encrypted. Off-grid. Not monitored by family, counsel, or security. For discussions that do not belong in the meeting minutes."
Next to you, your father's scoff is immediate and sharp. "She doesn't need-"
"Voluntary, of course," Minghao assures. "Either party may choose never to use it. It exists, though. Personal devices will be the main point of contact."
Xu Jian's smile is thin. "A gesture of good faith and a family tradition. The Xu family places emphasis on having direct contact with our partners in times of turmoil."
"And what turmoil do you predict to befall this city?"
Minghao's father spreads his hands. "The world is ever-changing. It is not a reactionary practice, but perhaps a proactive one."
Your father's fingers drum on the table. The rhythm is familiar - you've heard it in the back of cars, against the arm of the couch, on the top of a desk. It's the telltale sign of his increasing irritation, the need to do something with his fingers before he strikes.
After a long beat, your father nods. "Voluntary."
Minghao dips his head. "We have no other amendments."
The lead counsel taps the table. The contract above ripples, red lines bleeding into final black. A soft chime confirms transmission, and you look down to see the new draft appearing in the table's interface in front of you. Your name is already glowing in the signature line, waiting for your official sign off.
Swallowing hurts. Your throat is desert-dry as you pick up the stylus, hating the way it shakes in your hand. You grip it tighter, fighting off the tremor as you glance up instinctively.
Minghao is no longer watching you. His head is bowed, stylus moving in a single, fluid stroke that ends in a flourish. He sets the stylus down with deliberate care, aligning it parallel to the edge of the table before he looks up at you again, expectant.
You look down and sign, a nervous trickle of fear cutting through you. Once executed, the documents appear across the interface in rotation, allowing for the room to sign as witnesses. You keep your gaze fixed to the document rather than him, but you can feel the eight of his stare settle on you like a blade pressed to the hollow of your throat.
"Ajourned," your father says as soon as the final signature is to document.
Chairs roll back in a sudden rush of sound. Quiet chatter rises, the polite and rehearsed gratitude backtracking the soft shaking of hands. A side door you hadn't noticed opens and two white-gloved staff glide in with trays of chilled plum-infused water, coffee, and tiny plates of yuzu macarons dusted with gold leaf.
You cringe. The refreshments are small but you know they cost more per bite than most people in the Lower District make in a week, the display of wealth so suddenly unfamiliar to you that you feel your stomach flip.
People begin to mingle. Your father is already shaking Xu Jian's hand, voice pitched politely again. Luli is laughing at something one of the lead counsel members is saying bright and lilting.
You stand, knees shaking. The air feels a little too thick for you, your pulse a frantic bird trapped inside your ribcade. You don't bother excusing yourself verbally - no one in the room notices you. They never do. So no one stops you when you slip through the door into the corridor.
Outside the boardroom the air is cooler. You breathe in the cedar-scent, walking away from the room. Your heels are too loud and you soften your steps, making it feel like you're sneaking off. And you kind of are, honestly. You need a break, a breather from the formality and the cage of formality.
You find a smaller meeting room, windowless and lit only by a single strip of amber light along the ceiling. There's a narrow table with four chairs and nothing else. You lean back against the door for a moment, letting out the breath you'd been holding the entire meeting.
Reaching into the pocket of your blazer, you produce a silk-wrapped bundle. The cards are warm from your body heat, the silk falling away as you unwrap the tarot set. You walk toward the table, shuffling the cards. You feel your anxiety ease with the familiar weight of them in your hand, the soft schk as they shift in your fingers.
You don't even ask the deck a question. You just need the feel of them, need something familiar in this strange building with these strange people. The cards speak anyway, three cards slipping from the deck to clatter on the table, face-up.
The Tower, upright. The Moon, reversed. Death, upright.
It feels cold in the room. You stare at them, teeth working your bottom lip as you process, your eyes dragging over each guard. Lightning splitting stone. Lies and illusion dissolvering. And ending that's a beginning. It's the usual trio that's been haunting you since you drew the World, reversed a year ago.
You don't hear the door open as you look over them. It isn't until you see a shadow fall over them that you flinch, whirling around with your hand flying to your chest.
Minghao stands just inside the threshold, one hand still on the handle, the other loose at his side. He closes the door without a sound, tilting his head to peer around you at the table of cards. You step to block his line of sight, vision pounding.
"Oh, it's you-" You break off, unsure what to say. He probably has no concept of tarot cards anyway. "It's a⊠hobby of mine."
Minghao says nothing. He approaches with deliberate, lithe steps until he's standing next to you but with a respectable distance between you. You catch the faint scent of pine and cold air clinging to his jacket, refreshing.
"What do they mean?" He asks, voice soft. "When they fall like this? What do you see?"
"You know what they are?"
"I know it's strange that you have them. You don't strike me as a wicked woman." You frown at the term wicked woman. It's slang for the women who work backdoor craft and ritual practices - you're curious how someone of his status knows the word at all. He points to the cards on the table. "Tell me, please."
You step forward, fingers tightening around the deck. "The Tower means sudden change. The collapse of something that was supposed to be stable. Violence, sometimes."
"The Tower like the rulers of the Syndicates?"
"Yes."
He hums. "Keep going."
"The Moon reversed is lies coming undone. Secrets dragging into the light whether one wants them to or not."
"I see. And Death?"
"Death isn't always literal." You don't know why you feel the need to clarify, but you do. "It's transformation. The end of one thing so another can begin. You can fight it or you can walk through it, but you never stay the same."
Minghao is quiet for a long moment. The light bathes him half in shadow, half in light, like a dark angel. He's so beautiful it's hard to think straight for a moment, hard to realize this is the man you're going to marry.
"You're practiced at reading these, then?"
"Very. I trust very few things, but these have never lied to me."
"You're too honest," Minghao's gaze lingers on the Death card before he turns to leave, not sparing you a glance. "It will hurt you one day."
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The night of your engagement part, the party planning committee led by Xu Luli outdoes itself. The Sky Venue at The Elysian is an architectural wonder - one hundred and thirty-three floors up, the entire top level has been gutted and rebuilt into a single floating garden suspended beneath a retractable dome of smart glass.
Tonight, the dome is open to the stars. The air is warm despite the cooling season, the climate controlled by tiny micro-drones flying around the open dome, naked to the eye. The air tastes faintly of night-blooming jasmine, and guests wander through the garden with glasses of champagne.
Waterfalls pour from above into man-made koi ponds, night lilies floating on the rippling surfaces. Servers in white silk glide past, careful to avoid the ponds as they serve golf leaf canapes and cocktails served in what you think might be diamonds. In the corner, a string quartet plays on a platform of transparent glass suspended thirty meters above the ground, music cascading down and over the crowd.
Spared no expense, someone mutters as you walk by. Of course you didn't. This is the night that your family alongside the Xu's are selling you to the city and showing off their wealth.
A single strand of black tourmaline beads is loped around your wrist. To anyone not paying attention, it looks like diamonds. To you, it's grounding, steadying you against the thousand eyes currently cataloguing you.
Minghao finds you before you find him. He appears at your left shoulder without a sound, a flute of champagne in his hand. You flinch when you see him - over the last two months, you've been entirely unable to adjust to the way he materializes out of thin air.
"You look like a dark priestess," he murmurs. "Very on-brand, wicked woman."
You turn to him, trying to control your pointed smile. "Call me that again and I'll make your mornings quite unpleasant. I will hide hex bags where you will never find them."
His mouth twitches. He doesn't look at you, his eyes scanning the crowd, sharp as ever. He hands you the glass and you take it, knowing better than to dismiss him in public.
"Threats already," he observes. "We're not even married yet."
"I'm not a wicked woman," you say. "It's rude to call me one. I'm a practitioner. Kind of. I wanted to be. I don't sell phony fixalls from behind a Rose Room in the Lower District."
"And what is it you practice?"
"None of your business."
He hums. "You smell of incense and herbs, wicked woman. It's nice."
"If you're trying to upset me-"
"I'm trying to distract you." He glances at you, dark eyes glittering. "You have an angry resting face. It makes people think you're unhappy to be here."
"I am unhappy."
He lets out a small sound. You realize it's amusement and you feel an odd twitch behind your ribs. "I told you already, you are too honest."
In the last two months since your engagement, your interactions with Minghao have been minimal. He is doggedly polite, formal, and stiff, saying all the right things and smiling at all the right times, but none of it is real. He's so practiced and rehearsed that at first, you thought it might be real. But the more you watch him, the more you realize that Minghao is the perfect imitator.
Except now. His poking and prodding seems in jest, though you know there's certainly something more to it, something important that you're missing. This light banter is new to you, and you dislike that he asks questions about your practice. The elite don't often take kindly to those who believe in powers beyond money and Syndicates, but Minghao seems more amused than disturbed.
You glance beyond Minghao, eyes settling on the Tower of the Choi Syndicate. You feel your mouth go dry at the sight of Choi Moojin. He stands a distance away with his wife, dressed in a bespoke midnight suit, the mountain emblem embroidered in a threat of silver at his cuff.
The Tower of the Syndicate is the single most powerful person in the room, if not the city. Though there are two other Syndicates in the city, the Choi Syndicate has been strong the last few years, gaining a slight power foothold both politically and economically.
Not territorially, though. Their loss of the Port of Hyperion being located in the Choi-dominated Warehouse District to the Yong family had been a blow, and was the entire reason that your wedding to Minghao was happening at all.
As long standing patrons dedicated to the Choi family, your union to Minghao guarantees better assurances for Choi-owned shipping freight and better sway and management with the shipping authority.
A smart match. A political one. All dictated because the Tower of the Choi Syndicate needed it. Strange, that your entire life has shifted at the command of a man you've never personally met because he needs something from you that he'll never pay you back for.
A little ways away from the Tower and his wife, their children argue. At least, that's what it looks like they're doing. Seungcheol leans against a pillar nearby, murmuring something to his sister, expression heated. She ignores him, staring out into the crowd as though she can't hear him at all.
"Strange," Minghao murmurs, drawing your attention back to him. "To see them in person."
"Why?"
"They seem normal."
"They are."
Minghao hums but doesn't answer. Perhaps he has a point - they do seem normal. But why shouldn't they? They're two of the most privileged people in the room, growing up under a banner of Syndicate peace and prosperity. Had he expected obvious criminality? Knives and guns, threats of violence?
The way he observes them with his mouth slightly downturned tells you he might have expected exactly that. He's unfamiliar with the Syndicates, and you think belatedly of the scar on his knuckles, the one you often wonder after.
You drain your champagne in one swallow. "They're here to make sure this is a union they support, not cause violence."
"The union was their idea." You cut a glance at Minghao. It's a truth that no one says outloud, least of all here. He returns your stare, his eyes inky and unreadable. "They wouldn't suggest it if they didn't support it."
"You told me being too honest would get me hurt one day. Maybe you should consider that as well."
"You strike me as someone who uses truths to hide other truths," you note, looking him up and down. "You'll tell me one honest thing to make me confident while you hide six others."
Something flickers behind Minghao's eyes. It's that same flare of something like that first day you met him. Maybe surprise or recognition. You're not entirely sure, but it does something to you that you can't name, a little tug right behind your ribcage.
"Observant."
"I have to be."
"What have your cards told you about tonight?" You give Minghao a sharp look. He doesn't look at you but he sighs. "It wasn't a barb. I'm not sparring with you- not anymore, anyway. Iâm trying to get to know you."
He laces his hands behind his back, waiting. Minghao is good at waiting, you've noticed. He doesn't ask for things twice, and he never clarifies himself - save for you. There is power in silence and waiting others out, and Minghao maneuvers that silence like a carefully sharpened blade that he's intimately familiar with.
"The same three cards," you tell him eventually. "The Tower. The Moon, reversed. Death."
"You don't have to pretend to believe in it for my sake."
"I don't know what I believe in. Perhaps there is some truth to your tarot and the spell jars you keep hidden in your pockets. Who is to say?"
Before you can answer, a ripple moves through the crowd. You watch as heads turn and you find the source. The Tower is moving, slow and inevitable toward you. Your heart lurches and you glance around, looking for your father, who should be here to receive this conversation, but he's nowhere to be found.
Minghao's hand settles at the small of your back, making you swallow thickly. The heat of his palm against your skin is an inferno, but it grounds you as the Tower approaches with his wife, children and Wisdom in tow.
You glance at Yoon Minji, the Wisdom of the Choi Syndicate. You hadn't noticed her at first, the woman a near imperceptible shadow lurking behind the Tower's wife. She's dressed in a blue so dark that it's almost black, hair pulled back and slick as oil. Her son is at her side, a twin shadow that you have heard is her image in more than just physical likeness.
Choi Moojin stops an arm's length away. Up close, he's larger than you remember, the kind of presence that fills up a room and makes you feel small. His eyes are fathomless, but surprisingly warm, a weird offset to the danger you know he poses.
"You look beautiful," he says, voice soft. "Congratulations on your engagement. Your families must be proud, you're an exquisite couple with good taste."
You dip at the knees and lower your head, bowing as deep as decorum for the moment demands. "Thank you, Tower. Your blessing is appreciated."
Seungcheol steps around his father, offering his hand to Minghao while his sister lingers behind him, a strange look on her face as she watches you, almost like panic. Her brother shakes Minghao's hand firmly before he takes yours and kisses the top politely. "Congratulations."
Minghao's fingers flex against your spine, the tiniest pressure before you drop Seungcheol's hand and the Choi's drift away. You feel yourself exhale as they do, relief flooding your system at their obvious approval. The Mountain will stand behind your marriage, which is as good as signing the paper and saying your vows.
The Wisdom goes with the Choi's, dipping her head toward you with a small smile that unsettles you, but her son lingers, drifting closer with a lazy grin.
Jeonghan offers a hand to Minghao. "A union of banking and shipping. Tell me, does love come standard with the merger, or is that an optional upgrade?
It's crass. From what you know of Yoon Jeonghan, it isn't surprising that he likes to see you squirm. Though he's next in line to be the Wisdom of the Choi Syndicate when his mother steps down from the title, you're unsure if he's suited for it if he can't help but make inappropriate barbs at an engagement party.
You have half the mind to tell him so, but it's Minghao who answers, a sharp smile on his face as he shakes Jeonghan's hand. "We prefer equity over love."
Jeonghan laughs, delighted. "Enjoy the party. Congratulations on your union."
With a final wink, Jeonghan drifts away, chasing after Seungcheol who is arguing with his sister again. The Tower ignores his children, clapping someone on the back from Nexus Capital's board of directors.
Minghao's hand slides from your back to your wrist, thumb brushing the tourmaline bracelet once before he drops his hand entirely. You don't dare look at him. The touch is intimate and softer than you expect. It unsettles you that itâs the softest bit of warmth anyone has shown you in years.
Your new penthouse is too large for two people. You knew that before you moved in, but with someone as quiet and absent as Minghao, it feels like you're on your own most days.
The penthouse occupies the entire crown of the residences at The Observatory in the northeast corner of the Upper District. Your new home is four thousand square feet of smoked glass, matte black steel, and pale ash wood that leaves the home cold.
The main living space is a single open expanse, the kitchen bleeding into the dining room and lounger. Floor to ceiling windows frame the open space on three sides, letting in the spill of city flights on a clear night. Tonight, it's cloudy, the fog on the glass pressing close and obscuring the world. It makes you feel like you're in your own dimension far away from Hyperion.
Your bedroom is in the east wing of the apartment, Minghao's is in the west. Two totally opposite ends of the space you're supposed to share together. Live in together. Be married in together. He'd requested your rooms remain separate, and though it hadn't bothered you at first, it does now.
It doesn't matter what bothers you, though. There's no one around to complain to. Your days have settled into a brittle sort of rhythm: you get up at seven to go to the gym to find him already gone. You never see him leave but when you make your mugwort and lemon tea, the kettle is always warm. He returns sometime between nine and noon, hair damp, expression icy. He gives you a polite nod, then vanishes to his wing of the apartment.
No words. Nothing.
You spend the hours alone learning the layout of your home. It's different from the rolling estate of your family. Smaller and bigger all at once, lacking the intricacies and oddities of a home that has been in a family for generations.
The windows never open - you suppose that makes sense, this high up. The air is triple-filtered and scent-neutralised, making the rooms feel dead and clinical. You decide to combat this every Wednesday after the cleaners have gone.
As soon as they're gone, you begin your work. The routine is simple, nothing extravagant. You take a small bundle of palo santo from the tin you keep with your tea and light one end, letting the sweet smoke rise. With the woody smoke drifting from the lit end, you walk the apartment slowly, clockwise while thinking on your intentions.
You trail the smoke along the windows, under the sofa, around the legs of the stools at the island. You grow hesitant when you near Minghao's room, but you let the smoke drift toward his door anyway. You don't open it, but your hands trace the doorframe, a small peace offering.
As you work, your mind empties save for your little intentions: peace, protection, harmony. You're kneeling in the middle of the living room, passing the palo santo beneath the low coffee table one last time when the front door opens without warning. You sit rod straight, turning to see Minghao come into the apartment. Your eyes flick to the clock and you frown. He's early today.
He's dressed in black workout clothes, hair damp, a bottle of water dangling in one hand. He stops the moment he sees you.
Smoke curls between you. He says nothing and neither do you. You half expect a question, a raised brow, anything. He looks at the palo santo in your hand, the thin ribbon of smoke, and then back to you. Something shifts in his expression that you can't place, but he doesn't say anything.
Instead, he steps carefully to the kitchen, giving you a wide berth despite the physical distance already between you, and opens the fridge. He takes out a second bottle of water, and sets it on the island counter top toward you.
"You look dehydrated," is all he says before he tips his head and walks back to his wing.
You remain on your knees, staring at him, lips parted a little. His bedroom door shuts with a distant click, leaving you in the silence and the curling smoke.
Eventually, you get up, knees cracking as you do. You feel a little dizzy and realize you are thirsty. You have no idea how he was able to clock that you're dehydrated by simply looking at you, but you file it away as one of Minghao's oddities, a neverending list that points to him not being the arrogant rich kid you expected.
Heading to the counter, you grab the water, the condensation on the bottle cold and exactly what you needed. As you drink it, Minghao surprises you by coming back out, a bag over his shoulder. You frown, eyes dropping to the bag.
"I'll be gone for three days," he tells you. "I'll see you on the morning of the third day."
"Where are you going?"
"Business." You don't like the ambiguity, but he's already halfway out the door. He hesitates and turns to you, mouth opening and closing as he chooses his next words carefully. "This is your home. Practice how you'd like."
"Pardon?"
"Your⊠practice. You don't need to hide it from me, Wicked."
You scowl. "I told you not to call me a wicked woman."
His mouth tilts. "I'm not. Simply wicked, is all. Not quite a wicked woman, not quite a practitioner, hmm?"
You glare through his logic and he shrugs, heading for the door and slipping through like smoke.
-
"Here," you say softly, shoving a bundle into Minghao's hand. He raises his brows, eyes skirting the crowd around you. "This is for you."
It's not the best time to give him the gift, but Minghao is never at the penthouse and keeps hours strange enough that you almost never see him despite living with him. The charity auction for the Archaeology Restoration Fund swells around you under the floating sky of the Lumina Tower, but as a moment of quiet opens up while you're standing next to the orchid walls, you take your change.
His dark eyes flick to your face, then back to the offering. He unwraps the silk with careful fingers, revealing the bracelet nestled inside. It is a deep blood-red cord, braided deliberately by your own hands over several quiet nights in the penthouse. Woven into the threads are three fine strands of your own hair, unmistakeable. At the center hangs a small, polished azabache charm, a piece of jet stone you sourced a few days ago. The stone is smooth and cool, carved with subtle protective sigils only visible under the right light.
He stares at it for a long moment, thumb brushing over the braided cord and the jet stone. Something unreadable flickers across his features before he quickly schools it away.
âYou made this?â His voice is low, almost cautious.
"Yes."
"What is it?"
"The red is for strength and safety. The azabache is for warding off the evil eye. The hair binds my intention."
"It's not a curse?" You scowl and his mouth twitches. "You threatened to hex me, forgive my hesitation."
Minghao turns the bracelet slowly in his fingers, the azabache catching the soft light. He runs his thumb over the braided strands of your hair, expression softening by the smallest degree. "You continue to surprise me."
"Yeah, well. You don't have to wear it if you don't want to."
Minghao is quiet for another long beat. Then, without a word, he slips the red bracelet onto his right wrist. The contrast of the vivid red cord against his black suit and pale skin is striking. He flexes his hand once, as if testing how it feels, then looks back at you.
"Thank you." There's no mockery or deflection as he lowers his hand. "I'll wear it."
"Don't read too much into it."
"Hm. Too late. Thank you, Wicked."
For a moment, the nickname sounds fond instead of teasing, and the noise of the gala fades. The glowing orchids, the drifting lanterns, the murmur of high society - all of it recedes and leaves the two of you standing in this small pocket of quiet among the spectacle.
-
When you were a little girl, you always imagined that your wedding might be somewhere in a forest, somewhere where forests still legitimately existed. You'd be barefoot, feet planted firmly on a mossy ground, and your hands would be bound in red ribbon to your lover, covered binding oil distilled from flowers and herbs over your wrists until the ribbons were saturated and heavy with the smell of herbs.
This wedding is not that.
The air in the bridal suite is scented heavily with orchids and warm vanilla, the florals spilling over their vases and decorating every surface even here when no one can see them. You stand motionless before the towering mirror, the weight of your gown weighing you down as attendants move around you, adjusting the train of your dress and the butterfly-delicate gossamer of your veil.
Thankfully, the gown is a little like what you imagined. Forgoing the traditional white, it's made of layers of midnight silk, covered in thousands of hand-stitched obsidian beats and microscopic diamonds that fracture in the recessed lighting, turning it into layers of constellations. It spills dramatically into a trail of inky fabric.
You'd commissioned the dress six weeks ago, requesting the design to echo the deep, light-devouring suits Minghao favored. It was a deliberate statement of unity, power, and ultimately, ownership. You'd done it on purpose, and your father had approved when he'd seen it for the first time this morning.
A small win.
Your fingers drift beneath the long sleeve on your left wrist, tracing the black tourmaline and jasper cord hidden against your skin. The cord feels warm, a quiet tether to something older and more certain than the spectacle awaiting you. You breathe deliberately - four counts in, four out. It calms the frantic bird trapped behind your ribs, but only barely.
The reflection in the mirror is alien to you. You've never seen yourself look more elegant and composed, but inside you still feel like the little girl who collected moon water in jars and whispered secrets into manifestation journals.
Beyond the heavy double doors, the ceremony garden waits. The Garden of Eden is one of the city's finest venues, a floral dream suspended three hundred floors above Hyperion's rain-slicked streets. Real, living soil fills massive engineered beds through the space with towering tropical ferns planted, their glossy fronds glinting with dew. Multiple water falls cascade from tiered rock formations into koi ponds, the splash audible even from behind closed doors.
You'd chosen the venue because it was the closest thing you could get to the living earth in Hyperion. Minghao's mother had chosen it because it was the most luxurious venue she'd ever had access to up until now, a haven reserved for the elite. The commonfolk of Hyperion didn't have access to house plants, much less the night-blooming jasmine climbing up trellises and arches or the deep blood-red roses and exotic orchids dotting the aisles.
Hundreds of guests are already seated under the domed ceiling with an engineered twilight sky. Hidden audio systems weave strings and the resonant hum of crystal bowls through the space, frequencies chosen to evoke harmony and solemnity. You can hear the din of the crowd over the sounds, the Upper District elites shimmering in jewels and silks worth more than entire city blocks.
A soft knock interrupts your thoughts. Mina, your lead attendant, slips inside. She's only a few years older than you, but she's sharp-eyed and had years of service with your family, previously working with your sister. You don't mind her - she's not a friend, but she's also not unfriendly, which you'll take.
âItâs time, miss," she informs you. "The Tower and his family are seated and the Xu family is positioned. The garden is ready."
You nod once, throat tight and dry. There is no escape. The contracts were signed in that cold boardroom months ago. You'd known since the moment your sister died that this is what your life was now - the Tower upright, sudden change. The moon reversed, lies coming undone. Death, upright, great transformation. You'd been pulling the same cards for months, each the same thing.
It was the universe's way of telling you that this was your fate, as inescapable as any hard law or scientific rule.
Fragrant air greets you in the corridor. The staircase is full of flowers and dripping in vines, the steps covered in moss and trailing ivy that release sweet smells with every step. Swallowing, you walk down the stairs carefully, attendants behind you and ensuring you don't trip until you're at the bottom of the staircase behind a private screen, preparing to turn the corner and walk down the aisle.
Taking a breath, you turn the corner. Your heart pounds in rhythm with the distant music as the aisle comes into full view. The aisle stretches in front of you, a pathway edge with living white orchids. The ceremony cuts right through the heart of a lush garden, mist curling around the guests feet as they rise, hundreds of them moving in a wave of silk and murmurs.
Eyes track you from every angle - envy, calculation, hunger, approval, curiosity - but you keep your gaze fixed forward, suddenly latching to the man waiting beneath the grand arch of vines and cascading blooms.
Minghao is a shadow given form. He's dressed in black on black, the fabric so absolutely it seems to absorb the light and color from the greenery. His hair is styled longer, framing the exquisite balance of his face. His eyes find yours instantly, intense and unreadable, a stillness that calls to you.
Your pulse thunders as you start the walk. The train trails behind, gently managed by two young attendants as mist from the nearest waterfall kisses your skin, cooling the heat rising in your cheeks. Anxiety coils tight in your stomach, a living serpent, but you move with the trained grace of someone who has practiced this exact path in rehearsals. Future matriarch. Bride. Pawn in a larger game of shipping lanes, banking power, and Syndicate alliances. You wonder if your sister felt this same suffocating weight on her own path or if it was cut too short to ever consider it.
When you reach the altar platform, Minghao extends his hand. You offer him yours, hating the way your hands shake. He grips your hand firmly, and the contact sends a subtle spark up your arm, grounding amid the overwhelming sensory storm of the garden. For a single heartbeat, the hundreds of eyes, the cameras, and everything else recedes, leaving only you and Minghao.
His eyes are fathomless, easy to lose yourself in. His hand tightens a fraction around yours, his eyes only for you. "Temperance upright," he murmurs, only to you. "Patience. Balance. You embody those qualities. I appreciate them."
You blink in surprise when you realize he's talking about the tarot cards. You don't know what to say, the compliment stunning you, but Minghao doesn't wait for you to respond. His eyes flick to the officiant, a respected and neutral legal arbiter provided by Hyperion's council for this special occasion. She's dressed formally, her face perfect and impassive, making it impossible to tell how old she is.
Her voice is solemn but commanding as she urges the guests to sit, the ceremony beginning. Your hand remains in Minghao's, dropped between your waists as you stare ahead with unseeing eyes. You hear the officiant's voice, but you barely hear the words, your pulse loud in your ears as your heart hammers, each word spoken another piece of your sealed fate.
Ahead, the officiant speaks of alliance between houses and the merging of love and families. When you exchange rings, your hands are shaking again, stilled only by Minghao's gentle fingers as he clasps your hand to steady you, helping you slide the plain obsidian band onto his fingers, his sleeve pulling up just slightly to reveal his red bracelet.
Your ring is just as dark, inlaid with gold leaf and precious black stones that make it glimmer and flash dangerously. It feels heavy. Permanent. You watch as his nimble fingers slide it onto your hand, the single scar on his finger catching the light.
"Say the vows," the officiant instructs softly.
"I take you as my husband," you start, nearly whispering. You glance up at him and he nods a fraction, urging you to continue. You continue, voice clearer. "I vow to stand beside you in shadow and in light, in power and in duty, in prosperity and in peril, until this union is dissolved by law or by death."
Minghao doesn't miss a beat. "I take you as my wife. I vow to stand beside you in shadow and in light, in power and in duty, in prosperity and in peril, until death."
"It's-"
He cuts off the officiant's correction. "I know the words."
Your heart flutters, Minghao's choice to skip until this union is dissolved by law or by death a deliberate choice. Somehow it feels more powerful the way he's said it, like he's promising only death can tear you away from him. You think perhaps it's just the last bits of you clinging to the idea of romance, the idea of love that makes you feel that way.
The officiant pronounces you husband and wife and thunderous applause erupts, mixing with the hush of the waterfalls. Minghao lifts your face toward his with careful fingers, his touch lingering at your jaw, fingers gentle as they tilt your face upward. His eyes flicker with something so quickly you don't catch the emotion, and then he's leaning forward, pressing a brief, chaste kiss to your lips. He tastes faintly of wine, the touch lingering as he pulls away quickly.
Husband and wife. The words sink deep, heavy as the rings now on your fingers.
-
The reception is an ode to extravagance that most people cannot fathom. Spanning across three floors, each level opens into cascading terraces of real gardens with multi-tiered waterfalls feeding into glowing pools where rare bioluminescent koi swirl and swim. Walls of ferns, flowering vines, and fruit-bearing trees create alcoves with glass benches and trickling fountains. Each table is overflowing with food that won't be eaten, servers passing by with platters of rare chocolates dusted in edible gold and endless flutes of vintage wines and champagnes.
You navigate the crowd at Minghaoâs side, his hand a near-constant presence at the small of your back. The contact is grounding for you but probably possessive in the eyes of your onlookers - and there are many. But only a single onlooker matters tonight, and as Choi Moojin approaches with his wife, you feel your spine go rigid until he offers his formal congratulations and blessing. As always, his daughter lingers nearby with that familiar haunted expression, her brother behind her like a shadowed gargoyle.
You smile until your cheeks ache. You exchange pleasantries with board members, accept compliments on the dress, the venue, the fabricated love story fed to the press. The floral scents grow heavier, the constant murmur of voices and music pressing against your temples. The bird in your chest flutters more desperately with every passing minute, and after nearly an hour and a half of relentless performance, you need a break.
"I need a moment," you murmur to him. "I'm just going to go to the upper powder room terrace. I'll be brief."
He studies your face carefully, then nods. âTake Mina and let security know where you're going."
You slip away with your attendant after telling security where you're going and getting their nod of affirmation before they mutter instructions into an earpiece. Mist from a nearby waterfall cools you off as you walk up the stairs, Mina helping with the heavy train. When you're finally alone on a private terrace, security just outside, you let yourself relax against a stone fountain, drawing in deep breaths of the mineral-rich air.
For the first time since the ceremony began, your practiced smile slips. Your feet hurt, your neck and shoulders ache, and you're starving, wishing you could stop the pleasantries for a moment to just eat.Â
A small, wet gasp cuts through the peaceful trickle of the fountain and you spin around, startled. Time fractures as you try to put the pieces together of the image in front of you. A man dressed as a server with the lower half of his face obscured by a mask stands directly behind Mina, a gloved hand clamped over her mouth while she screams into his palm. He draws a sharp blade across the softness of her throat, scarlet spraying.
Mina's eyes widen in terror, locking onto yours for a single, agonizing heartbeat before they glaze over, her body convulsing once before she goes limp. Blood pours down the attacker's arm and down the front of her uniform, spilling red onto the terrace floor.
A scream rips from your throat, raw and primal, echoing off the stone walls. "Security!"
No footsteps thunder toward you. No shouts of alarm. The doors remain closed. The posted guards don't answer your call, and the music and laughter from the reception floors below continue uninterrupted, as if the universe itself has muted you.
Terror floods your system like ice water. Your heart slams against your ribs so violently you feel it in your throat. Adrenaline surges, sharpening every sense while simultaneously making your limbs feel distant and heavy.
Your right hand dives into the hidden slit of your gown, fingers closing around the small, discreet knife you've kept on your person since your sister's death. You yank it free, gripping the handle with enough force that your knuckles hurt as you pivot from the fountain, putting it at your back for a sliver of protection.
The attacker releases Minaâs collapsing body and he crumples to the ground in a heap of blood-soaked fabric, her eyes open and staring. The masked figure turns toward you with predatory calm.
"Security!" You scream again, the sound of your voice bouncing off the terrace walls.
No one answers, and a single, horrifying realization crashes over you - either the guards have been compromised or they're dead, and this attack was timed with terrifying precision.
There's no time to think as the attacker lunges.
You twist desperately to the side, the blade whistling past your ribs by inches. The movement throws you off balance on the wet stone, but you slash out wildly with your own knife, catching the attackerâs sleeve and drawing a thin line of blood. He grunts angrily and pivots, his knife slashing at you again. You duck and stumble backward, the fountainâs stone foundation scraping painfully against your hip as you use it to keep distance.
Fear is a living thing inside you now, clawing at your lungs, making every breath sharp and ragged. Iâm going to die here. On my wedding night. In front of a fucking fountain while people drink and celebrate without knowing. The thought fuels a desperate surge of fury and you lunge at him this time, catching him off guard as you stab upward.
You manage to nick him, but you don't know how to fight and his retaliation of your anger is brutal as his knife flashes against and slices across your forearm, cutting through silk and skin in a burning line of pure agony. Blood pours instantly, hot and slick down your wrist and hand, making your grip on your own knife slippery and you scream out in pain.
A second strike follows before you can recover, a deep gash opening up across your upper left arm as you turn away from him. The pain is white-hot and blinding, and you let out another choked, animal sound as your vision narrows, blood roaring in your ear.
Every heartbeat sends fresh agony through the gashes, but terror keeps you moving. You kick out hard, your heel connecting with the attackerâs knee and he staggers but recovers easily, closing the distance to kill.
And then Minghao is there, exploding onto the terrace like a force of nature. One moment he's at the door, the next he's a blur of controlled violence as the killer turns to face the more immediate threat. Minghao is fast, stepping inside the man's guard, hand shooting out to grip his wrist and twist with bone-cracking force. A sickening crunch echoes and the man screams, the blade clattering to the ground.
The man swings with his free hand, but Minghao ducks under the wild punch with fluid precision, driving his elbow upward into the manâs throat in a devastating strike. The sound is wet and choked, the cartilage shattering under Minghao's elbow.
You stumble backward against the fountainâs stone foundation, left arm hanging useless and burning, blood streaming down your fingers in hot rivulets. Your own small knife trembles in your right hand, slick with blood. Fear still claws at your throat, tight and awful as Minghao - your husband for less than two hours - moves like something trained for this exact kind of violence. The polished, soft-spoken heir from the boardroom is gone. In his place is something sharper, darker, and far more dangerous.
The attacker tries to recover, lashing out with a desperate kick, but Minghao catches the leg, yanks it forward, and slams his knee into the manâs inner thigh with brutal force, dropping him to one knee. Then Minghao is behind him, a single arm snaking around the attacker's neck. For a second, your eyes meet Minghao's, his gaze ice and fire all at once. Then, he snaps the man's neck hard, the crack loud and final.
The attackerâs body goes limp instantly, collapsing in a heap beside Minaâs body. Blood pools beneath both bodies, mixing with the water from the fountain and staining the delicate white orchids that edge the stone paving.
Minghao is heaving, catching his breath as he stares at you across the violent terrace. He takes a single step toward you before chaos erupts in the doorway, heavy footsteps thundering across the stone as members of the Choi Syndicate flood the space. Seungcheol is in the room first, face like thunder and gun in hand. Jeonghan is behind him, the lazy smirk gone and replaced with deadly focus, armed and gun raised over Seungcheol's shoulder.
Seeing Soonyoung surprises you - you hadn't realized the Sword of the Choi family was here. You'd heard he'd been unpredictable and unhinged as of late, but from what little you knew of him, he was Seungcheol's first line of defense and probably went everywhere the Tower's son did.
Behind him, you vaguely recognize another Sword of the Choi family speaking into a comm at his wrist. You've met Joshua several times at galas and parties, his family high up enough in the Choi Syndicate to run in the elite circles - you even remember them being disappointed he'd become a Sword instead of a socialite or something less violent.
More personnel pour in behind them, your fatherâs security, Nexus Capital executives, event staff in panicked disarray. The peaceful mist of the terrace turns thick with the metallic stench of blood and the overlapping shouts of orders while you lean against the fountain, light-headed and bleeding.
Your fatherâs voice cuts through the noise like a whip. âShut it down! Shut the entire fucking wedding down! Seal the floors now!" He pushes through the growing crowd, face flushed with fury. âI want this building locked. Find out how the hell this happened under our security! Someoneâs head will roll for this!â
The chaos swells. Guests from the lower levels begin to murmur and push upward as rumors spread like wildfire. Security teams from both families clash in their attempts to take control, voices rising in overlapping commands. Someone is already photographing the bodies. Another is calling for medical extraction.
Through it all, Minghao moves straight to you.
âEveryone back!â he barks, voice sharp as Nexus Capital security moves toward you. "I will handle my wife. Get away from her."
Minghao sits you on the edge of the fountain, the water spraying your back and soaking through your dress. He drops to his knees in front of you, shrugging off his jacket in one fluid motion and pressing the expensive fabric hard against the deep gashes on your left arm. The pressure sends fresh waves of white-hot pain radiating through your shoulder and chest, but you bite back a cry.
âBreathe," he instructs, voice soft. "In for four, out for four."
You look at him sharply. "How do you know that?"
"You did it the entire time we were at the altar, Wicked. Where are you hurt?"
"Cuts on my arms."
"Deep? Tell me ba-"
Your father pushes closer, still shouting as he interupts whatever Minghao was about to say. âMinghao, let my people handle this. We need to get her to a secure-"
âNo,â Minghao snaps, rising to his full height while pulling you to his side, hands pressed against your wounds to staunch the bleeding. âNo one touches her except me right now. This is my wife. My responsibility.â
The possessiveness in his tone sends a strange shiver through you, mixing with the adrenaline and pain. He begins guiding you slowly away from the fountain, toward the far side of the terrace where the chaos is slightly less suffocating, his hands never leaving the wounds, applying constant, firm pressure.
Joshua separates himself from the Syndicate group and approaches carefully, hands raised in a clear non-threatening gesture. Minghao pulls you away but you squeeze his arm and whisper, "Syndicate. High up. Don't offend him."
Minghaoâs jaw tightens and his eyes flick to you, assessing the amount of blood still soaking through his jacket and the way your legs are beginning to tremble. For a long second, he seems ready to refuse. Then he gives a single, curt nod. âBriefly. Privately. No one else comes near her.â
Joshua signals quickly. A moment later, a woman in an elegant deep emerald gown slips through the crowd, escorted by a man you don't know. Her expression is focused and professional, despite the surrounding chaos. She doesn't waste time with introductions, marching toward the small, adjoining private lounge just off the terrace.
Inside, the space is quiet, dimly lit with warm amber lighting, furnished with low couches and lush potted plants. She works with swift efficiency, focused on helping instead of introducing herself. She orders Minghao to keep pressure on your wounds while she cuts away parts of your dress to clean the gashes with antiseptic. The sting makes you hiss through your teeth, fresh tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. Minghaoâs free hand finds yours, squeezing gently, surprising you.
"Cuts are deep but clean," she says, voice clinical. "No major vessels hit. Youâll need proper stitches and antibiotics soon, but this will hold for now."
She applies quick-acting clotting powder, then wraps your forearm and upper arm in tight bandages. The pressure is firm, immediate relief against the constant bleeding. Throughout it all, Minghao stays close, one hand on your back, the other assisting where needed.
Your mind spins. Minaâs lifeless eyes flash behind your eyelids every time you blink. The wet sound of her gasp. The way the attacker moved, professional, silent, deadly. This wasnât random. This was targeted. On your wedding night. In the middle of the most public spectacle Hyperion has seen in years with some of the heaviest security you've ever been around.
You glance up at Minghao. His face is a mask of controlled fury, but his touch on you remains careful, almost tender as the woman finishes securing the last bandage.
"That'll hold until you get her to her own private care."
âThank you,â you manage, voice hoarse and shaky. The pain is still there, a deep, throbbing burn, but it is no longer actively bleeding you out.
Joshua nods and opens the door, letting you back into the chaos.
Outside, your father is still shouting orders to shut everything down, demanding answers, threatening careers. Syndicate members move through the growing crowd like shadows, securing perimeters. Soonyoung and Seungcheol stand guard near the doors, expressions grim while Jeonghan leans against a wall, watching everything with those sharp, unreadable eyes.
Minghao keeps you tucked firmly against his side as he guides you out of the private lounge and through the swelling chaos of the upper terrace. His arm around your waist is unyielding, taking most of your weight while his other hand maintains relentless pressure on your bandaged left arm.
Every step sends fresh throbs of pain radiating through the deep gashes, but the clotting powder and tight wraps are holding. Still, warm blood seeps slowly through the bandages, staining the sleeve of your ruined obsidian gown. The once-beautiful dress now hangs heavy and ruined, torn silk clinging wetly to your skin.
âClear a path,â Minghao growls, cutting through the crowd.
Syndicate members fall in around you without question, creating a protective bubble as he steers you toward a discreet service corridor hidden behind a wall of flowering vines. The lush greenery brushes against your shoulders, leaving faint pollen and the sweet scent of jasmine on your skin. Mist from the waterfalls still clings to the air, now carrying the unmistakable metallic tang of blood.
Your head spins. The adrenaline that kept you upright during the fight is crashing hard, leaving your legs unsteady and your vision edged with black spots. You lean heavier into Minghaoâs side, inhaling the faint pine and rain scent that always seems to cling to him. He doesnât falter. His grip only tightens, steady and sure.
The private exit corridor is dimly lit with recessed amber lighting, two armed guards stationed at the end snapping to attention when they see Minghao, stepping aside instantly. A reinforced service elevator waits. Inside, the space feels claustrophobic, the mirrored walls reflecting your bloodied, disheveled appearance back to you.
Minghao says nothing. He simply helps you out when the elevator doors open directly into an underground private garage reserved for the highest tier of guests. . An armored black car idles, its engine humming. The driver steps out briefly to open the rear door and Minghao helps you inside first, easing you onto the leather seat with surprising care before sliding in beside you. The door seals with a heavy, reassuring thunk, and the car pulls away smoothly.
Minghao leans forward toward the driver and speaks in a fluid, melodic language you have never heard before, making you frown. It doesnât sound like any of the common trade tongues used in Hyperion or Arkos, but the syllables roll off his tongue with effortless familiarity, carrying the weight of something old. One of the dead languages, you think. The driver responds in the same tongue, short and affirmative, before accelerating.
You stare at Minghao, startled. He settles back against the seat. His suit is ruined with your blood, the dark black of his shirt somehow darker. His hair is slightly disheveled for the first time since you met him, a few strands falling across his forehead. His eyes are sharp and unblinking, fixed entirely on you. He hasnât relaxed. Not even slightly. His posture remains coiled, ready, one hand resting on his knee while the other occasionally flexes as if wanting to reach for a weapon.
You swallow hard, meeting his gaze head-on. âWas that your people? Did your family arrange this? To test me? To test the alliance?â
Minghao doesnât look away. His expression remains unreadable, but something flickers behind his dark eyes. âIâm not sure."
The honesty lands like a stone in still water. No deflection. No smooth corporate reassurance. Just the stark truth that unsettles you more than any lie could have. In a world built on calculated performances and half-truths, his directness feels dangerous and alien.
You let out a shaky breath, leaning your head back against the cool leather. The city lights streak across his face in shifting patterns of neon violet and electric blue.
âThank you,â you whisper after a long moment. âFor saving me."
Minghaoâs jaw tightens. "Youâre no use to my family dead.â
The words aren't kind or romantic. They carry no warmth, no reassurance. Still, they're true. In this transactional marriage of power, your survival is an asset. The bluntness stings a little, and it unsettles you. He's repeatedly told you that honesty would get you killed, and hear he is being honest himself.
Well. Honest to hide other truths, you're sure, as is his way.
You study him in the shifting light. The scar on his right knuckle stands out pale against the dried blood on his hands and you're reminded of the way he dismantled the attacker. It wasn't a survival reflex like your clumsy attempt had been - it was the training of someone who practiced and who fought efficiently, someone professional.
"Who are you?" You ask, narrowing your eyes. The car glides through a tunnel, plunging you both into momentary shadow before neon lights wash over you again. âYouâre not who my family was led to believe. That wasnât the fighting style of a logistics prince. You killed him like youâve done it before.â
Minghaoâs gaze hardens. He leans forward slightly, elbows on his knees, watching you with that intense, cataloguing stare that makes your skin prickle. âDonât ask questions you donât want the answers to.â
The warning hangs between you and you can feel the weight of his hidden truths again. None of it makes sense - the scar, the ancient-sounding language, the way his father deferred to him with a single finger twitch in that boardroom. Something isn't right with Xu Minghao, but you don't know what.
"I think I deserve to know who I just married," you say evenly. You ignore the warning, the throbbing in your arm. "My family thought they were allying with a neutral shipping empire from Arkos but you fight like someone who was trained to kill. You played into being an idiot party boy. You are not."
Minghao exhales slowly through his nose. For the first time, you see a flicker of something almost like weariness cross his features. He leans back again, eyes never leaving yours.
âThis marriage is transactional,â he says evenly. âYou donât need to know everything about me. You only need to know that you're my wife and I would go through great pains to keep you alive. It has to be enough.â
The finality in his tone closes the subject like a door slamming shut. You want to argue, to demand more, but the pain in your arm is sharpening as adrenaline fully ebbs, and exhaustion is pulling at the fraying edges of your patience.
