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Just a corner to store my endless thoughts , musings , gifs , and writings

[reneestjohn]

“Rich Girl” Aesthetics

I am asked to write regarding how to become “rich” very frequently in my dms. I would like to be frank and honest , so I have recently blocked over 1k bloggers in this community in order to do so 💡

My goal is NOT to offend but educate .

Firstly ; all of the items posted above are very expensive.

You can NOT “manifest” , “believe in yourself” , etc etc enough in order to acquire them.

You must ALREADY have money .

Which is why I am always very sad when I observe young poor women comparing their lives to a girl of privilege born into this lifestyle ,

Aka “celebrity” families like the Kardashians , Hailey Bieber (fucking a famous person makes you famous I guess ) Belle Hadid, Lionel Richie’s daughters, etc (why are these people still relevant? ),

And “celebrities” …actors , singers , athletes , instagram influencers, etc

I would rather spend time wiping my ass ,

It would be more productive

than following them .

Tbh ; I do NOT have instagram . I will not be “influenced” by no damn body , esp idiots

The fact of the matter is you must already have money in order to make more money dear friends

That is how it goes

If you do not have money , than you must figure out fast how to acquire it

Education /Family Wealth

Going to college is the logical choice imo , but even still , you must attend an ivy league school, and earn a degree in an exclusive field of study - medicine , engineering, etc

To acquire what is in that pic

In all transparency my family is not poor and greatly assisted me in my educational journey. Still does .

My current program is too expensive, and in no way on my own , would I be able to work AND pay for the additional training I need for my specific area or f study

It would be to expensive .

Many of those guys that work in the big buildings in my city , also come from such families. They are then able to help their sons /daughters secure intern jobs in those powerful companies .

Even with family assistance, we are under EXTREME pressure to preform and achieve .

I know many people that make the money , but honestly do not have the TIME to enjoy the fruits of their labor

My point is , it is non sensical to me to see bloggers that claim they want to “secure a bag “ and be “rich” , yet their lazy asses are bullshitting on Tumblr all day , or dreaming about success

Success is an action word .

Remember that

Hustling

The only other way I know to make quick big money is by selling sex , drugs , or other illegal transactions

I will not even write on this .

Those are loser pathways , that will take your freedom away , which is more valuable than money

Marrying Rich

As mentioned ; money attracts money .

Idc ; how many facials or books you read , that is NOT enough to attract an extremely successful man to MARRY you

Most wealthy couples I know , already are in the same economic and social circle . The women are “beautiful” (surgically enhanced 🤭) , and well educated

Marrying you would be a step down 💡

The best you would be is a side chick .

Oh dear friends , those nasty ass wealthy men have those girls doing all kinds of perverse sexual things .

My friend said her wealthy boyfriend is in a club with other men of his status ; and they record the girlfriends, gays , and trans all fucking together for their pleasure

You would be a toy , nothing more or less

I have treated so many people with STDs acquired from this type of behavior. Just do not .

Also that girl who claims she is married to a millionaire is a foreigner.

Those gross rich foreign men either are involved with arranged marriages or have side wives , who are very young (15 years old is what I read on her blog )

So in order to marry rich you must be a involved with a pedo or perv ?

Which most of the super wealthy are .

Pass on it

Logical Thinking

My best advice is to think about where you are rn and improve on it.

If you work for example in a grocery store , and make $10 an hour , look for a store that pays more .My friend found one that pays $18 an hour

Always remember the goal is not to find a job you “love”, but one that pays the most money

Your inner circle should be composed of achievers as well.

Remember you can have a good comfortable life if you make smart life choices and marrying smart as well , if that is a wish of yours

Most importantly, stop elevating lifestyles and people ; and live in the moment of what you have .

Happiness comes with peace , working moderately hard to buy little joys that make you happy , good health , and having loving supportive people that have your back in your inner circle

This is the kind of wealth I wish for you , and hope you focus on

Work smarter , and thrive

Best Wishes ❤️🌸🫶🏽💫

.

