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i yap. oc blog :p she/her ♡ autistic & adult

[renepetal]

i feel nothing. i need family back. like?? why????

[renepetal]

im so scared for the cike's lifes

[renepetal]

b in baji stands for bisexual btw

[renepetal]

i had a mission to make all my friends watch the apothecary diaries so i could make them read my fanfic and turns out THEY WATCHED so now i have readers 😁

[fairyiroha]

As an fan fiction enjoyer myself, disrespectfully DNI if you write and engage with fan fictions about rape. I saw one where Jake was written as autistic, and the reader was his care giver. The story includes Jake having a breakdown and being in obvious distress, and the reader forcing herself onto him. What the fuck? Disabled people in distress should not be a kink or fantasy that you're having. I don't care if it's fiction, nobody in their right mind would go out of their way to sit down and write fan fiction about someone being raped and taken advantage of, let alone a REAL PERSON. The fact that an autistic person clearly struggling and getting raped is a fucking turn on for you?? Please stay the fuck away from me, and don't act shocked when people accuse you of actually being into things like this. Disabled people are not a kink or a fetish and we never will be. Stay away from our community and stop sexualizing and degrading us, we already struggle every single fucking day without someone writing fan fiction about us being raped and abused. There is something severely wrong with you in the brain if you get off to rape stories, and by writing about it and engaging with it, you are actively romanticizing and normalizing it. I don't care if you're offended, you are disgusting.

[lily-s-world]

Remember in Thunderbolts when Yelena confessed to Alexei that she felt so alone and drepressed. That the only things she was able to do was going to work, stare at her phone and think about all the bad things she has done.

In the intro the Brand New Day we see Peter going full SpiderMan mode (working), stalking Ned on his social media (staring at his phone) and constantly visiting May's grave (thinking about the bad things he has done).

Black Widows were trained to easily read people, so the moment Peter walked into Yelena's "office" she clocked the same depression that tormented her for so long. Her comment about him being a "sad man" wasn't thrown randomly, she knew that it was true.

That is why she was geniuly happy when she saw him with friends; because it was having friends what ended up saving her and she truly believed that it could save Peter too. She was right.

[renepetal]

my classes start tomorrow but im not ready to give up my free time like that im also extremely anxious right now 🫪 i also can't stop thinking about hui 😭

[renepetal]

going through my drafts and found this i wrote a few days ago. for a bit of context, altan is having this conversation with hui (my oc) and i feel like it shows perfectly well how their emotional relationship works.

hui meets altan when shes 17 and he was 11 years old. by that time, hui was not ready to welcome new people in her heart, and so was not altan. they become closer because she is his teacher for a short period of time (is 3 years a short period? idk), and they were never extremely emotionally connected, but because they couldn't let themselves do it, not because they didn't wanted. i see their bond as something that is there and isn't at the same time. hui is like a big sister, altan could've been her younger brother. but they never really were that for eachother. still, they were.

when i thought about this dialogue a lot of things were in my mind at the same time:

1. i wanted it to be funny; there's a dichotomy when it comes to hui and baji. and honestly it's been a long process (for myself) to figure out how their romantic relationship works. so yeah, there's a reason people don't see them as Something, they're very different. altan is not the only one, suni also thinks it's weird as hell.

2. i wanted it to show that altan cares about hui even though it's so hard for both of them to open up about it. it's supposed to look weirdly personal. this scene takes place after his graduation in sinegard, when he becomes a full time cike member. i like to think his tantrum (?) with baji started very soon, and so he thinks he's too annoying for his older sister and honestly she deserves way more than that. in this specific moment hui and altan are trying to figure this relationship out, but stuff goes downhill from there.

3. altan and chaghan. that's it. thank you.

4. i wanted to show a more emotionally mature huiying. a version of her who accepts love and cares for the ones around her without fear.