Minghao continues watching you, tense and alert, as if expecting another threat to emerge from the shadows at any moment. His hands, still stained red, rest on his thighs as the armored car glides through the upper levels of Hyperionâs streets, the neon sprawl of the city reduced to blurred streaks of violet, crimson, and electric blue beyond the tinted windows.
The car eventually slows and turns into a private underground entrance beneath a sleek, unmarked residential spire in the Upper District. Not the Observatory penthouse you selected as your starter home, but something else. A contingency location, you realize. One of the secure safehouses that must have been part of the joint security protocols you both negotiated and approved during those long, tense meetings.
When the vehicle comes to a stop, Minghao exits first, then reaches in to help you out with careful hands. His arm slides around your waist again, supporting your weight as your legs threaten to buckle on the polished concrete. Two figures step forward immediately from the shadows of the garage, security personnel you recognize from the joint vetting process you and Minghao conducted weeks ago.
A woman named Elara with sharp eyes and a calm demeanor, and a man named Kai, broad-shouldered and quiet. They were among the handful both of you had personally approved after rigorous background checks and interviews. Neutral. Capable. Unaligned with either familyâs deeper entanglements.
âStatus?â Minghao asks them.
âAll clear, sir,â Elara replies. âThe building is locked down. Three additional teams on the perimeter. No unauthorized movement.â
Minghao nods once, satisfied, and guides you toward the private elevator. The ride upward is silent except for the soft hum of machinery. When the doors open, you step into a spacious, fortified apartment that is elegant but deliberately understated compared to the Observatory penthouse.
Minghao leads you straight to a wide, low couch in the main living area, easing you down with surprising gentleness. Elara and Kai take up positions near the entrance, professional and unobtrusive. A medical attendant has already been prepared in an adjoining room, but Minghao waves off immediate further treatment for now.
He kneels in front of you, his bloodstained hands resting lightly on your knees as he studies your face. For a long moment, the only sound is the soft hum of the buildingâs air filtration system and the distant murmur of the city far below.
âI need one of your little wicked jars,â he says quietly. âThe one youâre still hiding on yourself.â
You blink, startled despite the fog of pain and exhaustion. "Why? And how do you even know I have one?â
Minghaoâs mouth twitches, the faintest bit of amusement. âIâm observant.â He glances meaningfully at the torn sleeve of your gown where the bandages peek through, then back to your eyes. âAnd considering youâre still alive after what just happened, they must work. I would like to keep one with me for what Iâm about to go do.â
"What are you about to go do?"
"Something very violent."
The request hangs between you and you hesitate before you lift your trembling fingers to reach into the hidden inner pocket sewn deep into the bodice of your dress. The small glass jar is still there, warm from your body heat. Black salt, rosemary, hematite, sealed with wax and a drop of your blood. You press it into his waiting palm. The glass looks small against his bloodstained fingers.
Minghao closes his hand around it carefully before tucking it into the inner pocket of his ruined suit jacket. "Thank you."
He rises to his feet, but doesnât step away immediately. Instead, he looks down at you with that intense, unreadable gaze. âDo not leave this safehouse until I return. Elara and Kai have their orders and they answer to us both. Doctor Tzintzun is here - I understand she is your family doctor."
You nod. "Be careful. Please."
Minghao lingers one final second. His thumb brushes a stray strand of hair from your forehead in a gesture so unexpectedly gentle it contrasts sharply with the violence you witnessed barely an hour ago. It makes your heart skip, the breath getting stuck in your lungs for a moment. Then the mask slips back into place, the familiar cool and controlled calm you know.
He lifts his wrist, flashing the bracelet you gave him. "Youâre protecting me, right? I'll be fine. Iâll return before dawn. Rest. Let the doctor fix your arm, Wicked."
He turns and walks toward the entrance without another word. Elara and Kai acknowledge him with respectful nods as he passes, and the door seals behind him with a solid, final sound.
The silence that follows feels immense. You lean back against the couch, staring out the windows where the cityâs distant lights glitter like cold stars. Your left arm pulses with deep, aching fire, but the bandages hold. Minaâs face flashes behind your eyes again, her wet gasp and spray of blood, the way her body crumbled. You swallow hard against the rising nausea.
Doctor Tzintzun sticks her head out of the adjoining room. "Ma'am? Whenever you're ready."
You nod and allow her to come out and help you to your feet. She guides you toward the adjoining room to clean, stitch and re-bandage you again. As she does, your mind drifts back to the car ride and specifically, your new husband.
None of it makes sense. The ancient language. The brutal efficiency with which Minghao ended the attacker. His unflinching honesty when you asked if it was his people. The blunt truth about your value to his family. And now, the small spell jar resting against his chest as he walks into whatever shadows heâs about to confront.
You close your eyes as fresh antiseptic stings the wounds, tourmaline cord still warm around your wrist. The universe had warned you with its cards. The Tower falling. Illusions stripped bare. Death and transformation. Tonight, it delivered all three in blood and violence, but a steady sense of foreboding had been building all night, like the cards aren't done with you yet.
You wonder, as the pain dulls under medication and exhaustion finally pulls you under, what exactly Minghao is doing out there and what background taught him to be this way. As you fall asleep, you hope the small jar of salt, herb and intention will be enough to bring him back so you can find out.
-
Minghao moves through the rain-slicked unverbelly of the Civ District like a shadow. The neon glow from distant shipping cranes reflects off puddles stained with oil and blood, turning the narrow alley into a fractured mirror of Hyperionâs endless hunger. He's swapped the ruined wedding suit out for something more form fitting and breathable - and more importantly, free of your blood.
He'd scrubbed his hands free of your blood a few hours ago, but now someone else taints his knuckles as he presses his hand to his chest, ensuring the small spell jar that is tucked there is undamaged. It's a strange talisman, this jar that you've given him. He doesn't think they work, exactly, but it's a fascinating little practice, this stuff of yours. He's since looked into practitioners and the culture of women who practice craft, but he still can't understand how or why you came to it.
Still, he likes to wear the bracelet you gave him, often looking at it before going into a room to add another body to his list or before he has to do something he needs strength for. He's never thought much about luck, fate, or the universe, but now he carries the jar and bracelet on him like personal tokens of faith and protection.
Of all the things that Minghao finds most surprising, how often he thinks of you now is number one on the list. This marriage between you is purely transactional, a bridge between Nexus Capital's banking power and the Xu family's growing logistics empire. A calculated move to secure favor with the Choi Syndicate as instructed by the Virate to expand foothold in Hyperion.
But, strangely enough, he is fascinated by you. He's not fascinated by much, but when he'd seen you in that board room hiding bruises beneath your sleeves and drawing your peculiar tarot cards in secret, he felt a slight crack in his plan to use you and push you to the side. You were not the sheltered, obedient heiress they described. You were something sharper. Something that watched the universe with quiet, stubborn belief.
And tonight, someone tried to kill you.
He'd been shocked to find you with a knife in your hand despite the terror in your face. He'd heard you scream - he still doesn't know how, considering how far he had to run to get to you. The universe, perhaps. It impressed him to see that you'd fought back despite how bad you were at it, and the steadiness in your voice when you asked him point-blank in the car, whether his people had tried to kill you had nearly cowed him.
Most heirs in this city would have crumbled. You fought. You pushed. You handed him the spell jar without fully understanding why he wanted it, just that he did. He doesn't know what he wanted either, but it's warm against his chest and it's nice to have. Perhaps if a little jar of rocks and dirt and blood can save you from an assassination attempt, it can save him from whatever plot is unraveling in the shadows.
Minghaoâs jaw tightens as he reaches the service door of the nondescript warehouse. The man inside - Strakos - is a mid-level fixer who'd coordinated the attacker's movement tonight. He'd been sloppy, though, and Minghao was incredibly good at finding out information in a city that didn't understand the nuances of the Virate.
He slips inside without sound. The interior is dimly lit by hanging work lamps, the air thick with the smell of rust, seawater, and cheap synth-cigarettes. Strakos sits at table, back to the door, reviewing holo-feeds of some shitty porno that makes Minghao's blood boil. This man had helped plan your death, and he's sitting in the middle of a warehouse, fully clothed watching someone get fucked over a couch.
Minghao strikes before Strakos has time to react.
One hand clamps over Strakos's mouth, yanking his head back while the other loops a thin wire garrote around his throat. Strakos thrashes, hands scrabbling at the wire as Minghao gathers it in his hand and pulls, his mouth brushing against Strakos's ears.
"You ruined my wedding," he murmurs.
The wire cuts through flesh and blood wells instantly, hot and dark. Strakos bucks wildly, knocking over the table as he gurgles, hands clawing at his throat. Minghao holds firm, knees braced against the chair as he pulls, gritting his teeth. Strakos's struggle is ugly and desperate, his feet kicking as the chair legs scrape against concrete, wet chokes escaping despite the crushing pressure.
Minghaoâs mind remains clear, detached. This is not rage. This is correction. The Virate taught him long ago that hesitation kills empires.
He thinks of your face in the car, exhausted but determined, eyes wide with pain as you demanded the truth anyway. He thinks of the way you pressed the spell jar into his palm without hesitation. Of the faint scent of incense and herbs that always clings to you, the quiet rebellion of your tarot cards and hidden rituals. You are not soft. You are not simple.
You are as unexpected to him as he is to you, he thinks. And he's been very sloppy around you, unguarded and far too honest in the way that he keeps thinking will get you killed.
The wire sinks deeper. Strakos's struggles weaken, then cease entirely. Minghao holds the tension a few seconds longer, ensuring Strakos is dead before he finally releases, the body slumping forward onto the table with a dull thud. Blood drips onto the concrete floor, and Minghao smashes the phone to stop the crude holo from playing.
Minghao wipes the garrote clean on the dead manâs sleeve and tucks it away. He scans the room quickly, deleting the holo-feeds and pocketing a small data chip that might contain further connections. Only then does he pull out his encrypted comm device - the same matte-black rectangle he gave you all those months ago - and dials his father.
Xu Jian answers on the second ring. "Son."
âItâs done,â Minghao says quietly. He stares at the corpse, expression impassive. "Now to trace the loose threads of the web to the spider."
A long exhale on the other end. âBe careful. Your little display at the reception has the Choiâ curious.â
Minghaoâs mouth curves into something that isnât quite a smile. âLet them wonder. The message is clear: she is under my protection now."
"They don't know we're Virate. You could have exposed us."
"I made a calculated decision and you'll say nothing more of it. The Choi Syndicate has other things to worry about than wondering if we're Virate. I want you to look into who hired these scum. If it was Virate, we have a problem."
"It will be done."
In Arkos, under the old laws of the Virate - a loose but iron-bound confederation of family lineages bound by blood oaths far older than the Syndicates - Minghao isn't the quiet heir he is in Hyperion. He's the patriarch, the lead of his family, raised from childhood within the Virate's hidden ranks and trained in their shadows, a hidden member loyal to the Triptych.
Jian might appear to be the head of the family in Hyperion, but Minghao's elevation through blood and merit in the Virate is where the Xu family truly gets their power. While his father played the public face of Xu Worldwide Logistics here in Hyperion, planting seeds and building legitimate fronts, Minghao had been the blade ensuring those seeds took root. The true power behind the throne.
Of course what he did tonight was a risk. He knows that. Honestly, if he was doing what the Virate asked of him, he would have let them kill you. You weren't actually a necessary piece to the puzzle, but he knows that with you alive, he has a better narrative with the Choi Syndicate and it's annoyingly perceptive Wisdom and her son.
Minghao grimaces at the thought of Jeonghan and his eyes that see far too much. He knows that tonight will be a grave error and that the Wisdom's son will dig his teeth into Minghao and ask questions and prod, but it can't be helped now. What's done is done and Minghao had taken a calculated risk that he could keep the Choi's away from the Virate ties in favor of saving your life.
His father sighs on the other end like he can hear Minghao's thoughts. "This marriage is already more complicated than we anticipated."
"She is not what we expected,â Minghao admits. "She fought tonight, though she doesn't know how. Most heirs would have just screamed and died."
"You sound fond."
Minghao exhales slowly. Fond. The word feels too small, which unsettles him. From the first boardroom meeting, something had shifted. What was meant to be a strategic union already matters more than it should, and just meeting you has complicated Minghao's world when Minghao has never had complications before.
He killed for you tonight without hesitation. Not just because you are a valuable asset, but because the sight of your blood on the terrace floor had ignited something cold and possessive in his chest. He's unused to the feeling.
"I protect what belongs to me," Minghao says eventually. "She is Virate now, though she doesn't know it. I'm committed to her safety as I would be for you or mother."
His father chuckles softly. âYou always did prefer the old ways. Be careful, son. You cannot lean on the Virate. We're in the shadows.â
"I know the rules. I was forged by them.â
Minghao ends the call and slips the comm back into his pocket. For a long moment he stands over the body, rain drumming steadily against the warehouse roof. His thoughts return to you again and again, like a current he cannot escape.
You, sitting across from him in the car, shaken and unflinching as you asked whether his people had tried to kill you. The quiet strength in your voice when you thanked him even after his blunt reply. The way you fought with that small knife, desperate and untrained.
This marriage was never supposed to matter beyond its utility. Yet tonight, watching your blood spill, something fundamental had shifted. You're no longer simply the Nexus heiress - you're his wife, and in the old customs of the Virate, that bond carries weight far heavier than any corporate contract.
Minghao straightens his jacket and leaves the warehouse the same way he entered. The rain washes away the last traces of blood from his hands as he walks toward the car, ready to shower and sleep.
He'll return before dawn, as promised. And later, he'll find the remaining threads of tonight's violence and cut them clean. And perhaps, in the quiet of whatever time he finds, he'll decide how exactly he's going to be a husband to a woman who believes in tarot cards and moon water in a city that only worships power, violence and credit.
For now, the head of the Xu family has done his honor bound duty to his wife, and somewhere across the glowing city, you're probably sleeping. Bandaged but alive, carrying the barest hints and pieces of Minghao's secrets and your strange, annoying charm with you.
Minghao touches the small jar in his pocket once more, feeling its faint warmth against his chest, and allows himself the smallest ghost of a smile in the darkness.
-
Minghao steps out of the armored car into the private underground garage of the safehouse, the rain from the Civ District still clinging to him like second skin. The neon glow of the city filters down in muted streaks, casting long, fractured shadows across the concrete.
He moves on autopilot, muscles aching from the night's violence. His mind is still razor sharp though, cycling through every detail of the kill, every loose thread he'd severed tonight.
Elara and Kai materialize from their posts near the elevator, postures alert. They relax when they see Minghao and bow respectfully, straightening as he approaches. They're among the few personnel both you and Minghao jointly vetted, neutral enough to serve the new union without picking sides.
âReport,â he asks, walking into the kitchen.
âAll secure, sir,â Elara replies immediately. "Doctor Tzintzun treated her and gave her something for the pain and to sleep. Sheâs resting in the east wing suite. She did ask about you."
Minghaoâs chest tightens at the words. She asked about you. Of course you did. Even bleeding and exhausted, you pushed for answers, for truth. He nods once.
"No one comes in or out. Not even her father or anyone from Nexus Capital."
Kai inclines his head. âUnderstood. The Choi Syndicate has sent discreet inquiries. Mr. Kwon personally. Theyâre offering additional support.â
âLet them offer,â Minghao replies. âWe accept the appearance of cooperation, nothing more."
Minghao dismisses them with a wave and heads toward the east wing, leaving them back at their posts. He finds you in the master suite, tucked beneath dark sheets. Your face is relaxed in sleep, but tension still lingers in between your brows and your jaw as you frown. The black tourmaline cord peeks from beneath the edge of the bandages on your wrist. Minghao stands in the doorway for a long time, simply watching the steady rise and fall of your chest.
Something unfamiliar and dangerous twists behind his ribs. He had not anticipated this complication. The scales feel tipped out of balance, like something new has taken root, and he doesn't know what to do about it.
Minghao finally turns away and moves to the bedroom across the hall to strip off his tactical gear with mechanical, practiced movements in the bathroom. He's careful with your little spell jar, setting it down gingerly on the counter where the low bathroom light catches the glass.
He lets the scalding water melt everything but his thoughts away. He stands under the spray, watching the water swirl around his fink and fade from pink to clear. The heat feels good, unwinding his muscles and burning him to the point that the only thing left are thoughts of you and this new predicament he's in.
When he can't take the heat anymore, he steps out and changes into something soft and comfortable before settling in the middle of his bed with his computer in front of him. With the tap of a key, the screen projects holograms around him in a circle, broken only by his arm as he inserts the data chip from Strakos' warehouse into the computer.
He finds limited information on it - remnants of someone referencing the union of Nexus Capital and Xu Worldwide Logistics. He taps his fingers on his knees. The enemies in Hyperion are endless, but few of them have killing power. Most of the people in the city who hate his family are business competitors, minor patrons of various Syndicates in Hyperion. None of them have the power to send a Syndicate-sanctioned attack on his wife, which means this hit is higher up than simple city corporations.
It could be Syndicate, he supposes. He's still learning about the nuances of the three powerhouses that sit at the top of the food chain in Hyperion, but he's not convinced the Kim or Yong family would be moved enough by the marriage to do something so public about it - especially not with Choi Moojin's daughter engaged to Kim Yijun as a sign of union.
A sour feeling settles in Minghao's stomach. The easiest conclusion to make is that the threat is from the Virate. A finger of dread traces his spine at the thought. In a way, families of the Virate were similar to families of the Syndicate - they vied for power, it was always at war, and the most powerful family was always the one that was ten steps ahead. Unlike the Syndicates of Hyperion though, the families of the Virate collectively answered to the three heads of the Virate, the Triptych.
Except members of the Virate didn't know the Xu families were members. Outside of the Triptych, the Virate didn't even know Minghao existed. To them, Xu Jian was a retired member who had moved to Hyperion when he was seventeen after being honorably discharged and given the blessing of the Virate. Even with their blessing, Jian had given up all ties, powers, assets and favors from the Virate for life. That was the way it worked. His wife Luli, who had tried to leave the Virate once before, had joined him.
They'd left a key part of them there, though. Their son. The Triptych was in need of a family with old ties to be removed and relocated elsewhere, someone they could trust and that could believably sever ties with the Virate. The Xu family had been just that, and they'd given their only son to the Triptych to raise in the shadows, nameless and unclaimed as a Shade, forged in the Triptych's perfect image of an assassin before sending him to do the single thing he'd been created for: win over a Syndicate in Hyperion.
He sighs. He's tired - he's always tired these days, even more so than when he was a teenager learning how to become a shadowed killer. The lying and scheming is often harder than the killing, and trying to uncover his enemy hiding in the dark without access to real Virate influence and pull is a challenge.
An email to his personal catches his attention. It's one of the Trustees of Nexus Capital with more of Minghao's access to his new assets - your assets that are now his. It's overwhelming. Nexus Capitalâs vast banking networks, offshore accounts, silent partnerships, voting proxies. Pages of sensitive data scroll past full of liquidity reports, hidden holdings in Syndicate-adjacent ventures, influence maps.
Minghao swallows. It's exactly what he wanted. With this level of access, the family can begin weaving influence deeper into Hyperion's financial arteries, and through the Choi alliance, they can steer shipping lanes and capital flows without the Syndicates ever realizing a new, quieter power is embedding itself beneath their foundations. The Choi's believe this is nothing more than a political marriage for port advantages. They have no idea what the Virate is capable of.
Minghao should feel satisfied. This is entirely the reason he was given to the Triptych and raised as a Shade, a nameless member in the shadows, someone without influence and without a name, but one of the most valuable members of their society. Everything is proceeding according to plan, and yet for the first time in his life, he feels sharp, unwelcome conflict like the edge of an enemy's blade.
His gaze drifts again toward the door where you sleep just across the hall. You were never part of the equation. You were meant to be kept at a distance, polite and useful, a spoiled brat who would go to parties and be the socialite Minghao was told you were. Instead, you have lodged yourself under his skin and you haven't even done anything - you'd simply looked at him after he'd killed the attacker tonight not in fear, but wary recognition that Minghao was also not what he seemed.
Protecting you tonight had felt instinctive. Necessary. The thought of you lying dead beside Mina had ignited a cold fury he rarely permits himself. And that realization terrifies him.
Loyalty to the family and to the old ways has defined Minghao's entire life - every choice he has ever made. It gave him purpose when his father focused on building the legitimate Hyperion front, it forged him into steel when he was being wiped and cut and tested. Attachments were always meant to be managed, never indulged, and yet here he is sitting in a safehouse, conflicted over a wife he doesn't really know.
If future objectives ever require sacrificing your safety, or keeping truths from you that could destroy the fragile trust beginning to form - what then? A few months ago, Minghao would have said he'd cut you away no problem. Now, he thinks he might need to cut you out like cancer, nearly killing himself in the process to sever the tie.
How unsettling. He isn't sure how he's gotten here, but as always, it's up to him to figure it out. Right now is not the time, though, so he rolls his shoulders and continues working through the remaining hours of darkness, mapping pressure points within Nexus Capital, noting which Choi figures might be influenced over time. Every new door opened by the marriage is another step into Hyperion's core, his entire purpose.
The first hints of dawn begin to lighten the sky beyond the glass of the bedroom. He glances up and realizes his current work has no business being done in the light of day, so he powers down the computer, the cyan numbers and screens vanishing. He stands and shuffles across the hall to check on you, opening the door as quietly as he can.
You're still asleep, breathing steadily in the same position he left you in. Sighing, he sits down in one of the chairs, leaning so his elbows are on his knees and his chin rests in his elbows, staring at you as you sleep.
For the first time in his life, the sharp edge of his purpose feels negotiable. Not abandoned or broken, but rather complicated by the strange, stubborn woman sleeping in front of him.
Perhaps you are wicked, but rather for the things you do to him instead of your actual deeds.
-
The last place you want to be tonight is the Eternal Bloom Gala at the Celestial Atrium in the Pearl District. The atrium is a floating marvel suspended between three interconnected spirals, gardens far more exquisite than even your wedding dominating every space. Though it looks nothing like your wedding, it's close enough to make your stomach turn, your fingers brushing across the closed wounds, still healing since the attack three weeks prior.
Massive domed ceilings of smart glass reveal the night sky above Hyperion, projected stars mingling with the real ones when the clouds part. Tiered terraces overflow with tropical foliage and cascading waterfuls that tumble into artificially glowing pools full of night-blooming lilies the size of dinner plates.
Crystal lanterns drift lazily overhead like captive moons, casting warm golden light that softens every sharp edge of wealth on display as women glide through the gardens in gowns of liquid silk and embroidered starlight. Servants in white move like ghosts, offering flutes of shimmering vintage and tiny edible sculptures dusted with real gold leaf.
Tonight, you're playing the part of socialite perfectly despite the bone-deep exhaustion that clings to you even now. Your gown is a deep forest green this evening, chosen to complement the venueâs living opulence and because it has sleeves that high the healing scars on your arm. Minghao stands a few paces away, devastating in a green so dark that it's almost black, his presence a dark anchor amid the glittering crowd.
Your husband is a startlingly good date. He's attentive in public, close enough for appearances, but never quite warm. He speaks to you more than he used to, small observations about the room, quiet comments on people passing by, but the deeper questions you ask still meet that same polite, impenetrable wall.
Despite asking multiple times, he still won't tell you who trained him to kill with such clinical efficiency. Won't explain the ancient language he used with the drive that night. It doesn't matter how much he dances around your questions - you still probe, willing to chip away at his armor with every conversation if you have to.
You turn your attention back to the circle of high society ladies surrounding you. As much as you hate it, they're the gatekeepers of Hyperion's upper echelons, wives and daughters of banking dynasties, shipping magnates, and Syndicate families. Their gowns shimmer in jewel tones, their smiles sharp as broken glass.
Though exhausted, you have spent the last hour slowly weaving Minghao into their world, dropping careful mentions of his insights on logistics and neutral trade routes, painting him as a valuable new addition to the delicate balance of power.
Lin stands at the center, as she usually does. She's always been a ring-leader, now married to a mid-level Sword whose name you forget. She carries herself with the confidence of someone whose family has hovered near the inner circle for generations. You've known her since you were teens, your circles overlapping heavily enough that she feels almost like an old yet complicated acquaintance.
Tonight, she's in deep crimson silk that catches the lantern lights like fresh blood, her smile sweet on the surface but sharp underneath You don't miss the way her eyes linger on Yoon Jeonghan as he glides by, bowing politely to the women and giving them all his dashing smile. You don't think it's dashing at all, feeling your spine stiffen as the Wisdom's son winks at you and Minghao before vanishing into the crowd.
Suianne is next to her, and you're surprised to see her. She'd married into the Yong family and though the Syndicate's were currently at peace, the Yong family and the Choi family had been fighting at the docks which was the entire reason you got married to Minghao. Neither of you speak of business tonight, instead focusing on her pretty, navy gown that flowers like water.
Eva stands to Linâs other side, beautiful and brittle in shimmering silver, still nursing the very public sting of being discarded by Kwon Soonyoung after she let him into her bed. From what you'd heard, he's not spoken to her since and as you watch her eyes flick around the gala, you can see the humiliation that still clings to her.
The three of them form a petty but influential ring, always watching and always trading secrets. They're not your favorite women to spend time with, but you don't have friends. Not really. Your sister had always been the one to establish the relationships, and you'd only started after she'd died, making for awkward conversations and learning social queues clumsily.
Lin leans in slightly, lowering her voice as a drift of jasmine-scented mist curls toward you. "You have to tell us - honestly. How are you really finding married life with your mysterious Xu heir? The whole city is still rumbling about your wedding. I'm so glad you're alright."
You offer a measured, slightly tired smile, letting them see the exhaustion beneath the polish to make the performance more authentic. "Minghao is quieter than most men, but there's a steadiness to him I enjoy. He remembers small details."
"He certainly watches you closely," Suianne notes, tilting her head. "A man in love, I suppose."
You glance across the garden where Minghao stands speaking with a small cluster of neutral businessmen. His dark eyes find yours almost instantly, holding for a heartbeat too long. He tilts his head as if to ask are you okay and you nod back. He seems appeased, eyes flicking back to the men he's speaking to.
The two of you have moved back into the Observatory penthouse full time. The space no longer feels quite so vast and empty now that he joins you for breakfast some mornings. He even is willing to sit in the living room while you light palo santo, watching you warily. He still deflects every real question about his past, but the silence between you has grown less brittle.
"He's attentative," you agree, turning back to them. "Last week he remembered I prefer lemon-mugwort tea in the mornings without me saying anything. Weâve settled back into the penthouse, just the two of us above the clouds. Itâs peaceful. We're still learning."
Eva lets out a soft, bitter laugh, swirling the liquid in her glass. âAt least he comes home to you. Kwon Soonyoung fucked me senseless for three weeks straight and now pretends I donât exist when weâre in the same room. The man is a ghost after he gets what he wants.â
Lina's smile turns knowing. "That's what you get for fucking the mad dog and thinking you could mend him after she left him."
Eva looks put out by Lin's comment, but Suianne drops her voice to a whisper. "Speaking of her - no one has seen her in weeks. Not since her engagement party. You used to be close with her, weren't you Lin?"
Eva shouts Lin's name as the question lands like spark on dry tinder. Heat floods your face instantly and your mouth opens and closes. For a moment, all your carefully practiced poise deserts you and you're left staring at Lin who looks rather smug, like she's caught you in a lie.
"Um," you manage. The women burst into delighted laughter, clearly pleased to have cracked your composure. âHe is considerate. But that's not something I'm going to discuss in detail."
A smooth voice interrupts from just behind you. âOh, Lin, you terrible thing. Must you scandalize the poor girl in public?â
You turn, grateful for the interruption, as a woman you donât recognize steps into the circle with effortless confidence. She's utterly striking, tall and elegant in midnight blue silk that pools around her like shadows, her dark hair swept up with silver pins.
âMinael,â Lin says warmly, reaching out to clasp the womanâs hand. âI didnât know you were coming tonight. And with your husband, no less.â
Minaelâs husband steps forward beside her, a tall, well-built man in impeccably cut black. His features are sharp, with cool grey eyes that seem to take in everything at once.
"Sato Ken," he introduces himself, offering his hand with a polite smile that doesnât quite reach his eyes.
You extend your hand to shake his, and the moment your palms meet, your gaze drops down involuntarily to his hand. There, across the first knuckle, is a thin, precise scar, nearly identical to the one on Minghaoâs hand. Pale, deliberate, the kind left by wire or a very sharp blade. Not the sort of mark one expects on a society husband.
A chill slides down your spine. Ken's grip is firm, lingering just a fraction too long, and when you meet his eyes again, he's studying you with an intensity that feels uncomfortably familiar, As if he is cataloguing you the same way Minghao does.
Something in your gut turns rotten. A chill settles over you as you stare at Ken. Beyond him, something catches your eye. Near the top of the trees, a black bird lands, shuffling its wings. It's so black it's almost blue, oil-slick feathers shining in the light as it shuffles, craning its head until it blinks two beady eyes at you. You stare at it for a moment - you don't think you've ever seen a crow in the city before.
And then it flutters its wings and flies away through the open roof, vanishing into the inky sky like it was never there at all.
âPleasure to finally meet you,â Ken says smoothly, bringing your attention back to him. âWeâve heard much about the new Xu-Nexus union.â
Minael laughs lightly, linking her arm with Linâs. âDarling, you must tell me everything later. Iâve been dying to hear how the mysterious Arkos heir is settling into our little ecosystem.â
The conversation shifts around you, but you remain hyper-aware of Ken. He stands slightly behind his wife, eyes occasionally drifting back to you with that same probing focus. Something isn't right about Sato Ken. His wife seems perfectly well and good at socializing and you can tell Lira and the others are doting on her, but her husband is bad at this, his presence a palpable edge to the softness of his wife.
A tingle prods at the back of your neck, and instinct tells you to be wary of him. You engage with him little, ensuring that his wife is positioned between the two of you at all times. Your finger brushes against your bracelet, warm from your skin and grounding.
Thankfully, Minael and Ken don't linger long. After a few minutes of polite exchange, they drift away toward another group, the eerie man casting one final, lingering glance over his shoulder at you before disappearing into the foliage.
Moments later, Minghao appears at your side, moving with that silent grace you have come to expect. His hand settles lightly at the small of your back, warm through the silk. You suck in a breath, glancing at him, a little startled by his nearness.
âAre you ready to go home?â he asks quietly, voice pitched so the others can hear. âWe were supposed to stay another hour, but you look exhausted.â
âYes,â you murmur. âPlease.â
He nods once and excuses you both from the group with polished grace, and guides you through the gardens toward a private exit. As you walk, you glance back one final time to see Ken watching you from across the atrium, half hidden behind a curtain of jasmine vines. An odd, unsettled feeling twists in your stomach and you turn away, leaning slightly into Minghao.
The armored car waits in the secure bay below. Once inside, the doors close behind you and the vehicle glides smoothly onto the road. You don't hesitate, getting onto your knees and reaching into your dress for the wrapped tarot deck you'd hidden in your pocket.
Minghao watches you from across the seat, eyebrow slightly raised. âNow?â
"Hush."
You shuffle the cards, the soft shck of the cards familiar. You donât ask a specific question out loud. You rarely need to anymore. The deck knows, and three cards slip from the deck and fall face up onto the seat as you shuffle.
The Devil, upright. Ace of Swords, reversed. Nine of Wands, upright.
You stare at them, heart sinking. Chains and bondage. Blocked clarity. A wounded warrior still standing guard, exhausted but defiant. The message feels heavy, layered with warning. Something binding. Something obscured. Something that requires continued vigilance despite deep fatigue.
Minghao leans forward slightly, studying the cards with open curiosity. âWhat do they mean?â
You donât answer immediately, tracing the edges of The Devil with one fingertip. The image of chained figures stares back at you. Your mind drifts to Ken's scar, to the way he studied you.
"Well?" Minghao asks again.
You glance at him. "Do you know Sato Ken?"
"Who?"
You frown. "The man I just met at the party. He had a scar like yours, and grey eyes."
Minghao goes unnaturally still. "What scar?"
"You have a scar on your finger." You reach out and grab his hands. He lets you, frowning as you lift his hand to the light and point to the faint scar on his knuckle, thin as can be. His hands are warm in yours, the fingers rough against your skin. "This one."
Minghao stares at where your hands are linked. "That scar specifically?"
"Yes."
A vein in his temple twitches before he shrugs a shoulder. "I don't know a Sato Ken."
Not for the first time, it sounds like Minghao is telling the truth. But you think about the way he uses truth to hide other things, and as you drop his hands and look back to the cards, you wonder which card is Minghao. The man in chains or the wounded warrior still standing guard. Maybe both.
-
Being in the Lower District alone is a bad idea. You have no choice, though. Hours in the library in the Legal District have led you here, an impossible lead buried in nonsense files. It hadn't been easy to find - Sato Ken hadn't brought up any solid leads, nor had his wife. But your search had revealed a Sato Rhia who had died in a car crash a decade ago with her husband and adopted son, a young boy who was named Zhi Yuan, not Sato Ken, but who had the same uncanny grey eyes and the beginnings of a face like the man you remember from the gala.
Pulling your coat hood up against the drizzle, you begin walking toward the nearest transit hub that will take you down to the Lower District where your research indicated the shelter was. If Zhi Yuan passed through the system, someone might remember him. Someone might know how a boy with grey eyes and a future scar ended up.
You get lost twice trying to find the train to take you to the Lower District. You've never been there without security personnel, and when you finally board the train, you feel a sense of apprehension as the car rocks back and forth, neon smearing by on the windows before it shoots underground.
Sitting near the head of the car, you settle with your hand tucked inside your coat, finger brushing the hilt of your small knife. The other rests against the tiny vial of protective oil in your inner pocket, its glass warm and grounding.
Through the scratched windows, the city becomes visible briefly as the train dives in and out of subterranean tracks. People huddle under leaking overhangs, begging for credits or hovering near fires for warmth. When the train stops, you step out and cringe, the smell of too many bodies living close together hitting you all at once.
Climbing the stairs is dangerous, the grime and rain making the ascent slippery. You hesitate to touch the rail when you see the rusted filth, and instead ask the universe to keep you from busting your ass.
The streets here are narrow and chaotic, slick with oily rain that reflects stuttering neon signs in iridescent puddles. Real rain falls harder at this level, drumming against rusted metal awnings and corroded pipes. Gang tags in glowing spray-paint pulse on every wall, though above them are the looming symbols of the Syndicates.
Street vendors hawk bootleg data pads, hacked implants, and vials of questionable stims from flickering stalls. The air grows thicker, heavier, carrying the unmistakable smells of unfiltered rain, and fried street meat. You feel painfully exposed, your coat too clean and posture too refined for this district.
Eyes follow you - some curious, some calculating. You keep your head down but your sens sharp, hand never far from your knife as you navigate the rain-slicked streets.
The shelter squats at the end of a dimly lit side street, a squat brutalist building reinforced with bolted steel plates and outdated security cams that flicker with static. Faded holographic signage above the entrance flickers with the building name, though it's broken and half on so none of the letters seem to make sense.
Rain drips steadily from the overhang as you push open the reinforced door. Inside, the air is warm and stale. You curl your nose, immediately missing the freshness of recycled air. You hadn't realized what a privilege it was until now.
Rows of cramped cots line the main hall. A few residents glancing at you curiously. A man mopping the floor with water that doesn't look any cleaner than the sticky tile nods politely at you. You approach the front desk where a middle-aged woman in a worn uniform flicks through data on a tablet under the weak glow of a buzzing fluorescent bar.
âExcuse me,â you say, keeping your voice low. âIâm looking for information about someone who might have stayed here as a child. His name was Zhi Yuan. This would have been around twenty to twenty-five years ago. I think he was adopted by Sato Rhia and her husband Amar.â
The woman studies your face, noting how obviously out of place you are before she ignores you and goes back to reading whatever is on her tablet. You grit your teeth and pull out your phone, tapping the small tile on the desk to transfer credits.
"Try again," you say through your teeth.
She glances at the credits and stiffens, rolling her shoulders as she begins typing. "Zhi Yuan?" She repeats, voice raspy. "Might not have the records that far back."
"That far? It was only twenty something years ago."
She huffs. "Listen lady, we don't got fancy storage here. We delete shit."
"Are you going to do the search or not?"
She grumbles and hits a few keys. "All I've got is some random kid from Arkos here for a few weeks. That's it."
"That's it?"
"You can transfer me more credits, but it won't do shit."
You think about leaving a handful of rusty nails, but you force a sharp smile. "Thank you so much for your help."
As you reach the door, the older man in stained janitorial coveralls pauses his mopping. He's weathered with deep lines around his eyes and hands scarred from years of hard labor. He glances at you, then at the woman behind the desk.
"You shouldn't be chasing ghosts down, miss," he whispers. "Not that one."
You pause, turning back. âWhat do you mean?â
"The boy. Let him stay dead. Virate operates that way."
The word lands like cold steel against your spine. Virate.
It's an unfamiliar word to you, but it tugs at your gut, like something is telling you it's important. âWhat is the Virate?â
The manâs expression shutters immediately. He looks over his shoulder toward the back rooms, then back at you. For a moment, genuine concern flickers across his weathered face.
Better that you donât know,â he says quietly, almost urgently. âGo home, miss. The Lower District isn't for you."
He returns to mopping without another word, the wet slap of the mop against cracked tile the only sound between you. You stand frozen for a long second, heart hammering, before pushing open the door and stepping back into the relentless rain.
-
Minghao sits across the table from his mother in the private tearoom of the Xu family residence in the Upper District. The space is deliberately designed, a copy of old Arkos interior design and architecture. Low tables of dark lacquered wood rest on mats woven from rare fibers imported at great expense, and the walls are paneled in warm cedar that release a faint, woody smell.
Soft paper lanterns hang at varying heights from the ceiling, their golden light diffused and flickering gently, mimicking the old-world illumination of ancestral estates back in Arkos. Outside the reinforced floor-to-ceiling windows, Hyperion sprawls in an endless, restless web of neon arteries, flickering holograms, and rain-streaked towers piercing the low cloud ceiling.
Rain taps steadily against the glass, a metallic percussion that Minghao has long since learned to tune out since moving here. Inside, the air is warm and fragrant with the steam rising from the teapot and the subtle notes of jasmine.
It should feel peaceful. Instead, it feels like the calm before a storm he himself is about to unleash.
Xu Luli pours the tea with the same graceful precision she has always possessed, her movements fluid, the delicate porcelain cup gliding silently across the surface of the table as she pushes it toward him. Her grey eyes catch the lantern light as she lifts her cup, sipping.
Luli looks eternally young. It's always unsettling to Minghao that his mother doesn't look like she ages, while his father lets himself age freely. He knows it's a status and power play, but he hates the way he looks at his mother and sees someone frozen in time, someone he will eventually surpass because augmentation and longevity is not for him.
Minghao watches her hands. Elegant. Steady. The same hands that once ran through his hair when he was a young boy, before the Virate claimed the rest of his childhood and turned him into a trained weapon, a blade at their beck and call.
He takes a slow sip of the tea, letting the rare Arkos blend warm his chest and ground him. The flavor is complex, floral and slightly bitter, with an underlying earthiness that reminds him of the herbs you roll into handles and distill into oils that you like to spray across doors and clothes and objects.
"You look well," Minghao offers, sipping his tea.
Luli smiles at him softly, the kind of smile she reserves only for him. "You look tired. The marriage has been⊠eventful."
âEventful,â Minghao echoes, a dry note threading through his voice. He studies her face in the golden lantern light, noting every micro-expression. "My wife and I have not had an easy start."
"All marriages are complicated. Your father and I were not always easy, either."
âNow that you've mentioned it, Iâve been thinking about your life before Father. Before the Xu name became yours.â
Her fingers pause for the briefest moment on the teapot handle. Minghao catches it, the tiny tightening at the corner of her mouth, the way her stormy grey eyes flicker once toward the reinforced window overlooking the glowing, rain-streaked city below. The lanterns cast shifting golden patterns across her flawless face, highlighting the elegant line of her jaw.
âIt was a difficult time,â she says lightly. "Your father and I found each other at the right time."
"You were out of the public eye for a while. Why was that?"
"Youthful rebellion," she snorts. "I thought I could escape the expectations placed on me. Your wife has done a better job at hers, I will admit."
"And yet you think she's wicked."
"I never said wicked. She's just strange."
Minghao tilts his head, watching her with the same intense, cataloguing focus he once used on targets in shadowed rooms. The lantern light plays across her features, softening nothing.
"Was there someone before my father?" The question catches her off guard and her cup clinks sharply against the plate when she sets it down. "I always wondered. I never could figure out what made you leave."
"Minghao-"
"The Triptych always told me you wanted to leave," Minghao continues, nodding. He puts his chin in his palm, watching his mother keenly. "And that's why they were willing to part ways publically, that you'd asked for it. But your first departure from the Virate wasn't after you received permission. So what was it?"
"SonâŠ"
"I'm not angry. I'm just looking for some answers."
Luli is quiet for a long moment. She lifts her own cup, takes a slow sip as if buying time, and sets it down with deliberate grace. The soft clink of porcelain against lacquer sounds unnaturally loud in the quiet room. Outside, the rain intensifies, drumming harder against the glass.
âYes,â she admits at last. âI ran away with a lover.â
The admission hangs heavy in the air between them. Minghao nods, mind racing ahead. His eyes drop down to the red bracelet you'd given him, the azabache charm cool against his skin.
"Who was he?" He asks.
"Someone unsuitable. From outside the Virate. He was very charismatic, brillitan in his own way. I thought I could disappear and live outside the rules."
âAnd then?â he prompts when his mother falls silent again.
âI became pregnant.â
The words land like a blade between his ribs. Minghao goes very still. The lantern light suddenly feels too warm, the cedar scent too heavy. His mother continues, her voice trembling only slightly now, each word pulled from somewhere deep and painful she has clearly tried to bury for decades.
âI carried the child to term. A boy. We lived happily for a year before he decided that the child and I were too much. So I went back." She swallows. "The child wasn't Virate, though. So they took him and offered to place him somewhere safe and give me a new start, a single offer of mercy.â
"A safe start," Minghao echoes. "They offered to let you part with the Virate publicly if you did favors for them privately, didn't they?"
She chews her lip and nods. "I married your father and then we had you. You know the rest from there. We had you until you were five. Then we moved and you were theirs."
Minghaoâs mind races, pieces clicking together with brutal, crystalline clarity. Grey eyes. The thin, precise scar. The way Sato Ken had studied you at the gala. You'd been unsettled by Ken, though Minghao had neither seen the man nor heard of him. None of his contacts knew of the name Sato Ken, and a quick online search had simply told the story of a businessman who married into a wealthy family.
In any other circumstance, Minghao might have disregarded it. But you'd been unsettled more than usual, insisting that the man with grey eyes - a Lin family trait from his mother's side - had the same scar as him. He trusted your instincts.
It was the same scar the initiated members of the Virate had, one where a finger had been severed during interrogation only to be later surgically added back on. The scar was always a reminder that members had passed, that they'd like the Virate take a part of them during an interrogation that felt realer than anything else Minghao has ever gone through, and that they could take it just as easily again.
He rubs his finger now, fingers brushing over the scar, remembering the snap of the bone and the way he'd nearly bit through his tongue. He'd not given up the information, though, and that had been enough to pass and earn the digit back.
If you were unsettled by a man with grey eyes and the same scar⊠well, Minghao didn't believe coincidences. Not since he had started watching you read your tarot and scribble into dream journals when you thought he wasn't paying attention.
âDoes father know?â he asks eventually, voice low and tightly controlled.
âNo. No one does. Only the Triptych."
Minghao exhales slowly, mind already spinning through the implications. If this Sato Ken was Minghao's brother - either by blood or initiation - he existed only in the dark. Which meant he was a Shade, and no one but the Triptych knew he existed. It unsettles Minghao more than he would like, mind scrambling to find a motive. Jealousy? Resentment? A move within a move by the Virate? It could be anything.
As a Shade himself, Ken shouldn't know Minghao existed. Not even the most coveted of the assassins belonging to the Virate knew the identity of one another, which was why Minghao thought nothing of Ken at the gala - hadn't even seen him. It makes him feel shaken, a ghost slipping by him that Minghao was trained to find, to see.
Worse was that Ken had seen you. Approached you. Shaken your hand. He'd done all that and Minghao simply hadn't noticed him. Years of Virate training had failed him, and he'd let something as dangerous as a Shade get close to you. It not only wounds his pride, but it wounds him.
Minghao feels the red bracelet you gave him shift against his wrist again. The azabache charm feels heavier suddenly, a small weight of your strange faith pressing against his skin.
He stands abruptly, the low table creaking as his knees push against it. Rain continues to lash the windows, the sound growing louder as the storm intensifies outside.
"I have to handle this," he mutters.
"What?" She asks, slipping into Zhenwen, a language dead to the world for generations but kept alive by the oldest families of Arkos. "What's happening?"
"Your illegitimate son tried to kill my wife."
"No," Luli shakes her head. "He was adopted into a family, outside of the Virate."
Minghao tsks. "You think the Virate gave away your child without training him? The Shade is born in darkness and has no name. I would know."