[reneestjohn]

I am a Black Woman

I am a black woman ,

of course I notice a white woman can fuck a black man , knock out a few bi racial black kids , and have millions of subscribers for only that reason

I am black woman ,

I know the white media propaganda machine is attempting to erase me and replace me with a white woman as mother of the black race.

I am a black woman

of course I observe white teens copy black teens on Tik Tok, throw up a video that they have stolen and copied verbatim from the black teen , receive millions of subscribers

And are continually rewarded for their shitty actions, by receiving accolades on GMC and given other lucrative contracts even though white sponsors know the teens used stolen content.

I am a black woman

of course I can not make unique body butters , create curly hair content , or anything else

without white women stealing and using the exact method I was kind enough to share with other black subscribers, and subsequently watched these white women receive massive followers and sponsorships

bc white people enjoy believing whites are the smartest , bestest , most creative , humans ever , even when they know it is a lie , and that they are stealing ideas and content from smaller black content creators.

I am a black woman

of course I know I am disrespected by the white medical community and non human acting white republicans who act like white women and their health is the only health that matters

I am a black woman

and I know what can not be taken away from me is my strength , creativity , beauty , and determination to thrive despite the obstacles the devil puts before me

With my black community and God by my side ,

I will continue to rise ❤️🌸💫

[reneestjohn]

Non -black women , raping black culture and fucking black men for fame and attention

Everytime I turn on social media , it seems , I am noticing more and more the trend of

white or Hispanic girl pulling something out of her ass to appear black acting , stealing black culture, imitating black women , and fucking black men to

Promote her “acting” , “singing “, “modeling” or social media career

Most of these whores are not even friends with black women , but legit feel that bc they have

Light skin and long hair , that they can replace black women just by acting black .

I do not support non black women on this dumbass trend NOR the black men with them

Stop supporting famous black men who needed our support on their way up , but choose non black women to share their wealth and good life with .

They are useless to us

AND the white and Hispanic girls that believe pretending to be us and fucking black men will make them “popular”,

but asses are not knowledgeable in regards to the day to day struggle of black people

Every time I notice a “successful” black actor , rapper, athlete, whatever , who habitually chooses only white or Hispanic women to date and never a black woman . I stop supporting them , full stop 🛑✋🏽

Like GMA Michael Straham (Which the aunties despise)

As is MOST rappers and black athletes. They are all dead to me .

get your ball or microphone and shove it UP your stupid nasty ass

This is the reason why Drake is non-existent to me. He is a has been anyway

Most Importantly, this slight sends a message to our young impressionable black girls ,

That they are not good enough to be at a successful black man’s side as these black men desperately attempt to assimilate in the whiteness void of life

Yet , these same black men , brain wash our black girls , and teach them to be “strong black women “

and NOT to date outside of our race , while these man whores do the opposite

Remember black women drive black culture NOT black men . They are nothing without our support

Do not give it to these men , let them fail with their non black women . They need to create their own shit.

Also do not support or purchase products from the white media propaganda machine who is pushing black women out of our families ,

by only featuring black men with non black women in “black family” commercials.

Gtfo , with that nonsense

Our culture is not for sale , nor is it a trend .

Stay up and aware of what really matters to us ❤️🌸💫

[reneestjohn05]

@justmeagain4

an insane stalker

My followers years ago told me about your blog, and how you mirror posted everything that I did , in order to pretend your blog was a secondary blog of mine ,

Similar behavior of that old lady blogger @kathifee -world3, and the -dose-makes-the-poison , and others

Like them , you are so committed to your crazy that you see nothing wrong with your behavior at this point

It is now rote memory for you

These are traits of a morally corrupt , detached from reality psychopath

Which you are

Frankly , I do understand you @justmeagain4

I have treated the criminally insane in a mental institution.

Not my favorite thing

In your rational , the best you can do IS impersonate me , bc you are a worthless nothing on your own .

No accomplishments

No achievements

Nothing

Which is why you are so obsessed with me .