5. i also like how childish he sounds. altan might be 21 but he will always be the little boy hui used to teach and honestly i don't think he knows how to be something beyond it when he's around her 🤷🏻‍♀️

[ladyignatius4]

It doesn't matter if you wrote 5,000 or 50 words today.

It doesn't matter if all you did was day-dream about your characters while staring at the ceiling.

You are still a writer and your progress is valid.

[peg-the-empire]

shoutout to everyone in small fandoms who takes a character with one minute of screentime and decides to build an entire universe around them. to the oc creators, the rarepair shippers, the canon-divergence enthusiasts and the people who can’t stop asking “but what if?” and then proceed to spend 50k words answering their own question.

i genuinely think your joy is contagious. fandoms grow because people see someone having fun and think, “wait, i want to play too.” <3

[renepetal]

i always feel genuine joy when i see someone who is REALLY into some one piece characters

like i couldn't care less about this barely named dude with 2 seconds of screen time but you love them and that's just so so so so amazing

this is definitely one of the best of one piece fandom 🥺

[renepetal]

i think it is such a shame the cike isn't a bigger part in this book (tdr) like they barely are mentioned and besides these few chapters with qara and chaghan by the end of the 2nd part they've been GONE for too long. and like they're so interesting i wanna know more about them 😭😭😭

[chaos-of-the-abyss]

Bekter smiled widely, "Remember what you wrote in your letters? The Speerly has suffered. The Mugenese were not kind. But he survived, and he is powerful."

Was he talking about Altan? Rin fought the urge to vomit.

"He has his mind for now but he is hurting." Bekter's voice took on a high, mocking pitch. "But I can fix him. Give him time. Don't make me kill him. Please."

chaghan really said some "i can fix him" about altan 😭 word for fucking word. rin isn't being unfair he really is obsessed lmao

i think this makes their relationship even more intriguing though. so chaghan was supposed to be watching altan and supposed to kill him if he thought altan was losing his mind. he was supposed to put altan down like a rabid dog. but somewhere along the line he fell in love with altan. wow

[renepetal]

rfk really should write a cike prequel bc 1 they deserve so much better 2 LOOK AT THIS MATERIAL id love to see more of it

[chaos-of-the-abyss]

Bekter smiled widely, "Remember what you wrote in your letters? The Speerly has suffered. The Mugenese were not kind. But he survived, and he is powerful."

Was he talking about Altan? Rin fought the urge to vomit.

"He has his mind for now but he is hurting." Bekter's voice took on a high, mocking pitch. "But I can fix him. Give him time. Don't make me kill him. Please."

chaghan really said some "i can fix him" about altan 😭 word for fucking word. rin isn't being unfair he really is obsessed lmao

i think this makes their relationship even more intriguing though. so chaghan was supposed to be watching altan and supposed to kill him if he thought altan was losing his mind. he was supposed to put altan down like a rabid dog. but somewhere along the line he fell in love with altan. wow

[renepetal]

page 400-something of the dragon republic and im gonna be honest i don't think there's a scene, even when it's heavily mentioned, that i can ACTUALLY imagine rin's trident or acknowledge it exists like the image is not in my head at all so i frequently forget about it 😭😭

[cactusringed]

(writes something) god this sucks so bad. this is awful. i'm the worst writer ever. this is nothing. (rereads it a while after writing it) oh dude this is fire. i'm the god of writing. (writes something again) god this sucks so bad. th

[renepetal]

huiying story takes place about ten...ish years prior to rin joining the cike, and there is a vast difference between who she was—physically and mentally—back then and the woman rin meets. personally, im deeply attached to her character design during in the canon books: her tanned skin, her prominent freckles, her short hair, how she does try to look small and, above all, the comfort she feels in simply existing as herself. the hui from the beginning of the story is beautiful in her own way (and that's a major Thing about her in general. she is gorgeous), but the hui who knows who she is—and feels no shame when comes to it—holds such a special place in my heart genuinely i could cry

[renepetal]

every time my tumblr is full of doctor who i feel like im using it in the way it was always meant to be