Luli closes her eyes, a single tear slipping down her eternal face. Minghao turns away before the sight can soften him. He cannot afford softness right now. Not when the delicate balance he has spent years maintaining is suddenly threatening to shatter around him for a haphazardly protected secret.
"I will do what I must for my family," Minghao tells her, steeling himself. "Blood for blood."
"Blood for blood," she agrees.
As he walks out of the room, he touches the red bracelet on his wrist, thumb brushing over the braided strands of your hair woven into the cord. The small protective charm you made for him feels both absurd and strangely vital at this moment. He wonders what you would say if you knew the truth, that the man you married carries blood older and darker than anything you have imagined. That the secrets he keeps are not just his own.
Whatever game is being played either by this half-brother of his or by the Triptych, Minghao will end it.
But for the first time, the thought of collateral damage makes his stomach turn because now, the collateral has a name, and she sleeps in the east wing of his penthouse and sticks her nose where it doesn't belong because she's too smart for her own good.
-
Thick, metallic air swallows you the moment you step into the bar. Sweet smoke chokes the room, the neon bleed of alternate reality systems flickering from behind closed doors. A few patrons sit slumped over table tops, nursing drinks lazily as though they're half in a dream. Most of the doors are shut, the private alternate reality rooms cutting them off from the bar and everything else in the real world.
Energy shifts immediately. Your skin prickles, and you scan the room, sensing the way energy here is a vacuum, like these rooms that offer everything but reality suck the essence of the soul out of the body.
The rain from outside clings to your coat in silver beads, but the oppressive warmth in the bar immediately makes your back and neck start to sweat. You step into the bar further, letting the door shut close behind you, cutting off the sound from the Pearl District. Neon from the district streets leaks through frosted windows in fractured violet and electric blue, painting the high wooden beams in shifting colors.
A few figures who move with the careful grace of people who have stepped between realities one too many times. You scan them all without making it obvious, your fingers brushing the black tourmaline cord hidden beneath your sleeve. The small knife in the hidden slit of your coat presses reassuringly against your ribs as your gaze settles on the woman behind the bar.
She's pretty, pouring someone a drink as she laughs at something the customer says. A simple black tank top shows toned arms covered in faint tattoos that seem to shift when the light hits them at the right angle. Her features are difficult to hold onto, like she's someone you might forget the moment you turn away while being strangely magnetic.
You drive toward the bar, hyperaware of the way the bartender notices you. Based on the description, you think she's who the Tower's daughter told you to find.
Kero, she'd said, eyeing you warily. Kero is good at information. Are you okay, though? I can help if you're in danger, you know that, right?
It had been a kind offer whispered at a gala last week, a rare moment where the two of you had been in the powder room and you'd been insane enough to ask her for a good source of information in the Syndicate.
Your heart pounds thinking about it again, remember the way she'd raised her brows and urge you to tell her if there was something wrong. Her kindness was a rarity in the Syndicate, and though you were somewhat familiar with her, facing her full on had been nearly overwhelming.
The bartender turns toward you as you slide onto a stool, her lips curving into a grin as she leans one hip against the bar.
"Hi," he drawls, eyes flicking up and down as she drinks you in. "New face. You look very expensive, sweetheart. What can I pour you?"
âIâm not here for a drink,â you say evenly. âIâm looking for Kero.â
Her smile doesnât falter, but something sharp flickers behind her eyes. She tilts her head, studying you more carefully now, as if reassessing the woman standing in front of her.
"Kero is around. What do you need?" She asks eventually, fingers tapping the top of the bar.
"The Tower's daughter told me Kero might be able to help me with some information."
The words land with weight. She straightens slightly, the playful curve of her mouth diminishing. Mentioning the Towerâs daughter commands absolute authority here, you realize. She gives you a long, measured look, dark eyes tracing over your face, your coat, the way you hold yourself, drinking in every detail.
"I'm nothing if not a humble servant to the Tower and his children," she says eventually. "I'm Kero. You can come with me, sweetheart. Keep your pretty hands where I can see them, yeah? Baby is a good friend of mine, but I don't know you."
She slips out from behind the bar fluidly, exchanging a quick, wordless nod with the burly bartender who steps in to cover her station seamlessly. You follow, weaving between tables. No one notices you as you walk by, each customer staring off into nothingness with a glazed over expression that makes you shiver.
Kero leads you to a narrow hallway, the walls covered in flickering frames of alternate reality landscapes. You glance at them as you walk by, looking into lush forests, empty beaches, and night skies. At the end of the hall, she stops and presses her balm to a hidden scanner, a heavy wooden door hissing open after her clearance passes. She gestures for you to enter first, grinning and winking as you pass by her.
The private room beyond is small but surprisingly comfortable, a storage space turned lounger. Dim amber sconces cast warm, flickering light across two worn leather armchairs and a low table. A plush couch sits against one wall, and shelves hold bottles of rare liquor, scattered data pads, and a few precious paper books.
Kero closes the door behind you, engages the lock with a soft click, then turns with that same half-smile. She gestures to one of the armchairs, leaning casually against the tableâs edge. You sit gracefully, unwilling to let her know that she makes you feel off keel.
Something about her unsettles you. In the dimmer room, her features are even harder to latch on to, like her eyes change everytime you look away or her hair is a shade adjusted. She watches you like a cat watches a mouse as you sit, and though you know mentioning the Tower's daughter has awarded you some power, you're not sure it's given you immunity here.
âSo,â she says lightly. "What kind of trouble are you in, hmm?"
"Who says I'm in trouble?"
"It's written all over your face. You're tense as shit."
You give a small, knowing smile. âIâm not used to the Pearl District. That doesnât mean Iâm lost.â
Kero cocks her head. âDamn, no VR for you, huh? You rich types donât really need to escape reality. You have everything you could ever want.â
âNot everything.â
"Unless you're trying to escape that fancy marriage."
"So you know who I am?"
Kero pushes off the table and walks over to a chair, dropping into it unceremoniously before pivoting sideways to hook the backs of her knees over the arm.
âOf course I do,â she snorts, dropping into the opposite chair and hooking her knees over the arm. âBig wedding. I wasnât invited. Not high enough up the ladder, you know what I mean?â
"No."
"You're very honest, Mrs. Xu."
You meet her eyes without hesitation. âIâm very honest, yes.â
The name Mrs. Xu still feels foreign, but you no longer flinch. You so rarely hear people use your new legal name - most people still often see you as the heiress to Nexus Capital, content to use your family name because in this city, Minghao has married into your family, not the other way around.
"I met a man a few days ago at a gala and he left me with questions," you start slowly. Kero raises her brows. "No one really seems to know who he is, which isn't common among the elite."
She snorts. "You came here because someone isn't as well known as you?"
You ignore the barb, continuing, "He gave me the name Sato Ken. He doesn't seem to be much - just a mid-level businessman who married the daughter of a Patron of the Choi Syndicate. I think he might have a second name, though. Do you know anyone by the name of Zhi Yuan?"
Kero shakes her head. "Should I?"
"I don't know. Do you know what the Virate is?â
Keroâs entire posture changes in an instant. The lazy sprawl vanishes. She unhooks her legs and plants her boots on the floor with a quiet thud, leaning forward sharply and the playful glint in her eyes hardens into something guarded and alert.
âVirate,â she repeats, voice low and sharp. âWhat are you doing with the Virate?â
"I don't know what the Virate is."
"Of course you don't." She stands in one fluid motion, pacing a tight circle behind her chair, one hand dragging through her hair. âTell me how you came across the Virate. Explain in detail."
You do. You tell her about the man from the gala, how something about his energy felt misaligned, your instincts screaming. How your research led you to the foster home in the Lower District where the cleaner had given you the strange, ominous warning about the Virate. About how you think Sato Ken and Zhi Yuan might be the same person.
Kero stops pacing. She steps closer, extending her right hand under the nearest sconce, palm down. You're not sure what you're supposed to be looking at until your eyes catch the smallest little scar, silver and right over the knuckle. Just like Sato Ken. Just like Minghao.
"Did he have a scar like this? Do you know?" She asks.
"Yes."
Kero pulls her hand back, flexing it once before sinking into her chair with heavier grace. The leather creaks as she rubs her temple, staring at the low table for a long beat while distant bass throbs from the barâs VR rooms and rain drums steadily against the outer walls.
âAlright,â she says at last, voice quieter. "The Virate isnât some street gang or Syndicate. They're like the Syndicate's here in the city but the structure is very different and they're a lot more complex. Think generations of bloodlines that build a shadow confederation that works in the cracks most people never see. They pull kids through foster systems, adoptions, quiet placements. Forge them. Shades, they call the ones with no names. Ghosts trained from blood and bone to serve the Triptych - the three who sit at the top.â
"Okay," you say slowly. "So you're saying maybe Sato Ken was Zhi Yuan previously, and now he's Sato Ken and he's a member of the Virate."
She shows her hand again, the silver scar making you shiver. "Virate initiation. They take the same finger during interrogation to see if you break. If you don't, they give you the finger back. If you break, you die."
You sit frozen, the weight of her words pressing down like cold rain. Minghao has that scar. You think of Minghaoâs brutal efficiency on the terrace, the dead language in the car, the way he always deflects with half-truths. Your heart beats hard, frantic.
"If Sato Ken isn't a real name, you might be dealing with a Shade. It's hard to say. Shades are hard to find and are usually found only if they want to be⊠being uncovered for them is like death. They're the hidden assassins the Triptych likes to raise. Not even standard members of the Virate know who they are." Kero leans back. "Did he make any threats or have you seen him before?"
"No," you tell her. Your mind is on Minghao and not Ken - Yuan, whatever his name is. "Just met him at a party. My gut tells me he's important."
"If your gut managed to find an assassin for the Virate, that's a pretty good stomach."
You hum, noncommittal. "So you're a member of the Virate?"
"Was," she corrects. "Left when I was thirteen."
Both of you sit in silence as your mind races through fragments that feel too sharp to ignore. The scar on Keroâs knuckle. The identical mark on Sato Ken - Zhi Yuan. And Minghao. That thin, precise line across his first knuckle that youâd noticed from the very first boardroom meeting. The way his father deferred to him with a single finger twitch. The ancient language he spoke in the car after the wedding attack. The effortless violence on the terrace. The way he knew about your practice without you ever showing him.
The realization settles heavy in your chest. Your husband - the man who pressed his jacket to your bleeding arm, who wears the red bracelet you braided with your own hair - is not who anyone thinks he is.
Kero doesnât mention the Xu family once. Doesnât connect Minghao to any of this. Her ignorance of your husbandâs involvement is louder than any confirmation could be- Minghao is an unknown member of the Virate. A Shade, Kero had called it. A ghost wearing the face of a logistics heir, planted here for purposes far beyond shipping contracts and political marriages. You keep your expression neutral, swallowing the storm of questions and fears that you can't let consume you - not here, not with this stranger.
âThank you,â you say quietly. "This helps."
You reach into the inner pocket of your coat and pull out two things: the sleek, matte-black digital card and a small silk pouch youâd prepared weeks ago during one of your quiet Wednesday rituals. You set the card on the low table first, then slide the pouch toward her with careful fingers.
âIf you ever want a new private account set up, use this," you tell her. "It's completely clean and untraceable, with access to resources most people here only dream about in these AR rooms you run." You point at the pouch. "This is for protection. Black salt, rosemary, a bit of hematite. I made it myself. Itâs nothing fancy, but⊠it's my way of showing gratitude."
Kero stares at the offerings, genuine surprise flickering across her face. She picks up the silk pouch, turning it over in her scarred hand. âYou made this?â Her eyes lift to yours, sharper now. âAre you a practitioner?â
âI dabble. It was something I started as a kid to pass time. I.. didnât have much of a childhood and some of the housemaids practiced.â
Keroâs lips curve into a faint, knowing smile, but she doesnât press. She tucks the pouch into her pocket with surprising care. âIf you ever want to apprentice with real practitioners, go to the Silver Thorn Apothecary in the Lower District, near the old canal bridge. Tell them Kero sent you. They donât take just anyone, but they might make an exception.â
âI appreciate it.â
Kero leans back, studying you for a long moment. The amber light softens the edges of her shifting features. âWatch yourself with the Virate. They donât play by Syndicate rules. They bind blood, erase names, and turn children into weapons. Once youâre in their sights, itâs hard to get out.â She pauses, tilting her head. âStill⊠thereâs something about your energy. Stubborn. Grounded. I like it."
A small grin tugs at your lips. âIâm trying. I should go. Thank you again, Kero. For everything."
You stand and she rises with you, holding the digital card in her hand. "Don't be a stranger, Mrs. Xu. Try to stay alive."
Rain hisses down on you as you leave, your boots splashing softly in the shallow puddles pooling in the concrete. The Pearl District is alive with partygoers, tourists and socialites heading to clubs, casinos and more, their laughter harsh against the churning of your mind.
Minghao is a Shade. You know with utter certainty, somehow. He's a ghost - a weapon, and you have no idea what it means that he married you or what he wants. He'd told you that you were no use to his family dead and you still believe that, but now you want to know for what.
In an alley between buildings, you dig around in your pocket for your cards. You shuffle them quickly, rain beading on their glossy surface as you do. Three cards slip out one by one, catching on your wet hands until you pull them out of the deck and flip them over.
The Tower. The Moon reversed. Death.
Thoughts of the cards haunt you all the way to the train. Your hood is pulled low, the black fabric of your coat blending into the sea of weary commuters. The bracelet on your wrist feels heavier than usual, a quiet anchor against the unease crawling up your spine.
Pressed between a businessman muttering into his phone and a woman clutching a synthetic flower bouquet, a sense of unease creeps up on you. Eyes on you. Not the casual glances of strangers, but something deliberate and predatory.
The doors hiss shut and the train lurches forward, accelerating into the tunnel with a low whine that vibrates through your bones. You keep your gaze fixed on the scratched window, watching the blur of service lights streak past like dying stars. Your hand slips into your coat pocket, fingers brushing the matte-black comm device Minghao gave you months ago. The private channel. Encrypted. Off-grid. You havenât used it yet, but it feels good to have in your hand.
You shift your weight, scanning the car without turning your head. Faces blur in peripheral vision, a sea of tired eyes, downturned mouths, and people asleep in seats. No one stands out. No one meets your eyes for too long. Yet the sensation builds, a slow pressure like storm clouds gathering before lightning splits the Tower.
Two stops pass and your pulse quickens with each one. At the third, you make a split-second decision to get off that's nowhere near your intended route toward the Observatory. You elbow your way toward the doors as they open, stepping onto the platform and into the sub-level station, ait thick with the scent of damp rot and the distant rumble of freight loaders. Neon signs flicker overhead, advertising cheap stim-packs and off-grid betting dens.
You donât look back. Not immediately. You weave through the sparse crowd, heels clicking against cracked concrete, and take the exit stairs two at a time. The streets above are narrower, hemmed in by crooked buildings and powerlines that spark intermittently in the thin rain. You turn left, then right, cutting through a market alley where vendors hawk sticky buns and meat skewers, fat sizzling.
Still, the feeling follows.
Your breath comes sharper now and you pause at a corner stall, pretending to examine a rack of knockoff jade pendants while your eyes flick across reflections in a rain-streaked metal panel. Nothing. A shadow shifts two stalls down, but it's gone when you focus. Your instincts, honed by years of the universeâs subtle nudges, scream a single name.
Sato Ken.
The thought lands like a cold blade between your ribs. The scar on his knuckle flashes in your memory. So does his polished smile and the way his gaze had lingered too long at the last charity function, heavy with something unreadable. Youâd felt it then too. The Devil.
You quicken your pace, ducking down a narrower side street. The rain intensifies, sheeting off overhangs and turning the ground into a slick mirror of fractured neon. Your coat clings to your skin, heavy and cold. Heart hammering, you slip into a shadowed alley between two derelict storage units where it smells of rust and urine.
Crates are stacked haphazardly against one wall, providing meager cover where you press your back to the damp brick, breathing through your mouth to stay quiet. Water drips from a rusted pipe overhead, steady as a metronome. For a moment, only the distant train rumbles and your own pulse fills the space.
A splash confirms you're being followed and you don't hesitate. Your fingers close around the comm device, pulling it free with trembling hands. The surface is cool, almost alive under your touch, drinking in the faint alley light. You activate it with a press of your thumb, the faint holo-sheen blooming like starlight in the dark. The private channel connects with a soft chime that feels too loud in the confined space.
It rings once. Twice.
âCome on,â you whisper, voice barely audible over the rain.
Your free hand grips the small knife in your other pocket, though the blade feels inadequate against whatever waits in the shadows. The universe had warned you. The cards had warned you. Death upright. Transformation through violence.
The line clicks open and Minghao's voice comes through, low and immediate. "What's wrong?"
You've never been happier to hear his voice. The sound of his calm and controlled voice nearly buckles your knees. You lean harder into the wall, eyes darting to the alley mouth where a silhouette might appear any second. Rain sluices down your face, mixing with the cold sweat on your skin. The feeling of being watched intensifies, a prickling heat at your nape like fingers hovering just above your spine.
"I need you to find me," you tell him, voice barely audible. "I'm about to get taken or killed."
"Wicked-"
"You have access to my medical records," you interrupt. "You should have been emailed how to access. I have a subcutaneous tracking chip. Activate the emergency beacon with the password given to you - it pings your private network. Do it now."
Footsteps again, deliberate now, closing in from the alleyâs entrance. A shadow detaches from the gloom, tall and masked.
âI know youâre a Shade,â you whisper. âMaybe I mean nothing to you at all, but you saved me on our wedding night and if Iâm still important to your family, you need to find me. Or at least my body."
Minghao says your name - not wicked woman, not wicked - just your name. You say nothing else, swallowing as you drop the comm in the rain and crush it under your heel, the sharp crack lost to the sound of increasing downpour.
When the figure steps out of the shadows, all you can see are the grey eyes. You stare at him head on, refusing to show him fear despite the way your hands tremble in the cold rain.
"Is your husband coming?"
"Yes."
He nods. "Good."
-
Thunder shakes the penthouse. It's not loud enough to drown out the hammering of Minghao's heart as he gets dressed frantically. For once, Minghao feels like he might be panicking. He's not entirely sure - panic is a foreign concept to him. As a Shade of the Virate, he doesn't operate in adrenaline and panic - he simply exists in the detachment of calm and deliberate decision making.
This doesn't feel like that. He has no idea when he started caring about you so much - can't even really figure out when it happened. He supposes between the random late night dinners, the rare instances of breakfast, and the weekends when he watched you sit at the coffee table with your little herbs and candles muttering to yourself, he decided he liked you.
Had you been the elitist, snobby socialite he assumed you were going to be, he wouldn't be in this situation. Yet fate - because he's starting to believe in fate - had put you into your position - unprepared and woefully unjaded - through the violence of your sister's death, and put you directly into Minghao's path. He doesn't know what else to call it, because only destiny could be this specific.
Rain crawls in silver streaks down the windows, turning Hyperion into a smeared galaxy beneath the clouds. Minghao stands in front of the open wardrobe in a black compression shirt and tactical trousers, fingers gone motionless around the clasp of his chest holder as the information he'd requested through your instructions appears across the retinal display he'd put over his right eye.
Minghao watches as your biometrics spike violently across the lens. Oxygen levels unstable, cortisol flooding yourself, neutral activity elevated. Nothing in your current vitals tells him that you're dying, which is the single positive news he has while he finishes buckling the holster before he opens another hidden compartment in his room, revealing weapons.
He takes the knives and two guns. They charge at his touch, the pulse letting him know they're primed as he holsters them. The red cord around his wrist slides with his hand movement, the azabache charm clicks against the gun as he removes his hand.
You'd looked so serious when you handed it to him, like you were testing him. He hadn't seen it then for what it was - a leap of faith to see if he was serious about you practicing your little customs without fear from him. Now he knows that he'd passed the test, because you'd start being more open around him. Not hiding things. Calling him and telling him you needed his help.
Minghao yanks a jacket over the holsters and accesses the medical feed again with a blink of his eyes. Nothing has changed, and your location still pings in an abandoned shipping corridor near Pier Nine. It's in Xu territory, a dock that belongs exclusively to Minghao's father, and by extension, Choi Moojin.
The hours Minghao has spent trying to track down his half brother have gone to waste. It appears that his brother has the jump on him, and why shouldn't he? Zhi Yuan or whatever the name he goes by now has known Minghao existed for far longer than Minghao has known he had a sibling, and it's clear that you've been in his sights for a while as an obvious attempt to get to Minghao.
Minghao is going to kill him. He made the decision long before you'd called him. He had decided before his mother even finished telling him about Yuan, about the first born son she naively thought the Virate gave away. It doesn't matter if Yuan is blood, though. He'd spilled the blood of those under the protection of the Xu family, and Minghao was bound by honor to pay him back.
Blood for blood.
It's not an easy situation. Minghao doesn't know if his brother is here by authorization of the Virate, or if he's gone rogue. The right thing to do would be to contact the Triptych, but Minghao has no plans of doing that. It's too much of a risk if they've sanctioned whatever attack this is, so he's decided to do what he wants. He knows it'll have consequences - he has carried out the punishment for this kind of thing plenty of times.
"Fuck," Minghao sighs, running a hand over his face.
As much as he wants to do this alone, he knows that the odds will be better if he has leverage. Everything with the Virate and the Triptych especially is above leverage and moves within moves, and Minghao doesn't have any right now. So he picks up the phone and dials a number he's never called before, heart hammering as the phone rings.
"Xu Minghao," Jeonghan answers softly. "What can I do for our favorite shipping heir on a rainy Thursday evening?"
Minghao slips a knife into the sheath at the base of his spine as he speaks. âI need a deal.â
Jeonghan pauses. "Oh?"
"In exchange for leverage and information on the Virate."
"I'm listening."
"I need protection and support from the Choi Syndicate if the Virate comes knocking at my door."
Jeonghan's no longer amused or joking when he says, "And why would they do that?"
"Agree to it before I say anything."
Jeonghan pauses. "Why'd you call me?"
"You're the heir to the Wisdom and you're smart. You'll know whether I'm lying or you'll figure it out yourself. Now I want a deal before I say anything."
The Observatory feels too high, too isolated tonight, suspended above the storm like a fragile glass cage. Neon from the distant Pearl District bleeds through the fog in fractured violet and electric blue, painting the matte black steel beams in shifting hues that do nothing to calm the unfamiliar knot twisting in his chest.
The line is silent for a beat too long. Jeonghanâs voice returns, stripped of its usual lazy amusement. âA deal, how bold. Alright - I, Yoon Jeonghan, Second to the Wisdom, affirm that the verbally negotiated agreement between us is valid and binding, and will be upheld by the Choi Syndicate under penalty of death or exile. Talk."
âThe Virate,â Minghao starts, running a hand through his hair. "I'm a member. They raised me as a Shade. Nameless. Trained for killing and secret work. My familyâs move to Hyperion, the logistics empire, this marriage - it isn't just business moves, itâs for the Virate. They wanted someone nameless but loyal to sow seeds and gain influence with one of the Syndicates of the city, ideally the Choi Syndicate."
A soft whistle from the other end. âAnd here I thought you were just another pretty Arkos heir playing at power. Continue.â
Minghaoâs jaw tightens. He moves to the bedroom door, glancing once toward the east wing where you should be safe. The biometric feed in his retinal display pulses steadily, your location fixed, stress elevated but alive. For now.
âI have an unexpected target on my back,â he says, already striding toward the private elevator. âA Shade operative. One I didnât know existed until recently. He orchestrated the wedding attack. Tonight, he has her. Iâm on my way to eliminate him. It might blow back. If the Virate decides Iâve gone rogue or exposed too much, theyâll come for cleanup. I need Choi Syndicate support if that happens - protection, resources, a buffer. In exchange, Iâll give you information useful for leveraging a partnership with the Virate in Arkos. Real leverage. Names. Structures. Weak points the Triptych would rather keep buried.â
The elevator doors hiss open. Minghao steps inside, the mirrored walls reflecting a man dressed for violence. His hair is still damp from the earlier rain, eyes sharp and unblinking. Jeonghan is quiet again, but Minghao can hear the calculation in the silence, the Wisdom's son weighing angles, risks, opportunities.
"Hm," Jeonghan hums. "Interesting. You know this verbal agreement could be void based on your intent to threaten the safety of the Syndicate, right?" Minghao doesn't answer as the elevator plunges downward. "Why trust me with this?"
âBecause youâre useful,â Minghao answers flatly. âAnd because my wife is bleeding time in a warehouse while we talk. Agree or donât. But if I walk into this alone and donât come back, you lose the chance at whatever game youâre playing with the docks.â
âYouâre more interesting than I gave you credit for, Minghao. Fine. Deal. Choi support if the Virate comes calling. You deliver on the information. And try not to die, Baby would be devastated if the lead she gave your wife ended up with her dying."
Minghao pauses. "We'll discuss what you mean later."
"Sure."
Minghao pockets the phone. His mind cycles through possibilities of Yuanâs training, the scar, the grey eyes that matched his motherâs. Blood for blood. The old laws demanded it, but something sharper cuts beneath the duty now. Your voice on the comm, steady even in terror. The way youâd crushed the device rather than let it lead danger straight back here. Stubborn. Honest. Wicked in ways that had nothing to do with tarot cards.
The doors open into the cold concrete expanse. Elara and Kai snap to attention near the armored car, but Minghao waves them off with a sharp gesture. âStay here. Guard the penthouse. No one in or out. If Iâm not back by dawn, call Yoon Jeonghan."
âUnderstood, sir.â
Minghao slides into the driverâs seat himself, the engine humming to life. Rain hammers the garage ramp as he accelerates upward, the cityâs neon arteries blurring past. His grip on the wheel is steady, but the red cord around his wrist catches the dashboard light.
His hands tighten on the wheel. He's ending this game of shadows tonight.
-
Your head throbs with a deep, nauseating pulse that radiates from the back of your skull down through your jaw. The world tilts when you try to lift it, the edges of the dim warehouse blurring like wet ink on parchment. The concussion is surely courtesy of the desperate headbutt you'd delivered when Zhi Yuan had grabbed you in that alley. The satisfying crunch of his nose breaking still echoes faintly in your memory, a small, defiant victory amid the terror.
Thick ropes bite into your wrists and ankles, securing you to a heavy metal chair bolted to the floor. The warehouse is vast and derelict, one of the many abandoned husks along the Lower Water Street docks where Xu shipping containers sit in rows.
Rain hammers on the corrugated roof overhead, leaking in thin streams through gaps in the panels to form oily puddles on the concrete. Dim emergency lights cast long, sickly yellow shadows across stacked crates and rusted forklift skeletons.
You test the ropes around you subtly, keeping your movements small, but there's no give. Your small knife is long gone, though the black tourmaline bracelet is still there, warm against your skin, a fragile tether.
Across from you, Zhi Yuan is seated casually on an overturned crate. Blood has dried in dark rivulets from his broken nose down over his mouth and chin, staining the collar of his shirt. The injury makes his sharp, balanced features turn grotesque, his grey eyes eery in the low light. He holds a stained cloth in his hand, dabbing occasionally at the swelling in his face.
"You're not what I expected," he admits. "Though I suppose any woman associated with the Choi family fights back."
You lift your chin, ignoring the way the motion sends fresh dizziness spiraling through you. Fear coils tight in your gut, but you refuse to let it show. You meet his gaze evenly, challenging every boardroom lesson your father ever drilled into you since your sister's death.
"Headbutting you was worth the headache," you mutter. "Though I imagine it hurts worse on your end."
His mouth twitches into something like a smile. "I've endured worse. You know, most heiresses would be sobbing by now. Begging. Offering credits or Syndicate favors."
"I'm not worried."
"You think your husband is coming?"
"I know so."
He leans back and sighs. "I know so too." His eyes watch you carefully. "I saw the way you looked at my scar at the gala. Same as his. You don't miss much, do you?"
âEnough to know you're a threat. What do you want, Zhi Yuan? Or is it Ken? Does the Virate let you keep any name at all?"
His grey eyes narrow slightly, but the amusement doesn't fade. "Names are fluid for us. Tools. Zhi Yuan was the boy the system forgot. Sato Ken was the man who married well and smiled at galas. Neither is real. But you can call me Yuan. It's... familiar."
âFamiliar because of whatever connection you have to my husband.â
Yuan stops dabbing his nose and watches you for a long moment. He rises slowly, pacing a few steps through the puddle-streaked space. His boots splash softly. Yuan drags another crate closer and sits across from you again, legs stretched out casually.
âTell me,â he drawls. âHow does it feel to be married to a man who was never meant to have a wife? A real one, anyway.â
âIt feels like he's going to kill you." You stare at him. "And if he doesn't, the Choi Syndicate will. I'm not some random woman you can steal away in the middle of the night. Your turn - why me if this is about him or the Virate?"
"I was at your wedding, you know?" He cocks his head. "You made a beautiful bride. The intent was to kill you and turn the Choi Syndicate against him, but once I saw that he cared, I knew that wouldn't work. They would see his honestly. So now you're just bait. My brother owes me a conversation."
The revelation hits you like a physical blow. Your breath catches sharply in your throat. Brother. You look into Yuan's eyes and don't know how you missed it - Luli looks right back at you, the cool grey, the calm eye of the storm.
Yuan watches your reaction with dark satisfaction, leaning back slowly. âYes. Luliâs firstborn. The one she tried to hide. I found out about him by accident, you know? There he was, golden second son, raised by our mother and Jian in relative comfort, given a public name and legit empire to inherit while being a Shade for the Virate. All while I rotted in foster homes and training cells, learning how to kill before I could read properly. It wasnât fair. He got life, the light, the illusion of choice. I got the shadows and the scars."
The Devil upright. A man in chains, who cannot escape what he is bound to. The tarot cards make sense, suddenly. You're looking at the devil, a man who cannot or will not escape the fate he thinks he's tethered to. You think of the Nine of Wands upright - a wounded warrior still standing guard, exhausted but defiant - and realize it's Minghao. Someone stuck between two worlds.
"I don't care where you're from or who you're related to," you spit out. "Only a weak man pities himself to this degree."
It hits a nerve. Yuan stands, violence written all over his face, but a device on the table a few feet away chimes and shows a hologram of a map, a red dot pinging as it approaches. Your heart lurches when you realize it's Minghao, throat tightening as the dot speeds through the roads of the Warehouse District.
"Finally," Yuan sighs. "I get to meet my brother."
Thunder rolls in the distance. Your heart hammers in your chest as you watch the entrance door, hearing the hiss of tires and the slamming of a car door. You can barely breath until the heavy metal door is being ripped open, rain pouring in as a dark silhouette slips through. Minghao shuts the door behind him, water streaming off of his black jacket, hair plastered to his forehead and neck. His eyes are unreadable, scanning the room before they fall on you.
Minghao strides forward, ignoring Yuan entirely. Your heart stutters, the violence in his eyes like nothing you've seen.
"Are you okay?" His voice cuts through the rain, low and steady.
You manage a nod, the motion sending fresh spikes of pain through your skull. The ropes bite deeper as you shift, but you hold his gaze. âIâm alive.â
Minghaoâs jaw tightens, a muscle feathering along his cheek. For a heartbeat, the polished heir you met in the boardroom vanishes completely. This is the man who snapped an assassinâs neck on your wedding night. This is the Shade.
"Good. I'll be just a moment, okay?"
You nod and only then does he turn to his brother. Yuan is standing, clearly annoyed. The resemblance is unmistakable now that you know to look for it - the same sharp-soft balance in their features, the same predatory grace. But where Minghao carries a coiled stillness, Yuan vibrates with resentment, grey eyes burning with untapped rage.
âBrother,â Yuan greets. âTook you long enough.â
Minghao doesnât waste words on pleasantries. âYouâre no family of mine. We cull men weak enough to be driven by petty jealousies.â Minghao gestures to him. âKnives only. Old way. No guns. No tricks. You and me."
Yuanâs smile widens, splitting the dried blood on his lip. âYou still cling to the old customs? You're a little princeling here - you aren't Virate.â
âI honor what I am,â Minghao replies. He shrugs off his jacket, letting it fall to the wet floor. Beneath it, the compression shirt clings to his frame, revealing the holster straps and the faint outline of the small spell jar you gave him, still tucked against his chest. The red bracelet on his wrist stands out like a slash of blood against pale skin. âDo you?â
Yuan laughs, low and bitter and strips down to a similar compression shirt as Minghao. Two blades appear in his hands, thin, wickedly curved karambits that catch the light. âI was forged in the same dark you were. Letâs see which of us the Triptych favored more.â
Minghao draws his own knives. No flourish. Just efficient, practiced motion. One in each hand, shorter than Yuanâs but perfectly balanced. He rolls his shoulders once, eyes never leaving his brotherâs face as the rain hammers the roof in relentless sheets and water drips from cracks overhead, plinking into puddles that spread across the concrete like spilled ink.
You test the ropes again, heart hammering against your ribs. The black tourmaline bracelet feels warm against your skin, a small circle of your own intention. You close your eyes, sucking in a short breath as you center yourself and focus on the single intention you have: Minghao living.
The fight begins without warning and you flinch. Yuan lunges first, a blur of motion across the wet floor, his karambit slashing in a wide arc meant to open Minghaoâs throat. Minghao twists inside the reach, blades flashing up to parry. Metal screams against metal and sparks fly, tiny and bright in the dimness. They separate, circling each other like lions.
Yuan attacks again, faster this time, feinting low before slicing high. Minghao ducks, but not quite fast enough as the blade catches his shoulder, opening a shallow line of red. Blood wells immediately, mixing with rainwater. Minghao doesnât flinch. He counters with a vicious upward thrust that forces Yuan to leap back, boots splashing.
Each collision is brutal, knives cutting air. Feet slide on the slick concrete, searching for purchase. Yuan is slightly taller, leveraging reach, but Minghao is faster and more economical with his movements, his efficiency brutal as he slashes Yuan across the rib, tearing fabric and flesh.
Minghao presses the advantage, driving Yuan backward with a series of rapid strikes. Their blades lock, faces inches apart, and for a moment, they strain against each other, muscles corded, breath visible in the damp air. Yuanâs grey eyes gleam with something like joy.
"I knew you liked the girl," Yuan goads. "This isn't business for you. This is emotional."
Minghao headbutts him hard and Yuan's face explodes in blood again, the damage you'd done earlier doubling. He stumps and Minghao follows, his knives dancing in a pattern too fast for you to track as he cuts open Yuan's shoulder, his forearm, his thigh. Minghao moves like pain is irrelevant, cutting Yuan until the man is screaming and kicking at Minghao for distance.
Yuan feints left, then spins, driving a blade toward Minghaoâs kidney. You suck in a sharp breath but Minghao pivots and catches Yuan's wrist, twisting violently with a sickening pop. Yuan roars, dropping one karambit while swinging wildly with the other. Minghao takes a cut across the chest for it, but he doesn't let go. Instead, he yanks Yuan forward and drives his own knife upward where it sinks into Yuan's side, just under his ribs.
Yuan gasps, eyes widening. He tries to pull away, but Minghao holds him close, almost intimate. Their faces are inches apart, rain dripping from Minghao's hair onto Yuan's cheek.
"Blood for blood," he says, voice hard. He says something to Yuan in that same language you don't understand before he twists the knife.
Yuanâs mouth opens in a silent scream while his free hand claws at Minghaoâs shoulder, leaving bloody streaks. His grey eyes lock onto Minghaoâs for one long, terrible second. Then the light in them gutters out. Minghao yanks the blade free and Yuan collapses to the wet concrete with a heavy splash. Blood spreads beneath him, dark and final, mixing with rainwater and oil. The body twitches once, twice, then stills.
Minghao stands over his brother for a long moment, chest heaving, blood running down his arms and torso. Then he turns to you. The shift in him is immediate and devastating as the killer melts away into something soft. He crosses the distance in three strides, dropping to his knees in the puddle before your chair
His hands are trembling as he unties the ropes at your wrist, careful as he cuts through them with the knife slicked in his brother's blood. His dark eyes search your face frantically, cataloguing every bruise, the swelling at your temple, the way youâre favoring your head.
"Are you hurt?" He murmurs. "Tell me where. Please."
Please. You don't think you've ever heard him say that. Not to you. The way he says it is devastatingly soft, his sharp eyes round as he looks up at you, hands hovering like he doesn't know what to do.
âIâm okay," you whisper.
Minghao cuts away at the ropes around your ankle before tossing the knife and pulling you forward, careful not to press against any injuries. His embrace is fierce and gentle at once, one hand cradling the back of your head, the other spanning your back. You can feel his heart hammering against yours, fast and terrified in a way his face never shows.
It's the first time he's touched you - honestly touched you - since your brief kiss at the altar and the night you were almost killed. His touch is grounding and warm, the smell of him comforting but laced with the metallic tang of blood. You pull away, your hands hovering as you look at all the places he's bleeding.
âYouâre bleeding-"
âIt doesnât matter.â He pulls you back in, his voice muffled by your hair. "You are nosey and you are stubborn and you are fascinating. Thank you for calling me."
"Minghao, you need stitches."
âLater.â He presses his forehead to yours, eyes closed. Rain drips from his lashes. âYouâre safe. Thatâs all that matters right now.â
The spell jar is still pressed between you, warm against his chest. You can feel its faint outline. The red bracelet on his wrist brushes your skin as he cups your face again. Something inside your chest cracks open, relief, fear, the strange blooming warmth youâve been trying to ignore for months.
âI knew youâd come,â you whisper.
âI will always come for you.â The words are quiet, almost reverent. He kisses your forehead, then your temple, avoiding the bruise, then the corner of your mouth. Not possessive. Just desperate reassurance. âIâm sorry you had to face him alone."
âI headbutted him. Broke his nose.â
A soft, startled laugh escapes him. âOf course you did.â His thumb traces your jaw. âMy wicked, impossible wife.â
He helps you stand, supporting most of your weight when your legs threaten to buckle. The warehouse spins for a moment, but his arm around your waist anchors you. He keeps you turned away from Yuanâs body, shielding you with his own as he guides you toward the broken door.
Outside, the rain is still falling in torrents. Minghaoâs car idles just beyond the entrance, lights off, engine humming low. He helps you into the passenger seat with painstaking care, buckling you in, checking the angle of your head, murmuring soft instructions to breathe slowly. Then he rounds the car and slides behind the wheel.
For a long moment, neither of you speaks. Rain lashes the windshield. Minghaoâs hands grip the wheel, knuckles white. Blood still trickles from the cut on his chest, but he ignores it, eyes fixed on you.
âI killed my brother tonight,â he says eventually, voice hollow. âFor you. I need you to know I would do it again. I understand I have not been forthcoming or warm, but I care for you.â
You reach across the console and take his hand. His fingers curl around yours immediately, tight enough to hurt. The red bracelet shifts between you.
âI know,â you whisper. âThank you.â
He lifts your joined hands and presses a kiss to your knuckles, eyes closing again. When they open, the intensity is back, but softer now. Protective. Possessive in a way that feels like safety rather than the chains you'd felt that first meeting in the boardroom.
âLetâs go home,â he says.Â
You nod, exhaustion crashing over you like the rain outside.
-
Doctor Tzintzun finally steps back, wiping her hands on a sterile cloth. The Observatory penthouse is quiet except for the low hum of the air filtration system and the distant patter of rain against the floor-to-ceiling windows. Fog presses close outside, turning Hyperion into a muted glow far below
The doctor packs her kit with efficient movements, glancing between you and Minghao. âThe stitches on your arm will hold, but keep them dry. Concussion protocol is in place - rest, dim lights, no screens. As for you, Mr. Xu, those cuts were deep. Change the dressings in six hours. Pain management is on the bedside table. Call if anything worsens.â
Minghao nods once, voice low. âThank you. Elara will see you out.â
The door seals behind them with a soft click, leaving the two of you alone in the low-lit living room. Your body aches in new and old places, your temple tender from the concussion. But youâre alive. Heâs alive.
Minghao sits on the wide, low couch beside you, closer than heâs ever been in this space. The black silk robe he wears hangs open at the chest, revealing the edge of white bandages and the hard planes of muscle beneath. His hair is damp, falling across his forehead in dark strands. The red bracelet you made him still circles his right wrist, the azabache charm catching the soft amber light from the single lamp. He hasnât taken it off.
You shift slightly, the oversized shirt you wear - his, you realize - riding up your thighs. The silence stretches, thick with everything unsaid. The fight. The blood. The truth of what he is. Your eyes trace the line of his jaw, the faint scar on his knuckle, the way his chest rises and falls with careful, controlled breaths.
He turns toward you, dark eyes intense in the dimness. For once, thereâs no polished mask, no deflection. Just raw, unguarded focus on your face.
âI donât know why you get under my skin,â he says quietly. "I was trained not to let anyone close. Attachments were liabilities. You were supposed to be a transaction - a bridge that was useful and controllable."
He reaches out, fingers brushing a strand of hair from your cheek with surprising gentleness. The touch lingers, callused fingertips tracing your jaw. âBut you fight back when you should crumble. You read the universe in cards and smoke and believe in it so stubbornly it makes me question everything I was forged to be. You called me when you were terrified and trusted me to come.â
His thumb strokes your lower lip, eyes dropping to watch the motion. The air between you crackles, charged like the moments before lightning. Your pulse quickens, heat blooming low in your belly despite the exhaustion and pain. You can smell him, clean skin, faint pine.
âI donât understand it,â he murmurs, leaning closer. "You affect me. You make me want things I was never meant to have.â
"So have them," you murmur.
He laughs and kisses you. Itâs not the chaste brush from your wedding. This is real and hungry, months of restrained tension exploding between you. His mouth claims yours, tongue sweeping in to taste you deeply. You moan softly into him, hands fisting in the front of his robe, pulling him closer. He tastes like mint and rain and something darker, needier. His hand cups the back of your neck, tilting your head to deepen the kiss, the other sliding down your side to grip your hip.
The world narrows to the wet slide of tongues, the soft sounds of breath and need, the heat of his body pressing you back against the couch cushions. Your bandages pull slightly but the pain is distant, drowned in sensation. His scent envelops you. The low groan vibrating from his chest makes your pussy clench.
He breaks the kiss only to trail his mouth down your neck, sucking lightly at your pulse point. âTell me to stop,â he rasps against your skin, voice wrecked. âIf this is too much after I lied-"
âDonât you dare,â you whisper, threading fingers through his damp hair and tugging him back up for another searing kiss.
Minghao makes a low sound and shifts you both, pulling you into his lap so you straddle him. The robe falls open completely, revealing his bandaged torso and the hard length of him pressing against you through thin fabric. Your shirt rides up, bare thighs against his hips. Heâs already hard, thick and hot, and the realization sends a fresh wave of arousal flooding through you.
He kisses you like a man starving, hands roaming under your shirt to cup your breasts, thumbs circling your nipples until they pebble tight and you let out a shaky sound, overwhelmed.
âSo fucking perfect,â he growls, breaking the kiss to yank the shirt over your head.
Cool air kisses your skin, then his hot mouth is on you, sucking one nipple deep while his fingers pinch and roll the other. The wet heat of his tongue, the gentle scrape of teeth, the suction - all of it pulls desperate whimpers from your throat. You arch into him, grinding down against his cock, feeling the thick ridge slide against your dampening folds through your panties.
âMinghao-" His name breaks off on a moan.
He switches sides, lavishing the other breast with the same filthy attention, sucking hard enough to leave imprints of his teeth on your skin. One hand slides down your stomach, dipping beneath the waistband of your panties, fingers finding you soaked.
âThis wet for me already?â he murmurs. âMy wicked wife.â
Two thick fingers push inside you without warning, curling deep. You cry out, hips rocking instinctively as he starts to pump them slowly at first, then faster, thumb finding your clit and circling with devastating pressure. The wet, obscene sounds of his fingers working in and out of your pussy fill the room, mixing with your gasps and his low groans. He kisses you again, swallowing your moans as he finger-fucks you harder, scissoring and curling until youâre trembling on the edge.
âCome for me, baby,â he demands against your mouth. âLet me feel it.â
The orgasm crashes over you, sharp and sudden, and you clamp down hard around his fingers, thighs shaking as it rips through you. He doesnât stop, working you through it with deep, steady strokes until youâre whimpering his name.
He pulls his fingers free, bringing them to his mouth and sucking them clean with a groan. âTaste so good. Need more.â
Before you can catch your breath, he lifts you effortlessly, ignoring the way you yelp, hands hovering near his injuries. He lays you back against the wide couch and kneels between your spread thighs, peeling your soaked panties down your legs and tossing them aside. The cool air hits your exposed, dripping pussy, making you shiver. Minghao stares like a man possessed, eyes dark, lips parted.
He spreads your thighs wider, hooking your legs over his shoulders, and buries his face between them. The first long, slow lick from your entrance to your clit draws a broken cry from you, his tongue parting you like velvet.
âFuck, youâre dripping for me,â he mutters, voice muffled.
He sucks your clit between his lips, tongue flicking rapidly while two fingers plunge back inside you, fucking you in time with his mouth. It makes you suck in a sharp gasp, lost to the heat of his tongue, the stretch of his fingers. You fist his hair, hips grinding against his face as another orgasm builds fast and brutal. He curls his fingers against that perfect spot inside you, sucking hard on your clit, and you shatter again with a sharp scream, thighs clamping around his head as you come again.