I am a beautiful winner

Something you will NEVER be

I am your fantasy , your comfort bubble world, in which you use, to gain acceptance and friendship from others , bc you pretended to be me

I dislike most people , so I am sure this unexpected “friendship” was an honor for them ,

and for you ,

as I have already established your mental deterioration

Also , as far as your limited 3rd grade education is concerned ,

Learn to read and comprehend those stupid quotes you posts, regarding self love and shit.

You appear cognitively delayed , and hard to learn , which is evident in why you can not control your behavior

You display no boundaries ,

and is so bold to stalk and impersonate me on the SAME platform I use .

You are not embarrassed by your actions, just that you have been exposed

Nevertheless

Just remember

Everytime your gnarled ,ugly, old fingers mirror content I post and end it with a ❤️, or 🌸, or a 💫

Know your actions indicate your lack of worth , pride, or dignity,

(Like those other two morons @the-dose-makes-the-poison , and @kathifee-world3 who have impersonated me in the past )

and most importantly , that I have identified you as the insanely disturbed , psychotic stalker you have proven to be for YEARS

For you effort

You have gotten your wish ,

I have made you famous , and will continue to bring attention to you and your insanely obsessive behavior towards me

I am sure there are others that have experienced a unhinged stalker leech like yourself

This may help them

Thanks Loser for your assistance ❤️🌸💫

#for those experiencing a separation break in reality , like @justmeagain4 , seek mental health support immediately.

[reneestjohn05]

Celebrating Young Black Queens👩🏾👑

I was blocking on my secondary blog when I came across a post from some black girls indicating that awhile ago a “study” , they read in a teen magazine indicated that black women were the least attractive of all women

Learn to think

Who created this “study”, ?

The publisher of this magazine ?

The article itself? …a white woman, and

The American white media propaganda machine .

I checked

The same institutions that attempts to force Black Americans out of jobs , competitions , everything,

by punishing us if we do not conform to white beauty standards by banning our natural hair and braids

The same white media propaganda machine commercials who attempt to weaken the black family by shoving black men with white women in their commercials

Even though no one is observing these couples irl on that scale . I live in an extremely large city and I do not

Everyone knows black men are the heart of the community , and black men who are married /coupled with white women are useless nothings to the black community

Also black women do not lust for white men as white women lust for black men . It is so embarrassing the way they worship black cock on their blogs

I have actually seen them and their underground spade ♠️ “nation” on Tumblr

As I was invited to that group of girls bc they thought I was white , when actually my aura is natural (I am bi-racial black )

and the videos of teen white girls filming black boys in sexually explicit manners

Where are their parents ?

This is why white woman have always had the reputation of being sexually and morally degenerative

Do not allow the American white media propaganda machine to brainwash you .

I know for facts that the cunts that stalk and copy me the most are white

They want to sparkle and flavor they do not natural possess, so they copy black culture.

In fact someone asked me was some ugly ass cunt

@the-dose-makes-the-poison

Me. That is an INSULT, btw 😑

I blocked her and her followers, bye losers

just bc she like all of the other trash , @justmeagain4 , @kaithifee-3 , and all of the other “redhead” sex workers , trolls , and cunts

That steal pieces of me to deceive

Which is what most white women are only good for

Copying something better .

Never allow the devil to deceive you . You are winning and perfect as you are .

There appears to be an attack on black girls and women

Know this , and

Stay Up , Beautiful, Black , and Strong 💪🏾🌸💫

[reneestjohn05]

American 🇺🇸 “Christian” Pro-lifer…aka Pro-selected Lifers

Mentally Diseased logic…

“There ain’t no Palestinian children being killed in Gaza .

It’s all just media propaganda!”

“Yeah, I see the blood on their face and their mangled little bodies ,

but if you wipe the blood away from their faces…you CAN tell they are happy” .

“Gotta go read my Bible🏃 .

Then harass some women who want an abortion ‘cause I love ALL dem babies !”