He laps you through it, gentler now, until youâre twitching and oversensitive. Only then does he rise, wiping his glistening mouth with the back of his hand. His cock strains against his pants, a wet spot forming at the front that makes you eager. You reach for him, tugging the fabric down, freeing his thick, heavy length to reveal a flushed dark head slick with precum. You wrap your hand around him, stroking once, and he hisses, hips jerking.
âNeed to be inside you,â he rasps, voice wrecked. âNow.â
He sits back on the couch, pulling you into his lap again so you can straddle him with your knees sinking into the cushions on either side of his hips. His cock slides hot and bare against your soaked folds as you grind down, coating him in your arousal.
âFuck me,â you whisper lips dragging against his. "Like you mean it. Like I'm yours. Like you should have on our wedding night"
Minghao grips your hips, eyes locked on yours, and pulls you down onto him in one smooth, relentless thrust that has you gasping into his mouth, your hands cradling his face.
The stretch is exquisite, burning pleasure as he fills you completely, bottoming out with a shared groan. Youâre so wet he slides in easily, but the fullness makes your breath hitch. You can feel every ridge, every throb of his cock buried deep enough to make you shiver.
"Fuck," he hisses. His hands knead your ass, guiding you to rock on him. âSo fucking hot and wet around me.â
You start moving, riding him slow at first, savoring the drag of his thick cock against your walls. He floods your senses - his scent, the taste of him still on your lips from earlier kisses, the sight of his bandaged, muscled torso flexing beneath you, the feel of his hands guiding you harder, faster.
He surges up, capturing your mouth in a messy kiss as he thrusts up to meet you. The angle hits deep, grinding against that spot inside of you that has you twitching. Sweat slicks your bodies where they press together, his heart pounding against yours.
âRide me harder,â he growls, one hand pressing your lower belly, feeling the bulge of his cock inside you. âWant to feel you come on my cock.â
You do, grinding down with fluid rolls of your hips until the pressure builds again. He sucks harshly against your neck then lower, biting and licking his way toward your chest. The feeling of his teeth scraping against you sends you over, coming around him as you hide your face in his neck, crying his name.
Minghao curses, flipping you onto your side gently with your back to his chest. He's careful as he lifts one of your thighs and hooks it over his, and he slowly thrusts back into you from behind in a single, fluid stroke. His arm wraps around you, hand cupping your breast, pinching the nipple as he fucks you with long, drawn out thrusts that have you panting.
"My pretty wife," he pants against the shell of your ear, nipping lightly. "Fate brought you to me. I know it. I never believed before until you."
You moan helplessly, pushing back to meet every thrust. Another orgasm crashes over you, vision whitening as your walls flutter and squeeze him. Minghao groans deeply, pace faltering until he buries himself to the hilt, hips jerking as he spills inside you.
You stay locked together, panting, bodies slick with sweat. His cock softens slowly inside you but he doesnât pull out, holding you close. His hand strokes lazily over your stomach, down to where youâre still joined, feeling the mess of your combined release leaking out.
After long minutes, he presses soft kisses to your neck, your shoulder, your jaw. Turning your head, he kisses you properly again.
âI never intended this,â he murmurs against your lips, breaking the kiss. âI was supposed to use this marriage, keep my distance, and fulfill the Virateâs purpose. But you deserve better. You deserve a real husband. Protection, honesty, partnership. I promise you that - until death, like I said. No more shadows between us."
"I would like that," you whisper, looking up into his eyes - open and honest for the first time. "Thank you."
Rain taps against the window as you lay there, tired and safe in his arms. For once, you don't worry about anything - there is nothing to worry about. The Tower has already fallen. The illusions are gone. All that remains is what you choose to build from the wreckage.
-
The wedding you always imagined is better than your first one. Late afternoon light filters through the canopy of trees in soft, dappled gold, catching on the mist that clings to ferns and low-hanging moss. The air carries the scent of damp earth, pine resin, crushed herbs, and night-blooming jasmine. For once, the rain has paused, like the earth is letting you have this brief moment among the trees.
This is nothing like the extravagent wedding suspended three hundred floors above the city. No cameras. No political theater. Just earth. Just intention. Just truth.
You're barefoot on a small clearing of soft moss and fallen petals, wearing a simple slip of midnight silk that brushes your ankles. Minghao stands across from you, barefoot and dressed in loose black linen that makes him look less like a Shade and something softer. More solid. Something yours.
A length of hand-dyed red silk binds your hands together, soaked through with oils, saturated with the smell of rose and mugwart and something bitter. Baby stands a respectful distance away beside Seungcheol, her haunted expression gentler today, almost peaceful. Jeonghan leans against a tree with his usual lazy smirk while Kero grins, all teeth.
âThis is the one that matters,â Minghao murmurs. "Until death."
SYNOPSIS. A spur of the moment decision makes you decide to get an intimate back tattoo. Luckily, your boyfriend is a tattoo artistâa very talented and thorough one, in fact.
PAIRING. tattoo artist!joshua hong x fem!reader
GENRE. smut (minors dni đ), fluff, suggestive, established relationship
WARNINGS. mentions of needles and descriptions of what a tattoo feels like (everyone has diff pain tolerance tho!!), mentions of blood, shua and reader both have tattoos, lowkey me describing my dream spine tattoo, cursing, terms of endearment, joshua getting horny as heâs tattooing you lmao đđ, kissing, making out, body worship, lots of praise, unprotected sex, standing doggy wooweee backshots!
WORD COUNT. 5k
notes: shoutout to @mellow-wishes for permanently imprinting the thot of tattoo artist!joshua in my brain. oh to get tattoed by him đđ anyway, i hope u all enjoy!! wanted to get this fic out b4 i go out of town for the weekend so apologies if it's rushed i didn't rlly proofread it. pls don't forget to reblog w ur thoughts!!
âAre you still sure about this, sweetheart?âÂ
You shoot a playful glare at your boyfriend, arms crossed loosely over your chest. You find yourself standing in the small corner of your shared apartment, which has been turned into a private studio corner where Joshua frequently freehands designs, sketches out his linework for clients, and practices on synthetic skin. Sometimes he even practices on himself, which is how he ended up with a rose stem behind his ear a month ago.Â
All of your current tattoos are from him too. Tiny constellations scattered along your ribs. The moth beneath your collarbone that he freehanded at three in the morning because neither of you could sleep. A koi fish running down the curve of your hip. Every single piece carries his fingerprints in it somewhere.
The fairy lights hung around the room have been dimmed low, the coffee table pushed aside, and his client chair unfolded in the open space near the big window. Soft rain taps against the glass from the outside, and some calm lo-fi music plays throughout the apartment to set the mood and calm your nerves, even if youâve planned this for a whileđJoshua had sacrificed hours upon hours to bring your idea to life. You canât back away from this now.Â
The idea is a long, elegant spine tattoo: a powerful dragon that coils gracefully down your back with its body and sharp scales interwoven with delicate cherry blossoms. Strength and softness tangled together, exactly as you had imagined. You remember when you first told him about it and the way his eyes had grown wide, like a mixture of excitement and awe, but also⊠a subtle pinch of fear.
Because itâs you, and he knows that he canât afford to screw up, especially with something as permanent as a tattoo. Youâre willingly offering a big piece of yourself for him to mark, and thatâs a huge weight heâs had to carry while sketching out your concept. Thereâs no undo button for that kind of trust.Â
âIâve thought about this for a long time, Shua,â You tell him firmly, though thereâs that twitch of your nerves to your voice that doesnât go unnoticed. âThereâs no going back now.â
Joshuaâs eyes turn fond, taking a step closer to you. Heâs wearing a sleeveless black top, the fabric stretching across his chest and showing off the ink drawn over his skin. One of his arms is completely bare of any tattoos, but his other is a beautiful canvas of pieces heâs collected over the yearsđsome intricate fineline, others that are more bold and striking. He even has some dotted over his ribs as well, particularly the Gemini tattoo that you love kissing.
He reaches out instinctively, sliding his arms around your waist to pull you closer to him. Your head falls onto his chest naturally, breathing him in, giving him the opportunity to press a kiss to the top of your head. You can feel his steady heartbeat against your cheek, and it helps to lessen your nerves a little.
After all, itâs temporary pain for something permanent on your skin forever. And of course, itâs created by the man you love.Â
âAlright,â he murmurs, pulling back to look at you properly. âLetâs get you ready then, love. Can I take this off you?â
His fingers linger underneath your (his) shirt, tracing circles on your back as if heâs drawing it out on you. It sends shivers of anticipation up and down your spine. Heâs giving you one last chance to change your mind, but you both already know you wonât.
You tilt your head to look at him back. âYes. Please.â
You swear you see his eyes darken for a split second at your words. Without another word, he leads you to the mirror perched in the corner, turns your back to him, and peels the oversized shirt off slow enough it almost seems like heâs purposely teasing you. You help by lifting your arms as it slips off you, leaving you bare from the waist up. Youâre not even wearing a bra underneath, and you hear him suck in a sharp breath.
For a second, he just⊠stares at you in the mirror, lips pursing at the way your nipples tighten in the cool air. Then he drinks in the sight of your bare backđhis beautiful untouched canvasđtaking in how the dim lighting in the room highlights the line of your spine and the elegant curve of your shoulders. The thought that heâs about to leave something permanent there visibly makes him swallow.Â
âJesus Christ,â he mutters, mostly to himself. âHow am I supposed to concentrate for the next six hours when you look like this?â
âLike what?â You ask amusedly, meeting his heated gaze in the mirror.
âLike a goddess,â he finishes roughly, letting a hand hover near your waist, close but not exactly touching you, as if heâs scared to ruin you with carelessness. âA masterpiece I shouldnât be allowed to worship.â
Heat blooms through your face at that. You grab his hand thatâs lingering over your side, guiding it to where heâs finally touching you properly. His palm is slightly cold at first, but it warms instantly the second heâs touches your skin. His other hand joins in, sliding up your ribs until both palms rest just beneath your breasts, thumbs tenderly brushing the undersides. Then he leans in to kiss a line down from your nape, nipping gently on where your neck meets your shoulder.Â
He smiles against your skin when he feels you tremble in his hold.
âI love it when you worship me,â You tell him quietly.
Immediately, you swear you see the way your words make his mind flashđperhaps with images of past intimate nights with your bodies tangled in bed together, his mouth between your thighs for hours, marking his territory on top of his own art. He also imagines how youâd look from behind when he sinks insideđ
âOn the chair now,â he orders, forcing himself backward. âbefore I lose my mind.â
With a breathless giggle, you sit down on the client chair, straddling it so that your chest is pinned against the leather backrest. The position leaves your entire back deliciously exposed to him. You hear the sound of gloves being snapped on and the roll of his stool wheeling right next to you. Even though you canât see him, you still feel the heat of his eyes roaming over you.
The next few minutes are spent cleaning you. Joshuaâs gloved hands move slowly as he wipes your entire back down with antiseptic solution, his thumbs applying some reassuring pressure along your spine. You shiver when it hits your skin, and he notices immediately.Â
âYouâre shaking,â he murmurs. âStill okay?â
âMhm,â You breathe, eyes half-closed. âJust⊠sensitive.â
He hums in understanding, then leans in to place a soft kiss to your shoulder blade.
Once your skin is clean, he carefully applies the stencil. He smooths it down your skin inch by inch with both hands from the nape of your neck all the way to the curve just above your ass. You can already imagine every detail of itđthe long, coiling scaly body of the dragon, along with the delicate cherry blossom branches that will soften it.Â
When the stencil is peeled away, both the room and Joshua take a collective deep breath together.Â
The dragon already looks beautifully alive on your skin. Its serpentine body twists down the length of your spine, the tail end just above the waistband of your lounge shorts. Cherry blossom petals and branches burst along its scales, a few petals seemingly drifting free like a small breeze across your skin. The lines are fine, crisp, perfect. Even Joshua himself seems completely speechless of the linework that he created.Â
Thereâs really nobody else that you trust more than him to do this.Â
âWow,â he utters out softly, refusing to blink for a few seconds as if heâs scared youâll vanish. âYou look⊠illegal, baby.â
A choked laugh leaves you, reality settling within your bones that youâre seriously doing this. âYeah?â
âYeah.â He caresses a gloved finger down your back right beside the stencil. âYouâre really going to sit through this, huh?â
âYouâre really going to make me sit through it.â
âFair,â he quips with a grin, before exhaling a breath through his nose. âBut if it gets too much or becomes too painful, you tell me immediately, okay? Weâre only doing the outline for today, then shading later another time.â
You glance at him over your shoulder, wiggling a brow at him. âBossy.â
âIâm serious,â Joshua says pointedly, yet thereâs a layer of softness underneath. âThis is your body, love.â
That lands more harder than it should.
Your smile fades and brightens at the same time. âAnd I trust you with it, Shua. I always have.âÂ
Joshua pauses from where heâs been squeezing out the black ink into some tiny plastic caps. For a moment, you see the professional artist facade on his face crack and sparkle of love in his eyes. Because after all, he is your boyfriendđthe man who kisses your forehead when youâre sick and the one whoâs about to carve forever on your skin with hands thatâs thoroughly mapped every inch of you.Â
He rolls his stool until heâs right in front of you. Without any hesitation, he leans in to steal a slow, deep kiss to your lips, leaning his forehead against yours for a minute.Â
âThen let me make this perfect for you, my brave girl,â he whispers assuringly, rolling himself back beside you. The sound of the machine buzzing to life cuts through the rain shower outside and the low tunes of his playlist. âColour system, alright? Iâll work my way from the top to the bottom.âÂ
You nod, gripping the top of the client chair a little tighter as the familiar buzz of the tattoo machine fills the room. After getting multiple pieces done already, you find the sound oddly comforting now, especially if itâs with Joshua.Â
When the needle touches down at the nape of your neck, your lips tighten together into a thin line and you have to force yourself not to flinch. You feel the vibrations of the machine carry into your skull as Joshua starts to outline the head of the dragon, keeping one hand settled at the small of your back anytime the needle starts dragging to more sensitive flesh.Â
Each precise pass sends little sparks of fire down your nerves, some of them curling low in your belly in a way that feels way inappropriate given the situation. As the long minutes drag by, you close your eyes and rest your forehead onto the cool leather backrest. Every so often Joshua lifts the machine to wipe away any excess ink and blood, and to plant soothing kisses beside the fresh ink as if to apologise for the pain and praise you for your strength at the same time. Itâs strangely intimateđletting him mark you like this, claim you like this.Â
Minutes slowly blur to an hour. The silence is filled mostly with Joshua updating you with the progress so far and checking in on you, the occasional sigh of discomfort from your lips when the needle hits a particularly sensitive spot on your spine, and his playlist now shifting to some smooth jazz (Sade, mostly). By the time the second hour hits, Joshua kills the machine for a short break, which gives you the opportunity to finally stretch from being stuck in the chair for so long.
âThe head and neck are done,â he tells you, ditching the gloves and offering you some water. âHow are you feeling?â
You extend your arms up to the ceiling, groaning at the sensitivity in your muscles.Â
âStiff,â You admit hoarsely, rolling your shoulders carefully. âBurns like hell near my spine. But⊠Iâm okay. I want to keep going.âÂ
Joshua watches you with soft, attentive eyes as you take the glass of water from him. The sleeveless top heâs wearing clings to his frame from the warmth of the room. His gaze drifts down your bare torso and the redness of your skin from where the needle had been, lingering on the way your breasts move as you stretch, before flicking back up to your face.Â
His sweatpants are beginning to feel uncomfortably tight too, but he tries to ignore the feeling with an audible cough out of his throat. The professionalism is hanging on by a thread at this point. Because youâre still technically his âclientâ, despite the fact that you both sleep in the same bed together every day and he knows your mind and body by heart.Â
But youâre also his girlfriend⊠who is completely topless in front of him. So his thoughts are basically bound to go haywire.Â
âAlright, try to relax for me again, baby,â Joshua instructs, snapping on a fresh pair of gloves. He leans over you, close enough that the warmth of his body hits your skin, and presses a hand between your shoulder blades to guide you back into position. âYouâre doing so good for me, you know that?â
The machine buzzes back to life, and the needle meets your skin once more with that delicious burn, causing an unconscious whimper to tumble out of you. The dragonâs body is thicker towards the middle of your back, but Joshua works his way down with steady and careful strokes, ink blooming beneath your skin like ribbons.
But you can sense the shift in him.Â
His breathing grows heavier with every involuntary sound you let out from the pain or how your back arches beautifully when a raw area is drawn over, brows furrowed together as he works in concentration, even if itâs fraying by each minute that passes.Â
When he finally reaches the tail-end of the dragonđjust above the waistband of your shorts and the swell of your assđthe needle drags across the sensitive skin of your lower back, sending sharp sparks straight down your spine and between your legs. You canât stop the soft, needy moan that escapes you this time.Â
âColour?â Joshua asks, wiping away the excess ink.Â
A shaky breath leaves you, trying to steady yourself even if your body feels like itâs been set ablaze in the best and worst ways.Â
âGreen⊠mostly,â You mutter in response. âItâs a lot on the lower back, but I can take it.â
Joshua hums in acknowledgement, offering a reassuring squeeze to your hip. You feel him shift on the stool beside you, his gloved hand roaming down your lower back and stopping just shy of the waistband of your shorts. One of his fingers slides underneath from behind to trace the sensitive skin there teasingly.Â
His warm breath fans against you, a smug smirk on his face that you canât see but can definitely sense. âI can tell youâre wet for me, love.âÂ
Heat instantly floods your cheeks, embarrassment crawling up your spine. âShuaâŠâ
âDirty girl,â he says with a low chuckle, the corners of his mouth twitching upwards. âGetting turned on by me marking up your back, hm?â
You bite at your bottom lip hard in embarrassment, both mortified and aroused at the same time. The bastard knows you too well.Â
âI canât help it,â You mumble shyly, refusing to look at him. âIt feels good⊠especially with your hands on me.âÂ
Joshua gives a playful snap to his gloves, causing you to flinch in the seat out of pure anticipation. God, it kills him to see how needy you are for him right nowđbut he has a job to finish and heâs determined to do so. Heâs blessed at being able to keep his patience afloat, most times to tease you more than anything; otherwise, he would have you bent over the chair right now.Â
âI still have the lower back to finish,â he reminds you, reluctantly pulling his hand away from you. âThink you can behave long enough for me to do it?âÂ
You nod your head, even as you grind subtly into the chair for that small ounce of friction. You say yes, but you both know thatâs a lie.Â
The machine whirs back to life instantly. When the sharp stick of the needle meets the sensitive skin of your lower back, your whole body reacts. The skin there is tender and sensitive after the long hours of being worked over. And the second Joshua drags another line across your lower back, your hips twitch up involuntarily as you fight to stay still. If today is only for the outline, you could only imagine how the shading process would be like.Â
âBreathe for me, love,â Joshua coos lightly, pausing for a minute. He flattens a hand to the curve of your waist to hold you down and rub circles on your skin. âLower back is evil, I know. Just a little more.â
Easy for him to say.
You feel the vibrations of the machine travel straight through your pelvis. Your grip tightens around the leather backrest, breasts pressed flush against the chair as you try to breathe through the stinging fire licking up your spine.Â
âSo pretty like this,â he praises absentmindedly as he draws out the cherry blossom petals. âTaking it so well for me, sweetheartâŠâ
You canât tell if the praise makes it better or worse. Worse, probablyđit sinks hotter into your skin than the needle does. Youâre probably soaked as well. Embarrassingly so, since his hands have been on you the entire time, and the words that come out are in that familiar adoring tone he only uses in the bedroom with you. Youâre not sure if what youâre feeling is pain or need anymore.Â
Joshua knows it too. His low chuckle vibrates through the quiet room as he continues the final outlines on the cherry blossoms right where the tail curls.Â
After what feels like a literal eternity, the machine is finally killed off for the last time, and the room falls into a strange kind of silence with the exception of your ridiculously heavy breathing. The relief is immediate when the needle is away from your burning skin, but the desperate ache between your thighs continues to throb. You near the loud snap of Joshua removing his latex gloves and rolling his stool back to retrieve the aftercare supplies.
Joshua takes his precious time wiping away what remains of the excess ink over your inflamed skin. After everything is pat dry, he applies a final layer of soothing ointment, before slowly rolling on the second skin, pressing it down with careful palms from the nape of your neck all the way to the curve of your lower back. The cool, transparent film material settles protectively over the fresh dragon and cherry blossoms, sealing them in.Â
The moment heâs done, you hear him lean back on the stool, just staring at youđand his workđfor a long minute. You lift your head to glance at him over your shoulder.
He looks completely wrecked. Thereâs some exhaustion there obviously, fatigue sitting directly beneath his eyes from all the long hours of concentration. But the heat in his gaze is unmistakable.Â
âAre you gonna say something or just stare at me forever?â You ask him with a sly look.Â
Joshua blinks as if you pulled him out of a trance.Â
âGod, come here, love,â he urges, and before you can respond, heâs pulling you by the arms and leading you towards the large mirror in the corner of the room.Â
He positions you right in front of the mirror, standing behind you with his hands resting on your hips. The fairy lights cast a warm glow across your skin, almost making the second skin on your back shimmer faintly.Â
âLook,â Joshua whispers hotly, spinning you gently so your back is visible in the reflection. âLook at what we made together.â
Your breath catches in your throat when you catch sight of the tattoo for the very first time. The dragon coils elegantly down your spine as if it had always belonged there. Cherry blossom branches and petals drift along its body like theyâre caught in a permanent spring breeze. The head rests between your shoulder blades while the tail disappears low near the waistband of your shorts. It looks almost alive.Â
âShuaâŠâ You breathe, unable to find the proper words from how stunned you are as you peer back up at him. âItâs beautiful.â
Joshua nuzzles his nose into your hair, inhaling you in, before tilting his head slightly so that his mouth barely grazes your neck.Â
âYeah?â he murmurs, gliding his hands up your sides, stopping short of your breasts. âItâs more than beautiful, love. Itâs perfect on you.âÂ
A kiss to your neck severs any kind of response you could say, stealing the words right off your tongue and replacing it with a soft, trembling breath. Joshua smiles against your skin, pulling more shaky sighs out of you as he kisses his way down to your collarbone.Â
When he pulls away, your eyes lock together. In the small space between your bodies, you can feel the hours of lingering tension, pain, pride, and need. Joshuaâs gaze is dark, full of love and unbridled hunger. You only have to flick your attention down to his lips once before heâs on you.Â
Joshuaâs mouth crashes onto yours, fueled by the desperation thatâs been simmering for the past few hours. His tongue slides against yours like heâs trying to taste every sound of discomfort and pleasure that left you. You moan softly into his mouth as your hands tangle up in his dark hair, his arms sliding around you to pull you closer but ensuring to not put any pressure on your freshly tattooed back. You can feel how hard he is through his sweatpants.Â
âCareful, beautiful,â he breathes against your lips, even as he walks you backward until the backs of your knees collide with the client chair. âItâs still fresh. Iâm not ruining my best work because I canât keep my hands off you.âÂ
But the way heâs kissing you says otherwise. And the way his fingers wander underneath your shorts to cup your clothed pussy says otherwise, too.Â
âI need you, Shua,â You mutter breathlessly, hands sliding underneath his sleeveless top as you feel his fingers glide through your soaked folds. âPlease⊠want you inside me.â
Joshua groans at your pleads, exhaling harshly through his nose.
âGod, how can I ever deny you?â he rasps darkly, guiding you around so that your chest is braced up against the side of the chair. âKeep that pretty back arched for me, baby.âÂ
You obey instantly, folding forward and resting your forearms on the seat. The position leaves you shamelessly exposed for him, your back arching beautifully so that he has the perfect sight of the dragon tattoo from behind.
Joshuaâs breath catches. âFuck, just like thatâŠâ
You hear the rustle of fabric as he finally pushes his sweatpants and boxers down his thighs. Then you feel him drag down your lounge shorts in one smooth motion, letting them pool at your ankles. He steps up behind you, one hand smoothing up the back of your thigh while the other kneads at the soft flesh of your hip, thumb brushing just beneath the edge of the second skin.Â
He leans in to plant open-mouthed over the untouched skin of your back, his hardened cock nudging teasingly at your entrance. The heat of his breath ghosts across your spine as he drags his lips slowly upward.
âStill okay?â he whispers, voice rough yet still tainted with that familiar tenderness that makes your chest ache. âTell me if anything hurts, love.â
You subtly grind yourself back against him, aching for more. He grips your hips even more tightly at the contact.
âIâm okay,â You reassure him, voice trembling with need. âWant all of you, Shua⊠please.â
Joshua presses one more lingering, grateful kiss to the centre of your upper back right beside the dragonâs head as if to silently say thank you, before slowly pushing the thick head of his cock inside your soaked entrance. The two of you moan softly at the familiarity of your bodies joining together. His bare chest leans protectively over your body, close enough that you feel the steady thrum of his heartbeat against your back.Â
He slowly enters you inch by inch, letting you feel every ridge and vein inside until his hips are flush against your ass. A shared, breathy moans from the two of you travels through the quiet apartment. He stays still for a long moment, just to savour the feeling of being perfectly connected with you and to let you adjust. One of his arms wraps gently around your waist to rest a warm palm over your stomach as he continues to worship attention to every inch of skin he can reach with his mouth.Â
Then he starts to moveđunhurried deep thrusts that drags his cock alongside your sensitive walls. His hand on your stomach lowers until theyâre between your legs, fingers seeking your clit and running through your wetness to bring that added pleasure. You push back against him, desperate for more, but he keeps the pace torturously steady.
âTake it easy, sweetheart,â Joshua murmurs against the shell of your ear. âDonât move too much. Let me take care of you.â
His free hand tantalisingly traces the edge of the second skin. The sight of his art on your spine while he fucks you spurs him on even further. With a guttural groan, he starts to pick up the pace, still mindful of your back but unable to hold himself back completely. The wet sounds of your bodies mixes in with your broken whimpers, each thrust sending thrilling flames of pain and pleasure down your body.
You grip the leather chair even tighter, your back arching deeper instinctively. âShuađright theređfuckđâ
Joshua curses under his breath. He angles his hips slightly to kiss that particular spot that makes your vision blur, his fingers moving on your clit even faster.
âThatâs it,â he praises thickly in that low, filthy register you love, giving an encouraging squeeze to your ass. âLet me hear you, love. You took my needle so fucking well⊠and now youâre taking my cock just as pretty. Been thinking about this every single minute I was marking you.âÂ
His words make you clench tightly around him, drawing a deep groan out of his chest. His hips begin to snap harder into you, causing your head to helplessly fall onto the cool leather of the chair as he continues fucking you from behind. Every thrust sends your breasts crushing harder into the chair, nipples aching from the friction.Â
Youâre so embarrassingly close already from the hours of teasing, the needleâs sting, and his cock driving in and out of you at a relentless rhythm.Â
âMy perfect canvas⊠my masterpieceâŠâ he murmurs possessively against your skin, sending another rush of heat through you. âAll mine to mark, to worship, and fuck.âÂ
When your legs start to shake, Joshua notices it immediately, responding by rubbing more tighter circles on your clit, exactly how you like it. His own rhythm starts to falter as he feels himself nearing the edge as well, but he doesnât dare slow down. He wantsđno, cravesđto see you fall apart while his art is still fresh on your back.Â
âShuađshitđIâm close, so closeđâ You pant hoarsely, feeling the coil in your stomach wind tighter and tighter.Â
âYeah?â he asks, teeth grazing over your shoulder. âCum on my cock, baby. Youâre squeezing me so goodđcome on, sweetheartđâ
Thatâs all it takes.
Your orgasm crashes into your hard, a broken sob of his name tearing out of your throat as your walls pulse around him. The pleasure and fiery pain ripping through your body only heightens your release even stronger. Joshuaâs hips stutter against you, his fingers working through you to draw every last sigh until youâre sensitive and gasping.Â
When the last hints of your orgasm fades, he finally lets himself go as well, burying himself deep inside of you with a short-winded grunt. His forehead drops onto the slick skin of your shoulder, his chest rising and falling heavily against you.Â
Neither of you move for a while, only listening to one anotherâs ragged breathing as you both come down from your intense releases together. Joshua reaches down to intertwine his hand with yours thatâs been gripping the chair so tautly.Â
âYou okay?â he asks breathlessly while caressing a tender finger over your hip bone with his free hand. âDoes anything hurt?â
You let out a shaky, yet contented chuckle. âEverything burns a little, but⊠itâs good. Really good.â You give a reassuring squeeze to his hand. âMmmh⊠youâre insatiable.â
Joshua hums in relief. âYouâre the insatiable one, my love. Have you seen yourself? And we still have to do the shadingđhow am I supposed to hold myself back for that?â
Your cheeks flare up at his words, causing you to smack him playfully on the rear, but he retaliates with a tender kiss to the side of your neck. Then he cautiously pulls out of you, the two of you hissing at the sensitivity. He helps you straighten up before spinning you around to give you a proper kiss on the lips, bringing that shy giggle out of you that he adores so much when he draws back.
He angles your body slightly to check the second skin on your back, making sure itâs secure.
âEverything looks good,â he says, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. âItâs going to heal so beautifully on you. Iâll make sure of it.â
You grin up at him with hazy eyes. âI know you will.â
As he helps you back into your shirt and puts on his own clothes, he leads you to your shared bedroom. Now that the healing process has started, he knows he canât wait to see how itâll look entirely completed in its beautyđwhen he can run his fingertips over it without worry, and maybe, just maybe, when he can pin you down into the sheets and worship his work on you once again.Â
Because you still have to get through the shading sessions.
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When the host of the morning show at 99.2 STEP FM announces his retirement, the race to take the coveted, high-traffic primetime slot is on. And after several years maintaining the second highest listenership at the station, that 6 a.m. start time is as good as yours... as long as Lee Chanâthe uptight, overrehearsed, pretentious asshole who keeps hunting everything you love for sportâstays away from it, that is. Naturally, he has no plans of affording you that luxury.
â« (You Drive Me) Crazy by Britney Spears
PAIRING: radio hosts chan x fem!reader
WC: 5.6K / ???
TAGS: workplace rivals to lovers, set in 2004
CW: workplace romance, adhd, mentions of gender discrimination
SMUT: will add when we get to it!
A/N: brother. don't even look at me rn. i have SEVEN different drafts of this bc my brain was not cooperating. not proofread so please go easy on me. and bc i struggled with this one so hard, i'm definitely going to take some time to think about the next part so i appreciate your patience. thanks ily enjoy and make sure you check out the other works in this collab! buhbye
OFF SCRIPT WITH Y/N
áá||á Now spinning: Since U Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson
YOU: Thanks for calling into Off Script on 99.2 STEP FM, where you're always one STEP ahead of the charts! You've reached the Bad Idea Hotline. Who do I have the pleasure of speaking to?
CALLER: Oh my god! Oh my god! [screams] Kendall, I'm on! Yes I'm onâhey, give me the phone back! [grunting and shuffling] Give it. Okay, sorry! Hi!
YOU: Hi! What's your name?
CALLER: I'm Lexi! [muffled, in the background: And I'm Kendall!] No one cares.
YOU: I care! Who is that?
LEXI: Ugh, it's my sister, Kendall.
YOU: Thanks for calling the Bad Idea Hotline, Lexi slash Kendall. Now let's talk it out before you act it out. What bad idea can I talk you out of today?
LEXI: Okay, so there's this guy at work.
YOU: Mmm. Men continue to be the leading cause of calling into the Bad Idea Hotline.
LEXI: Yes, he's the worst. He and I have been competing for this promotion for, like⊠months.
YOU: Hmm.
LEXI: There's this huge company event on Friday night, and I just found out he's doing a presentation for some execs visiting from out of town, and I was thinkingâŠ
YOU: Dangerous pastime.
LEXI: What if someone accidentally replaced his slideshow with photos of him that someone's sister found on his MySpace of him totally plastered at a concert that he called out sick to attend�
YOU: Jesus Christ, Lexi.
LEXI: It's not the Good Idea Hotline!
YOU: No, I know, I know. Sorry, absolutely no judgment here. You just scare me, and I respect you for that. Well, Lexi, while I love this level of petty and chaotic, I unfortunately have to tell you that this⊠[Bad Idea Hotline alarm blares loudly] is a bad idea.
LEXI: Boooo.
YOU: Let's talk logistics. How would you even access his deck? Sneak onto his computer? Then you get caught and what, fired? That just leaves you jobless with zero options for references. And let's just say you do succeed in changing the deck out without getting caught, and he's humiliated in front of everyone, and he gets fired and you receive this promotion. Do you think it will feel good� Knowing you had to do all that just to get a promotion you knew you deserved anyway?
LEXI: Ugh⊠I guess not.
YOU: I'm the largest advocate for beating men in every avenue of life. But if we're going to beat a man at something, we're going to do it with our dignity in tact. Right?
LEXI: Right. You're totally right. It was a crazy idea.
YOU: And I love your creativity. But let's redirect it. Because to be frank, if you're spending this much time and energy trying to ruin this guy's life⊠maybe it means you care a little too much about his opinion of you. Maybe it means it's time to stop focusing on him and more on you.
LEXI: I hate that you're right.
YOU: Callers often do. Can I trust that you won't go destroying your careerâor anyone else'sâafter you hang up?
LEXI: Yes, you can trust me. I will be an upstanding employee.
YOU: Good girl. You're going to get that promotion! I believe it!
LEXI: Thanks, Y/N. By the way, I love your show so muchâhuh? Okay, get off me! Sorry, my sister and I love your show so much. We're such big fans and I hope you're on STEP FM for a long time!
YOU: Aw, thanks! And don't worry. I will be!
EVERYONE RAISES THEIR FLUTES OF CHAMPAGNE UP FOR KIM SEOKJIN, the room full of smiles, cheering, and tears of happiness save for two people: you and Lee Chan, who is already glaring at you before the toasts even end. You glare right back, slipping your middle finger from around the stem of your glass to discreetly flip him off. His scowl deepens. Seokjin's loud and shrill peel of laughter demands your attention, and you pointedly turn away from your show rival.
"I think I speak for everyone at the station when I say you will be missed dearly, Seokjin," a voice somewhere to your left says. The sheer ambition to absolutely crush Lee Chan blinds you and renders you incapable of registering anything other than the rage fueling your need to win the morning slot Seokjin's retirement will be leaving empty.
By all accounts, you're a better radio show host than Chan. You're funnier, more engaging, more flexible, you don't have a stick up your ass, and most importantly, you have integrity, something a thief like him wouldn't know anything about. You're the clear choice to fill the morning slot.
You just need the executives to stop fucking around and agree that you're the clear choice.
"Cheers!" someone else finally shouts.
"Cheers!" you parrot everyone else, forcing a smile on your mouth as you lean forward to clink your drink against others' in honor of Seokjin.
You bring the glass to your lips, your eyes inevitably straying to Chan, whose glower is still fixed on you. You're not sure it ever left. He empties the flute in one, clean gulp, and your eyes briefly drop to his Adam's apple as it bobs. You sneer at him in disgust, stopping at the one, small sip and setting your champagne down on Seokjin's kitchen island.
"Alcoholic," you mouth at Chan, turning away before he can mouth anything back. You immediately head for Seokjin, who is proving to truly be the most beloved human being you know, already surrounded by several weeping colleagues. "Excuse me. Excuse me. Yeah, hi, coming through."
You finally squeeze through the throng of people, tripping a little as you reach the morning show host. His face lights up at the sight of you, and you can tell he's already drunk. You don't blame him; he's probably been celebrating the public announcement of his retirement all day leading up to this party. You would be too if you were about to sunset a career that singlehandedly made your station the #1 most listened to in the country and had people calling you the Father of Radio. And all in favor of practically owning a cable TV channel. You'd never stop celebrating, actually.
Seokjin bellows your name, throwing his arms out wide and welcoming you into his space. "Just the girl I wanted to see! I listened to your show today!"
"You listen to my show every day," you say, glaring at him and daring him to disagree with you. He doesn't miss a beat.
"Of course I do, but today was 'specially special!" he throws an arm around your shoulders and leads you away from the kitchen and toward the backyard.
The sprawling backyard of a man who made his riches from his morning show. His morning show that better be yours soon.
"And why was that?" you feign ignorance. You spent the last hour of your show playing Seokjin's favorite songs and talking about your favorite memories with him in honor of the announcement. He fixes you with a knowing look that might actually bring you to tears.
Kim Seokjin has been the morning show host at 99.2 STEP FM for 20 years, bringing them to the heights they're at now. He's even the voice behind the annoyingly catch jingle everyone in the country knows. His impact is iconic, indisputable, and inimitable, and he's the only reason you are where you are now.
Ten years ago, the man hired you as his intern, and with his mentorship and guidance (and his incredibly complicated coffee orders), you had your own show within a year. Sure, it was in the middle of the night, and you were forced to give up your social life and love of the sun for a while, but now you have the slot just before the afternoon commute and the second highest listenership right after Seokjin. You don't want to feel entitled because you've worked incredibly hard for everything you have. But this also feels like it belongs to youâa throne being passed down to its rightful owner.
YOU. Not Lee Chan.
"You can put on a brave face all you want, but I know you'll miss me," Seokjin says, snorting before his face settles into a level of seriousness rare for him. He frowns a little, refusing to meet your eyes as he stares at his guests jumping into his massive pool. "I'm sorry about today."
He doesn't have to clarify. There's only one thing anyone could possibly be apologizing to you about, though it's definitely not him who should be apologizing.
When you were brought into the conference room this morning at the ass crack of dawn for a meeting with Seokjin and the station's executives, you were sure it was to be told you were the new morning host. You were so sure of yourself, in fact, that seeing Chan sitting in there didn't even dash your hopes. You just foolishly thought the executives were killing two birds with one stoneâgiving you your rightful position as morning show host and delivering the news that Chan was a boring loser who wouldn't be getting a promotion. Then, you sat down, the meeting began, and you received the worst possible news.
The executivesâfor whatever bizarre reasonâcannot choose between your show and Chan's, and their brilliant idea is to make you compete. Over the course of the next three months, up until the moment Seokjin goes off air for the last time, your strengths and weaknesses will be tested against Chan's with a mall tour consisting of three stops across the country, all leading to the radio station's annual spring festival, where you two will co-host the concert. And because that cruel and unusual punishment isn't enough, they want to see you each host one morning show to really put the cherry on top of a giant slap to the face.
Five tests stood between you and everything your career has been building toward. Five tests and a stupid radio host whose performance couldn't hold a candle to yours.
"Is it because I'm a woman?" you ask, knowing Seokjin is more privy to the details the executives would never share with you. Plus, he's too kind to ever lie about why this has all come down to a competition when you're the only answer that makes sense.
He shrugs. "Could be. Probably. Not sure, honestly." He takes a deep breath before he admits, "It's the numbers."
You throw him an incredulous look. "The 'numbers'? If we were going by numbers, the slot would be mine."
Like some sick sixth sense, the hairs on the back of your neck stand and you look over to find the devil himself, wandering over to one of Seokjin's lounge chairs by the pool and throwing his towel on it.
"I'm literally the second most listened to show at STEP and I'm not even in a commuter slot!" you point out, narrowing your eyes at Chan.
Seokjin winces. "Right⊠and if it were just about listeners, there wouldn't have been any questions about who deserved the morning slot."
"What?" you murmur, frowning as Chan kicks his flip-flops off, shoving them out of the way and under the chaise. "What else would it be about?"
He sighs, fully turning to you now. You glance at him briefly, letting your eyes wander away again when you can't take the pity in his eyes. "You bring in listeners⊠but Chan brings in sponsorships."
The man in question reaches behind him, grabbing the neck of his shirt and pulling it over his head. Your eyes involuntarily bulge as he revealsâto your dismayâwashboard abs you could grate a block of cheese on. Nipplesâsmall, brown, and already hard against the cool night air. Grooves so deep between his muscles, you think you could squeeze your finger into them. Two cut lines that lead from his hips straight to the slight bulge in his swimming trunks. The slight bulge in his swimming trunks.
You feel your face growing hot with irritation but you can't look away. He shakes his head once it's free of the shirt and runs a hand through his shaggy, brown hair.
"Ew," you whisper under your breath.
"What are you looâoh!" Seokjin's eyes follow your gaze, turning over his shoulder to find Chan walking to the edge of his own pool. "Jesus. Does he realize we work in radio? No one knows what we look like. He does not need to have abs."
Rich coming from a man the country has dubbed "Worldwide Handsome," but you don't argue. He's correct. Chan is a dumb radio host who has no right to look the way he does.
Your rival annoyingly rubs his hands together and blows into them like he's cold, even though he knows from the dozens of work parties Seokjin has hosted that the pool is heated. Whatever he's doing works, though, because your eyes fall to his biceps as they flex. Your lip curls in disgust when he dives into the deep end of the pool, cutting through the water perfectly.
"Fucking show off."
Seokjin turns back to you and huffs a laugh. "Okay, sure. Don't forget to wipe your drool when you're done ogling the man."
"'Ogling'?" you bark your own laughter. "Please. I can admit the man is attractive but that's because God made him so insufferable, He had to give him something."
"Yeah. God just had to give him a six-pack. Right."
"I am right."
You turn your full attention back to Seokjin now that Chan seems to be occupied with staying underwater as long as humanly possible. You hope he stays there forever. Or at least for the next three months.
"Sorry, what were you saying?" you ask, annoyed to find your mind completely blank.
Seokjin blinks at you a few times before smirking and shaking his head. "I was saying⊠you bring in a lot of listeners, but Chan brings in just as many sponsors."
You open your mouth to refute that, but find yourself completely stumped. You've never been overly concerned with securing sponsorships because of how popular your show had grown. The station largely took care of that side of things for you. You never even thought to wonder about Chan's sponsors.
"What?"
He nods solemnly. "His show is the highest money maker right behind mine."
You balk at him. "What?"
There is simply no way that's true. A show with a high number of listeners should naturally be a high earner too.
"That's definitely a mistake."
Seokjin sighs like he knew you would deny this. "It isn't. He's led in earnings for years now."
Your mouth pops open in disbelief. "Off Script is sponsored by Bebe and Baby fucking Phat."
"The Chan Standard has Sony⊠and he just signed Apple."
"Apple?" you shriek, flinching a little at the volume of your own voice. You look around to see a few people turning toward you. You smile sheepishly before stepping closer to Seokjin and lowering your voice so much, your mouth hardly moves. "What the fuck do you mean he signed Apple?"
"It's only for a few ads on the iPod Mini, but they've added an option to extend if they're happy with performance," he explains. "Ads start running next week."
You're knocked breathless. You thought this was going to be a slam dunk. You thought you were going to wipe the floor with Chan. But if he was bringing in Sony and Apple money⊠you can't imagine your listenership holding up against dollar signs.
"You have got to be kâ"
"Hey guys." You turn toward the voice just to squeeze your eyes shut as you're pelted with the fat drops of pool water Chan violently shakes out of his hair.
You breathe slowly through your nose before opening your eyes and plastering a fake smile on your mouth. You fight to keep your eyes on his as you return his greeting flatly. "Hi."
"Hey, Chan," Seokjin smiles, eyes twinkling with delight at your barely concealed irritation. "What's up? Is the water nice?"
"Yeah!" He nods, smiling his stupid megawatt smile at his senior and completely ignoring you as he reaches up to dry his hair with his towel and gets several more drops on you in the process. "You should take a dip and see for yourself!"
"I think Seokjin knows how his own pool feels like, Chan," you grit through your tight smile. "It is his pool."
"Right!" Seokjin squeaks, laughing as he steps away. "And I am going to go enjoy my pool now. Bye."
"Wait! Youâ"
"Talk later!" he calls over his shoulder as he practically runs away, grabbing a random flute of champagne off a standing table on the way and claiming it for himself.
Your face settles into the glare it's used to when Chan is around, eyes sliding back to him.
"So," he sighs, smiling at you like he doesn't know that he makes your blood boil just breathing near you. "Are you ready to hit the road?"
You narrow your eyes at him. Chan is your antithesis. He has to dot every i and cross every t, he scripts every last word on his show, and he's utterly incapable of adapting to change. His show is like if TRL was only allowed to air after being clinically sanitized and thoroughly HR-approved. When you really think about it, it makes sense that he's a magnet for money-hungry corporations. He's clean, boring, and happy to do whatever it takes to make the idiots at the top happy.
You cannot let The Chan Standard win over Off Script.
"No" is all you say before you turn around and march away from him and his hard nipples.
99.2 STEP FM Spring Tour
Show #1: Sunridge Plaza
áá||á Now spinning: Toxic by Britney Spears
"That was Toxic by Britney Spears⊠again," Chan sighs into his handheld mic, obviously tired of hearing the same Top 40 songs.
"And America can't get enough of it, obviously," you say, laughing a little before you quickly shoot a glare at your co-host from where you stand on the opposite side of the small stage. "You know, since it's one of the tops songs in the country right now, regardless of what pretentious indie, alt-rock know-it-alls think about it."
The audience giggles, obviously well aware of how vehemently Chan likes to stay away from any and all things mainstream.
"Iâ"
"Anyway," you interrupt him before he even really starts, "Welcome back, you're listening to 99.2 STEP FM's 2004 Spring Tour with Y/N from Off Script with Y/N, and I'm atâ"
"And Chan from The Chan Standard, and we'reâ" The man clears his throat and looks at you pointedly, prompting an apathetic shrug from you. "âcoming to you live from Sunridge Plaza!" He turns his attention back to the crowd. "We're here, just a bit away from the food court by Limited Too and Quiksilver for anyone listening who wants to join us in personâand trust me, you want to be here!"
You lower your mic enough so that it doesn't pick up the unimpressed scoff you hide in an exhale. You might be able to buy his laidback facade if you were a listener, but you've seen the neurotic way Chan has worked for years. The fact that he forced you to run through his script for hours on end yesterday doesn't help his case. A script, for someone like you, whose radio show is literally called Off Script.
"We're looking for fans who want two free tickets with backstage passes to 99.2 STEP FM's Spring Fest Concert in LA, headlined by none other than the Joshua Hong!" He announces.
The audience erupts into maniacal screams.
"We'll be giving those tickets away in the next hour," you inform the crowd. "But for now, we're going to hear from some of our audience members! How many of you listen to my show, Off Script?"
The cheers are deafening, prompting you to throw Chan a satisfied smirk. He doesn't meet your gaze, focusing on the crowd with that charismatic smile of his on his lips. You suppress the urge to roll your eyes.
"Perfect, you're probably familiar with the Bad Idea Hotline then?" Another round of screams. "Well, instead of taking a caller today, we're going to let one of you run a bad idea by us live! Who has a bad idea to share?"
There are plenty of people shouting, but your attention is drawn to a group of friends in the back all pointing to one woman whose face is buried in her hands in shame.
"Ooo, I think I see the perfect candidate," you think aloud, nodding at the group. Their energy multiplies, shaking their friend's shoulders. She lifts her head, blushing a furious red when she sees you looking right at her. "What do you think? Want to let us know what bad idea you've been ruminating on?"
It takes her only a few more moments of convincing from her friends before she nods and starts making her way to the front of the stage, where the producers allow her through the barricade.
"Hey!" Chan greets her as he helps her up the stage. "What's your name?"
"Hi," she says shyly as she's given her own mic. "I'm Lily."
"Hi, Lily," you both greet her. You explain your own segment to the crowd. "For anyone unfamiliar with Off Script, first of all, what are you doing with your life? Second of all, the Bad Idea Hotline is a segment I have where a listener calls in with a bad idea that I try to talk them out of." You turn toward Lily and smile. "Now let's talk it out before you act it out. What bad idea can I talk you out of today?"
"We," Chan mutters another correction, making some people giggle. You ignore him.
Lily sighs. "So I have a bit of a crush on a coworker..."
"Absolutely not," you say at the same time Chan mutters, "God, no."
Your segments tend to be about crushes and exes and relationships in general, but once in a while, you got someone with a crush in the workplace, and it resulted in nothing other than boiling blood and thoughts of strangling Chan even when he wasn't even in the room. To be subjected to a story about a workplace romance while standing onstage with him is going to be a true rest of your patience.
The crowd laughs at the reaction, and Lily groans, once again burying her face in her hands.
"What do you do for work, Lily?" you ask.
She sighs and looks up at you. "I'm a writer at a local paper."
"And your crush?"
"Another writer."
You make a face of disapproval. Crushing on someone in the same field as youâlet alone the same officeâ is a recipe for disaster, and you would know best, standing next to the man who taught you that lesson so brutally. "Okay, and your bad ideaâis it asking this person out?"
She shrugs. "I'm not sure. I actually just started liking him recently even though we've been working together for a few years."
"What changed?" Chan asks.
"I don't really know. We used to seriously hate each other," she reveals, fidgeting a little where she stands. "He always had to one-up me on everything I did, and he constantly wanted to make me look bad. And I don't even know why! I was always nice to him!"
"Perfect, I have experience in this department," Chan says, eyes sliding to you meaningfully.
You tilt your head at him and smile. "Wow, what a crazy coincidence because so do I."
"He was so full of himself, so annoying, so mean," she continues without batting an eye at either of you. The longer she talks about the guy, the more she comes out of her shell, her hands making wild gestures as she speaks. "He really gave the feeling that he was better than everyone, and it drove me crazy."
"These arrogant men truly must be stopped."
Chan scoffs. "Sometimes it's an arrogant woman."
You narrow your eyes at him. "Are you even listening to Lily? She said it's a man."
"I'm just saying."
"But then one day," Lily barrels on, unbothered, "we were at the office working late on a deadline our boss had forced us to work on together." You exchange dirty looks with your co-host at the parallels. "And⊠I don't know."
Both you and Chan look at her incredulously. He asks, "What do you mean you don't know?"
She shrugs. "It got super late, and we got to talking, and⊠I don't know!" she repeats, voice rising nervously. "He was actually kind of sweet?"
You frown. "Right. The way honey mixed with borax is sweet to ants, I'm sure."
"I'm thinking I just misunderstood him! After that, he just started remembering everything I told him and would get me my coffee order in the mornings, and it feels like he'd get jealous whenever other male coworkers stopped at my desk to chat."
"That means nothing," you say quickly even as you notice this new piece of information has seemed to thaw Chan's own apprehension with the story.
"Okay, wait, I wouldn't say that means nothing⊠maybe he does like her," Chan refutes, holding up a hand to slow you down. You roll your eyes because by that logic, the man liked you, having gotten you several coffees early on in his career with 99.2âevery single one perfectly made. And he still woke up one day and just decided to make your life at the station unbearable.
"Because he gets her coffee?!" you scoff. "The bar is in hell."
"Agreed, but men are simple. They start with something small like coffee! Maybe this will grow into something more serious. Itâ"
"No," you insist, nodding your head at the producer to the side. She reluctantly presses the button you need her to, and the Bad Idea Hotline alarm rings loudly. "Bad idea!"
"Oh my god," Chan sighs.
"Listen, Lily," you command her attention, stepping between her and Chan so that she can only see you. "First, you have a harmless crush. You convince yourself that he's sweet and cute and has a smile that could keep you from feeling a single sad feeling in your life ever again."
"UmâŠ"
"Wait, what?" You ignore Chan's confusion behind you.
"Maybe you get to know him more. Sure, maybe he gets you coffee. Maybe you even eat together sometimes, and maybe you start having inside jokes and you start letting your walls down."
Once you start recounting how you remember Chan's first year at the station, you can't stop. You have so much resentment over the fact that from the moment you met him, you were immediately smitten. He was so charming and kind and his smile was so hypnotizingâyou were immediately wrapped around his finger. You showed him the ins and outs of the stationâtelling him where you hid the best snacks away from everyone else, writing down the times office supplies were delivered every month so you could beat everyone else to it, and even coming early to sit through his radio show before yours, even helping with sound levels and mixing in the booth sometimes.
And he was just as kind. He'd sit through your show too, often commenting on how much he admired your improvisation and your innate ability to connect with your callers so quickly. If he couldn't stay around for your show, you'd find sticky notes on the desk with sweet messages of encouragement or promises for lunch the next day. He'd raid the supply closet and make sure to get two of everything for the both of you, leaving it in your locker along with your favorite snacks. By the end of the first year, you were near inseparable and you were having to field off warnings from Seokjin about dating in the workplace.
Just as you were about to really consider whether that was something you even wanted to try, with Chanâdatingâhe proved exactly why that idea was the dumbest you've ever had. And he ran all your trust into the ground, grinding it into the dirt with the heel of his foot.
"He'll be so nice and cute and sweet, but when you're finally ready to admit to yourself that you like this stupid, pompous idiot, he will betray you in ways you cannot even fathom." Lily's eyebrows rise as she looks at you in bewilderment. You feel a gentle poke to your backâChan's way of trying to reel you in, probably, but you don't care. "He will maniacally laugh in your face about it, and all your sparkly, whimsical, happy, silly dreams will shatter, and you will be left with nothing but rage so pure, it could wither plants if you stand too close."
"What are you talking about?" Chan hisses, his mic pulled away from his mouth as he tries to play dumb. He had to have known that all his sweet gestures lured you into a crush on him. You fell for it and he used it to get a leg up on you. And now you're here, having to compete with him for your dream come true because you let your guard down.
"Whoa, that's⊠really intense," Lily murmurs.
"Yeah, Lily, betrayal tends to be," you inform her, nodding. "The second this man sees you rising above him again, he will just revert back to cutting you down. The world is your oyster. Don't let him distract you from completely dominating the station."
"What?"
"The paper. Dominating the paper," you correct yourself. "Okay?"
"I guessâ"
"Where did betrayal even come from?!" Chan cuts in, stepping between you and Lily so that his back is completely to the latter. You step back, inhaling sharply as you try not to immediately shove the man away from you. "What kind of betrayal can even happen at a radiâat a newspaper? The man has been nothing but nice to Lily since the beginning."
"Well, no," Lily says, frowning. "I actually said that heâ"
"No, Lily has been nothing but nice since the beginning."
"Yes, exactly," she agrees, nodding at your correction.
"And he took advantage of her kindness and stomped all over her hard work and ideas so he could climb up the stupid ladder."
"Okay, again, no," she says, confused. "Not sure where that is coming from. I did not say that."
Chan finally lowers his mic and stares at you hard like he's trying to study your face. "What are you talking about?" he asks quietly and much too softly to keep you angry. It pierces right through your frustration and takes hold of that part of you that immediately grew fond of Chan when you first met him. "Do you think I did something to intentionally hurt you? Is that why you've been so mad all this time?"
You freeze at the question, never thinking he would confront you about your passive aggression in the middle of a live show. "Um," you quickly lower your mic when you hear your voice echo in the mall. "IâŠ"
Music begins playing, and your eyes dart to the producers, who are ushering you both into a music break. Without having to think, you play along.
"We'll dig more into this bad idea after this short break, and don't forget to stick around for a chance to win those free tickets to 99.2 STEP FM's 2004 Spring Festival Concert."
As soon as the music begins playing, the crowd dissipates into a hum of conversation amongst themselves, and you take advantage of the distraction to shove your mic at Chan and leave the stage.
"Um, do I just hold these?" you hear Lily behind you.
You don't bother answering, quickly making your way to the blocked off area the staff made into a break room backstage. Before you can even let out the breath you've been holding, you feel a hand around your elbow.
"What was that?" Chan asks when you meet his eyes. "What were youâ"
"Nothing," you say quickly. "I don't want to talk about it."
"You had no problem talking about it live on the radio and in front of hundreds of people," he points out. "Surely, you can talk about it to me in the privacy of this fake ass break room."
You almost crack a smile at that before you bite it back down. "It's nothing. It's dumb and it was a slip-up and I'm over it."
"Over what?" he asks, annoyed. "You say it's nothing and then say cryptic shit like thatâit's obviously not nothing."
"Well, I'm saying it is, so." You shrug. "It's nothing."
He pauses, eyes raking over your face as he contemplates what he wants to say next. You gesture for him to say whatever it is he wants to so he can leave you alone.
"You are soâŠ"
"What?" you ask sharply, raising an eyebrow at him.
"Confusing" is the word he lands on before he exhales and turns back around, probably to collect your mics from the poor listener you both abandoned onstage.
Because that's who he is. The epitome of professionalâof putting his job before everything and everyone elseâeven when you wish he would just cut the act for even a moment.
pairing: donor! jaehyun x client! reader I genre: smut | words: 12k+
warnings: STRICTLY 18+
an: donor jaehyun is here and heâs super sweet! i think this is the most fun i had writing for this series hehehe ;) i just love me my valentine, roses, cheeky gentleman. anyways, iâll stop talking now, itâs time to be taught how to touch! and figure it out! - with love, c
you eyed the coupon clutched in your hand, the glossy paper crinkling under your fingers. itâs your birthday gift from your friends, a prepaid session at that new clinic thatâs been receiving all the hype since it opened a couple of months ago.
according to the reviews, the neo orgasm clinic has surpassed peopleâs expectations in every possible way. not just with how sleek their setup is or their promise of discretion but also â the donors themselves. effortlessly attractive. professional. patient. skilled in ways that leave clients lingering in their reviews, revealing just enough to make your ears burn.
and you know damn well you needed it.
twenty-something now and youâve mastered the art of dodging real-life conversations about your sex life. itâs easy to laugh it off or pretend you know what your friends are talking about because in some way, you kind of do? i mean, youâve read all about it! in books, in fanfictions. in fact, all the knowledge you have about sex probably comes from reading about it.
when it comes to real life though? you stall. every time â no awkward firsts. no impulsive decisions. not even quiet attempts on your own. just you, untouched and curious, stuck somewhere between knowing and experiencing.
the couponâs tagline stares back at you, catching your eye for what feels like the hundredth time:
make your fantasies come true. book now. you deserve it.
you let out a quiet breath. because itâs not just the words. itâs the timing. the way it landed in your life like a question youâve been avoiding finally demanding an answer.
youâve already imagined it all â the rush of sensation youâve only ever read about.
what would it feel like to finally chase that lust for real?
before you could second guess yourself, you pull up the clinicâs website on your laptop. you read through sections you pretend youâre only skimming. policies. confidentiality. client care.
then you take a huge breath before finally convincing yourself to click the appointment section.
â BOOK NOW â
âitâs just booking,â you murmur, under your breath, like saying it out loud will make it less real.
step 1: medical verification â a form requesting a recent full panel STI test within the last month.
your brows knit slightly. weirdly enough, even though you were an extra virgin, you had just gotten a recent check up â it was like another sign from the universe to continue on.
you upload your medical form with ease. the next page loads and your breath catches at the list.
step 2: sexual preferences & boundaries â check all acts youâre open to exploring with your donor. this does not guarantee they will occur. your donor will review and operate within your boundaries at all times.
your fingers tighten around your mouse, each click of a checkmark making your ears burn brighter than ever. your cursor moves. hesitates. selects. unselects. then selects again.
âïž blowjob
âïž clitoral stimulation
âïž domination
âïž dirty talk
âïž fingering
âïž guidance
âïž hand job
âïž kissing
âïž masturbation
âïž nipple play
âïž oral
âïž praise
âïž vaginal penetration
you look at your final list. pretty tame considering you passed over more vulgar options like choking, spanking, vaginal fisting, threesome, toys, etc.
but even then, your list is still intimidating for a virgin.
step 3: why are you booking this appointment?
a blank box appears. you stare at it longer than you expected to. because suddenly â this feels personal. you compose your thoughts before finally typing:
âiâve spent years lost in books about intimacy, learning every detail from pages that make my heart race. but iâve never experienced it. no touches. no real connections. not even with myself. just endless curiosity and a longing to feel what iâve only imagine. iâm hoping this can help me turn fantasy into something real. i want to finally awaken that part of me, guided by someone who knows what theyâre doing.
you hit enter, the text saving with a soft confirmation.
step 4: choose your donor.
this should be the easiest part. you tell yourself that. just scrolling. just looking. just choosing the boy you imagine in all your books. nothing serious.
profiles load one by one. each polished. each composed. carefully written descriptions.
you scroll and scroll until â
jung jaehyun. the most valuable donor.
his photo catches your attention â handsome, sharp features, an inviting smile and dark hair falling just so. your pulse stutters and almost instinctively, you click on him.
his reviews were endless:
âjaehyun does a great job at adjusting to whatever you want!â
âif youâre nervous, choose him. gentle yet commanding, and the praise? leaves you floating.â
âheâs so pretty to look at and godâŠthat voiceâŠi was wet way before he even touched me.â
âjaehyun made me feel so specialâŠincredibly patient, nothing felt rushed, it was perfect.â
âhe lowkey broke my back but i would do it againâ
â'he made my first time feel like a dream i didn't know i needed. so attentive. pure magic.â
âfuckkkkkkkkk, can everyone cancel their appointments with him so i can take all the days?â
âtoo. fucking. good.â
âif it's your first time in this clinic, or your first time in general, booking jaehyun is a guaranteed good time. 127/10 will cum again.â
every single one felt like a magnetic pull and before you could even realize what you were doing. you were inserting the coupon code and clicking BOOK NOW.
Neo Orgasm Clinic Consultation: CONFIRMED
Donor: Jaehyun Jung
Date of Consultation: April 30, 2026
you stare at the screen, heart pounding, because itâs done. thereâs no undoing it now.
â THE CONSULTATION â
the days leading up to today had been a blur of restless nights. youâve checked the booking confirmation a dozen times just to check if it was real or if you somehow imagined the whole thing.
and now youâre here, heart hammering as you push through the doors.
the lobby envelops you immediately, a curated haven designed to soothe. soft golden light spills throughout the room, cream colored walls that were easy on the eyes, plush armchairs in neutral tones and the subtle scent of lavender and eucalyptus. everything about it is calming, grounding, whispering relax with every breath you take.
but even then, your feet feel rooted to the spot, nerves twisting into knots. you have half the mind to turn and flee before anyone notices. but a voice calls out softly from the reception desk, smooth and reassuring.
âwelcome to the clinic.â
you look up to see the receptionist, johnny, his nametag reads. he was sitting behind a computer, flashing you a warm smile as if he can sense the storm inside you. even he was handsome, and youâre pretty sure you saw his profile on the website with the words the first donor.
âyou feeling nervous?,â he adds.
you try to laugh it off as you make your way over to him, but it comes out shaky, a breathy sound that betrays you, ây-yeah, this is new for me.â
he nods, no judgment in the motion. just understanding, âitâs new for a lot of people, but donât worry, weâll take care of you.â
his words ease the tightness in your chest just a little bit.
âwhatâs your name?â he asks next.
ây/n l/n,â you manage, voice steadier now.
he types it in with a few clicks, his screen reflecting in his eyes as he pulls up your file.
âalright ms. y/n, donor jaehyun will be out in a few minutes,â he says, that smile returning, soft and encouraging, âin the meantime, please review your file then click agree if everything is okay. your consent is required for everything.â
he hands you a tablet carefully â the screen already glowing with your details. you take it with trembling fingers, murmuring a thank you as you retreat to one of the chairs. sinking into the cushions.
your thumb hovers over the agree button, ears burning red, pulse racing so loud you fear johnny could hear it. with a deep inhale, you finally tap it, the screen flashing with the words:
welcome to neo orgasm clinic.
you donât know how many times you read it before the door to the right side of johnny opens and out steps the most valuable donor.
jung jaehyun.
heâs taller than you expected, his frame filling the space effortlessly, handsome in a way that steals your breath, his casual soft grey polo making him look softer than his large frame, while his dark hair falls slightly tousled, angling his face perfectly.
his pictures donât do him justice. youâve never seen a man more beautiful.
and the realization crashes over you, twisting your nerves into something sharper. you feel so nervous you think you might throw up, hands clammy against the tablet.
he makes his way over to you with unhurried steps.
âgood afternoon,â he says, and fuck, those reviews were right. heâs only said two words and his voice, deep and smooth, has got you hooked. so hooked that you donât even reply, just staring at him, mouth dry, brain short-circuiting under the weight of his proximity.
he tilts his head slightly, a smile tugging at his lips, amused, like heâs trying to hide his laugh but the deep dimples carving into his cheeks give him away completely.
âare you ms. y/n?â he asks, fully smiling at you now, the expression lighting up his features and making your heart stutter.
you clear your throat, the sound awkward and too loud in the quiet lobby, âuhmâyeah, thatâs me, sorry mr. jungâŠiâm so nervous i think i might pass out,â you admit, the words tumbling out before you can stop them, heat flooding your face.
his eyes widen a bit at that, concern threading through, softening his gaze into something genuinely caring.
âcâmon, letâs get you some water,â he says, holding his hand out to you.
you hesitate for a split second, then place your hand in his, the warmth of his skin against yours making you even more nervous. he gives a gentle squeeze, just enough to guide and lead you towards one of the consultation rooms.
the door opens into another pocket of calm â neutral tones, a comfortable couch facing a low coffee table, an armchair across it and a small side table with a pitcher of water and glasses.
jaehyun releases your hand once youâre inside, gesturing for you to sit on the couch as he pours a glass of water for you. he hands it to you with another one of those dimpled smile, settling into the armchair across from you.
âtake your time,â he says, sitting comfortably, the tablet now in his hands, âwe can talk through everything at your pace. no rush.â his eyes meet yours patiently, waiting for you to find your footing in this new reality.
you sip the water slowly, the cool liquid steadying the flutter in your chest as you sink deeper into the couch, focusing instead on the vase of roses in the middle of the coffee table.
jaehyun sits across from you, his posture relaxed yet attentive. heâs scrolling through your file, his expression neutral, professional, but not cold. heâs taking way longer to read it than one should and you can tell heâs letting you get used to the space. to let the initial shock of his presence and this whole thing reside a bit.
minutes pass like that until he sets the tablet aside, looking up slowly, his gaze catching on the way youâre biting your lip, a nervous habit you canât quite shake.
ây/n,â he calls out your name, softly, like the two of you are just friends catching up over coffee. the informality of it disarms you, pulling the air from the room into something warmer.
âi know this can be nerve-wracking,â he continues, his voice a low, reassuring hum, âare you sure youâre ready for this?â
heâs gentle. so gentle. it catches you off guard. you look at him, surprised. you were sure he was here to convince you to go through with it â after all, this is still a business. butâŠthereâs no sales pitch in his tone.
âwhat?â you say, the word slipping out softer than intended, laced with confusion.
he just smiles at you, that dimpled curve returning patient and unforced.
âthereâs no proper timeline to these kinds of things,â he explains, his words measured, like heâs sharing a quiet truth rather than reciting policy, âitâs your body. your life. your choice when youâre ready.â
you take his words in, letting them settle over the whirlwind in your mind, easing the knot of anxiety that's been building since you stepped through the clinic's doors.
âi-i am ready,â you admit, your voice gaining a touch of steadiness as you meet his eyes, âitâs just iâŠdon't really know how to start this conversation.â
he nods, his expression shifting to one of quiet understanding. itâs as if he's seen this hesitation before, not as a hurdle to overcome, but as a natural part of the path.
âthatâs okay,â he replies, his tone encouraging without pressure, âstarting can be the hardest part. maybe we begin with what brought you here? your file mentions this is your first time exploring sexâŠwhat made you decide now?â
you hesitate for a moment. jaehyunâs eyes remain steady on yours like a quiet invitation to share as much or as little as you want.
âit wasâŠa gift,â you start, âfor my birthdayâŠbut i have been curious for a whileâŠi just always held back. books and stories were enough,â you pause, glancing down at your hands, now folded in your lap, âbut turning another year older made me realize i donât want to just keep reading about it.â
âthat takes real courage,â he says softly, âturning those stories into something real isnât simple, especially when theyâve been your safe space for so long.â
his words land gently, validating the swirl of emotions youâve kept bottled up and a faint smile creeps onto your lips, the first genuine once since you arrive.
âit does feel like the right time,â you reply, your voice steadier not, âthe clinicâs reviewsâŠand yours specificallyâŠmade it seem less intimidating. like it could be empowering instead of overwhelming.â
he smiles in return, âiâm honored that came throughâ our goal is to always create that sense of empowerment, no judgments, just support as you explore at your own rhythm.â
he glances briefly at the tablet in his hands, then sets it aside, focusing fully on you.
âit sounds to me like youâre interested in a gentle introduction without rushing into anything too intense. is that right? or has anything changed since filling out the form?â
you pause, letting his words sink in.
ânoâŠthat sounds rightâi want to be taught, guided through it all, so i can experience every bit iâve imagined.â
a subtle smile curves his lips, warm and knowing, as if heâs heard echoes of your words from others but savors the uniqueness in yours.
âi can definitely do that for you,â he replies, leaning forward a just a fraction, âiâll guide you step by step, help you feel every sensation youâve read aboutâŠall you have to do is show up.â
you nod slowly, every second gets more real than the last.
âwould you like to proceed with booking your session?â jaehyun asks, a reassuring smile on his face. like it was okay and totally not a waste of his time if you chose not to.
âyes,â you nod after a while, âi would like to proceed.â
jaehyunâs eyes light up with a quiet approval, âperfect,â he says, his smile deepening, revealing those dimples that you canât stop noticing, âhow does may 3 work for you?â
may 3. just two days away. this is it â the threshold between fantasy and reality. itâs now or never.
âsounds good,â you say, your voice gaining a quiet strength, sealing the choice with a steady exhale.
âokay y/n, iâll see you in two days,â he says, his voice carrying a subtle promise laced with the kind of steadiness that eases the last knots of doubt in your stomach.
and for the first time, the stories feel like previews to your own unfolding chapter, and youâre ready to turn the page.
Neo Orgasm Clinic Session: CONFIRMED
Client: Y/N L/N
Donor: Jaehyun Jung
Date of Session: May 3, 2026
â THE APPOINTMENT â
you enter the lobby right on time, not a second too early and not a second too late. youâve chosen comfort over anything flashy, dressed in slightly oversized grey sweats and an off the shoulder sweater hoping that it would make this feel more casual and not some grand event.
johnny greets you, âperfect timing, ms. y/n you can go ahead to the private rooms, jaehyunâs waiting for you in suite 14.â
you thank him, letting your feet carry you step by step, each one making your heart race wildly in your chest.
as suite 14 gets closer, it hits you then â you never once asked what to expect behind the door. no details on the setup. the realization sends a fresh wave of uncertainty but before it can pull you back, the door swings open.
and thereâs jaehyun. looking every bit as handsome as before, except this time he looked like comfortâwith the simple white t-shirt clinging to his broad shoulders and chest, paired with plaid pajama pants that hang low on his hips, making this feel like a lazy sunday rather than clinical encounters.
âhey y/n,â his dimples flash like a secret shared just for you, âcome on in,â he says, tone warm and inviting, stepping aside to make space.
you return the smile, feeling the edges of your tension soften under the casual welcome.
you scan the room quickly â it was nothing like you imagined at all. just an average comfy bedroom, the kind youâd sink into after a long day. thereâs a king sized bed draped in white sheets piled with soft pillows, a full length mirror tucked in the corner, plush carpet that muffled your steps and sultry music currently playing from somewhere.
the only thing that stands out, adding a layer of unexpected sweetness, are the vases brimming with fresh roses scattered throughout the room â on the nightstand, the dresser, the table against the wall â shades of deep red and soft pink, like a boyfriend had orchestrated this as a surprise for a quiet night in with his partner. itâs intimate, thoughtful and it tugs at something soft in your chest, making the space feel less like a session room and more like a private haven.
âyou didnât have a hard time getting here, did you?â jaehyun asks, his voice low as he closes the door behind you with a soft click.
he lingers there for a moment, watching you from behind as you take it all in, his shoulder lightly propped against the wall, giving you that space to breathe.
you turn toward his voice, âthis is not what i expected at all,â you blurt, the words spilling out, âand no, i got here really easily.â
he smiles softly, the expression crinkling the corners of his eyes as he pushes off the wall and takes a measured step towards you.
âdo you like it? i noticed you were looking at the roses during our last meet upâŠthought it would help.â
you nod, a warmth blooming in your chest â god, heâs perfect. like the best romantic lead stepping straight out of your favorite book, all effortless charm and quiet insight.
âyeahâŠroses are my favorite.â
he nods in return, closing the distance with another step, his presence pulling you in without force.
âi didnât think youâd notice,â you add.
he hums thoughtfully, âof course i noticed.â
duh, you think â thatâs part of his job, being this attentive, tuning into every little detail about his client. you just werenât aware he was already taking that many notes. plus the way he talks to you doesnât make it feel like this was just his job.
he takes another step closer, the air between you thickening just a touch.
âiâm sure you already read the terms and conditions over and over,â he teases lightly, like you two were in on some inside joke because he knows your love for reading, âbut just a quick reminder â nothing happens without your consent and we can stop whenever you want.â
heâs so close now that you can feel the subtle heat radiating from his body. he leans down, bringing his gaze level with yours, those deep brown eyes locking in with gentle intensity.
âare we clear on that?â he asks softly, and you catch the fresh mint on his breath, clean and inviting.
you bite your lip, nodding up and down, the motion automatic as your heart races.
âiâm gonna need words, love,â he says so casually, the endearment rolling off his tongue like itâs the most natural thing and â oh my godddd, this is really the start of your own fanfiction.
âyes,â you manage, your voice steadier than you feel, âi know the rules.â
he brings his hand up then, palm open and inviting. you hesitate for just a heartbeat before slipping your hand into his, the warmth of his skin enveloping yours in a gentle grip that feels surprisingly reassuring.
he starts guiding you deeper into the room, his steps slow and unhurried. you thought he was heading straight for the bed like the next inevitable step in this unfolding scene. but when you walk right past it, your brows furrow, glancing up at him, confusion flickering across your face.
he catches your look and offers a small, knowing smile, releasing your hand only to lower himself against the side of the bed with casual ease. then he pats the space right in front of him, between his outstretched legs.
âare we gonna do it on the floor?â the question tumbles out â this isnât how you pictured your first time to go. not when thereâs a perfectly inviting bed just inches away.
he shakes his head, the motion gentle but firm, âno, not yetâŠcome on,â he says, his voice light with encouragement, âi donât bite,â he adds, the tease curling at the edges of his words, drawing a reluctant chuckle from you.
you finally take your seat, sliding into the space between jaehyunâs legs on the soft carpet.
as you settle, you realize the full-length mirror is positioned directly in front of you, reflecting the two of you in this intimate arrangement.
his hands find your shoulders then, fingers pressing in with a deliberate slowness, starting to massage the tension there in firm, circular motions that coax the stiffness from your muscles.
he pulls you back toward him gradually, giving you time to adjust, until your back completely melts against his chest, the solid warmth of him grounding you. the fabric of his white t-shirt brushes your skin where your sweater has slipped and you can feel the steady thrum of his heartbeat against your spine.
ârelax, baby,â he murmurs, right by your ear, his breath warm and even, âyou have to trust me for this to work.â
before you can respond, he lands a soft kiss just below your earlobe, the light press of his lips sending a shiver racing down your neck, making you hold your breath as goosebumps rise throughout your skin.
âyou said you wanted to be taught,â he continues, his voice a low rumble that vibrates through you, âand iâm here to teach.â
you exhale shakily, leaning into him a fraction more, the scent of his clean soap mingling with the faint floral notes from the roses. itâs overwhelming in the best way â his body a solid wall of warmth behind you, the mirror capturing every subtle shift.
his fingers pause on your arms, then one hand lifts gently to turn your head softly toward him like heâs handling something precious. he tilts your chin up, eyes locking into yours, dark and intent but softened by that reassuring smile.
âhave you ever kissed anyone?â
you nod, the admission slipping out shyly, âa couple timesâŠbutâŠi was drunk each time.â
heat creeps up your cheeks but his expression doesnât shift to judgment. he just nods in understanding, thumb brushing once along your jawline.
âjust follow my lead, okay?â
the words are simple and before you can overthink it, heâs leaning in, closing the small distance to press his lips to yours, starting with slow, innocent pecks. each one is light, testing, feather-soft. your eyes flutter shut, the only thing in your mind is the warmth of his mouth.
then he deepens it, his lips sucking gently on yours, a little pull on the bottom one, then the top, drawing out the contact so each kiss lingers. the rhythm shifts, more deliberate, and when his tongue traces along the seam of your lips, memories from all those books flood back â the cues, the surrender.
you part your mouth open for him instinctively, inviting him in and he takes it with a low hum of approval that resonates against your chest. he tastes like toothpaste and vanilla chapstick and you're slowly coming to realize how kissing is so much better when youâre not just reading about it.
your hand lifts on its own, fingers threading into the soft strands of his hair at the nape of his neck, tugging lightly in this awkward angle but enough to pull him closer.
the hand on your jaw moves then, trailing down your side with deliberate slowness, fingertips grazing the hem of your sweater before dipping beneath, skimming the bare skin of your waist.
he breaks the kiss off abruptly, both of you panting for air, his lips tingling and swollen. you wonder if yours matches his.
âarmâs up,â he instructs, voice roughened at the edges. you follow without question. he tugs the sweater up and off in one smooth motion, setting it aside and leaving you in your bra and sweats.
âlook at you,â he murmurs, lips brushing the shell of your ear, sending another shiver through you. his chin settles over your shoulder giving you no choice but to stare ahead at the mirror. your reflection stares back â your face flushed pink, lips matching his, eyes wide with a mix of nerves and building heat.
his fingers move to the clasp of your bra, unbuckling it with a quick, practiced flick that loosens the straps instantly. he slides the fabric down your arms slowly, letting it drop to the carpet beside your sweater, the cool air hitting your bare skin and making your nipples harden immediately.
you watch your chest rise and fall in quick pants, each breath pulling your breasts up and down, the motion exposing the rush of heat flooding your body, the tangle of nerves twisting in your gut, the raw shyness of being this naked in front of someone else for the first time.
before you can completely shy away, his hands are right there again, palms flattening against your stomach, fingers splaying wide as he holds you steady against his chest, pressing just enough to remind you heâs in control.
âbeautiful,â he whispers right into your ear, his breath hot and steady, and you can feel his gaze locked on your reflection, taking in every inch of you like heâs memorizing it.
then he reaches for one of your hands, his grip loose but insistent as he drags it upward, guiding your palm to cup your own breast, your fingers brushing the curve tentatively at first.
âtouch yourself.â
his voice drops to a commanding timbre, low and rough. you hesitate for a split second, heart hammering, but the way he looks at you urges you on â your fingers curl slightly, squeezing the soft flesh, thumb grazing over your nipple experimentally. it hardens further under your touch, a spark of unfamiliar pleasure shooting through you, making you hold your breath.
he watches in the mirror, his free hand now inching lower toward your waistband, but he doesnât push yet.
âjust like that, pretty girl,â he encourages, voice softening just a touch, lips pressing a kiss to your shoulder.
âsqueeze a little harder â roll your nipple between your fingers. tell me what it does to you.â
your fingers tighten as instructed, the pressure sending a fresh wave of heat blooming across your skin, shooting straight down to your core, making your pussy clench emptily. the sensation is raw and new, like your bodyâs been holding back this fire until now.
âf-feels good,â you admit, your voice shaky and breathy, barely above a whisper.
âyeah, it makes you wanna moan, doesnât it?â he teases, that small, playful smirk curling his lips, softening his commanding presence just a fraction, making him seem even more intoxicating.
you bite your lip hard, the sting grounding you as you nod, cheeks burning hotter than before.
âwell, go on, let me hear those pretty sounds,â he urges, his tone dipping lower, his breath warm against your neck.
hesitation locks your throat, the idea of letting go like that in front of him feeling too exposed, too soon.
he senses it and without a word, one of his hands slides up from your stomach to take over your breast. his palm cups it fully, larger and rougher than your own touch, his thumb flicking your nipple up and down in quick, deliberate strokes.
the friction builds fast, a teasing rhythm that pulls a tiny, breathy moan from your lips before you can swallow it back, the soft sound betraying you completely, echoing in the quiet room. your head falls back against his chest at the rush of it, leaving you dizzy and wanting more.
âwanna feel even better?â he whispers, his voice a low rumble right by your ear, lips grazing the lobe as his other hand lingers at your waist, fingers hooking lightly into the band of your sweats.
all you can manage is a breathless, âplease,â your body already arching subtly toward whatever comes next.
he doesnât make you wait. his hands move with sure intent, tugging your sweats down your hips in one fluid pull, lifting your feet one by one to slide them off completely. they join the pile on the carpet, leaving you in just your underwear now â the thin cotton clinging damply between your thighs, the wet spot at the center impossible to ignore.
he reaches down and parts your legs wide, knees bending and lifting toward the ceiling like heâs opening you up for display. the view in the mirror is obscene and intimate, your bare breasts heaving with each pant, legs splayed shamelessly, his arms bracketing you like a frame.
his hands settle on your inner thighs, palms hot and steady, thumbs tracing lazy circles that inch closer to your core without touching yet, letting the anticipation coil tighter.
âlook at how wet you are already,â he murmurs, nuzzling your neck as one hand drifts upward again to knead your breast, keeping that slow, rolling pressure on your nipple,
ânowâŠ,â he grabs one of your hands, sliding it down your body and stopping at the edge of your panties.
âi want you to use these fingers,â he taps on your pointer and middle finger, ââand rub yourself over your panties for me.â
his eyes meet yours in the reflection, dark with hunger but still holding back, waiting for you to follow.
your hand trembles slightly, finger hesitating at the edge of your underwear before dipping lower. you press two fingers against the damp fabric right over your clit, the cotton already soaked and clinging to your folds.
the first rub is testing, a slow circle that presses the material against your sensitive nub, a breathy moan escaping your lips â soft and needy, like a sigh you couldnât hold back.
âthatâs it,â he praises, his breath hot against your ear, watching intently as your fingers move, âjust like that â feel how wet you are? circle it, press a little harder, figure out what makes you feel good.â
you obey, adding pressure as your fingers glide in tighter loops, the friction building heat that makes your hips twitch involuntarily. another moans slips out, a little louder this time, hitching as the sensation coils tighter in your belly, your pussy throbbing under the teasing barrier.
âgood girl,â he whispers, leaving trails of kisses down your neck, âsee how your body responds? youâre soaking right through â rub faster now, up and down.â
both of his hands are on your thighs now, his touch roaming.
your fingers continue to slide up and down the length of your pussy lips, the drag pulling a series of soft moans from you â each one higher, more desperate as the pressure mounts.
âmmmâŠoh,â you gasp when you hit a certain spot, your head lolling back against his shoulder.
âthat's the spot â keep it there,â he chuckles slowly, the vibration rumbling through his chest into your back, âyouâre doing so wellâŠhow does it feel?â
âs-so good,â you breathe out, voice shaky, as you continue rubbing over your clit, your free hand clutching at his arm for support.
âsuch a quick learner,â he murmurs, his hand trailing up your panties teasingly.
his fingers gently stop yours, wrapping around your wrist with a firm but careful hold as he guides your hand away from your core. you let out a quiet moan in protest but itâs cut off when he speaks again, voice low and steady.
âyouâre ready for more.â
then he hooks into the waistband of your panties, sliding them down your thighs in one smooth motion, the cool air hitting your exposed skin. the fabric pools at your ankles, and you kick them aside instinctively.
âtouch your bare pussy now, feel how wet you really are.â
his words sends a rush of embarrassment flooding to your cheeks, mixing hot with the arousal pooling low in your belly as you see it all laid out â your glistening entrance completely exposed to the cool air, clit swollen and begging for attention.
heart pounding, you let two fingers meet your bare skin, slipping easily through the wetness as you rub along your slit, tracing the soft, soaked lips from top to bottom. the direct contact is electric, no barrier to dull the sensation, and you moan louder, the sound raw and unrestrained.
âoh god⊠jaehyun,â you whine his name for the first time and the way it tumbles from your lips turns you on even more.
âhmm,â he hums in approval, leaning in to place a messy kiss on your shoulder, his lips lingering with a soft suck before pulling back.
âpush one finger in nowâslide it right along your entrance, feel how your pussy opens for it.â
you hesitate for a split second, then press one finger at your hole, pushing in slowly. the tight ring of muscle gives way with a wet squelch, your walls clenching around the intrusion as you sink deeper, inch by inch.
another tiny moan escapes you as you hold your breath. the fullness is strange but intoxicating, your finger buried to the knuckle inside your heat.
âgood girl,â jaehyun praises, his breath warm against your ear, and you could feel your walls react around your digit.
âmove it in and out now â slow strokes, tell me what you feel.â
you pump your finger experimentally, drawing it out before sliding back in, the drag pulling another moan from your throat, breathier and higher.
âmmm⊠itâs⊠warmâŠandâfuckâtight,â you gasp, the slick sounds echoing softly as you find a tentative rhythm.
âperfect â add the second one,â he murmurs, nipping at your earlobe, âpush them both in together, stretch yourself a little.
swallowing hard, you ease a second finger alongside the first, the added thickness making your pussy stretch with a delicious burn.
âcurl them up toward your belly â thatâs the spot thatâll make you see stars.â
you thrust them deeper, curling as he said, the tips brushing a spongy patch inside that sends sparks shooting through you, exactly like he said it.
âjaehyunâ,â you moan breathily, hips jerking forward into your hand as you start to pump, in and out, curling on every upstroke.
âfuck, yes â just like that,â he groans softly.
âkeep curling, rub that spot hard. feel how your walls flutter? youâre learning so fast, baby,â his praises wash over you, punctuated by wet kisses and his warm hands roaming all over your skin
after a while, you start getting the rhythm of it all, instinct taking over as your body chases after the sensation â fingers plunging faster, curling with precision, thumb occasionally grazing your clit. soft moans continue to spill from you, your head falling back against his chest, thighs trembling as the pleasure builds like a wave.
âthatâs it, my perfect girl,â he whispers, lips pressing fervent kisses along your neck and shoulders, anywhere his mouth can reach, tongue flicking out to taste your skin.
âlook at you fucking yourself so well â your pussyâs dripping down your hand. donât hold back, chase it.â
but as the heat continues to rise, coiling tighter in your core, it starts to feel overwhelming, the intensity bordering on too much, your fingers falter, and â you stop abruptly, pulling them out halfway.
âfuckâwait,â you pant, chest heaving, a whine edge in your voice as you try to catch your breath.
âwhatâs wrong?â he asks immediately, voice laced with gentle concern as he lifts his head to meet your eyes in the reflection.
âmy stomach felt weird,â you reply, cheeks burning with the admission, your fingers hovering uncertainly at your entrance.
he adores your innocence in that moment, a soft smile tugging at his lips as he presses a tender kiss to your jaw.
âgood weird or a bad weird?â
âi donât know⊠it feltâŠhot,â you explain, voice small and breathless, your body still thrumming with unmet need.
he smiles wider, another kiss landing on your flushed skin, âthat just means youâre close.â
your eyes widen in the mirror, a mix of surprise and lingering uncertainty flashing across your face, âdid i mess it up?â
he shakes his head no, his tone reassuring and firm.
âno. just touch yourself again for me and this time â donât stop until i say so.â
nodding, you slide your fingers back inside â two at once, curling right away as he taught you, resuming the rhythm, pumping steadily, the heat reigniting almost instantly. desperate moans pour from you now as the coil tightens again, faster this time, your pussy clenching rhythmically around your digits.
but when the the pressure builds to an unbearable peak â
âjaehyun⊠itâs⊠tooââ you try to pull your hand away again, whimpering.
he doesnât let you this time.
his large hand coming over yours, keeping your fingers buried deep inside as he holds you in place.
âshhh, stay with it â i've got you,â he murmurs.
his other hand slipping down to rub at your clit in firm, tight circles, pressing just right to push you over.
âlet it happen, cum for me.â
the sensation completely shatters you â your walls tightening around your digits â and your first orgasm ever crashes through you so hard you canât even contain yourself anymore, the sounds spilling out raw and desperate, echoing in the quiet room.
âahhâjaeâfuck!â
you cry, the words breaking into a high-pitched keen as your body arches off his chest, your toes curling tight against the carpet, eyes rolling back, vision blurring with stars, as your thighs clamp down around his hand, trapping him there. the pleasure pulses hot and endless, flooding every nerve until you're shaking uncontrollably, slick gushing over your fingers.
jaehyun holds you through it all, his arm banded securely around your waist to keep you from bucking too wildly, his free hand still working your clit in slowing strokes to help you ride the waves.
âthatâs it, love â feel every bit of it,â he murmurs softly, his lips brushing feather-light kisses along your temples, grounding you as the tremors start to fade.
he slows his fingers gradually, letting the aftershocks ripple through you, your pussy fluttering weakly around your buried digits until the intensity fades to a warm, satisfied glow.
your breaths come in ragged pants, body limp and heavy against him, sweat-damp skin sticking to his shirt. finally, your eyes flutter open, hazy and unfocused at first, meeting his gaze in the mirror â dark eyes full of pride and something deeper, more possessive.
with a gentle tug, he guides your hand out of your pussy, your fingers emerging slick and shining with your cum, the wet pop audible in the stillness.
âlook at yourself, look at your pretty pussy,â he instructs, voice husky and commanding, as he lifts your hand between you.
your eyes snap to the reflection, cheeks flushing anew at the sight â your thighs splayed wide, pussy flushed and puffy, entrance gaping slightly from the stretch, glistening with arousal that drips down toward your ass.
you watch, mesmerized, as he brings your slick digits up to his lips, parting them to take them inside his mouth. his tongue swirls around your fingers, sucking deliberately, drawing your cum off them with slow, savoring pulls â hollowing his cheeks like it's the sweetest treat he's ever had.
you stare wide eyed, arousal stirring fresh despite the exhaustion, a new heat blooming in your belly as you watch him devour your juices.
the way his eyes lock on yours, the soft hum of approval vibrating against your skin â it's filthy and captivating, making you wonder how it tasted, what it felt like on his tongue.