“then I need to ban books from libraries. Books are bad !

then I need to harass doctors and scientists. Y’all don’t need medical care or science , it’s ALL propaganda. Just pray . If you don’t heal than you were not a good Christian and my god saw that . Easy Peasey.

then I need to harass schools to stop teaching accurate history . It’s just critical race theory .”

“We ALL know slaves LOVED being slaves . Just like the little Palestinian children LOVED being bombed “

“It’s all propaganda folks “🥳

“Now imma roll up my sleeves 💪🏻and spend hours posting on Tumblr.

‘Merica is in trouble and needs my help to be the goodest nation again .”🙏🏻

[reneestjohn]

UGA and other state universities:

UGA was not very expensive I would say .

Admission was very difficult however . Most students are NOT accepted.

Most state universities are rigorous.

I had a 4.0 and was accepted

Yes, I am very “smart”, in knowledge, but a dumbass with men (which I LOVE). Tbh, men are my demise and a pain in the ass . My German was so musty last night , I had to insist he immediately take a bath . Then I had to clean behind him 🫣. Sometimes , I wish I were lesbian , but as I have said , I love penis , and man arms , man legs , and penis 🙄

Moving on

This is Delta Sigma Theta:

My sorority .

(a stock pic is below )

Think about joining this sorority at your university instead of the AKA’s . Jk…I am not .

This is Spelman College (an all girl HBCU):

(Stock pic below)

My only regret is that this was not the HBCU I chose to attend. I went to my mother’s Alma mater 👩🏽‍🎓 in her honor .

Spelman has RICH culture and heritage. Those girls graduate and become kick ass leaders 👩🏽‍🎓 . That is what Spelman teaches them to do . Dr. MLKing Jr’s sister was a notable graduate there .

Perhaps my future daughter will go there one day… In the meantime , you can chose to attend. 😊

[reneestjohn05]

Girl “Boss” Tumblr bloggers 🙄🫠

I am placing my writings on this blog bc I block more on my other one , and I am afraid you will not see it dear friend.

Psa : there is no such thing as a “woke”degree.

It appears she pulled that phrase out of her ass, and projects , imo at least , like a foreigner , not American 🇺🇸

Maybe Bangladesh or from the Middle East is how those “get money” bloggers read to me .

Tbc , their culture and women empowerment (not impressed to say the least) is NOT the same as in America

It really breaks my heart to see American girls , esp black ones reading these unattainable fairy tale blogs where the rich man saves the day 🙄

Grow up

If you are American just know , your lifestyle as it is , is a million times better than those foreign “get money” bloggers you are elevating

Tbc , I have most of the attributes needed for “success” , and I am NOT flying in private planes or wearing name brand clothing on my ass

That is weird wasted energy, imo

If you are American 🇺🇸 be thankful to have running water , and electricity.

You do not need a college degree to have a successful or happy life .

Find a job you can stand , learn it , and move up in it . The key is consistency and longevity.

Tbc , you will NOT find a job /career you “love” all the time . Idc how much money you make from it .

Also , just bc a man is rich , does not make him a nice person 💡

I wish American black girls specifically would consider marrying (not laying up and having illegitimate babies , mind you)

a hardworking white guy , if all of the black guys is your area are taken .

A good Partnership makes life enjoyable, stable , and helps you achieve goals faster .

Again , pls stop reading and wishing on these stupid foreigners get money by marrying a rich man blog

Be thankful for what you CURRENTLY have , create a peaceful space , without getting in debt (personally a clean organized space sends me over the moon 🤗)

and love a man not for the coins in his pocket , but for the love and support he gives you .

Stay up

and really select your online reading content carefully .

🌸❤️🇺🇸💫

[reneestjohn05]

Americans 🇺🇸

I really cannot find a post to express my feelings , so I will write my words .

Jewish hate is on the rise in America. So is Arab hate as well.

Many people are using the actions in Israel to hurt Jewish /Arab Americans via hate speech , and physical violence .