âhow does it taste?â you ask, finally finding your voice, breathy and tentative, your gaze flicking from his mouth to his face.
he smirks, releasing your fingers with a wet pop, a string of saliva connecting them briefly before he licks his lips, âyou want to know?â
you nod, heart racing again, curiosity overriding any lingering shyness.
without a word, he cups the back of your neck and pulls you in for a kiss â deep and unhurried, his tongue sliding past your lips to share the flavor, your own arousal coating his mouth as he explores yours.
you moan softly into it, tasting yourself on him, the intimacy of it sending a shiver down your spine as his free hand strokes your thigh soothingly, fingers tracing lazy patterns over your skin.
the kiss deepens, growing hungrier, his tongue stroking yours in firm sweeps while you tilt your head for more.
you shift, turning around in his arms for a better angle, rising onto your knees between his spread legs, hands sliding up his chest over the thin shirt. your fingers catch the hem, tugging insistently, suddenly aware heâs still fully clothed while youâre completely exposed.
jaehyun breaks the kiss just long enough to yank it off swiftly over his head, tossing it aside with your clothes, revealing the sculpted ridges of his eight pack abs â hard, defined lines flexing under smooth skin, a dark happy trail snaking from his navel down and sharp v-lines disappearing into his pants.
you pause, eyes widening as you admire him, one hand trailing down his abs, âgodâŠi donât think any fictional man can compare anymore,â you murmur, voice laced with awe.
he laughs low and rich, the sound vibrating through his chest, clearly enjoying this bolder side of you over the earlier nerves.
âgood thing iâm real and all yours,â he winks, dimples flashing as he pulls you back in for another kiss, lips claiming yours with renewed heat.
âall mineâŠfor another hour or two,â you tease breathlessly when you pull back, a playful glint in your eyes.
his dimples deepen then, eyes darkening with amusement and desire, âletâs not waste a second then,â he teases.
âthat would be a shame,â you say quietly, a smile curving your lips before your graze drifts lower, lingering on the thick bulge straining against his plaid pajama pants.
âyou can take it off, you know?â he says, reading your mind, his hand guiding yours to the waistband.
you nod, cheeks heating as you shyly hook your fingers in and slide the pants down his hips, exposing the black boxers that do nothing to hide his impressive length â thick and throbbing visibly beneath the thin material.
âtake that off for me too, sweet girl,â he instructs, voice firm and coaxing, eyes locked on yours.
you obey without hesitation, palms sliding up his thighs before tugging the boxers down, watching as his cock springs up immediately â heavy and erect, veined shaft curving slightly upward, the flushed head already beading pre-cum.
he lifts his hips to help, kicking the pants and boxers off and you canât help but gulp at the sight of him fully exposed. with your pulse racing, you reach out without asking, fingers wrapping around his length at the base.
his hips buck up sharply into your grip, a low grunt escaping his throat as you surprisingly squeeze experimentally, feeling him twitch and harden further in your palm.
âwhat are you thinking about?â he asks, noticing your silence.
âiâm comparing it to my fingers,â you say quietly, stroking once from base to tip before meeting his gaze straight on, âthis is gonna hurt, isnât it?â
jaehyun slowly guides your hand towards his mouth, eyes on yours the whole time when he lets his spit slowly drool from his lips to your palm. itâs vulgar and messy and it makes your head spin.
then he brings your hand back down to his cock, guiding you into a slow pump along his shaft, his abs tightening under where your other palm rests.
âit might sting at first, yeahâespecially since youâre new to this,â he admits honestly, making your thumb circle the sensitive underside of the head with your joined hands, smearing his pre-cum down the length, ââbut iâll go slow, make sure youâre wet and ready. youâll take me like you were made for itâŠuntil youâre begging for it.â
his words send fresh heat flooding your core, pussy clenching emptily as you watch your hand glide over his cock. he groans softly, hips rolling up into each stroke, free hand tangling in your hair to tilt your face up.
âkeep stroking me like that, twist your wrist at the top.â
you follow his guidance, earning a grunt from him.
âyeahâfuck, baby, just like that.â
itâs hot. heâs hot. the sounds he makes are hot.
you pump faster, mesmerized by him, feeling his cock throb thicker in your fist. his breaths grow ragged, eyes half lidded as he watches you, then pulls you up for a messy kiss, tongue fucking your mouth in time with your strokes.
his hand leaves yours, sliding down your back to cup your ass firmly, fingers digging into the soft flesh as he lifts you up slightly. your knees spread wider on the carpet, ass rising into the air, pussy exposed and dripping from behind.
and without warning, he presses one long finger against your slick entrance and pushes inside, stretching your walls with a single smooth thrust.
you moan loud into the kiss as your grip on his cock tightens, strokes pausing mid-pump while you adjust to the intrusion.
itâs so much different from fingering yourself â his finger is thicker, longer, moves with purpose you canât anticipate.
he drags it out slow, then slams back in, curling deep against that soft spot inside, sending sparks exploding through your nerves.
you try your best to resume pumping his cock, hand jerking unevenly along the slick length, but the sensation overwhelms you. after a few shaky strokes, you give up, fingers digging into his muscular thigh for anchor as your mouth hangs open against his, breaths panting hot and desperate.
he breaks the kiss to nip at your jaw, lips brushing your ear as he whispers praises, voice rough and commanding, âso fucking tightâyou like that, donât you? like it when my fingers fuck you like this.â
his digit pumps faster, plunging in and out with wet squelches, thumb now circling your swollen clit in firm presses.
and god, the not knowing makes it so much better â when heâll curl, when heâll thrust, when heâll grind his palm over your clit.
nothing registers but him finger-fucking you â the stretch, the heat, the relentless pressure building low in your belly.
âyouâre so wet baby, this pussy is ready to take me,â he grunts, adding a second finger without mercy, scissoring them wide to open you up, knuckles bumping your entrance as he dives deeper.
youâre a goner. your head falls to the crook of his neck, nose buried in his skin, teeth clenched, body seizing as your second orgasm crashes over you just like that. your walls clamp down hard on his fingers, creaming all over his hand, the fresh slick dripping down your thighs. your cries are muffled against his shoulder as your hips buck wildly onto his palm, chasing every brutal thrust through the waves.
jaehyun doesnât stop, his free arm banding around your waist to hold you steady as you tremble and spasm.Â
âfuck, thatâs itâsoak my fingers, sweet girl,â he praises, watching your body shake through the mirror.Â
your breaths come in shattered gasps, body going limp in his hold as the aftershocks ripple through you.Â
he eases his fingers out slow, then brings them to your lips, âtaste yourself,â he murmurs, pushing the soaked digits past your parted mouth.
you suck obediently, tongue lapping at your own release, eyes fluttering up to meet his heated gaze.Â
he groans at the sight, cock jerking visibly, ânow get on the bedâitâs time for the real lesson.â
your eyes widen slightly, pulse racing at his words, but at this point youâre so ready for this â your body practically begging as your pussy clenches around nothing, aching to be filled.Â
you push up on shaking legs, knees wobbly from the orgasms, turning toward the bed. before you can climb on and sit down â jaehyunâs large, strong hands grip your hips, spinning you around fast. his lips crash onto your again, kissing you hungrily.Â
he walks you backward step by step, guiding you onto the bed. your back meets the soft sheets, sinking into the plush mattress as your legs part on instinct, thighs spreading wide. he settles between them heavy and hot, his muscular frame caging you in, his rock hard cock dragging teasingly along your inner thigh.Â
jaehyun breaks the kiss only to trail his mouth down your jaw, to your neck, sucking hard enough to mark the skin red, drawing out a sharp moan from you.Â
he moves to your breasts next, mouth closing over one nipple, tongue flicking the peak before sucking on it. your body arches off the bed, pressing your chest into his face, the pull shooting straight to your core.Â
âjaehyunâ,â you moan, the sensation so new and overwhelming in the best way possible. he switches sides, lavishing the other nipple with the same attention â suck, bite, soothe with his tongue â leaving behind a couple of dark hickeys blooming purple on your skin.Â
finally, he pulls back, sliding down your body until heâs on his knees. one hand wanders flat over your stomach, tracing down to your hips, then dipping to your inner thigh until his fingers reach your pussy lips, parting them open and exposing your dripping entrance and throbbing clit to the cool air.Â
you watch him the entire time, breath held, excitement buzzing through your veins like electricity.Â
jaehyun grips his cock at the base, sending you a playful smirk before he guides the flushed head up through your folds â but not inside.
he slides it along your slick, coating himself in your arousal, then swirl the tip around your clit in lazy circles, letting you feel him skin to skin.Â
the pressure edges you mercilessly, building that coil together once again. you whine high and desperate, hips bucking up to chase the friction, needing more.
âpleaseâŠ.jaehyun.â
he smiles down at you, dimples flashing wickedly, eyes locked on your pleading face.Â
âgotta make sure youâre nice and wet, sweet girl.â
he doesnât give in just yet. tapping his cock against your clit â once, twice, three times â each tap leaving you wanting more. then he drags down your folds again, nudging your hole but pulling back every time, teasing the stretch.Â
your whines turn to full begging, thighs trembling, your pussy getting wetter and wetter with ever second.Â
when he finally deems you ready, he leans over to snatch the condom on the nightstand, ripping the packet open with his teeth and rolling the latex down his length with practiced ease, the sight making your mouth water. you had no idea who you were anymore, all you know is that you needed him. badly.Â
he crawls back up, face hovering inches from yours, âready?â he asks, voice softer than itâs been the whole night, his cock nudging right at your entrance, the tip kissing your hole.Â
you nod frantically, hands going to the nape of his neck.
âyesâplease, jaehyun, i need to feel you inside me.â
he doesnât make you beg anymore after that, pressing forward slowly, the thick head of his cock breaching your tight ring with a wet pop, stretching you inch by burning inch.
it burns so good, fuller than his fingers, your walls yielding reluctantly to his size as he sinks deeper. youâre thankful he took the time prepping you because you canât even imagine heâd fit if you werenât this wet.Â
you shut your eyes tight, hissing sharp at the slight sting of the stretch.Â
jaehyun notices immediately, hips stuttering just a fraction, âyouâre doing so well, love â almost there,â he grunts low, voice strained as he fights his own urges.
youâre so fucking tight, so fucking wet and it feels like heaven and torture rolled into one because he knows youâre a virgin â knows he has to go slow, let you savor it.Â
once he bottoms out, his balls snug against your ass, he stills completely, giving you a long moment to adjust to the impossible fullness splitting you open, your pussy fluttering wild around him. he peppers your face with soft kisses, a tender contrast to the raw stretch.Â
you open your eyes, a little watery from the intensity and he thumbs away a tiny tear before it can fall, gaze locked soft on yours.Â
âyou still with me?â he murmurs, breath hot against your skin.Â
you nod quick, but he tilts his head, dimples faint in that patient smile, âwhat did i say about words?â
âiâm with you,â you confirm, voice breathy, hands clutching his biceps.Â
âiâm gonna move now, okay?â
âokay,â you whisper, pulse thundering.
he starts thrusting slow, pulling out halfway then pushing back in with a smooth roll of his hips, letting you get used to the drag.
the pain starts subsiding quick, morphing into sparks of pleasure that bloom deep in your belly, your body starting to react to it as your hips buck up instinctively to match his slow rhythm, chasing more.Â
âfaster, please,â you plead, voice wrecked.Â
he obliges without question, picking up the pace slightly.
he hikes one of your legs higher, hooking it over his waist, opening you wider â and then heâs hitting it. every snap of his hips grinding right against that spot inside. you moan loud, unrestrained, the sound ripping from your throat.Â
âyeah, there we go, baby, let me hear you â you sound so fucking pretty,â he praises, voice rough with lust, urging you on as sweat beads on his temple.Â
âright there, right there, right there, please jaehyunâ,â your whines mixes with your moans, hands wrapping around his torso, nails scraping his back to pull him closer.
he knows exactly what you need, his cock slamming that spot deeper â relentless, pounding now.Â
youâve never felt anything like it, pleasure coiling vicious and hot, building to a peak that whites out your vision.Â
you last a couple more thrusts, walls clamping down hard before your third orgasm crashes through you fully. your entire body heats up, pussy spasming wild around his cock, mouth falling open in a breathless moan, the feeling of raw ecstasy making your eyes shut tight while stars burst behind your lids, limbs locking and trembling in his grip.Â
âthatâs it, baby, fuckâyouâre coming so hard for me,â jaehyun praises you through it, his hips grinding deep to drag out every pulse.
âlook at you, creaming all over my cock, squeezing me so tight â perfect little pussy.â
you barely have time to catch your breath and process the fact that youâre no longer a virgin when jaehyun pulls out with a wet slide, your empty pussy clenching around nothing, as your release slides out of your hole and down to your ass crack.Â
you hear the sharp snap of latex being yanked off and tossed aside. and the next second â jaehyunâs hovering over you â on his knees, his length obscene and huge, flushed dark and throbbing, veins bulging. he taps the swollen head onto your parted lips.Â
âwider,â he commands, tone firm, eyes dark with hunger.Â
he definitely fucked you stupid because you obey instantly, parting your lips wider, tongue flicking out instinctively.Â
âgood girl,â he praises low, dimples flashing wicked before he shoves his cock down your throat in one smooth thrust. it hits the back of your throat immediately, making you gag hard, drool spilling from the corners of your mouth.Â
you think back to all those books, the smut you devoured, and youâre prepared for this more than you thought â you force your jaw to slack, relaxing the muscles as much as possible, breathing raggedly through your nose and ignoring the tears welling fast, blurring your vision, as you let jaehyun fuck your mouth.Â
his hips snap forward, grunts and groans rumbling deep from his throat, so hot they vibrate straight to your core. you could listen to him forever â that raw, animalistic sound of need. it makes you horny again, pussy clenching empty, aching fresh, thighs rubbing together for some comfort.Â
you almost canât believe youâve avoided sexual acts for this long and now you have a man balls deep in your throat in the same hour you lost your virginity.Â
but fuck, you wouldnât change a thing.
this was all your fanfictions exploding into reality and itâs so much hotter â thicker, messier, real sweat and musk and stretch.Â
jaehyunâs abs clench tight above you, ânnghâ,â a low sound rattles in his throat, somewhere between a moan and a growl, âiâm gonna cumâfuck.â
heâs losing his bearings, his thrusts turning erratic and sloppy. you feel him start to pull back and itâs almost sweet how he doesnât want to force you to swallow his cum when heâs already choking you with his cock â but your desire is ravenous, your hands shooting up to grip his ass cheeks firmly, nails digging in to yank him deeper, holding him in place. you suck harder, hollowing your cheeks, tongue swirling frantically around him.Â
âohâgod,â he groans, head tipping back, âyou dirty, dirty girl.â
he grabs a fistful of your hair tightly, yanking your head steady as your tearful eyes lock on his â blown pupils, jaw slack, pure feral lust.Â
âyou better swallow every drop,â he growls through clenched teeth, his voice breaking, and then heâs erupting â hot ropes pulsing straight down your throat, thick and endless. you gulp it down greedily, not spilling a bit, throat working around him until heâs spent and shuddering above you, cock twitching with aftershocks.Â
jaehyun finally pulls out slow, slick strands of spit and cum connecting your lips to his tip before snapping free.
you let yourself cough for a bit, finally regaining air in your lungs as he slides back down your body.
âso good for me, taking it all like that â my perfect girl,â he praises, caressing your face gently before capturing your mouth in a deep kiss, tasting himself in you.
âwho taught you how to suck somene off like that, huh?â he teases, eyes sparkling wickedly as he props on his elbows, his body against yours.Â
you smile shyly, cheeks burning hot, biting your lip.Â
he grins wide, dimples carving deep, already knowing, âthose books are that good?â he asks, voice playful.Â
you laugh bright, playfully shoving his shoulder, âyeah, well, the writers are pretty damn amazing.â
he quirks a brow high, smirk tugging, âanything else they write about that you want to try?â he waits, gaze intense, hand tracing lazy circles on your skin.Â
âiâuhm,â you start, voice soft, âi kinda want to ride you.â
he chuckles deep, hand roaming down your hip, squeezing the curve firm, âyou gotta give me five minutes, love,â he says playful, making you laugh again, the tension easing into giddy warmth.
youâre thankful heâs not making this whole thing a bigger deal than it has to be, that heâs not treating you like something breakable just because itâs your first time.Â
âdo they write about how it feels to be eaten out?â he smirks slow, breaking you out of your thoughts.Â
you nod quick, pulse racing fresh.Â
âlet me know if the writing is as good as the actual thing,â he says teasingly.Â
and then heâs shifting down, strong hands spreading your thighs wide, hooking under your knees to pin you open. his breath ghosts hot over your soaked pussy before his tongue flattens, licking a long stripe up your slit from your hole to your clit, lapping your juices clean.Â
your head sinks deep into the pillow, back arching sharp, body reacting immediately to his touch,âgodâjaehyun,â you whine high, hands flying down to grip his dark hair, tugging the strands between your fingers.Â
he groans into you, vibration humming straight to your core and dives in hungrily â lips sealing around your clit, sucking, tongue flicking rapid circles around the sensitive bud. your hips buck up desperately, grinding your folds against his face, chasing the pressure.Â
he eats you out filthily, nose bumping your clit as his tongue thrusts in, slurping every drip of your arousal. spit and cream smear his chin, dripping down.
your thighs quake around his head, heels digging into the mattress, your grip tightening in his hair as that spark builds low in your belly once again.Â
âjaeâfuck, yes,â you gasp, legs trembling now, toes curling into the sheets.
he presses his face deeper and you shatter hard, your fourth orgasm crashing through you like fire, pussy spasming as you squirt tiny bursts against his mouth.
jaehyun drinks it down, sucking your pulsing clit to drag out every throb. your back arches off the bed, cry ripping raw from your chest, as you push his head off of you, giving yourself a moment to breathe.Â
his lips are glistening with your release, eyes dark and smug as he crawls beside you, sitting against the headboard as he caresses your hair.
âbetter than the book, yeah?â he murmurs playfully, earning an eye roll and a tired laugh from you as you calm your racing pulse.
âstill wanna ride me, baby?â he asks, voice low and coaxing.
you look up at him then. in truth, youâre feeling tired, but on the other hand, you still wanted to feel it.Â
âc-can i?â you ask shyly.Â
he nods, thumb stroking your cheek, âof course you can, anything you want to do, love.â
he reaches for another condom on the nightstand. you sit up now, watching him move.
âcan i put it on you?â
he gives you a soft smile, handing it over, âyeah, here.â his hand covers yours, showing you how to pinch the tip and slide it down smooth over his hard cock until it hugs him tight.Â
once itâs on, he guides you over his lap to straddle him, thighs spreading wide around his hips, ânowâŠjust grip the base of me like this,â he says, wrapping your fingers around his cock, steady and thick in your palm, âand sit whenever youâre ready.â
you nod, heart pounding, lining his tip up with your soaked entrance. you take a soft breath before slowly, pushing down, the stretch burning sweetly.Â
âohâshit,â you moans, sinking lower inch by inch, the new angle making you feel him even more, âoh my godâyou feel so big.â
he tries to hide his smirk as his hands settle on your waist, rubbing soothing circles, letting you control the drop.Â
âtake your time, sweet girlâyou can do it,â he praises. then his mouth latches onto one nipple, lips sucking softly and sweetly.Â
and fuck, thereâs a reason why heâs the most valuable donor.Â
you whimper, hips dipping further, taking half of his length now, walls clenching greedy around the invasion. he switches nipples, sucking the other into wet heat, humming approval that vibrates through your chest.Â
âfuck, youâre tight,â he groans against your skin, one hand sliding up your back to pull you closer, the other kneading your ass.
you continue until your ass meets his thighs and heâs buried balls deep, the fullness stealing your breath, pussy stuffed full and pulsing around him.
you pause there, panting, adjusting to his size. jaehyun kisses between your breasts, up to your neck, murmuring, âmove when it feels good, yeah? bounce or grindâwhatever you need.â
his words sink in, a gentle push to explore and figure out what your body likes.Â
you lift your hips slowly, slick pussy dragging up his shaft, then sink back down slow, the friction sparking fresh heat low in your belly.
then you try grinding circles next, your clit pressing firm against his pubic bone, cock buried deep and still. a soft moan slips out at that â your body likes this roll, the way it rubs that inner wall just right.Â
he watches close, eyes locked on your face, hands loose on your hips. and you canât help it, heâs just so handsome and patient and everything you wanted this to be. you lean forward, capturing his mouth in a messy kiss, moaning into it as you grind harder. each second builds pressure, pussy clenching around his thickness, learning the rhythm that makes your thighs quiver.Â
âthatâs it, babyâfuck yourself on my cockâyou love it donât you?â he breathes against your lips, still letting you lead.Â
âf-feels s-so full, jaehyun,â you admit in moans, bouncing slightly now, moans pouring into his mouth louder while your hips chase that rising coil, your sweat beads on your skin, tits brushing his chest with every grind.Â
the heat swells fast again, that now familiar ache demanding more. you rock frantically, your pace faltering as your thighs start to burn. whines escape between kisses, desperate little sounds that demand more.Â
âwhat do you need, love? tell me,â he asks, his voice husky, though his smirk says he already knows.Â
âneed it fasterâplease,â you whine, nails digging into his chest.Â
that flips the switch.
he plants your heels firm into the mattress on either side of his hips, âhold here,â he says, guiding your hands up to grip his shoulders tight. then he takes over â hips snapping up at a punishing pace, each thrust slamming into the spot that whites out your vision, his grip on your hip hot and bruising.
you moan louder than you thought you could, your raw cries bouncing off the walls as the sound of skin slapping wet and loud fills your ears.
soon enough, your knees buckle as you collapse against his chest. he doesnât stop, doesnât slow â his strong hands grips your ass cheeks, bouncing you up and down his cock easily.Â
âjaehyunâfuck!â
your pussy stretches around every ruthless plunge, walls fluttering wild. he grunts by your ear, breath hot on your neck, cock throbbing thicker inside you.Â
âiâmâiâm gonna cumâ,â you scream between clenched teeth, body seizing as the edge crashes, bringing you to your fifth orgasm.Â
âthatâs it, babyâsqueeze me just like that,â he growls low in your ear as you shatter completely, pussy convulsing violently around him, juices gushing down his shaft, pushing him to his own orgasm. he thrusts deep one last time, his cock pulsing hard as he fills the condom with thick ropes of cum.Â
youâre both wrecked, panting, locked together. his arms wrap tight around your back as he kisses your shoulder.
âso fucking perfect,â he murmurs, holding you close through the aftershocks.Â
you stay like that for a while, his hand stroking your back in lazy circles, letting you catch your breath and piece your scattered mind back together. the fullness is almost comforting, warm inside, a reminder of how thoroughly he wrecked you.Â
you lift your head finally, meeting his gaze, his eyes soft and searching, âyou okay?â he asks, thumb brushing your cheek.Â
you nod, a shy smile tugging at your lips, âthat wasâi donât know how thatâs going to be toppedâŠyou may have set the standards too high for real men,â you say, laughing softly.Â
he laughs with you, deep and warm, his hand sliding up to rub your arm up and down, his soft cock still buried inside you.Â
âwell, iâll be here if you ever need your standards met,â he winks, smile widening, those dimples carving deep into his cheeks.
and you canât resist it anymore â your finger reaches up sweetly, poking one dimple gently. his expression shifts to amused shock, brows lifting playfully as he catches your hand and landing a kiss on your fingertip.Â
âthank you,â you say sweetly, âi couldnât have asked for a better first time.â
he pulls you down for a kiss then, soft and slow, lips moving tenderly against yours, âthank you for trusting me,â he murmurs when he pulls back as you two share a smile.
âletâs get you cleaned up.â
you nod, finally hopping off him, your pussy clenching empty around nothing, juices spilling down between your thighs, already missing that thick stretch as his cock slips free with a wet slide.
he pulls the condom off, tying it off quick before tossing it to the bin, then guides you with a hand at your lower back toward the door leading to the bathroom, your legs feeling like jelly below you.
âone last lesson,â he says smirking, âyou need to pee.â
you laugh, the sound light and bubbly, âgot it, i have read about that.â
he laughs then, eyes crinkling at the corners, âyou gotta send me these books youâre readingâŠi might learn a thing or two,â he jokes, handing you a soft towel from a stack on the counter.
âgo ahead, iâll get your clothes,â he says before giving you a bit of privacy as he saunters back into the bedroom to pick your clothes off the ground.
you look at your reflection in the mirror and yeah, it does kinda scream that you just got railed in the best way possible.
you do your thing â wiping the sticky mess from your thighs before finally sitting on the toilet. you wash up softly, your pussy still throbbing tenderly, swollen lips aching sweet from the stretch and friction.
he knocks softly before peeking in, heâs back in his clothes now too while your clothes and underwear are draped over his arm.
âall good?â he asks, stepping in to lay them on the counter.
âyeah,â you say, taking the clothes, and slipping into it.
he turns away politely and itâs cute considering how heâs the only person to ever see and touch your body intimately.
you step out of the bathroom fully dressed and he walks over to you, placing his hand up, palm open just like how this all started.
âready to head out?â
you nod, placing your hand in his, warm and steady. he leads you out the door of suite 14 and into the hallway back to the lobby, his fingers laced loosed with yours. as youâre walking, he pulls out a single red rose that he tucked between his pajama pants like the cheeky, cheeky man he is.
âfor you ms. y/n.â
you try to hide your smile, cheeks warming, âthank you, mr. jung,â you giggle, taking the rose from him, the symbolism of the flower making you laugh inside â how poetic.
âis it always this sweet here?â you ask, twirling the stem between your fingers.
âit depends on the client,â he says honestly, dimples deepening as he glances sideways.
âhas anyone fallen in love with a client before?â you ask, head already swrling with romantic fantasies.
he pauses to think for a bit, âi donât think soâŠbut i wouldnât put it as past us,â he says rationally, âwe are still human after all.â
you nod at that. then you make it to the door that leads to the lobby.
âwellâŠjohnny will take care of you now,â he says, releasing your hand, âthank you for choosing me, ms. y/n,â he smiles then, releasing your hand softly just to offer it out again for handshake.
you take it, shaking his hand, âi couldnât have chosen a better donor,â you say softly.
then, just when you thought it was over â he brings your hand up to his lips, placing a soft kiss between your knuckles, the brush of his mouth sending a final spark through your skin.
âcome back whenever you want,â he says, sending you a playful wink, dimples flashing one last time before finally letting you step back into the lobby, your heart fluttering quietly in your chest as the door to the private suites closes behind you.
â END OF SESSION â
âwelcome back,â johnny says lightly, pulling you back to reality as you walk up to the reception desk.
âhow was suite 14?â
you grip the rose tighter between your fingers, body and mind still humming from jaehyun, âperfect,â you admit shyly, cheeks heating.
johnny nods approvingly, a small smile on his lips, âjaehyunâs got that effect.â
then heâs sliding a black bag towards you. you eye it suspiciously, curiosity piqued.
âa gift from us,â johnny says, eyes twinkling, âa little thank you for giving us a chance.â
you smile, grabbing the bag and thanking him before finally stepping out of the clinic and into the cool evening air.
you slide into the driverâs seat of your car, exhaling long and slow, processing everything that just happened. your body aches in the best way, the faint musk of sex clinging to your skin.
you checked the inside of the bag to find a folded white hoodie with the words ORGASM DONOR in bold letters across the chest. a laugh bubbles up from your chest, genuine and light, cutting through the post-sex haze.
you pull your phone out then, pulling up the neo orgasmâs clinic website to leave your own review:
âjaehyun is every swoon-worthy romantic lead iâve ever read and so much more. a patient teacher, a dominant lover, the most perfect donor who made this virginâs first time a bestseller. if your fantasies live between the lines, book him. youâll beg for the sequel.â
â APPOINTMENT STATUS: COMPLETE â
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an: DADA IS HOMEEEEEEEEE đ«Šđ«Š i have survived my first military wife era!!!!!!!!!!!!!!đđ âŠ.i hope you loved donor jaehyun! i wanted to make him real sweet and a quiet dom for this one,, please tell me you see the visionnnn! and please let me know what you think <333 â again, a kind reminder: this whole entire concept is supposed to be silly! please don't take it too seriously :)
stream celebration! watch the music video! iâve seen a lot of criticism on the song, esp by fearnots, but even if the song doesnât pertain to ur taste, pls support the girls:(((
the kpop space is TRULY tiring because why am i seeing ppl accusing le sserafim of copying jump and pinky up?⊠when theyâve been involved with the edm sound since debut?⊠truly i dont think these girls will ever catch a break bc theyâve been getting copying allegations for 6 comebacks in a row. first tyla, then charli xcx, then sabrina carpenter, then newjeans, then katseye, and now blackpink. like genuinely, do lsfm antis not get tired????? do kpop fans in general not get tired?? do they not get bored of constantly accusing lsfm of copying EVERY DAMN COMEBACK??? and to accuse them of doing so when theyâve BEEN doing edm?? oh donât piss me off.
anyways, pls buy and stream celebration, out 04/24!!đ„ł
also vote my girls for amas because they deserve it so much.
celebration having 2 edm producers, ICONA POP (all night and i love it ft charli xcx???), jbach (crazy and spaghetti!!!), and young chance (wrote half of nctâs goated songs and epatbw, perfect night, and unforgivenâŠ) on the credits??? oh iâm sat.
first time posting something thatâs genuinely just porn without plot. i keep thinking about gyu and needed to get this out of my system so. itâs rather short, not my best work but enjoy this while i work on my other fics <3
MINGYU WAKES UP WITH COLD BEADS OF SWEAT ON HIS FOREHEAD. the same way he has been for the past weeks.
heâs not sure what it is. itâs not nightmares, not insomnia â itâs like heâs craving something.
usually, a fresh, cold glass of water does the job. heâs already had two tonight, but to no avail. every time he closes his eyes, he feels his eyes burning behind his lids.
heâs not completely awake either; thatâs what makes it even more frustrating.
being close to you and having you in his arms often helps him sleep. stops him from tossing and turning all night.
right now, it only seems to be doing the opposite.
maybe he shouldnât have looked at you when you slipped under the covers beside him a few hours ago. not wearing anything other than soft cotton panties and a white tank top that perfectly showed your nipples through the thin fabric.
and now, with his front pressed against your back, the feeling of your body so close to his causes a shaky exhale, the smell of your shampoo flooding his senses, and before he knows it, heâs unintentionally grinding against your ass.
he knows heâs fucked when he thinks about your conversation from several weeks ago.
youâd brought it up so casually.
i wouldnât mind you touching me while iâm asleep, you said, or fucking me.
he can still taste the damn coffee that accidentally went up his nose afterwards.
most of the time, he falls asleep before you do. heâs used to closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep practically immediately, so perhaps thatâs why heâd never thought about touching you while you slept before you brought it up.
and before you did, he didnât think youâd be into it. he didnât think heâd be, either.
yet here he is, letting his left hand slide down towards your hip, rubbing his hardening cock against you. he feels the fabric of your panties under the pads of his fingers, glancing back up at your face for a second.
he wants you to remain asleep a little longer, eager to see how youâll react to it.
only wearing a pair of boxers, he moves away from his spot behind you, and you instinctively switch to your back from the loss of his presence by your side. he positions himself between your legs, deciding to leave your grey panties on for now.
with one hand, he slowly rubs your clothed pussy, feeling your clit, while he uses his other hand to push the hem of your tank top upwards, baring your tits to the cool air in the room.
god, you look straight out of a wet dream.
and heâs just so insatiable when it comes to you. leaning down, he licks your nipple, and it makes you stir under him for the first time.
unable to resist, he mouths at your breast, teeth grazing past the skin gently enough not to hurt but still make you feel it. he keeps rubbing little circles on your pussy, feeling his cock twitch, and he grinds himself against the mattress, desperate for some friction.
he was planning to keep quiet, but heâs getting so ridiculously hard that it hurts. it makes him grunt as if heâs in pain, and seeing that little wet spot forming on the grey fabric youâve got on is just making it worse.
hooking his finger under the hem of your panties, he pulls them down, bunching them up in the palm of his hand, the combined scent of that sweet soap you always use on your body and that of your arousal causing him to feel like heâs insane.
continuing to rub your clit, he gently pushes two fingers into you, and you let out a familiar sigh in pleasure, still sound asleep, even though your body is being more than responsive to his touch.
regardless, heâs shocked at how easily his fingers enter you. he retracts his hand, sticking his fingers in his mouth to taste your arousal, a few drops of pre-cum leaking into the material of his boxers. it prompts him to remove it, remaining naked on your shared bed.
yeah, youâre wet enough to take him, but it doesnât stop him from grabbing the lube out of the bottom drawer of his nightstand, squirting some of it onto himself.
his head is spinning while he coats his cock in the cold liquid. heâs breathing erratically, incapable of looking away from your body, numerous ways of touching you running through his mind. he wonders if youâd enjoy waking up to his cock in your mouth, or a toy in your ass, or both â god, given the way you two always fuck, you probably would.
and imagining it drives him crazy.
he rubs the tip of his cock against your pussy, forcing himself not to bust just from the way youâre twitching at the feeling of him.
finally, he allows himself to slide into your warm body, fingers trembling at the overwhelming sensation. âoh, fuck.â
with a patience he didnât know he possessed, he takes the time to sheathe himself all the way inside you, hovering over your body. a shameless moan leaves him as he begins to move.
itâs enough to finally wake you from your deep sleep, and you look up, a little disoriented, trying to process what heâs doing.
âgyu?â you mutter his name, immediately followed by a gasp.
keeping a slow, steady pace, he fondles your breasts. âdidnât mean to wake you, baby.â
you both know he most certainly did. you bite your lip, a soft, dragged-out moan escaping you. meeting his dark eyes, youâre debating whether heâs not fully awake either or just a little dazed from the new experience.
his face is flushed, skin coated in a thin layer of sweat, the vein in his forehead popping out, all while heâs fucking you slow and deep. heâs so fucking deep â itâs like you can feel him in your stomach. the silver necklace youâve always found looks undeniably good on him sways above you with every snap of his hips, and he maintains eye contact with you, particularly when you raise your hands to put them on the back of his neck.
he watches how your face contorts with pleasure, rutting into you, and he lowers his body to have his lips just barely touching yours, breathing into each otherâs mouths.
âyou just looked so fucking pretty,â he admits, pausing mid-sentence to shudder from the way youâre clenching around him, âi couldnât help it.â
god, thereâs something about seeing him this way that makes your eyes roll back in your skull. heâs bigger than you in every way, a hulk of a man, yet all he aches for is your touch.
âyeah? you just had to have me?â you breathe out shakily, and mingyu nods.
âmhm. wanted to fuck you so bad,â he hums, kissing you between the slurred words.
moving your hips to match his rhythm, heâs completely fucking gone. all that exists to him right now is you â the way your pussy hugs his cock like heâs not allowed to leave, the sound of your erotic moans, your hand cupping his face like youâre about to tell him heâs doing such a good job.
the words rolling off your tongue practically send him into overdrive. âcome in me, please, gyu. i want it in me.â
with jittery breaths, his hips stutter, his fingers subconsciously digging harshly into your skin while he comes. it makes your thighs tremble, hips bucking up against him, and with some added friction on your clit, youâre seeing stars underneath him.
he all but collapses on top of you, his heart rate eventually slowing.
âi love you,â you hear him mumble with his cheek against your collarbone.
heâs got his eyes closed, and you doubt heâs still awake when you say it back. âlove you too.â
thanks for reading, let me know if you enjoyed it x
Âź SANAKIRAS, all rights reserved â do not repost, remake or copy my work in any way whatsoever. translations are not allowed.
â synopsis: reuniting with an rare two-night stand on the mound was not something you ever thought would happen â but itâs not like he remembered who you were, anywayâŠright?
â genre: open-ended, not so strangers to lovers au / baseball au ; only a little angsty, smut, fluff. they're stupid.
â pairing: model!xu minghao x fem!pitcher!reader
â word count: 11.6k
â rating: 18+. minors do not interact.
â warnings: swearing, mentions of drinking, honestly very vague, the smut is the star of the show here and not even all that well. that being said: smut warnings: oral (f.rec), masturbation/clit play, fingering (f.rec), body worship (f.rec), biting, nipple play (f.rec), unprotected sex (that's a no no) multiple orgasms, creampie.
â what to listen to: heartburn - sunmi ; diamond days - seventeen ; atm - jihyo ;  ćæçæŒæ” - the8.
â author's note: i'll easily admit this is not my best work. i've been burnt out for a few months and i'm trying my best to get myself back in order. forgive me for the vagueness of it all, but i know all of you are incredibly imaginative and creative enough to fill in the gaps and also...leave room to wonder. thank you to hali @sailorsoons for allowing me to be part of this collaboration & being so patient with me. thank you to @/saradika-graphics here on tumblr for these star dividers. no beta, we die like men.
MINGHAO IS STARING AT THE E-MAIL ON HIS AGENTâS CELLPHONE.Â
âYouâre joking.âÂ
âI can assure you, I am not. Come on, Hao! Itâs just a first pitch, and you donât even have to stay for the game!â Lee Seokmin smiles brightly, and Minghao tongues his cheek as he gives the cheerful man a deadpan look.Â
âYou will want to stay for the game.âÂ
âI will! But itâs up to you, superstar.âÂ
âYouâre buttering me up and you know it,â Minghao sighs, leaning his head back against the wall of the studio. Heâs surrounded by racks of clothing heâll wear once for the camera, and shrugs his shoulders as Seokmin juts his lip in a pout. He gets in Minghaoâs face, batting his eyelashes as Minghao scrunches his nose, pushing him back slightly and sticking his tongue out at him like a toddler.Â
âFine. One pitch.âÂ
âWeâll have to work on your technique! Donât wanna embarrass yourself out there, you know. Theyâre a co-ed team.âÂ
âThey have those?â Minghao yawns, stretching his arms over his head as Seokmin types on his phone, nodding. âI donât keep up with baseball like that, sorry.âÂ
âNo worries, Iâm actually good friends with the captain of their team. Choi Seungcheol, Iâve introduced you, right? Weâve had dinner at his a couple times.âÂ
âI know who Seungcheol is. Great brows on that guy, Iâll say.â Minghao rolls his shoulders back, adjusting in his seat.Â
âGreat butt, too.â Seokmin nods again, and Minghao gives him an amused look as he reaches for his phone across the couch, âsure, Seok. Whatever you say.âÂ
âIt is! Have you seen it? Phenomenal, I see why the Diamonds are so big on social media.âÂ
âOr...they could just be good.âÂ
âThey are, but heâs also a cutie.âÂ
âYouâre so funny,â Minghao chuckles, unlocking his phone to see two new messages from his manager, Boo Seungkwan, following up on the e-mail about throwing the first pitch at the last game of the season for the Daegu Diamonds. Tonguing his cheek, Minghao just shoots back a short response in the affirmative, before feeling Seokmin pat his knee. Â
âAlright, Iâve confirmed. Weâre going to be down there tomorrow afternoon, so Iâll book the flights and send your ticket over before noon today. Pack light, weâll only be there three days before weâre in Japan for Tokyo Collection. Youâre walking for the Cherry Jubilee spring launch, and weâre having dinner with Seungkwan and Jeonghan. Yoon Jeonghan, the designer.â Seokmin looks at Minghao pointedly, who only glances up at him with boredom.Â
âYes, I know who Jeonghan is. Weâre friends.â He lolls his head back, and Seokmin shrugs, âyou know so many people, Hao. I can only take the initiative and ensure that you remember them.âÂ
Seokmin shoves his phone in his pocket, grabbing his jacket off the chair with a click of his tongue, âIâm gonna go on a quick coffee run, but they want you in the red set first. If you need help, Seungkwan is down the hall talking to the creative director. Do you want anything? Tea? Something to nibble on? Lunch is in an hour.âÂ
âIâm good. You go ahead, Iâll be out of here in a bit.âÂ
Seokmin nods, slipping out of the room whistling something that sounds a lot like Death of a Strawberry by Dance Gavin Dance. Minghao waits until the door shuts behind him to melt into the grooves of the couch, letting the soreness of the already-long day seep into his muscles as he drums his fingertips against his phone. He stares at a water spot in the ceiling tiles, his chest heavy as he opens his phone and scrolls down through his messages. Lots of old friends from back home, a few of his fellow modeling peers, a couple designers...Â
An unsaved number, with messages dating back two years. Â
He canât bring himself to delete it.Â
He doesnât remember your full name, either, and it bothers him â only remembering your face, and that you liked the Daegu Diamonds. If he scrolls up high enough, heâll see the exchange of nude photos and videos, and his face will grow hot before he clicks off the message thread and chooses to ignore it for exactly ten minutes...Â
Before going back in and staring at the thumbnail of the singular video of you together, taken on his phone on the second and last night you ever saw each other. A week after meeting at a hole-in-the-wall bar, youâd gotten a non-disclosure agreement sent to him and heâd filled it out within ten minutes â sending it back with a ticket to meet him in Osaka the next weekend. He was him, and you were you â he'd said something about not having enough time, you admitted to commitment issues...and you both settled on two nights in Japan â away from the cameras, away from any friends or family.Â
Just you.Â
It had been fun. Of course, it was fun â as fun as risky, messy sex with a girl he didnât know and didnât have to know could be. You didnât care to know him, either â only heading straight to business the moment you both crossed the threshold of the hotel room heâd gotten for the weekend. He had a pair of white panties in his apartment from that night, pulled off you with his teeth and shoved into the pocket of his True Religion jeans â never to meet the inside of your duffel bag again â but it wasnât enough.Â
Unfortunately, you lingered in his mind at the most inopportune moments. He could be half naked in someone elseâs bed and about to get down to business; when your body will flash by his eyes, enough to knock him off his game, even if just for a moment. Heâll be in meetings, and heâll feel his skin prickle as if he can still feel the ghost of your blood red fingernails dragging down his back. Heâll be sitting at dinner, his eyes trained on the food in front of him as he sips his drink but all he can taste is you.Â
It feels cynical. Like a slow form of torture, to look at those messages and know that heâs drawn a line he cannot cross. To know that if he just presses play, even just once â he'll hear every single sound he drew from you in just those fifteen minutes. Heâll see the way your body was flush against him, the way you sighed at the feeling of his lips against your burning skin.Â
Heâll remember the taste of your sweat as he dragged his tongue up the slope of your neck before sinking his teeth into you â marking you for the weekend. Never to be in his arms again.Â
He hasnât watched it since the night he sent it. The temptation is there. Itâs always there, just like the photos of you that he canât bring himself to look at.Â
Message From: +82 010-2015-0526Â
Best of luck, Minghao! See you around. (Delivered)Â
Message To:Â +82 010-2015-0526Â
You too, sweetheart. (Read: 4:32 AM)Â
Minghao barely unlocks the door of his condo when the warmth of the heater hits his face. He shivers, locking the door behind him and resting his forehead against the cold steel. He lets out a deep breath, shrugging his coat off as his phone buzzes in his pocket, arguably another message from Seokmin or Seungkwan, or even the most hidden person on his team â Soonyoung. A cheery, bright-eyed publicist with a knack for persuasion, carefully navigating Minghao into the oddest of situations that have skyrocketed his career. It's because of Soonyoung that Minghao is the face of so many brands, plastered all over in countries he's never even been to.
At least, not yet.Â
Minghao hangs his coat with no urgency, smoothing the lapels before closing the front closet door and easing his way into his home. He toes his shoes off, sliding them onto the shelf in the foyer before stretching his arms over his head and walking into his empty living room.Â
Empty living room with a single lamp on, waiting for him to come home. Empty kitchen, with food packed neatly in the fridge waiting to be eaten. An empty bathroom, empty bedroom.Â
Empty bed.Â
He can never get too comfortable. His condo in Shanghai is the closest he gets to feeling at home â even if his apartment in Seoul has seen him the most, and his studio in Osaka is bare bones aside from a few art pieces on the walls and a singular photo of him and his parents on a desk in the corner.Â
Maybe thatâs loneliness. Having so much and wanting so little, but to be rich in love...he yearns for that.Â
He reaches into his pocket as he sits on the edge of his recliner, tonguing his cheek as he reads the message across his screen.Â
Group Message From:Â Unnamed Group (4 Members)Â
Choi Seungcheol (DD): Hey, guys! Heard from our head of SNS that youâd be coming down for a game. Are you throwing the first pitch, Minghao? Weâd love to get a team photo with you! Let us know.Â
Lee Seokmin (Work): Youâre so cute. Yeah, weâre gonna be down there this weekend, weâre flying in from Shanghai in the morning. Should we expect to drop by the Choi residence for dinner? (Ë” âąÌ Ꭰ- ˔ )Â
+82 010-2015-0526: Shit, hey Seok. I asked Cheol to make the group because I broke my phone a few months ago and lost your number. I have gossip, call me when you can. Good luck this weekend!Â
Minghao stills, his brows furrowing as he looks at the number again. He exits the group, quickly scrolling down his message threads before seeing the number right there. Seungcheol replies in the groupchat as he stares at the conversation between you and him â his skin prickling as he enters and exits the thread almost anxiously.Â
âShit,â he runs a hand over his face, tossing his phone onto the recliner as he gets up. He beelines for the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water out of his refrigerator when he hears his phone continue to ping with messages. He brings the bottle to his lips, taking a poor excuse for a sip before setting it down on his countertop.Â
The cold of it hurts his stomach.
He moves back to the recliner, quickly unlocking his phone and reading through new messages. Seungcheol, Seokmin, Soonyoung, Seungkwan, Seokmin again...Â
Itâs not like Minghao to particularly care about the past, but he doesnât remember your name. Surely, if youâre affiliated with Seungcheol, you could be very well affiliated with the Daegu Diamonds.Â
He nibbles on his lip for a moment as the chat bubble on your end pops up and disappears repeatedly before it dawns on him â Seokmin said that the Diamonds were a co-ed team.Â
He doesnât reply to your texts, opting to go onto the official site for the Daegu Diamonds and scour through the roster. Many faces are familiar â Lee âWooziâ Jihoon, Park Jihyo, Lee âDinoâ Chan...Â
Y/N Kim. A pitcher for the Daegu Diamonds, repping #08 on the mound. Your height, your weight, your birthday, your social media â it's all there, in color on his screen.Â
He, against his better judgment, presses the Instagram icon beneath your debut date â November 9th, 2015.Â
His phone redirects him to your profile. Youâve amassed millions of followers, your profile plain of any introduction aside from a cheeky photo booth strip as your profile photo and â#08 DDâ in your biography. You have Fire by 2NE1 linked to your profile, and there is a neat array of posts filling the screen.Â
Your profile is purely...you.
Not just pictures of you, butâŠthe embodiment of you as an art. Your style. Everything he would've assumed a curated profile surrounding you would look like.
Candid photos, photos of you and friends at dinner or simply hanging out together. He spots several shots of his own colleagues and friends â Hansol 'Vernon' Chwe, a music producer heâd met in passing at a Cherry Jubilee show six years ago; Chou Tzuyu, a designer for Lazy Baby and Kim Mingyu, a fellow model and the face of Calvin Klein (and abs, and arms, that man is beautiful.)Â
He scrolls further and further â before seeing an Osaka carousel from two years ago. The song over the post is Heart Burn by Sunmi, and he scrolls past several pictures only to stop on the second to last.Â
Him.Â
Well, not him. Â
His jacket, the corner of one of your photos. The Osaka skyline from the hotel room is the focus, but he can see the letters on the back of his monogrammed jacket â XU MIN visible before the photo crops the rest of it out. His watch is on the windowsill, and a sliver of his back is visible on the bed.  The window was behind the bed frame, and you had to have been standing by the vanity to get that angle.Â
He chews on his lip anxiously, scrolling to the next photo before seeing your fingers holding a ring up to the light at the airport. A signet ring, his signet ring with an orchid stamped in the center â one heâd lost after that trip. He clears his throat, glancing at the caption before his eyes widen.Â
diamonddazed: i hope we find time for more than osaka someday.Â
His tongue runs behind his teeth as he closes the app, his head hanging low between his shoulders as he lets out a sigh. His phone continues to buzz and ping in his hand, but he ignores everyone else to move to your thread with him.Â
NEW! 2 Messages from:Â Y/N
[9:34 PM] I hope this...history doesnât hinder your ability to come see the guys this weekend. They talk about you and Seokmin all the time.Â
[9:34 PM] But, it would be nice to see you. Maybe we can get drinks. LMK (:Â
Minghao taps his foot as he opens and closes his keyboard. He tries typing a few letters, erasing them. Tries again, deletes them. Â
He opens his email instead, typing your name into the search box before seeing a copy of the non-disclosure agreement he signed. He opens it, reading along the lines of when the contract ends. Maybe he can get out of this, state personal differences. Maybe say it wasnât good for his brand to be tied to so many things plus baseball.Â
Two weeks from today.Â
âThatâs not soon enough,â he murmurs, closing out of the application and moving back to messages. Seokmin has texted him six times, but he doesnât care to reply as he opens your thread again.Â
Message to:Â Y/N
[9:39 PM]Â Are you in Seoul right now?Â
He presses his thumb to his lips, and he can almost imagine the smile spreading on your lips as his phone shows that youâve read the message. His knee bounces as you type, only to stop when your message comes through.Â
NEW! 2 Message from: Y/N
[9:42 PM] [1 Attachment]Â
[9:42 PM] Shanghai. Fly out for the game tomorrow afternoon.Â
His stomach drops as he sees the Shanghai skyline fill his screen, and he can barely see the subtle reflection of you in the window â wrapped in a white towel, the glisten of your red nails bouncing off the fabric. He glances around the photo, trying to see anything else in the reflection before another message bounces in.Â
NEW! 1 Message from:Â Y/N
[9:43 PM] Iâm alone if you want to swing by. Room 1107 @ the Conrad Shanghai. Â
Minghao feels stupid as he nearly falls out of his recliner, shoving his phone in his pocket as he moves back to his foyer. He shoves his shoes on, cheeks hot as he grabs his coat and pulls it on haphazardly. He barrels out his front door, not bothering to check that it has shut behind him as he beelines for the stairs.Â
He feels a rush course through him as he pulls his phone back out of his pocket, stopping at the top of the stairs to type a quick message.Â
Message To: Y/N
[9:47 PM]Â Lose the towel.Â
Getting past the lobby proves to be far too easy. He flashes a few quick smiles, signs a few slips of paper before he calmly steps into an elevator, knowing the Conrad like the back of his hand as he presses your floor button. He fiddles with his coat's buttons, flapping it open, before shoving his hands in the pockets of his jeans. He trills his lips, leaning against the wall of the elevator as he watches the floor counter go up. The elevator seems to sense his urgency, and it jolts to a stop on your floor. Â
He slides out between the barely open doors, his eyes scanning the doors for your room number â finding it at the very end of the hall. He knocks twice, softly â adrenaline making his hands shake as he shoves them back into his pocket.Â
The door opens slightly, but youâre behind the door as your hand beckons him inside. He tongues his cheek, slinking in through the gap to see you wrapped in a robe. He raises a brow at it, his fingers pinching the tie and tugging lightly.Â
âRoom service,â your voice is soft, âcanât be indecent, you know.âÂ
âDoesnât look like room service is here, though.â He responds, nerves making his tongue feel larger than it is as you glance at his fingers still holding the tie. He rolls his eyes, wrapping it around his hand and using it to pull you closer, âyou sleep with anyone else here?âÂ
âNo.â You shake your head, your hair still slightly damp as your hands splay on his chest. His jaw is tense as he runs his eyes down the slope of your neck, across your clavicle to the small chain snug at the base of your throat. He glances up at your face, your lips smooth with lip balm and your cheeks still soft, still as supple as he remembers them. Â
âAre you lying?âÂ
âNo, Minghao. I wouldnât have asked you over if I had.âÂ
âSo, Iâm just a quick fuck before you fly home?âÂ
You donât reply, rolling your eyes as you press your lips to his. Your hands on your chest slide around his slender waist, pulling him closer as his hand loosens around the tie of your robe. He kisses you back carefully, pulling at the knot of the tie as your tongue slips into his mouth. The same taste thatâs sat at the back of his throat for the last two years coats your tongue as he sucks on it gently, your robe falling open as he pulls away. The back of his head hits the wall lightly, making him wince as your hand immediately cards through his hair and rubs at the spot.Â
âCan I touch?â He murmurs, his hands ghosting over the warmth of your skin as you nod. You move further into his space, your fingers pulling at the buckle of his belt and undoing it quickly. His hands are cautious as they shove your robe off your shoulders, the same small tattoo he'd bitten two years ago peering back at him as you pull his belt off and toss it to the side before kissing him again. Your lips are so soft against his, your hands proving desperate as you unbutton his jeans and shove his shirt out of the way to reveal the waistband of his boxers. Â
âWhy are you so fucking dressed up?â You mutter against his lips as your fingertips slither under his shirt, and he smiles as one of his own find the lace of your panties snug to your hips, âyou donât need all these clothes to fuck me.âÂ
âBelieve it or not, I work, too.â He speaks between kisses, nipping at your lip with a soft growl in the back of his throat, âwhy do you taste like that? Did you touch yourself before I got here?âÂ
âI always touch myself when I think of you,â youâre breathless as your fingers curl around his waistband, tugging uselessly. You pout as he laughs, âitâs true! I'm already halfway to getting in your pants, no need to lie. Weâre all friends here.âÂ
âI wouldnât say weâre friends at all, actually.â He refutes, sliding his fingers under the fabric of your panties to cup a handful of your ass. His lips press open mouthed kisses to your neck, earning him those soft, soft groans heâs had daydreams about for the last two years as he scrapes his teeth against your skin. âI donât typically fuck my friends, much less make them sign NDAs about it. And if we were friends...âÂ
âYouâd fuck me in your bed?â You interject, your fingertips pulling at his zipper and cupping his half-hard cock. He tries not to keen as you run a finger against him over the thin fabric, "youâd fuck me in your bed, right? Mark me up? Make me yours?âÂ
âWouldnât be my friend if you were mine.â He tugs at the ends of your hair, a quipped gasp falling from your lips as he gives your ass a gentle squeeze. âYou hear me?âÂ
âUh huh,â your fingertips are teasing at the waistband of his boxers, but he pulls your hand away, sliding his own back out from under your panties. He kisses the shell of your ear, your lips pouted as he squeezes your hips, âMinghao.âÂ
âShow me how you touched yourself,â he whispers, your lips parting slightly as he physically turns you around. âThen maybe Iâll give you what you want.âÂ
âMaybe?âÂ
âMaybe.âÂ
âCynical,â you huff, squealing as his fingertips land a soft smack against your ass. Your hands cover it as you scurry away, and he picks up his belt and follows, with a grin threatening to breach his lips. He doesnât remember talking to you this much the first time (or even at the bar you met him at) but...the sound of your voice has something in it. Something...addictive. Erotic, even.Â
He doesnât know and he doesnât care to figure it out right now.Â
He pulls his coat off his shoulders as you pull your robe off fully, a tattoo across the dip of your spine new to his eyes and stark against the lace of your underwear. He stops what heâs doing, his eyes running over it as you glance over your shoulder at him.Â
Lucky.
âItâs new.âÂ
âI know.âÂ
He doesnât say anything else as he pulls his shirt over his head, toeing his shoes off as you move to sit on the bed. He watches the way your demeanor shifts slightly, a bit shy as your thumbs hook on the waistband of your underwear. He shakes his head, motioning for you to get on the bed, âall fours.âÂ
âBut IââÂ
âJust wanna see that new tattoo, sweetheart. All fours, please.âÂ
You oblige, carefully sprawling yourself on the bed as he asks. He moves closer, his fingers wrapping around your ankles and pulling you closer to the edge of the bed. You move easily, your back smooth in the low lighting of your hotel room as he slides his hand up it, curling his fingers around the back of your neck. Your skin litters in goosebumps as you push your hips back, meeting his lightly as he bends slightly, pressing his lips to your hip. You shiver as his teeth scrape the skin of your hip, pulling gently at the fabric of your panties and sliding them down your thighs. Â
âIâm keeping these,â he says as he pulls them off entirely, shoving them in the back pocket of his jeans as you scoff.Â
âPervert.âÂ
âYou smell good. Show me.âÂ
He peers down between your thighs, the swell of your ass covered by his hands as he spreads the cheeks carefully. Your hand covers you immediately, the sheen of arousal spread between your inner thighs as he smirks inwardly, âI havenât even touched you.âÂ
âYou know Iâm sensitive, shut up.â Your breathing is shaky as you drag your fingertips through your folds, spreading them lightly and circling your puffy clit. He sucks in a breath, his cock twitching beneath his boxers as your thighs slightly weaken at the stimulation. You bury your face in a pillow as you rub your clit in tight circles for him, shuddered whimpers wracking your body before you tease your hole with a finger. He leans forward slightly, enough that you can feel his breath as he drops a wad of spit on your pussy. You jolt as he presses a kiss to the curve of your ass, âcome on, pretty. Make yourself cum for me.âÂ
Your whine rings in his ears, making him bite down on his lip as he runs his hands up and down the back of your thighs, âso pretty when youâre touching yourself, huh? Like putting on a show for me?âÂ
âMinghao...â your voice trails off as he watches you slip a finger in and then another, a breathy chuckle falling from his lips as he kneels behind you. He kisses the side of your foot, trailing his lips up your ankle as he watches your juices coat your fingers. He kisses up your calf, dragging his lips up your thigh as they shake.Â
âSo close already? Tsk,â he mocks you as he presses a kiss to the curve of your ass, then another. He switches to the other side, watching your hand still as if to stave it off before he presses a kiss to your knuckles, âcanât do it yourself?âÂ
âHao,â youâre whining, your fingers slipping out to spread your pussy for him to see. He smiles inwardly as your hole clenches around nothing, begging for something in it as he sinks his teeth into the meat of your ass. You only groan, pushing your hips back as he laps his tongue over the marks of his teeth before your fingers find your clit again, tracing slow circles into it as he kisses them. He takes them into his mouth, eyes fluttering shut as the taste of you coats his tongue. He presses a kiss to your fingertips before pushing your hand away, hooking his arms around your thighs and pulling your cunt to his face.Â
âPlease, please...â your hips are pushing back, and he canât deny you anything as he presses a tentative kiss to your clit, covering his lips in your arousal. He flattens his tongue against it, licking long, languid strokes through your folds to taste you entirely. His lips wrap around your clit carefully, sucking it into his mouth as your hand reaches back and finds his hair. Your thighs are a shaking mess as he holds onto you tighter, his cock painfully hard against his boxers and aching for release â threatening to come undone at the mere taste of you paired with your soft thank you, thank you, thank you.Â
He pulls away abruptly, using his strength to flip you onto your back before diving back in. Your thighs threaten to clamp shut around his head, but he doesnât care as he feels your walls flutter around his fingers as he brings you closer to the edge. Your voice is barely audible with the flesh of your thighs pressed against his ears, your fingers tangled in his hair once more as you come undone on his tongue.Â
He keeps his fingers inside you, thrusting them in and out gently as your thighs fall apart, trembling as he works you over with his tongue again. Â
âH-HaoââÂ
âYou can give me another. Just one more, then Iâll fuck you. Yeah?âÂ
Your legs must feel like jelly the way you spread them limply for him, your cunt covered in his spit and your cum as he slips his fingers out to smear your juices around. A soft gasp falls as he slides them back in with a coo, his lips pressing a kiss to your clit.Â
âMessy,â he murmurs, biting his lip at the wet squelching sound you make around his lithe fingers. He canât tell if youâre embarrassed or not, your hips grinding against his hand lazily as he peppers kisses across your hips. He nips at the skin, sucking soft marks as your whimpers fill the air, âgreedy, too. Just taking everything I give you, huh? Such a good girl for me.âÂ
Your reply is too quiet for him to hear, and he pushes off his knees, trailing kisses up your soft belly as your fingers rake through his hair. He plants his free hand next to your head as he feels himself press against your inner thigh, before his tongue slides in the valley of your breasts. He kisses the flesh carefully, open-mouthed as he makes his way up your throat. Your breathing is all soft pants and bitten moans as your swollen lips are shiny with spit. Your face is flushed as he kisses up your jaw, biting your earlobe lightly and making your eyes open slightly. Theyâre hazy, watery as your lashes are coated with tears of pleasure as he kisses the side of your face, your pussy clamping around his fingers as his lips ghost over yours.Â
âTell me you missed me.â His mouth brushes yours as you nod silently, ânah, not like that. Tell me. Tell me you missed my cock inside you.âÂ
He knows itâs not the same thing, but itâs all heâs got in the moment as your eyes widen, his thumb pressing against your clit as a choked sound falls from your lips. You cant your hips up, but he stills his fingers as he sinks his teeth into your lower lip, âsay it.â Â
âMissed your cock inside me,â you whisper, tilting your head up to kiss him. He lets you, slotting his lips with yours chastely as you wrap one leg around his hip, âmissed feeling you. Havenât stopped thinking about you.âÂ
The admission, fake or not, makes his fingers start moving again, your eyes rolling slightly before you shut them. You kiss him again, your hand gripping the ends of his hair between your fingers as if to keep yourself grounded. The kiss is all teeth and tongue, a groan from your lips as you taste yourself all over him, your pussy clamping around his fingers at it. He smirks into your kiss, gently rutting his cock against your thigh as you coat his fingers again with a shuddered whine.Â
Your hand shoves his fingers away as they circle your clit, shaking your head as you snap the waistband of his underwear against his hip, âtake them off. Wanna feel you.âÂ
You pull his fingers into your mouth, slipping your tongue between them and collecting your juices off his skin. His eyes are glued to your lips, swollen and bitten from his teeth as his other hand cups your breast, running his thumb over your nipple and smiling inwardly at the way your back arches off the mattress lightly. Your ankle kicks his hip lightly as you pull off his fingers with a pop, and he pushes off the mattress to reach into his pocket for his wallet. Â
Not a single condom in sight.Â
âShit,â he mutters, and you sit up, pointing at something on the nightstand. He glances at it â a pink pill case. Slots reading Monday through Sunday...Â
âYouâre clean, yeah?â You lean back on your elbows, your chest heaving slightly and your skin shiny with a layer of sweat. He nods, and you gesture at his jeans with your foot, the French tip pedicure glossy in the low light, âso take it off.âÂ
He wastes no time shucking off his pants and underwear in one go, hissing softly as his underwear brushes over his leaking cock. You sink your teeth into your lower lip as he wraps his hand around himself, a soft laugh slipping out as he slots himself between your legs. Â
âWhatâs so funny?â He asks as he spreads beads of his precum through your folds, a soft breath falling from your lips as you feel his tip bump your clit. You shake your head, ânothing.âÂ
âTell me.âÂ
â...Just nice to see you so worked up over going down on me.âÂ
âThatâs the way it should be,â he scoffs, forcing himself to focus as he grinds his cock against you, slick and messy with you all over his shaft. âGod, missed this pussy.âÂ
âJust her?â Your voice is airy as he pulls you to the edge of the mattress, your leg resting against his body and your foot against his cheek. He presses a kiss to the side of it, his other hand spreading your thighs apart to peer at your bare cunt against him. Â
âGotta miss you to miss this, you know. One plus one.â He grinds down against you harder, brushing his lips against your ankle as he feels your hole clench around nothing, empty and wanting for him. Â
âNot always the case.âÂ
âYouâve plagued me for the last two years, shut up.âÂ
His voice is lacking confidence as he feels himself grow close just from the feeling of you against him, feeling his limbs slightly fuzzy as he takes his cock in his hand, his tip circling your hole carefully.Â
âI wonât last very long,â he admits softly, and you tilt your hips up, his tip barely dipping inside you. He sinks in fully, his hips flush to yours as you clamp around him like a vice. A whine gets caught in his throat, annoyed at himself for being so close at the feeling of you â so wet and warm and delicious. âShit.âÂ
âFuck me,â you mewl, his hands moving to wrap around your thighs and pin you in place. He gives a roll of his hips, muffling his groan by sinking his teeth into your calf. Youâre trying to move against him, but he gives a harsh thrust, hitting that spongy spot inside you and making your back arch up off the bed. Your hands trail up your body, cupping the bottom of your breasts before running your fingers over your hardened nipples. He watches you through hooded eyes, fucking his cock into you at a menacing pace that makes you whimper his name sinfully. He rests his head against your leg, kissing the skin of it as you continue to touch yourself, rolling your nipple through your fingers as his lips ache to be wrapped around them.Â
He splays his hands on the underside of your thighs, holding them apart as he bends at the waist, dragging his tongue up from your navel and between your breasts before your hand finds home in his hair as he sucks one of your nipples into his mouth. He swirls his tongue around it, shivering at how hard you clench around him, your walls fluttering as your moans fill his head. He feels like itâs swimming, intoxicated with the smell and taste of you all over him as he switches sides, scraping the neglected bud lightly with his teeth and earning a tug of your fingers in his hair, his groan covering your skin as he laps at the peak gently.Â
âWant you to cum inside me,â you breathe out, âfill me up. Please.â Â
He doesnât respond, trying to stave himself off as his hips threaten to stutter. Your nails dig into his shoulders, dragging down slightly and he has to force himself to rip them away and pin them next to your head. He finds your lips, âcanât use your pretty nails. Have a show next week, baby.âÂ
You pout against his lips, kissing him slowly as he sinks lower against you, your chest flush to his. His hand slips out of yours, running between your bodies and curling around your hip as he sinks into your kiss. Itâs slow and sensual, your legs wrapping around his hips and locking your ankles at the dip of his spine as his cock twitches inside you.Â
âFeel so good,â his face is buried in your neck, his hand on your hip slipping between your thighs to circle your clit and make you finish before him. Youâre a whining mess under him, his eyes squeezing shut as he buries himself to the hilt inside you, feeling the rush of your orgasm dripping down his thighs and soaking the mattress as he spills inside you. Your chest is heaving in tandem with his as he rocks his hips into you, working you into overstimulation as your moans grow weak.Â
âSâtoo much,â youâre barely speaking above a whisper, and he covers your mouth with his as he stops, his hips flush to yours as he kisses you softly. You try to keep up, wrapping your arms around his neck and holding him close as his hands circle your knees, pushing them to your chest before carefully pulling out. He pulls away from your lips with a chaste kiss, his eyes glancing at the mess of you and him between your thighs.Â
He feels his cheeks hot as he looks back up at you, an embarrassed look glazing your eyes as you clear your throat.Â
â...I didnât even say hello when I walked in.â He says suddenly, and you cover your mouth with your hand as you bite back a sound akin to a snort. He presses your knees together, âhi.âÂ
âHey,â you laugh, running your hand through your hair. âItâs...nice to see you.âÂ
âCut the shit,â he scoffs, and you only laugh harder as your arms cover your chest. He smiles inwardly, pressing his forehead to your knees, âI donât know what came over me.âÂ
âMe either, but Iâm not mad about it.â You wipe at your eyes, before scrunching your nose, âIâm gonna have to ask to get the sheets changed and theyâre gonna know I got laid.âÂ
You cover your face with a pillow, letting out a groan of embarrassment as he laughs, âyouâre an adult and you had a visitor. Iâm sure they didnât think we were just going to talk.âÂ
âSpeaking of, you got here fast. Desperate to see me?â You lift the pillow just enough to show him the wiggle of your brows, only for him to tongue his lip and land a soft smack on your ass. You squeal, swatting his hand away as he turns his nose up, âI was taught never to keep a lady waiting.âÂ
âAnd you sure didnât,â you tease, making him stick his tongue out at you as his hands slide down your thighs. He gives them a soft squeeze as you toss the pillow aside, stretching your arms over your head. Youâre still covered with his spit and blooming nips of his teeth, âkind of a funny reunion, huh?âÂ
âThe NDA is up in two weeks, otherwise I wouldâve used it to get out of throwing that damn first pitch.â He admits, looking around before spotting a towel on the vanity. You snicker as he grabs it, carefully wiping you down. You wince here and there, before sitting up on your elbows, âthereâs more towels in the bathroom, if you want to...shower before you go.âÂ
âI canât promise it wonât get frisky if weâre both in there,â he murmurs, pressing a kiss to your knee.Â
âWho said I was joining you?âÂ
âThe fact that you probably canât even stand up on your own.âÂ
âDamn, got me there.â You sigh, his fingers massaging into the flesh of your thighs instinctively. A silence settles over you both, your eyes meeting as he smooths his palms against your skin. He squeezes carefully, "should we skip the small talk?"
You don't respond, merely spreading your knees with a quirk of your brow. He rolls his eyes, pinching your thigh gently and making you suck in a breath, "use words."
"I don't know what we are or what we're doing, if that's what you want to know," you say pointedly as he kneels back on the bed, his hands holding your knees apart as he scans your face. "I don't even know why I came to Shanghai. I don't plan ahead, I don't think twice. I just do it. I just go."
"So, you're reckless."
"I'm spontaneous."
"You're full of shit," he snorts, making you smirk as you shrug, opting to lay back against the bed with your arms crossed behind your head. His hands slid up your thighs, squeezing the soft dip of your hips carefully. You shrug again, hooking a finger around the dangling silver chain and giving it a soft tug.
"I'd say I'm a spontaneous young woman with a promising career and good taste in sexual deviants," you nod slowly, and he has to bite back the smile threatening to spread on his lips as he hovers over you. He presses his lips to yours chastely, feeling the warmth flushing on your cheeks as he cups your face gently.
"Sexual deviant, huh?"
"Sorry, do you prefer fuck buddy?"
"Shut up," he mutters against your lips, slotting them with his and swallowing the limp attempt at a chuckle from your throat. You card your fingers through his hair, tugging lightly at the roots as you kiss him eagerly. You're just as smooth with your tongue as you were then, carefully licking into his mouth as his hand wandered down between your bodies, wrapping around his cock. You spread your thighs further for him without breaking the kiss, and he smiles against your parted lips as he slides the tip of his cock through your slick folds. "Give me one for the road."
"Let me get on top."
"Whatever you want, baby."
MINGHAO DIDN'T END UP LEAVING YOUR HOTEL ROOM UNTIL AN HOUR BEFORE YOU DID.
He'd spent the entire night and most of the next day between your thighs, if not holding you flush to him in the shower and washing your hair for you. Conversations were fulfilling though limited, often interrupted by a pair of lips kissing some expanse of skin â he ignores the coil in his stomach when he thinks about the sweet taste of your lip balm fading as the night went on.
Another Monday night of parting feltâŠlaughable, honestly. He snorted at himself as he shoved himself into the black taxi he ordered, letting you kiss him goodbye one too many times for it to just be casual. Your scent lingered on his lips, his skin, and he felt exactly the same way he did when he left Osaka before you did â six hours earlier, pressing a lingering kiss to your soft mouth and wishing you a safe flight.
He'd done the same then, but he let you get carried away. He let you pull him in again, he almost let you take his pants off again but managed to get himself together before you could. You were almost too tempting, and it made his skin prickle as you watched from your door as he walked down the hall to the elevator. He stepped into it, thankful that there wasn't an awkward wait before waving again. He heard your laugh ring out before the doors closed, and he closed his eyes, gripping the railing and taking a deep breath.
This doesn't mean anything.
Just two people blowing off steam with someone that knows what the other likes.
He knows you prefer receiving oral, you know he prefers giving it. He knows that you're not into edging, rather overstimulation, he knows that you like to be held closely afterwards. He knows you like to be kissed breathless, that you like to be bitten, nipped at, suckled onâŠ
That you would rather be on top and control the narrative â but you know he craves that same control, grappling at the ends of his sanity the same way you do.
The spotlight is something you both share, and though in different lightsâŠyou understand each other. Flashing cameras, winded magazine articles, online criticism forums â neither of you discuss your professional lives in depth. He knows you like to dabble in drinking with friends or long nights out to distract from the giant baseball career weighing on your back, you know he disappears completely into EDM parties and recording sessions to duck out of the blinding runway lights.
There is an unspoken comfort, an unvoiced observance that gives you both the answers you seek about one another.
And yet, he still rolls his eyes when he finds himself wanting to hear your voice.
He hasn't seen you since that Monday in Shanghai. It's been a total of four days, and he made a pit-stop in Seoul before Seokmin, Seungkwan and Soonyoung hauled him to Daegu in the back of an unmarked SUV that felt suspiciously like a kidnapping â he eyed them with more suspicion as they whispered on and on within themselves before flashing him falsely reassuring smiles.
Your schedule was packed; you'd done a handful of interviews, a few features in magazines and updated your Instagram profile since. In which he saw himself, once more, riddled in the crevices of your photos. The same Shanghai skyline photo you'd taken, a few snapshots of beautifully plated dishes, you in fitting rooms and hanging out with blurred friendsâŠ
And a singular photo of you in the steamy bathroom mirror right after he'd washed your hair â clad in a loose pair of blueberry-print pajamas and a blur of his (accidentally) scratched back. You apologized for the nail marks, he just shook his head and pressed his lips to yours, swallowing your apologies and pressing you into the tile. He winced when the hot water hit his skin, your fingers squeezing his hip gently before you lathered gentle soap over the expanse of the lean muscle.
You had taken it after he kissed you for an hour until the water ran cool, wandering hands spreading soapy suds all over each other. After he'd grimaced at the bruising of his teeth littered on your skin, a mark sucked deep on your inner thigh. After he'd brushed his teeth next to you â the second toothbrush and his collection of jewelry glistening in the corner of the photo. The carousel has a soft song over top â Heart Burn by Sunmi, again.
diamonddazed: i hope i'll be home to you someday, even if shanghai is the closest i'll ever get to it.
You posted it just after he landed in Seoul at two-something in the morning, and was clambered into the SUV by his team. He stared at the photo for fifteen minutes, sat in the back of the van before closing his eyes and shamelessly double tapping the screen. He turned his phone off right after, sliding it into the cup holder and settling his neck into the travel pillow Seungkwan had slid over his shoulders.
They'd been far too awake for two in the morning.
The team kept the curtains drawn, but he couldn't sleep â opting to stare out the sunroof as dawn crept in, his eyes burning with fatigue. Seokmin typed away on his laptop next to Minghao, eyes low as they peered at the screen's low brightness. He clicked around, rubbing his face once or twice before Minghao reached over and blindly closed the laptop. Seokmin sighed, settling his rigid shoulders into the stiff leather seats.
"You're supposed to be sleeping," he says softly, and Minghao peels an eye open as far as he can with a shrug, "I have a pit in my stomach."
"Tomorrow is a short day, don't worry. We'll have all day to rest up today."
"When does the game happen?"
"Six, but we'll be there by four to get you situated with everyone. Take some pictures, get some refreshments, maybe have one of the players help on your form. You might not care about baseball, but it's important you leave a good impression."
"I assume this was all said in that groupchat with Seungcheol?" He murmurs back, lolling his head against the seat as Seokmin nods, "and Y/N."
"I'm sorry?"
"Y/N Kim. The pitcher? She's in the group."
Minghao feigns confusion, shrugging before closing his eyes. He feels his cheeks warm at the memory of your lips on his, your fingers carding through his hair with a rough tug that made him sink his teeth into the column of your throat.
"Right. Is she nice?"
"Yes, very. She'll be at dinner with Seungcheol with us, but she won't be staying there like we will."
"Cool, coolâŠanyone else I should know about?"
"Sure," he shrugs, crossing his arms on his chest. He eyes Minghao hard enough that the younger man can feel it, prompting him to look over, "mhm?"
"Jeonghan flew in." Seokmin raises a brow, and Minghao snorts, "Jeonghan? What for? We have a show."
"Because Seungcheol asked him to."
"You'd think those two would have tied the knot by now."
"Someone's dragging their feet and it's not Jeonghan."
"Ooh, messy," Minghao chuckles, shaking his head, "I forget they're dating at times."
"Don't we all," Seokmin stretches his legs as best as he can, wincing as soreness creeps up his thighs from the cramped seat. "I'm just hoping they'll do it sooner rather than later. Jeonghan's impatient and Seungcheol keeps pushing it back with things happening in their careers. I wouldn't be surprised if Seungcheol flew to Tokyo with us at this point."
"The more the merrier."
The rest of the ride is splattered with small talk â the weather, what does Minghao want to wear, is he comfortable staying at Seungcheol's house instead of a hotelâŠbut none of it really registers. Minghao gives half-assed answers, bunching his blanket high on his lap when he feels his phone buzz in his pocket. Seokmin has dozed off, his cheek mushed against his own travel pillow as Minghao digs his phone out of his pocket.
NEW! 3 Messages from: Y/N
[5:29 AM] Hiii
[5:29 AM] Cheollie told me you're staying with him? Is that true?
[5:29 AM] I miss you.
He bites back his smile, tonguing his lip as he quickly types a few responses out. He sends them off, pressing his thumb to his lips as he watches the read receipt pop up almost immediately.
Message To: Y/N
[5:30 AM] Five in the morning, shouldn't you be in bed?
[5:30 AM] Yes, we're staying with Seungcheol. I don't know why but I'm not complaining, either.
[5:30 AM] And to say you miss meâŠfeels like a lie, hm?
NEW! 3 Messages from: Y/N
[5:30 AM] I am in bed, Mr. Xu. Just checking in đ
[5:30 AM] Seungcheol invited me to dinner tomorrow after the game but I haven't given him an answer in case you don't want me there.
[5:30 AM] Maybe I'm a little tipsy but I still mean it. Come see me if you wantâŠI'd love to see you.
He can picture you sprawled on your bedsheets in those soft pajamas you like. Freshly washed hair, with the taste of soju on the tip of your tongue â he'd seen you in Mingyu's Instagram story earlier that night with Jihyo and Tzuyu, huddled over a steaming hot pot and clinking shot glasses together.
You'd looked pretty. The strap of your dress had fallen down your shoulder, and you were squished against Jihyo's smiling face with all your teeth gleaming in the flash of the camera, plump lips slick with gloss and those very same nails that dragged down his back.
Message To: Y/N
[5:32 AM] And I'd love to come see you but I'm on zero sleep. I'd be of no use to your needs.
[5:33 AM] ButâŠcome to dinner. Wear something pretty.
Your message comes in almost instantly.
NEW! 2 Messages From: Y/N
[5:33 AM] Come see me anyway. I only live down the block from Seungcheol, you can lie and say you're getting breakfast at the convenience store across from me.
[5:33 AM] Please.
Minghao chews on his lip â glancing up to the dashboard and seeing that he'll be in Seungcheol's neighborhood in less than three minutes. He doesn't think about it too much; silently transferring a shirt and pair of sleep pants into his backpack as Seokmin snores softly.
He'll make up an excuse later.
Getting out of Seungcheol's house is a lot easier than anticipated. His team was far too tired to question why he was so awake, and he helped them all settle in Seungcheol's spare rooms. Seungcheol and Jeonghan were getting tipsy on the back deck, and Minghao let them know he'd be slipping out for a second. Seungcheol glanced at him, eyes glassy as he gave him a soft smile.
"Y/N's gate code is 1-1-0-9." He sang quietly, and Minghao only feigned amusement, ruffling the older man's hair before ducking out the enormous front doors. He shoved his hands in his pockets, thankful for the chilly air that kept him alert as he made his way down to your house. You'd been telling him you'd fall asleep if he didn't get there soon â and he wonders if you've fallen asleep when he stands in front of the heavy steel gates of your home. He glances around, nibbling on his lip before flipping the gate pad open and typing in the numbers Seungcheol had teased him with.
The gates unlock with a clunk, and he slips in and shuts it with his foot. He makes sure the lock has moved back in place before glancing up, seeing you standing at the open glass doors. Your pajamas are rumpled and you're squinting in the morning sun, your hand covering your eyebrows as he makes his way up the mosaic path made of colorful stones.
"You're unbelievable," he greets, fighting back a smile as you grin brightly. You're still clearly tipsy, the sway in your stance amusing as he steadies you carefully when you reach your arms out to him. He reaches one hand back to close and lock your front door; the other carding through your hair as you hum in satisfaction, resting your chin on his chest as you wrap your arms around his waist. "Still tipsy?"
"Oh, I got hammered. I can't tell you how I'm standing right now."
"On your legs."
"You're really annoying."
"Yet, you begged me to come over." Minghao chides, his fingers settling on the back of your neck as you give him a deadpan look, "begged is hyperbole, Mr. Xu. Take your shoes off."
"Hyperbole, understatementâŠit's whatever you say, sweetheart." He shrugs as he toes off his shoes, and you do the same, puckering your lips cutely. He rolls his eyes, craning his neck to press a chaste kiss to them; the minty scent of toothpaste wafting off. You twist out of his hold, sliding your fingers in his and tugging him towards the back of the house.
The common areas say more about you than he could've ever figured â dozens, if not hundreds of photos and memories scatter the baby blue walls from crown molding to baseboards. Huge art pieces are tastefully hung around the living room, gorgeous Tiffany lamps on glossy side tables, a beautiful deep sapphire sofa set with soft throw blankets. A pair of cream pillows with golden stitching are strewn on the recliner in the corner, the coffee table exhibiting an open book with highlighter and annotations next to a journal with blue ink scrawled across the lined pages.
"This is my humble abode, you can get a tour later." You hoot, pulling him through a dimmer hallway. The walls are painted a deep cherry red behind the quilted sapele shelves of vinyls, a player atop a barely open matching credenza. If he peeked inside, he'd see even more vinyls â retired ones you no longer played until you remember that one good song, what was it? I think I have the record!
Your bedroom is nothing like what he'd expect from you. The walls are forest green, the curtains dark brown and the blinds drawn. Your bed is in the middle of the room, surrounded by stunning zebrano furniture. Your ceiling boasts a massive fan, the blades shaped like moth wings and spinning slowly. The walls are covered with baseball paraphernalia, rock music posters, a Catwoman poster next to your closet and another vinyl â Hold The Girl by Rina Sawayama, hung directly above another player.
"Do you like?" You ask, your hair still in disarray as you tilt your head. He nods slowly, "very cool. EarthyâŠa little dark."
"I'm gonna have a massive hangover. Gotta keep it dark for now."
"Oh, no doubt babe."
"Not your babe."
"True," he says pointedly, glancing down at you. You're pouting, and he coos; lithe fingers tucking your hair behind your ears. He toys with the earrings speckled about the shells, a gold hoop catching his attention as he fiddles with it, "what's with the face?"
"You didn't call."
"AhhâŠdid you want me to?"
"âŠMaybe. I don't know."
You shrug, toying with the strings of his sweatpants. He hums, smoothing his hand over your hair before pressing his lips to your forehead, "we can talk about this later, yeah? When you're not tipsy and I'm not about to pass out."
"We could, yeah." You agree quietly, dropping your hands from his clothes and gesturing towards the bathroom, "that way. You can change or shower, too, I set some stuff out in case you did."
"Can barely stand but is a good host. Very redeeming."
"Careful, you'll fall in love with me and I don't quite feel like cleaning up that mess."
He chuckles, pinching your cheek as you swat at his hip. He makes his way to the bathroom, the door ajar as he slips in. He hears you shuffling around, likely making yourself comfortable as he flicks the light on â a soft yellow light illuminates a stone shower with a smooth bench and golden fixtures. There's a fluffy white towel on the sink, a new toothbrush laid out next to it with a small array of travel toiletries. He tongues his cheek, glancing at himself in the mirror â more pictures of you and your friends. Polaroids taken in that very bathroom tucked neatly into the corners of the mirror's frame. Mingyu, Tzuyu, Hansol, Jihyo. A bunch of other people he's met in passing â Yoo Jeongyeon (a singer-songwriter), Jeon Wonwoo (a photographer for Cherry Jubilee)âŠ
Wen Junhui, his life-long best friend and an actor â also a model on his limited free time for Cherry Jubilee and the face of Tzuyu's Lazy Baby menswear. He raises a brow, filing the photo away in his mind as he strips to get in the shower.
He doesn't let himself think much as he goes through the motions of his routine, opting to get in quick and get out quicker. He brushes his teeth, opting to towel dry his hair so as to not wake you if you're already asleep. He glances at the pictures once more, his eyes lingering on Junhui's squished cheek with yours before flicking the light off and ducking back out.
You're curled into a ball, facing away from the bathroom but the duvet is pulled back where he assumes you want him to lay down. You stir slightly, your hand blindly reaching behind you as he slips onto the mattress. Your fingers brush his shirt, quickly bunching it in your hand as you pull him down. He bites back his smile, sinking into the bed behind you and pulling the duvet over his hips. Your hand grabs his, interlacing your fingers and holding them to your chest.
"Can I ask you something?" He murmurs, and you hum, nodding as he curls himself around you, holding himself up on his elbow. He peers down at you, biting back his smile at the way your lashes kiss your cheeks. "What's your walk-up song?"
You snort, letting out a tired laugh as you peel an eye open, raking it over his face as he leans over you. He presses his lips to your cheek, the warmth of your skin flushing against his, "it's When I Grow Up by The Pussycat Dolls."
"You've always known you'd be a big deal, huh?"
"I was made for this. Now, sleep. Hold me."
He snickers, planting a kiss to your temple as you hum. Your hand is tight around his, high on your chest as he buries your face in the back of your neck, a thin necklace brushing his lips. Your skin smells of pears and lilies, an underlying powder scent filling his nose as he sighs, letting his body sag into the mattress.
He doesn't bother thinking about how he could fall in love with you.
And maybe, already has.
THE BALL PARK IS MASSIVE â MINGHAO CAN'T REMEMBER THE LAST TIME HE'D SEEN SOMETHING SO ARTIFICIALLY GREEN.
He's still peeking out through one of the hallways, basking in the chill of the air conditioning that will disappear the moment he steps onto the field. There's people sitting in the stands that aren't exactly customers. There's managers, photographers, even interviews happening right on the turf. Some players are dressed fully, caps set backwards and casualness drifting off their set-back shoulders â and then there's you, in black shorts and a Daegu Diamonds Training Camp t-shirt and standing at the mound.
A woman in standing in front of you but he knows its you â red nails, now trimmed short, digging into your arms as you cross them on your chest. She's got you looking up, passing a fluffy brush under your eyes before allowing you to step back from her. Your lips have that same gloss carefully glimmering under the lights, and your hair is slicked back with a sheen of gel â but he can't focus on just you as more people surround you. A taller man hands you a ball of many in his bag and a permanent marker, making you talk about one thing or another as you're scribbling your autograph on the composite leather.
"That's Y/N Kim." Seokmin's voice is suddenly in his ear, as is the slosh of the ice in a drink. Minghao glances down, seeing Seokmin holding a Daegu Diamonds Collectible cup filled to the brim with lemonade and covered with a clear lid â and a jersey draped over his arm with a matching one resting on his shoulders.
"Guess you're having the time of your life, huh?" Minghao chuckles, and Seokmin shrugs as he holds the jersey out to him. It's a crisp white with the signature powder blue and navy grey details of the Daegu Diamonds logo, and it's not sporting any of the autographs that Seokmin's is. "You earn those stripes?"
"You know it," Seokmin sips his drink, before gesturing around the park. "I spent my weekends growing up driving all around the country with my parents to see the Diamonds play. Got the shirt big so it'd fit forever. Look at me now, close with the players and with season tickets! OhâŠand bringing you along!"
"Aww, you're sweet," Minghao chuckles as he rolls his eyes, carefully taking the jersey and pulling it over his shirt. He doesn't bother buttoning it, opting to look around the park from his spot in the hall, "we'll be in the audience during the game?"
"And we're having dinner with Seungcheol and Y/N before we fly out tomorrow at noon. The other teammates have plans, and a few are actually going out to Japan to see you strut your stuff," Seokmin bumps Minghao's hip with his, before the crunch of cleats and your voice traveling catches his attention.
"It was incredible! Shanghai never disappoints me," your laugh is soft as you're suddenly in front of him and Seokmin. Your eyes are wide as you feign surprise, extending your hand to him, "you must beâŠMinghao. I heard I was going to meet you today."
"Xu Minghao, yes. He's throwing your first pitch today!" Seokmin beams beside him, as Minghao carefully takes your hand as though he hadn't pinned it by your head only a week earlier. You gave his a soft squeeze, "you're even more ethereal in person."
"Haven't heard that one yet." Minghao smiles gently, making you roll your eyes. "Y/N Kim. I've heard a lot aboutâŠyou."
"You don't know a thing about baseball."
"Not nearly as much as I know about soccer."
"Zero times zero is still zero, Mr. Xu."
"Sense of humor, I like her," Minghao looks over his shoulder at Seokmin. He's got that twinkle in his eye that Minghao has learned to recognize when he wants to say something he shouldn't. "Whatever you're thinkingâ"
"I'm not thinking anything! Y/N, beloved, teach this guy a thing or two." Seokmin pats Minghao's shoulder, before his eyes catch your hand still holding his. "You can't hold hands, rumors will fly."
"Not a baseball player and a model, what would the people say?" You pretend to be scandalized, but effectively drop Minghao's hand to hold your own to his chest. "Xu Minghao steps into the Diamond LifeâŠpretty catchy headline."
"I'll leave you two to thisâŠodd mating dance," Seokmin turns on his heel, and Minghao almost turns to face you before Seokmin turns once more, "oh, don't let me forgetâŠI'll ask why you're both wrapped up in an NDA dated back two years after the game."
Your face reads like a book â and Seokmin only smiles before holding his phone up.
"Don't CC me next time!" He beams, walking backwards before turning around and calling Seungcheol's name, the captain whipping his head over to see him bounding over. Minghao gingerly reaches over and closes your mouth, his knuckle tapping your chin as a sheepish smile spreads on his lips.
"I may or may not have forgotten that my email is automatically set to do that." He says softly, and you cross your arms with what he can't discern is playful or serious disappointment. He matches your expression easily, "hey, it's no better than you soft-launching us on your Instagram! My back, my jewelry, my jacketâ"
"You don't even follow me on there! How could you possiblyâ"
"You're involved in so many people's lives that are important to me. It's only common sense that you'd eventually make that team, too." He states firmly, and you make no move to hide the way a soft smile is spreading on your lips. "Stop."
"Aw, I'm important to you?"
"Y/N."
"Invite me to your show in Tokyo."
You're almost too close, your hands clasped behind your back as you bat your lashes at him. He scoffs out a laugh, cheeks warming at the proximity as he realizes people around you give absolutely zero fucks about either of you.
He could kiss you and no one would care.
He wants to. And he wants them to care and he wants to brag.
"Don't you have to go practice or something?" Minghao's voice is much less confident with you in his face, his eyes flickering down to your lips as you pout. His knees feel slightly weak, "don't do that."
"Invite me to your show, Minghao."
"I already know that Jeonghan gave you a ticket on my behalf."
"TrueâŠbut I want to hear it from you."
He rolls his eyes, his hands finding home on your hips and pulling you slightly closer. You easily drape your arms over his shoulders, peering at him through your lashes with a shy smile, "I missed you."