My godson has experienced both as a Jewish American

Tbc , you CAN speak out against the murder of Palestinians AND still show LOVE for our Jewish Americans.

As Americans, we are smart in that manner .

The thing I love most about my community is the strong Jewish presence. I love the visual Hanukkah 🕎 display I see in our neighborhood this time of year .

I love my Jewish best friend and godchildren

I love my elderly polish neighbor who treats me more like a grand daughter than a neighbor,

and of course my German fiancé

We have created a found family (along with my friends here)

I feel a sense of belonging I have never felt before 🥲

Diversity makes us stronger 💪🏽

Also , you cannot value life as those fake pro life bloggers claim they do if they have not spoken out against the bombing of the children in Gaza.

In the words of Dr M.L.King Jr:

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that."

—Strength to Love, 1963

There is strength in love ❤️🌸💫

[reneestjohn]

Abusive Behavior

Dear Friend,

Tbc , I do NOT belong to you , and I never will. When I am on Tumblr, I am SHARING parts of me ,

That will always be mine .

You can posts as many nudes that you *think are of me , and one time you were correct.

You can keep company with those ignorant redhead cunts whom are obsessed with me (whom I believe are the same person . Amstaff told me all about that woman when we were all on Pinterest together . ), and the other one who is so thirsty for attention that she curls her crispy ass red hair in a black manner bc I said I had kinky red hair . White women pretending to be black for attention; via curly hair and fake big asses . How gross and eternally sad . I know you want me to see her shit show which is why you post her crap on your blog , in hopes I will view 💡. I am very intelligent and wise to your game .

Do you NOT think that better men than you , more powerful men than you , attempted to put me in my place , by focusing on my sordid past?, esp in medical school , and even now ?

It did not work for them , nor will it work for you .

I OWN everything that I have ever did and my power has multiplied.

You have no influence over me .

I am sorry dear friend if you thought otherwise.

I only liked the gunner in that way .

Do you know last night I had a terrible dream of a white middle aged pudgy man (similar looking to you ) who attempted to assault the girls and I ?

I slept with the lights on , I had to force myself not to cringe when my German pulled me closer .

but then my HATE for all of those men , superseded my fear and trauma.

I turned off the fucking light and went to sleep .

Now I am viewing your blog .

A monster in the daylight. I know what you are attempting to do

Emotional gaslighting does not work with me

Please stop

Because of the utmost respect I have for you , I will say not anything further

But always remember not to go any farther , bc if you do , you will regret .

I have unspeakable hate in my heart ,no brakes , unlimited resources, and no place for it to go . I would dislike for it to find a home with you .

Again , Remember, I flirt with whomever I wish on Tumblr, and I will never be yours

Get yourself together dear friend and spend time with your wife that you claim to love so much , and dream of your God Trump “saving” you if moving did not resolve your political problems.

I am unavailable.

Have a happy day 😊🌸❤️💫

Writing this was better and cheaper than therapy , for sure .

[reneestjohn05]

Thank you for your service ❤️🇺🇸💫

[reneestjohn]

Dumb Book Youtubers

No, I will not feature her channel on my blogs ❌

She is a pretty dumbass .

Which is why she probably has so many subscribers , they, like her undoubtedly have the mental capacity of a turnip.

She legit said she thought ‘dark academia’ meant reading it in the dark or some bs like that.

Honestly ?

Google what you do not know perhaps?

I do it all the time 💡

Tbh,

That comment would be funny to other dumbasses (which most people are , so they enjoy purposely lower level thinking)

but not to me .