"You saw me yesterday. In your bed, mind you."
"MmhâŠbut you didn't kiss me before you left."
"Didn't know our NDA required goodbye kisses."
You press your lips to his gently, his arms tightening around your waist as he nips at your lower lip, "come to my show."
"Say please and I might even let youâ"
"We're in public. Please come to my show and tell me I look pretty."
You only smile against his lips, "can I soft launch on Instagram again?"
"If that's what you need to do to ease me into the Diamond Life."
"Come on, loser. I can't have my NDA partner embarrassing himself on the mound. Today, pitcher. TomorrowâŠsupermodel. What a life you live."
Minghao hadn't bothered to hide the way your thigh was thrown over his at dinner, and neither of you explained anything to Seokmin â it was easy to figure out. Seungcheol and Jeonghan had fun dissecting your vague Instagram posts, finding details of Minghao in almost any and every post â including the orchid-stamped signet ring that was in almost every single one of your posts. Minghao doesn't know how he missed it, but all he knows is that he'd really missed you.
It's been three days since the show.
You'd sat quietly, dressed in a beautiful red dress from Tzuyu's unreleased Lazy Baby Spring collection â and that same dress was featured hanging in the back of one of the photos in Minghao's latest Instagram post. Along with a snapshot (courtesy of Jeonghan) of your hand tucked into the back pocket of his jeans while the two of you roamed Tokyo, a cropped picture of your friends all crowded together in a too-small booth for a delicious dinnerâŠ
And a picture of your hands interlaced, with a new, matching orchid-stamped signet ring on his finger â all of it set to Heartburn by Sunmi.
xuminghao_o: home, no matter where we are.
âł đšïždiamonddazed: welcome to the diamond life, lover âĄ
he has spent four lifetimes repenting for his sins and searching for you. in the fifth, he finally gets it right.
â tags: romance, angst, hurt/comfort, reincarnation!au, past lives!au. mentions of death & sins, character death, war, injuries, historical inaccuracies, profanity, alcohol consumption, implied sexual content, etc. title from hozierâs song of the same name. 8.7k words.
SEOUL, KOREA.
EARLY WINTER, 1936.
Itâs become a habit now, for Mingyu to walk the alley behind Hwaryeohan Cha-jip every morning. He tells himself heâs just passing through, just out for air, but his feet always take the same turnâpast the ink shop, past the frozen rice fields. The snow came early that year, dusting the rooftops of Bukchon in white. Mingyu walks until he finds the teahouse, half-tucked between two aging hanoks, with its faded wooden sign and wind chimes made of porcelain spoons.
You work there. Heâs known this for a week now.
You sweep the floors with your hair tied up in a red ribbon, humming songs no one else seems to know. You boil water in the back room, your sleeves rolled up past your elbows, wrists red from the heat. Sometimes you lean out the window to shake out a cloth, and Mingyu watches from across the street, heart in his throat, as if looking at you might somehow unmake the curse.
It doesnât.
The Fifth Kingâs words still echo like older thunder in his ears. One lifetime for every sin, the king had said. He doesnât remember what he did to deserve this; only that it was enough to curse him with memory, and longing, and you.
You, who never remembers him. You, who are always just out of reach.
Still, this life feels different. Heâs not a lonely musician. Heâs just Mingyu. Just a man in a wool coat with frayed sleeves and too many lifetimes folded into the lines around his eyes.
Somehow, that compels him to step inside.
The bell above the teahouse door is delicate and cracked, like itâs been broken and glued back together a dozen times. It tinkles faintly as he enters, and you glance up from behind the counter. He orders ginger tea. Itâs too hot, a little bitter. He drinks it anyway.
You donât say much to him at first, just slide the cup forward with a polite nod, fingers dusted with flour, and return to kneading dough in the back. Mingyu sits in the corner, watching steam curl from the rim of his cup, pretending to read a book heâs read a thousand times before.
He returns the next day. And the next.
Sometimes you smile at him. Sometimes you ask if he wants something sweet with his tea. He always says yes, just to hear your voice again.
âDo you work nearby?â you ask one morning, wiping your hands on your apron.
âNo,â he says. âI walk a lot.â
You tilt your head. âEven in the snow?â
âEspecially then,â he says, and you laugh. The sound cuts through every century heâs lived without you. It makes something ancient in him ache.
You tell him your name one day. He already knows it, of course, but he pretends itâs the first time. He says it softly, rolls it on his tongue like a promise.
He brings small things sometimes: a book of poems; a silk ribbon the same colour as the one you wear; once, a tiny jade rabbit charm that he leaves near the register when youâre not looking. You find it later and keep it in your purse. You never ask if itâs from him, and he never tells you.
Some days, he helps. He carries water from the well; repairs a broken chair leg; teaches you how to fold paper cranes when the shop is slow. You sit across from him at the low table, your hands awkward at first, and he watches you fold the wings silently.
You crease the edge of the paper with your thumbnail, tongue poking out slightly in concentration. Mingyu doesnât laugh, though the sight of you furrowing your brow over something as simple as a paper crane is enough to pull a smile to his mouth. He leans forward and gently adjusts the angle of the folded wing.
âLike this,â he says quietly.
Your fingers brush, briefly, barely. Itâs nothingâbut to him, itâs everything.
After that, you start leaving out an extra cup when you brew tea in the morning, even before he walks in. He tells you that he prefers ginger tea with honey, that he likes his bread warm and his jam unsweetened. Sometimes he hums under his breath when he reads, even though his eyes donât always move across the page.
He learns that you braid your hair when youâre nervous, and that youâre saving up for a trip to Busan, and that you talk to the teapot when you think no oneâs listening.
Sometimes, when it snows harder than usual, you donât get any customers and the city stays quiet. On those days, you sit across from each other on the heated floorboards, sipping tea and listening to the wind rattle the windows.
Once, you fall asleep like thatâcheek pressed to your folded arms, exhaustion shuttering your eyelids. Mingyu doesnât wake you. He watches the snow gather on the windowsill and thinks about how peaceful your face looks in this life.Â
He wonders if this is enough. If friendship is enough.
You wake, embarrassed, and he just smiles and tells you to rest more. You blink at him, still sleepy but shake your head, so he asks if you want to learn how to fold a lotus next. You do.
PARIS, FRANCE.
SUMMER, 1890.
Itâs your honeymoon. At least, thatâs what the world thinks.
The hotel is charming in the way French hotels are supposed to beâwrought-iron balconies, velvet drapes, and wallpaper the colour of old pearls. The floorboards creak under his feet, and the hallways smell faintly of orange blossoms and candlewax.
Below, the Seine coils through the city, meandering long and slow. Gondoliers shout in lilting voices from the water. The bouquinistes have already opened their green boxes along the banks, selling secondhand poetry and crumbling maps to tourists who still believe Paris belongs to lovers.
The light falls soft on your face where you sit at the vanity, brushing your hair in long, even strokes, the red ribbon that youâd used to tie your hair back wrapped around your wrist. Your nightgown is lace-trimmed and far too sheer for the cool morning. He thinks it must be uncomfortable, but you wear it anyway, spine straight, chin lifted, always composed. You donât look at him. You havenât looked at him all morning.
There are two coffee cups on the table. One is untouched. You didnât like the roast, but you wonât tell him that. Youâll let it sit there and grow cold because indifference is your sharpest weapon, and you know exactly how to wield it.
The lace shifts again as you move, bare shoulders catching the gold light. Itâs almost enough to make him forget; almost enough to believe this life could be different. Maybe, if he just reached outâif he touched your shoulder, softly, just onceâyouâd remember something. The way your fingers once curled around the fabric of his hanbok, or the way you said his name.
Itâs your honeymoon, and you can barely stand to be in the same room.
TOKYO, JAPAN.
SPRING, ONE WEEK AGO.
Mingyu promises to take you to see the cherry blossoms after work.
Youâre half-asleep on the sofa when he tells you, legs tucked beneath you, your blouse rumpled and your slacks creased at the knees. Your fingers are curled around a mug of ginger tea youâve forgotten to sip from, the steam long faded. The apartment glows in the evening lightâlow and golden, brushing everything it touches with warmth. It rests on your cheek, your collarbone, the line of your neck.
The window is cracked open just enough for the air to carry the sound of birds and distant footsteps. Someone laughs downstairsâthe neighbourâs kid, maybe, or a passing couple. In the kitchen, the rice cooker clicks off with a soft chime, and the smell of jasmine rice begins to mingle with the faint perfume of laundry soap and honey.
The sakura have started blooming early this year, soft clouds of pink dusting every street, like the cityâs been dipped in blush and left to dry slowly. He noticed them that morning on his walk to the train: the way petals clung to the sidewalk like confetti, the way one landed on the shoulder of your coat and you didnât notice.
âDonât forget,â you mumble without opening your eyes, voice warm and worn out, lips brushing the rim of the mug. Your feet are bare, and you wiggle your toes sleepily when he sits beside you.
âI wonât,â Mingyu says, and he means it.
He never forgets, not in this life.
He reaches over and gently lifts the mug from your hands, careful not to spill it, and sets it on the coffee table beside your phone and a half-finished crossword. Your handwriting is in blue penâcurvy, a little impatient. He glances at it, then turns his attention back to you.
âYou should change out of your work clothes,â he says.
âMâcomfy,â you whisper, not moving an inch.
He laughs softly. âYou say that. Then you complain about the wrinkles in the morning.â
You hum noncommittally, already slipping towards sleep. Your head tilts until it rests against his shoulder. He shifts a little to make it easier. Your hair smells like lemongrass shampoo and the rose spray you use in early spring. Mingyu leans his cheek gently against the top of your head.
âAre we going tomorrow or Saturday?â you ask.
âTomorrow,â Mingyu says. âI want to go before the crowds come.â
âYou hate crowds,â you agree, nodding.
âYou hate them more.â
You smile. âSmart man.â
Mingyu slides his arm behind your back, warm and solid and steady. He closes his eyes and listensâto your breath, to the tick of the clock on the wall.
NEW ORLEANS, LOUISIANA.
EARLY SUMMER, 1972.
Mingyu slings his arm over your bare waist, and thinks that this might be the life.
Maybe the Fifth King took pity on him. Maybe this is a loophole, and it comes with jazz and heat and the way your lipstick smeared against his collar an hour ago. Maybe itâs not a trick. Maybe, for once, he gets to stay.
Your breath is steady now, but your skin is still flushed, slick with the last traces of sweat. The cotton sheets stick to your thigh where itâs thrown over his hip, and your fingers twitch against his ribs, still restless in sleep.
He lets his hand drift up the slope of your side, slow and gentle. He watches your lashes flutter, the corner of your mouth twitch as you stir.
âAre you awake?â he asks.
You hum without opening your eyes. âBarely.â
He presses a kiss behind your ear. âShould I stop?â
âIf youâre asking that, you already know the answer.â
So Mingyu doesnât stop. His hand moves, slow and familiar now, tracing the curve of your hip. You shift closer, still half-asleep, until your leg slides between his and your mouth brushes against the underside of his jaw.
Itâs easy like this. Too easy.
Your bodies know each other even if your minds donât. Thereâs no fumbling anymore, no pretending. Just heat and breath and the memory of his name whispered into the crook of his neck, again and again, like youâre trying to brand yourself into him. Maybe you are.
He holds you afterward, and listens to the rain starting up again outside the windowâsoft at first, then steadier. Jazz spills in from the bar two floors down, muffled by distance and glass, but still there. Like everything in this city, it lingers.
âYouâre staring,â you say eventually, not unkindly.
âI do that,â Mingyu says.
âWhy?â
âDo I need a reason?â
You make a soft sound in the back of your throat, somewhere between amusement and disbelief, and burrow deeper into his chest. Your fingers trace a line over his collarbone, idle and absentminded, like youâre not really thinking about what youâre doing.
âYou always act like you know something I donât,â you mumble. âLike youâve been waiting for me to figure it out.â
Mingyu swallows. âFigure out what?â
âWhatever it is you keep hiding behind your eyes,â you say. âYou always look so sad, Mingyu.â
His arm tightens around you just slightly.Â
Youâre not wrong. You never are, not in any life. Even without memory, your intuition is as sharp as itâs always been. Youâre like a compass that always swings toward the truth, even when the truth is something you have no idea about.Â
Mingyu considers lying, or laughing it off. But you shift again, and your thigh brushes against his. Youâre closeâso close, close enough that he almost lets the truth slip past his teeth. Youâve died in my arms before. Youâve looked at me with your last breath. Iâve been cursed to find you again and again and again.
Instead, he says, âMaybe I just like the way you look when you sleep.â
âPoetic.â
âI try.â
You lift your head to look at him. Thereâs mascara smudged beneath your eyes, and a tiny crease on your cheek where it pressed against the pillow. Your mouth is a little swollen from kissing, and your voice is hoarse in the way that drives him insane.
âYou know this isnât forever, right?â you say, softly, like youâre offering him a kindness by saying it first.
âI know,â Mingyu says.
You nod, like thatâs what you needed to hear. âGood.â
But you donât move. You donât pull away. You rest your chin on his chest and look at him like youâre memorising the shape of his nose and the colour of his eyes.
âGod,â you whisper after a while. âThis would be so much easier if you were an asshole.â
Mingyu laughs and says, âI can be, if it helps.â
âNo,â you say, shaking your head. âYouâre good. Thatâs the problem.â
He kisses your forehead and tries not to think about the way your voice cracked.
JOSEON, KOREA.
WINTER, 1798.
It is snowing the first time Mingyu sees you, and your name forms on his mouth like habit.
Itâs not the name you carry nowânot the one assigned to you by court records and a royal appointment, or the one embroidered into the hem of your hanbok in gold thread. It is the name youâve had in your previous lifetime. The name heâs whispered into your skin, into your dying hands.
Mingyu doesnât say it aloud. He doesnât dare.
He watches you from the far side of the courtyard, where the snow has muffled the world and the stone paths disappear beneath white. His breath fogs in the air. A court servant speaks beside himâsomething about a grain levy in Jeollaâbut Mingyu isnât listening. He couldnât, even if he tried.
You walk gracefully, holding a lacquered tray to your chest, with your back straight. Your hair is pulled into a sleek bun, adorned with a single ornamental binyeo shaped like a plum blossom. It is the sign of a new concubine: favoured and untouched. The wind catches your sleeve and flutters it gently, and his chest clenches at the sight of your wrist. A thousand memories flicker through his mind like reeds in the current.
Yet, your face is unfamiliar in this first life. Younger, and softer. Your eyes donât carry memory. You donât look at him with recognition or contempt. You donât look at him at all.
You pass through the courtyard, and Mingyu stands frozen under the shadow of a ginkgo tree, as though time itself has collapsed.
Later, in his private study, he asks about you. He pretends itâs nothingâan idle inquiry wrapped in courtesy, spoken to the right eunuch over warm rice wine.
âThe girl who came last month,â he says, carefully. âThe concubine gifted by the Governor of Gangwon. What do we know of her?â
âThe new Lady?â The eunuch says your new name, the one that doesnât feel right in Mingyuâs mouth. âShe is quiet and well-mannered. Literate, I believe, though she comes from no family of rank. She entered the palace under the northern courtâs petitionâher village suffered a flood, and her people sought mercy. The Governor offered her as tribute.â
âTribute,â Mingyu repeats, tasting the word like ash.
âShe was chosen for her beauty,â the eunuch adds. âNothing more.â
PARIS, FRANCE.
SUMMER, 1890.
You married him because you had to.
It was a bargain struck behind closed doors, a compromise made with fathers and fortunes and convenience. He had wealth, and you had a family in debt. It was all very civilised, very French. The papers printed your photograph beside a headline that called it a union of elegance and fortune. They didnât print the part where you refused to meet his eyes.
At dinner, you speak to him in French, formally, like a woman who doesnât wish to be misunderstood, and doesnât care to be known. You order for yourself. You never ask if heâs read the books you quote. You let the silence stretch until it breaks and sip your half-finished wine instead.
Mingyu lets you. He nods when appropriate, smiles when it seems polite, swirls his wine, and pretends not to watch the way you cut your food too carefully.
He thinks about how different your voice sounds in this life. How your laughter is a stranger to him. He remembers the you who laughed easily, the you who danced barefoot in the snow, the you who wrote him letters in the margins of books and left pressed flowers between the pages. That version of you isnât here.
In this lifetime, you wear gloves to dinner and never once let your fingers brush his.
But youâre beautiful. God, youâre beautiful.
It kills him a little, every time.
You look like a painting heâs seen before and canât quite place; one heâs spent lifetimes trying to find again. Now that youâre hereâflesh and blood, name and ring and contractâyouâre more unreachable than ever.
You donât sleep in the same bed. The suite has two, and thatâs something you requested specifically. He remembers the clerk glancing at him with a look that hovered between pity and apology.
The bellboy had asked, âMadame, shall I draw the curtains between the beds?â
âYes, thank you,â you had said.
You donât ask him questions: not about his work, not about his past. Not about the faraway look he sometimes gets when the light hits the Seine just right. He doesnât ask you, either. The truth is, you are not his, in this life.
He wonders if you dream of him. He wonders if somewhere deep in your chest, beneath the silk and bone and flesh, something stirs when he says your name. He wonders if you ever wake in the middle of the night with a pang in your heart that you donât understand.
Mingyu hopes so, because he has woken up like that every night of this life.
SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA.
WINTER, 1937.
By the time Seollal passes and the paper lanterns are taken down, the people in the neighbourhood begin to noticeânot with suspicion or idle gossip, but with a kind of slow, blooming fondness. They donât whisper behind their hands or snicker when Mingyu walks by. Instead, they smile.
The old woman with the parrotâMadam Kwon, who lives above the fermented soybean shopâstarts referring to Mingyu as your shadow. Every morning, as she feeds her bird sesame seeds and counts her prayer beads in the sun, she croaks out, âYour shadowâs early today,â when Mingyu turns the corner near the tea shop. The parrot repeats her, mangled and gleeful. Sha-dow, sha-dow!
You glance up from the window, smothering a smile.
The boy from across the alley, barely thirteen, who runs errands for the ink shop, has started tipping his cap at Mingyu each morning. One day, when he passes, he calls out with the overconfidence of youth, âShe likes persimmons, you know. Bring her some. The kind with the wrinkly skins.â
Mingyu hides his amusement behind a polite nod. The next day, a small cloth pouch of dried persimmons appears on the tea shop counter. You donât say anything, just tuck them into the cupboardâbut you save one, and when Mingyu comes in at closing, you place it on a small plate beside his tea without a word.
The grocer, Mr. Baek, an older man with a permanent frown and a weak knee, lets Mingyu pick through the fresh vegetables first whenever he sees him on the path to the tea shop.
âYou work too hard, boy,â Mr. Baek grumbles as Mingyu hoists a basket of firewood onto one shoulder.
âHeâs not a boy,â Madam Kwon snorts from her usual perch. âHeâs a man, Baek. Canât you tell?â
âA man, huh?â Mr. Baek eyes Mingyuâs hands, callused from helping with the heavy work around the shop. âWell, even a man needs to rest his back before it breaks.â
Mingyu only smiles. âIâll rest after Iâve swept the steps for her.â
They all approve of him, though none say it directly. The world is starting to tuck Mingyu into your corner of it without him needing to ask.
One afternoon, while the snow still clings to the gutters but the breeze carries a hint of plum blossoms, an elderly couple walks in from out of town. They speak in slow dialect, asking for ginger tea and warmth for their aching bones. Mingyu is seated by the window, sketching quietly in his notebook. As you prepare the tea, the woman glances at him, then at you.
âYour husband doesnât say much,â she remarks.
You nearly spill the water. âHeâs notâ I mean, weâre notââ
Mingyu looks up, and the couple laughs kindly. âAh, forgive us,â the man says. âYou have that look about you.â
âWhat look?â you ask, wary.
âThe look of people whose silence with each other is comfortable.â
You donât respond, but when you set the tray down in front of them, you notice Mingyu watching you closely. After they leave, you go to clear the table. Thereâs an extra coin left on the tray, and the old woman has pressed a paper fortune beside it: âLove that arrives quietly stays the longest.â
You crumple it. But later that night, after the shop has closed and the windows are shuttered, Mingyu finds it smoothed out on the back counter, your handwriting scribbled in the margins: âDonât get any ideas.â
He smiles.
NEW ORLEANS, LOUISIANA.
AUTUMN, 1971.
Mingyu finds you by accident, really.Â
Heâs searching for a barâany barâon an unnaturally rainy Friday night, his collar turned up against the warm drizzle, the air thick with the smell of sweet olive trees and fried catfish. The city hums with life even in the storm. Neon flickers on puddles like oil slicks, and brass spills from half-opened windows.
Heâs already passed three places too crowded, one too quiet, and a fourth that reeked of stale beer and cigarette ash, when he turns down a narrow side street he doesnât remember the name of.
He finds a wooden door, warped with time and painted a moody red. It sits beneath a hanging sign with chipped cursive that reads: The Red Ribbon. A string of paper lanterns hangs overhead, glowing soft through the rain like a trail of fireflies.
Inside, the bar is low-lit and warm, a haven from the storm. The air smells like cinnamon smoke and lemon rinds, and something oldâlike velvet curtains and perfume that clings to skin. Thereâs a quiet hum of conversation, the clink of glass on glass, and music.
Noânot music. A voice.
Low and rich, not quite singing, not quite speaking. Like honey melting in a warm cup of tea, it curls around the room before he sees you; dips into the cracks between shadows; holds him still.
Youâre on stage, beneath a gold spotlight, wearing a black satin blouse tucked into high-waisted pants, one heel perched on the edge of the stool as you croon into the microphone. Your voice doesnât beg for attention. It commands it, slow and sultry and effortless. You sing a cover of Iâll Be Seeing You, but itâs yours now, softer, smokier, as if the songâs always belonged to you.
In your hair, tied just above your ear, is a red ribbon.
Mingyu stops breathing.
Youâre older in this life. Sharper. Your voice curls like cigarette smoke, and your smile doesnât reach your eyes. But itâs you. Of course itâs you. He would know you in any century.
You donât see him. You never do, not at first.
The room fades. Mingyuâs heart hammers.
The Fifth Kingâs curse, so old now itâs half-forgotten, curls tight in his ribs like a warning. This is the fourth time, he thinks.
The bartender is young, with freckles scattered across his nose. âWhat can I get you?â
âWhatâs her drink?â Mingyu asks, nodding toward the stage.
âShe switches it up sometimes. But mostly itâs gin and tonic. Extra lime.â
âThen one of those. And whatever you recommend.â
He carries both your drinks over when you step off the stage, undoing the ribbon in your hair deftly and shaking your head. You wrap the ribbon around your wrist and raise an eyebrow when he stops by your table.Â
âThat for me?â you ask.
Mingyu sets the gin and tonic down. âExtra lime.â
âLet me guess,â you drawl. âFirst time here, heard me sing, got curious?â
âSomething like that,â he says.
JOSEON, KOREA.
SPRING, 1799.
It is well past curfew when you slip into the old library pavilion.
The moon is high, its light diffused through the paper lattice windows, casting soft patterns on the wooden floor. The scent of old parchment and ink wafts through the air. Outside, the plum trees stir in the breeze, petals tumbling like tiny, perfumed ghosts.
You shouldnât be here. No one comes here anymoreânot since the roof began to rot, not since the scrolls were moved to the new annex.
But you know the door that creaks just slightly less. You know which floorboards to avoid. Most importantly, you know no one will be looking for a concubine in the archive of forgotten histories.
You light a single oil lamp and walk the aisles barefoot, your skirts brushing against shelves of neglected poetry and old Confucian texts. Youâre looking for something. You donât know what; only that your chest has been heavy lately with something unnamed, and that reading makes it easier to breathe.
Youâre so engrossed in a worn volume of Tang poetry that you donât hear him until itâs too late.
âWhat are you doing here?â
You whip around, heart slamming in your chest, the book nearly slipping from your fingers.Â
Mingyu stands in the doorwayâhalf-lit by moonlight, half-shadowed, like something conjured from the very pages you were reading. Heâs shed his ceremonial robes for the evening, wearing only a dark overcoat tied loosely at the waist. His hair is unbound at the nape, a sign that he, too, thought the night would pass without interruption.
You gasp. âIâI didnât think anyoneââ
âYouâre not supposed to be here,â he says, though thereâs no bite to it. Just curiosity, and a hint of wariness.
You lift your chin. âNeither are you.â
He arches a brow, and you realise your mistake. Of course heâs allowed anywhere he wishesâheâs one of the Kingâs closest ministers. But instead of correcting you, he steps further inside, eyes never leaving yours.
âWhat are you reading?â
âPoetry,â you say.
âMay I see it?â
You hand him the book with reluctant fingers. He takes it carefully, as though itâs precious. You watch as he scans the open page. His lips move as he reads silently. Then, softly, aloud:
âAt the foot of my bed, moonlight
Yes, I suppose there is frost on the ground.
Lifting my head I gaze at the bright moon
Bowing my head, thinking of home.â
You say nothing.
âYou miss it,â Mingyu says quietly. âYour home.â
âYou canât miss what you barely remember,â you say, shrugging.
âStill, youâre here,â he says, closing the book. âRisking punishment for poetry.â
âI thought this place was empty.â
âIt is. Mostly. Youâve been here before,â he says.
âWill you report me?â you ask, finally meeting his eyes.
He watches you for a long moment, and shakes his head. âNo. But if youâre going to read by lamplight, you shouldnât sit so close to the paper screens. It casts a shadow.â
TOKYO, JAPAN.
SPRING, ONE MONTH AGO.
On Mingyuâs birthday, you surprise him with a picnic beneath the sakura.
Itâs a Monday, technically a workday, but you convince his supervisor to let him off early and drag him, half-confused, half-laughing, onto the Marunouchi Line. You refuse to say where youâre going, only grin over the rim of your coffee and tap your knee against his like youâre buzzing with a secret.
He figures it out by the time youâre walking down the path at Shinjuku Gyoen, past couples and families and students with cameras, every tree dripping in soft pink petals. The wind is light, enough to lift your hair and scatter a few blossoms onto his shoulder. You swipe them off with a delicate touch, fingers brushing his collar.
âHere?â he asks, looking around.
You point to a quiet spot beneath a tall cherry tree, where the ground is dappled with sunlight and pink. âHere.â
He watches you set the blanket down and unroll the bento boxes you packed that morning, tied in checkered cloth, still warm. Tamagoyaki, onigiri, simmered daikon, the pickled things he likes. Thereâs even a small chocolate cake hidden in your tote, which you keep sneakily tucked behind your legs like it isnât obvious.
âYou didnât have to do all this,â he says, sitting beside you. His voice is warm. He never quite knows what to do with being loved like thisânot when itâs freely given.
âI know,â you say. âBut I wanted to.â
Mingyu looks at you for a long second. Youâre wearing that soft blue sweater he likes, the one that slides off your shoulder when youâre not paying attention. The sunlight hits your cheekbones and catches in your lashes, and he thinksâlike he always doesâthat youâre the most beautiful thing heâs ever seen.
You open a thermos, pour him tea, and he raises it in mock solemnity.
âTo twenty-eight,â he says.
âTwenty-nine,â you correct.
âAm I?â
âYou always forget,â you say. âYouâve been forgetting since we met.â
He laughs. âFeels like Iâve lived a hundred years already.â
You donât say anything. Sometimes, when the light hits his face just right or he says something that echoes in your mind, you wonder.
Youâve always had strange dreams: places youâve never been, languages youâve never studied, and a man who always looks like him, even when he wears a robe, or a bloodied uniform, or a wool coat in the snow. You never tell him this. Youâre afraid it will break the spell.
Instead, you offer him another onigiri and press a kiss to his cheek.
âHappy birthday,â you whisper. âIâm glad you were born.â
Mingyu closes his eyes and laces his fingers with yours, lets you lean your weight into his side; lets the breeze scatter petals in your hair; lets the warmth spread down his spine like heâs standing in the sun after a long, long winter.
MANCHURIA.
WINTER, 1944.
It comes as no surprise, then, that when the war begins, you and Mingyu get married and business at the teahouse dwindles with every passing day.
The papers are signed quietly one late afternoon, in the cramped back office of the local administration hall: two names written in black ink, side by side, binding you together not by love but by survival. There is no time for anything else. The world is already falling apart.
The Japanese occupation deepens its grip. All around you, men vanish into forced conscription, women into labour camps, into silence. The air grows tighter with fear. Propaganda posters replace the poetry on the streets. The teahouse shutters for good.
You and Mingyu are sent away within the month. He becomes a soldier. You become a nurse.
You are not the only married couple split between posts, but somehow, impossibly, the army places you both near the front. You meet sometimes between camps. Once every few weeks, maybe. Sometimes longer.
Each time, your reunion is brief and practical. You sew up the tears in his uniform. He shares what little rations heâs stashed away for you. He never forgets to hand you a pair of gloves or wrap your scarf tighter, or tie your hair back with that red ribbon with shaking fingers. You always insist he sleep for at least two hours before returning to his unit.
There is no time for affection. There is barely time for sleep.
But sometimes, when you are aloneâwhen the tents are quiet and the snow piles against the canvasâhe touches your face in the dark, and you lean into him without a word. Sometimes you rest your forehead against his shoulder, and Mingyu runs his hand up and down your back.
The night you die, it is snowing.
The war has reached a new fever. There are no longer clear lines, no longer rest stations or warning signals or predictable patrols. The world is burning in patches, and no one can remember what day it is.
Mingyu is stationed near the ravine when the call comesâmedics down, supplies hit, critical injuries. He runs before they finish speaking.
He doesnât recognise the wreckage of the medic tent at first, just the shape of it, torn open by gunfire and winter wind, canvas flapping in the air. The snow is tinged red. Bodies are scattered everywhere.
Youâre still alive when he finds you, but barely.
Youâre half-buried beneath another nurse, shielding her even in unconsciousness. Your side is soaked through with blood, spreading dark and fast across your uniform. Your breathing is shallow, more rasp than breath. Mingyu drops to his knees beside you.
âHey,â he says, voice breaking. âHeyâlook at me. Itâs me.â
Your eyes flutter open. Focus. Unfocus. Finally, they find him. â...Mingyu?â you breathe, your voice thready.
He laughs, because itâs either that or scream. âYeah. Yeah, itâs me. You stubborn woman, what were you doing here? You were supposed to be safe.â
âI stayed.â You cough, wet and small. âOne of the children⊠the boy with the bad legâŠâ
âI know,â Mingyu says. He does know. He always knew youâd stay. He presses his hand to your wound. His other hand cradles the back of your head. Snowflakes melt on your cheeks.
Later, they find him still holding you, long after the snow has buried your boots and the blood has dried stiff on his uniform. He wonât speak for days, wonât eat. When he finally returns to his post, he doesnât say what happened; he only writes your name on the inside of his sleeve in black ink, where no one else can see.
Years later, when the war ends and the country forgets the names of its dead, Mingyu does not. He leaves a folded paper crane at every teahouse he passes, and he never remarries.
PARIS, FRANCE.
SUMMER, 1890.
On the third day of your honeymoon, Mingyu takes you dancing.
It is a Friday evening, and the city glows with the kind of gold that never quite fades, even as dusk creeps in. From the hotel balcony, the streets below shimmer with laughter, carriage wheels clattering against cobblestones, parasols twirling, violins warming up in salons beyond shuttered windows.
He waits for you in the sitting room, dressed in pressed trousers and a charcoal waistcoat, a pale lavender cravat at his throatâthe one you picked, absentmindedly, on your first day in the city. The silk still smells faintly like you.
You emerge from the bedroom without a word, gloves drawn tight over your wrists, gown cinched neatly at the waist. Youâre beautiful, but distant.
Always, always distant.
âShall we?â he asks, offering his arm.
The carriage ride is quiet. The air smells like summer rain and perfume, and Mingyu watches your profile in the glassâthe slope of your nose, the way your eyes follow the shape of the Seine like itâs memory. You havenât touched him since the day you arrived. Your hand rests lightly on his arm now, like youâre afraid even weight might give too much away.
He wants to ask about the letters.
The ones you receive from a different postbox. The ones you tuck away before he enters the room. Heâs never opened one, but he doesnât need to. The handwriting is always the same: slanted, and familiar only to you. He doesnât ask. He never does.
Tonight, he only wants to pretend.
The ballroom is in Montmartre, crowded and warm, lit by chandeliers that make the dust shimmer. The band plays slow waltzes, the kind that ring in your ears even after the music fades.
Mingyu places a hand on your waist. You let him.
Your fingers rest against his shoulder, delicate as frost.
He draws you closer, searching for something in your eyes. He finds nothing. Nothing but the practiced smile of a woman doing what is expected.
âYouâre quiet tonight,â he says, voice low.
You look away. âIâm tired.â
âOf dancing?â Of me?
You donât answer. Mingyu guides you in a slow circle. You follow, graceful, perfect. A doll in silk and pearl. Yet, every few beats, your gaze slips towards the doors; towards the windows; towards something far away. Heâs used to it now. The Fifth Kingâs curse has hardened him, but just because he is used to it, it does not make it any easier to be the consolation prize in this lifetime that never belonged to him.
âDo you love him?â he asks suddenly, before he can stop himself.
âIt doesnât matter,â you say.
Youâre right. It doesnât. Not in this life. Not in this world where your father sold your hand to erase a debt, and his name was the one on the contract. Not in a marriage made of cold sheets and polite lies.
Mingyu exhales slowly. âIt does to me.â
You meet his gaze, then, and something flickers in your eyes. Not love, or forgivenessâjust sadness, deep and quiet, like the kind that seeps into your bones and never quite leaves.
âYouâre not a bad man,â you say softly. âYou just arenât mine.â
He closes his eyes. The music swells. Couples spin around you both like falling leaves.
Mingyu doesnât say another word. He just holds you a little tighter, for as long as the song lasts, because after tonight, youâll drift further away. He can feel it, that tide pulling you towards a life youâll never have and a man he will never be.
But for this danceâjust this oneâhe lets himself imagine youâre his.
The next day, the divorce papers are finalised and the money is settled. You move to Vienna the week after.
NEW ORLEANS, LOUISIANA.
AUTUMN, 1972.
The bartender tells Mingyu you moved to Chicago.
He says it like itâs nothing, like you didnât leave a hollowed-out space where your voice used to sit on stage at The Red Ribbon, smokey and golden and soft as dusk.
âPacked up two weeks ago,â the freckled boy says, polishing a glass. âDidnât say much, just left a note for Missy in the back. Said she got an opportunity, somethinâ better. Maybe a record label.â
Mingyu doesnât ask for details. He doesnât need them.
He nurses his bourbon in silence for a while, and lets the saxophone on the radio spill into the half-empty room. The walls feel thinner without youâless velvet, more echo. The stage is dark now, the piano covered in a wrinkled sheet.
When he asks for your address, the bartender raises an eyebrow. âYou a friend?â
âI was her lover,â Mingyu says, and itâs not wrong.
The man shrugs and writes it down on the back of a bar napkin, sliding it over with two fingers. Itâs smudged at the edges, ink bleeding from moisture left behind by someone elseâs glass. But the words are clear.
South Side. Chicago.
Apartment 2B.
â Langford Records.
Mingyu stares at it for a long time. He folds it once and pockets it.
That night, in his apartment above the bakery on Dauphine Street, he sits at the kitchen table with a cigarette burning low and a single lamp flickering behind him. Rain taps gently against the window, steady as a metronome.
He finds a sheet of paper, ivory and heavy. He doesnât plan to write much.
October 12th, 1972
New Orleans
You left without saying goodbye.
Thatâs not a complaint. Just⊠an observation.
The bartender said Chicago. He said you packed light, but you always did. I used to wonder how someone could carry so much in them and still leave so little behind. I guess I have my answer now.
I keep thinking about that night on the balcony. You, with your lipstick smudged and your heels kicked off, humming some Ella Fitzgerald song that only you knew all the words to. You asked me if I believed in fate. I said no. You laughed like I was missing the joke.
I think I get it now.
Maybe it wasnât fate. Maybe it was just timing. Bad, as always.
I donât know what youâre chasing up thereâmusic, love, a version of yourself you can finally live withâbut I hope you find it. And if you donât, I hope it finds you anyway.
I wonât write again. This feels like enough.
But if it ever rains in Chicago, and you think of me, just know I was thinking of you too.
â M.
Mingyu folds the letter carefully and slides it into an envelope but doesnât seal it. He stares at it for a long time. Then he sets it on the counter beside his keys and goes to bed without turning out the lamp.
He never mails it, but every now and then, when the rain hits the windows just so, he reads it again.
JOSEON, KOREA.
LATE SUMMER, 1799.
They charge you with treason.
No matter how many times Mingyu kneels before the King, no matter how many sleepless nights he spends rewriting every record, begging the court historian to leave your name out of the final script, no one listens.
It is easier to silence a concubine than to question a minister, easier to blame a woman for sin than to hold a man accountable for love.
So, on the last evening of your life, they dress you in white: a shade meant for funerals; for forgetting.
Your hair, once combed and oiled and pinned with mother-of-pearl, hangs unbound down your back now. The servants didnât bother with ceremony. They gave you water, and left you in a corner of the gardens, as if you were already half-gone. You sit on the edge of the low stone wall, staring at the lotus pond, legs tucked neatly beneath you and wrists bound.
The ropes around your wrists bite into tender skinâtight, too tightâbut you wonât ask them to be loosened. The guards know better than to keep an eye on you. Youâre not dangerous, just inconvenient.
You know heâll come.
You donât look surprised when Mingyu appears between the carved columns, breathless, his topknot hastily tied and robes disheveled. His boots make no sound against the wooden floor as he drops to his knees before you.
âPlease,â he says, his voice shredded down to the bone. âPlease tell me youâll hate me for this.â
You blink slowly. Your lashes are damp with the humidity. âWould that make it easier?â
âNo.â Mingyu shakes his head. âBut I want you to have something.â
Thereâs no moon yet, but the light from the lantern by the steps is enough to see him properly. His lips are chapped. Thereâs ink on his sleeves, on the soft crease where his palm meets his thumb. He hasnât stopped writing letters, then. Petitions. Pleas.
âYou should go,â you say quietly. âIf they see youââ
âI donât care.â
âTheyâll strip you of your title.â
âI donât care.â
His hands are trembling when they reach for yours. He cups your bound wrists with reverence. His touch is a contradictionâsoft, but desperate. His thumbs brush over your bruises. You donât flinch.
Between his palms, you feel something cool press against your skin, smooth and weightless. Your fingers twitch, instinctively curling around it.
A jade rabbit. The kind children carry for luck. The kind lovers carve when words arenât enough.
You remember once, weeks ago, a charm just like it left behind on the counter behind the Queen Dowagerâs quartersâno note, no name. Youâd tucked it into the folds of your robes and told yourself it didnât mean anything. Now, you understand. You clutch it tighter.
âYou said once,â Mingyu whispers, âthat you didnât believe in reincarnation.â
You manage a faint smile, remembering his stories of the demon king and the curse of love and memory because of sins past. âI still donât.â
âWell.â His eyes close briefly, lashes dark against his cheek. âIâll believe for both of us, then.â
The cicadas outside scream like they know how little time is left.
âItâs just a story,â you say. âNo one remembers their past lives.â
âI do,â he says, and something deep in you twists, aching. âAnd I will. Iâll find you again.â
âI donât want to be remembered like this,â you whisper.
âI wonât remember the ropes,â Mingyu says. âIâll remember the way you fold paper cranes, and recite poetry, and the sound of your laugh when you think no oneâs listening.â
Your throat tightens. Thereâs a sob there, buried deep, but it wonât surface. Youâre too tired for crying. âDonâtââ
âIâll remember,â he says. âAnd one day, somewhereâwhen you are free and unafraidâIâll press this rabbit into your palm again, and youâll know.â
âMingyuââ
He leans forward slowly, and presses his forehead to your bound hands. The lanternâs light glows between you. The cicadas hush. Far in the distance, a temple bell rings the hour. Itâs almost time.
TOKYO, JAPAN.
PRESENT DAY.
These days, you find it harder to sleep. The dreams are worse now, beguiling and long and sad. They stretch like old film reels behind your eyes, full of half-familiar cities and names that slip away when you wake. They end with Mingyu, always Mingyuâbut not Mingyu at the same time. He wears different clothes, speaks in languages you donât remember learning.
You shift in bed, sheets tangled around your legs, one arm heavy and warm across your waist.
This version of Mingyu sleeps with his mouth slightly open, his breathing even, steady. His chest rises and falls against your back, his palm curled gently beneath your navel. The windowâs been left ajar, and the scent of sakura drifts in on the night air. You press your hand over his absentmindedly. His fingers twitch in his sleep and close tighter around you.
You sigh. Your forehead presses into the pillow. Itâs too early or too late to be awake, and youâre tiredâso tiredâbut your body doesnât know how to rest anymore. Not when your mind insists on wandering. Not when you wake up crying into a manâs arms and canât tell him why.
You almost speak, but he stirs before you can.
âMmh,â he mumbles, lips brushing the curve of your shoulder. âYou okay?â
âI⊠had that dream again,â you tell him.
Mingyu lifts his head. Heâs groggy, eyes swollen with sleep, but heâs already frowning. Already reaching up to tuck your hair behind your ear.
âThe one with the snow?â he asks.
You nod. âAnd the red ribbon. And a jazz bar.â
He doesnât laugh, though youâd expect anyone else to. Instead, he kisses your shoulder. âCome closer.â
âIâm already close.â
âCloser,â he says again, like the space between you could ever be enough to stop the ache. Like if he holds you tight enough, he can keep the dreams at bay.
You turn to face him, legs brushing his under the blanket. He touches your cheek with the backs of his fingers.
âDo I do something wrong in the dream?â he asks.
âNo,â you say. âBut youâre sad. Like⊠you know something I donât.â
His throat works. His thumb runs along the apple of your cheek, just once. âMaybe Iâm dreaming it too.â
You stare at him. Itâs too dark to read his expression clearly, but something in you catches at the thought. Maybe heâs dreaming it, too: the same ink-stained hands, the same gardens, the same unfinished goodbyes.
âYou think so?â you whisper.
He nods. âRemind me,â he says. âI found this antique rabbit made out of jade yesterday at the market. It reminded me of you. Remind me to give it to you.â
âOkay,â you say, and bury your face against his chest and let him wrap both arms around you. You press your palm over his heart.Â
âYou talk in your sleep, too, sometimes, you know,â you murmur into the dark. âWhoâs the Fifth King?âÂ
Youâre teasing, mostlyâhalf-asleep, your words loose around the edgesâbut thereâs a small, curious lilt to your voice that makes Mingyu still for a fraction of a second. Barely perceptible, just long enough for you to notice.
You continue, lightly, unaware. âShould I be worried?â
He shouldâve prepared for this. Heâs had five lifetimes to come up with a better answer. Five lifetimes of choices and mistakes and prayers spoken into temples and alleyways and bomb shelters. Five lifetimes of watching you slip through his fingers, of losing you just when he thought he might have a chance.
He shouldâve been ready.
Mingyu exhales slowly, letting his palm slide a little higher on your stomach, grounding himself in the warmth of your skin. Your breathing is calm now. You trust him.
He leans in and kisses your shoulder again, and says, âNo one.â
You shift a little in his arms, not entirely convinced. âSounds like a someone.â
He smiles against your skin, but it doesnât reach his eyes. âJust a strange dream. One of those names that sticks for no reason. You know how it is.â
âWeâre weird,â you mumble. âI mean⊠you and me.â
âI know,â Mingyu says, and he means it more than youâll ever understand.
You donât see the way his gaze always rests on you in the dark after you drift off. You donât feel how tight his arms become, how he pulls you closer like heâs afraid youâll vanish in your sleep.
You donât know that he remembers everything.
The snow in Bukchon. The teahouse. The library in the palace. The battlefield and your name on the inside of his sleeve. Paris and silence. New Orleans and the ribbon in your hair. The prison courtyard and the jade rabbit you clutched until the rope took you. All of it.
He remembers the taste of your ginger tea; the colour of your blood on his hands; the sound of your voice in French; the way you looked at him in a jazz bar in 1972 and said, âDonât fall in love with me.â
Too late, heâd wanted to say. Too many lives too late.
Now, in this quiet Tokyo apartment, with your fingers unconsciously curled into the fabric of his shirt, he knows the Fifth King has finally allowed him to keep you. He has grown tired of watching him suffer. That was the promise, that in this fifth and final life, he can keep you safe and warm, tucked into his side, where the only real concerns are whether heâs put the laundry to dry, or what to cook for dinner.
Mingyu watches the sky begin to pale through the window, watches your lashes flutter in sleep. He watches your mouth part like youâre about to say his name, even here, even now. He thinks about the red ribbon he keeps tucked inside his coat pockets, and the worn-out letter in his dresser, and the jade rabbit he keeps underneath his pillow, and he smiles into your hair.
â authorâs note: happy (late) mingyu day to all who celebrate! this was originally a fic i wrote last year for a completely different fandom that i decided to repurpose for the loml. the poem that mingyu reads out in the middle is quiet night thought by li bai. thank you to my sexy wife liya who beta read this for me before i posted, and thank you for reading! iâd love to hear your thoughts!
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