Tbc , you can be smart AND pretty like that book YouTuber I featured on my other blog

but most book YouTubers with the most subscribers appear to be , pretty , but brainless, which our culture celebrates unfortunately

Tbc ,Fourth Wing and all of those other fantasy romance books (with a zillion books in their series) ,that does not require anything but a basic 6th grade education to understand. I do not consider those books anything , nor do I view book YouTubers who read them primarily

That is not reading , imo

I am always bringing that fact to the attention of my god daughter

I want her to know that it is cool to be smart , love books, and math

…like her god mother😉

and never to water herself or her intelligence down to be ‘popular’ with the m(asses)❤️🌸💫

[reneestjohn]

The American White Media Propaganda Machine

If you notice most HPV (Human papillomavirus) better known as STDs commercials

ALWAYS features black woman and NEVER white women

The same reason why commercials regarding HIV/AIDS features clearly white gay males , and black people , but never white women

The message the white media propaganda machine is subliminally suggesting with these commercials is that

White women are “clean” “pure” and “desirable”

Which is bullshit

Tbc , white women are part of this population infected , I know this as facts

But the white media propaganda , whose commercial are mostly created through the lens of white ad execs, primarily white women

Will NOT show white women , the mother of the white race in any bad light

Including abusing and killing her children , which I have the displeasure of witnessing more times than I care to .

And their obsession with replacing black women with white women in commercials with black men , but I am not seeing these couples irl on that scale.🤔

Which is again commercials primarily created by white women ad executives with a hard on for black men

Can you NOT find a white man to fuck you well, goddamn , these cunts are so gross

Is attempted Brainwashing by these narcissistic white media propaganda cunts

which is futile bc black women not men buy the bulk of the products for the family. Again , like most blacks;

Do not buy their products

Every time you do , you help them win in attempting to destroy the black family unit.

I also notice commercials in which the white media propaganda machine

only features “needy” “impoverished” children

desperately requiring government assistance as ALWAYS black

Yet most people needing this assistance is white , which would make sense since they are the majority race in America

This brainwashing is why white people have a token superiority complex

Their propaganda machine elevates them , even if it is lies

This causes severe depression in most whites who can NOT live up to the standards their media propaganda indicates they should

This is why I barely watch tv and especially commercials.

Most tv commercials, ad , billboards , etc

Are created by whites to elevate whites

Their only other purpose is to sell crappy products , and quasi pharmaceuticals (learn to deal with your problems already ) you do NOT need

and to brainwash you

Tv tells lies. This is why I primarily read

Again. do not buy their products and find a black primary care physician

Studies indicate white physicians do not provide the same care , or suggest treatments to minority patients , specifically black ones on the scale that they do for their own .

We are dying from neglect.

Chose a physician that LISTENS and takes TIME, and ACTION with regards to your health

Make sure you eat clean and exercise

Most meds are derivatives of food 💡

That is my advice .

Stay up and woke 🫶🏽🌸💫

[reneestjohn]

Red Flags in Interracial Dating

I was trying to write this earlier , but I was still at work , THEN we had a Halloween party for the kiddies …so tired 😅

Anywhose , I will make this as brief as possible.

Often I am confused as a white/non black woman on Tumblr and black men often say some bizarre things to me in private

As many white women love black men (in fact my God daughter told me last week she wanted to date one of the few black boys at her school) .

Many white women unfortunately believe that they they are the prize since they are white and there is no more to think about other than that ,

but instead are often used and taken advantage of , so I will educate you on some things that I have experienced

Racial Fetishes are a red flag 🚩

I posted such a blog on my likes blog . I removed it . I am in no mood to be a cunt today .

I am focusing on a friend that is upset with me rn

Black men that only posts white women in a sexual manner is a red flag

Often other race men watch what white men on Tumblr posts . Which is treating white women as slaves , animals , kidnapping them and generally treating them in an abusive manner

With consent or not

This is frowned upon in the black community

In white American culture however , anal and hurtful sex is par the course . White women appear docile , submissive, and to enjoy this abuse

Black men want to experience the same , (knowing that black women will not allow that ), turn to white women

Tbc that is BAD attention .

You are more than ass and vag .

Also it is a red flag 🚩 to exclusively date a race that is not your own

My German is white , and his previous girlfriend was a blonde /blue eyed girl similar looking to him . She was from Iceland .🇮🇸

I googled it and yes it is an actual place 😊

Same with my ex daddy . His ex was also white

But I would not have dated either man if ALL of their their girlfriends were black like me , and the relationships did not work out

It would led me to believe they had ulterior motives , besides affection for choosing me .

Same with black guys . I would not date a black man who only dated white women or extremely fair skinned black women like myself

Black men of this caliber are generally beta males (not leaders which is my preference) that usually give indicators that they hate being black .

Many may have low self esteem , and mental issues .

Check out your guys previous partners and inquire the reason why the separated . This will indicate a lot .

Irl , this black man should take you out on dates , and be willingly SEEN with you .

I notice many times in stores black men will walk ahead or on other isles rather than walk with their white partners.

When they do , it is hard to decipher whether he is actually with that white woman or not , which is the objective imo .

Also your black man should not “hide out “ in the white neighborhoods with you , but should proudly take you to dine , shop, meet his bros in the black neighborhoods

You would not know to request this , but now you do YW.

This is where most black men falter bc they know those relationships are frowned upon, so they attempt to keep your relationship in a box , under the bed

Do not allow it .

The two black men I dated , I INSISTED that we went to the soul food restaurant in the black neighborhood

I googled the most popular ones .

AND any and every BBQ cookout

To their credit , they did

Perhaps bc I am black , the transition was not as difficult, idk

Also for Gods sake do NOT have babies without the benefits of marriage

Black men are notorious for making babies without marrying the ladies . Children need fathers . Good fathers are first good men who MARRY and then create families

Some things you must be old school about.

Do not settle for less . I never do

Remember YOU are the prize , not them

Sexual favors should be earned not given just bc you believe all black men have big dicks and can fuck .

He will fuck you more ways than one with that mindset 💡 Give respect and expect it in return.

Take Care 💫

[reneestjohn]

Palestinian Genocide: Loss of followers …loss of you

I love you so much dear friend truly .

I would like to believe that during the Holocaust I would run TO save Jewish lives , not AWAY to safety

This is is the same analogy I must use now

I do not have to be a historian or a smart person at all , to know what I am baring witness to is genocide .

Standing against the Palestinian genocide is NOT standing against Jewish people

(Which would include my best friend, who is Jewish and does NOT support the Palestinian genocide. We had a long discussion about it )

I posted my views on my other blog and with heavy heart , and I accept 🫡 your block.

I did not block you btw. Hopefully you will read this ?

My day will be a little bit gloomier knowing you are no longer there

You matter to me and will be missed ❤️‍🩹😔💫

[reneestjohn05]

Psa : you can be against Palestinian genocide , Hamas , and not be anti semetic❤️💡💫

[reneestjohn]

Jealousy

I saw your dm . I tell you this to help you dear friend

Tbc , I have NEVER felt jealous of another woman . I have always thought I was the best

Until 4 months ago

A mother came in with her little girl . The mother was a white passing black woman (like me )

I can always recognize my people .

But her daughter was a beautiful golden brown girl , visibly black

While I was processing that , her husband walked in .

Oh dear friend he was a dream 🥰

He was a very tall and well built black guy with a low hair cut

He walked over to shake my hand , and I felt so small and delicate in his grasp

And do you know what he said to his wife ?

“Well I see we have our selves a Doc McStuffins here” and laughed

Oh dear friend he was recognizing me as black and was funny too🌸

I love men that make me laugh

Then I had a unhinged thought that HE was suppose to be MY husband to give me MY brown babies

So embarrassed to tell you this was my thought before the exam 💩

And he was such a good father . He left work (he was wearing a tow truck shirt )to be present for his daughters appt

Ngl , I had to Google what tow truck workers did

I was so sorrowful .

She had my husband 💀

Externally ,I was calm of course , and did my job

But I was so sad she was living my life

When I arrived home however , I hugged MY blond white German, and counted MY blessings

My point is, it is natural to have those feelings

Acknowledge it , allow it to wash over you , and move on

It is a wasted emotion .

Concentrate instead on your purpose and achieving your goals instead of being distracted by someone else’s 💡💫