Arcanum

Queer || He/him || Neurodivergent || System “I was written by a man” “I was written by a woman” I was written by a they/he autistic rat child who trauma dumps on OCs

[crowsnhatchets]

I'm constantly switching between feeling my emotions boil my skin from the inside out and not being able to feel a thing

I don't know which one I hate more

[anti-willo-kaai-yuki]

is your system a council or a twitch chat

[renfaired]

Twitch chat on emote only

[unholyblissafterdark]

[beardedmrbean]

[wysecollection]

I FUCKING HATE AMNESIA especially when it's the most simple shit. Bought a can opener and lost it. Can't figure out if the one on the counter is mine because I can't remember putting it there or when I would've put it there. I hate it here

[fleshfictive]

i'm begging the lot of you to actually read some medical journals or any other actual research on DID/OSDD. information that circles around via carrd/tumblr half of the time is just speculation being presented as fact. you all need to be able to find some actual resources before you continue spouting internet echo chamber bullshit to other systems who don't know any better.

[damazcuz]

bro last night was totally redacted! last night was fully expunged from the record. bro, do you... can you remember last night? what did we do...? what did... did we hurt someone? bro? why won't you look at me? what did I do...? whose blood is this...? bro...?

[c1rcus-of-the-stars]

Oh Wow!! My symptom (amnesia) of my disorder (DID) is getting worse!! But because it’s getting worse (I’m forgetting things more) I obviously must be faking (I’m just forgetting my symptoms)!!

[skipppppy]

“You shouldn’t self-ID as ADHD/autistic, you’re turning a very real mental condition into a trend” Ok then stop saying delulu. Stop speculating on which cluster C personality disorder the criminals you hear about on the news have. Stop saying “schizoposting” and “acoustic” and “is it restarted?” Stop using “psycopath” and “sociopath” as catch-all ways of calling someone a bad person. Stop saying “the intrusive thoughts won” when you bleach your hair and then turn your nose up at people who suffer from very real, very scary urges of physical/sexual violence. Stop saying “I’m so OCD” as a way of calling yourself neat. Stop treating BPD/ASPD/Bipolar as inherently abusive. Stop saying “OP I am living in your walls” without tagging for unreality. Stop diagnosing complete strangers you’ve never met on r/AITA with NPD.

You first. If you don’t want our disabilities to be treated like trends then stop belittling and minimising them. I’ll NEVER judge a person for trying find labels for their symptoms when an apathetic, racist, sexist, ableist healthcare system refuses to. But I will absolutely judge a hypocrite. Which a lot of you are

[chthonioi]

Hypnos & Thanatos by ofensky

[love-bites-and-poetry-burns]

PLEASE JSKSKSKS i love you systems of tiktok

[scunthorpem181]

[moonlitmeadowsys]

me a few years ago: why do i feel like i just came into existence when i was 12 or 13? why do i not really remember my childhood very well? why do i have such a horrible memory in general? why do my identity and behaviors vary so drastically?

me now: oh

[skeptisystem]

(asking my system friend who's fronting)hey so uhh.. what user is logged in right now

[slvttyb1tch-deactivated20250715]

SOMEONE FUCKING KILL ME I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF LIVING PLEASE FUCKING PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY FUCK

[slvttyb1tch-deactivated20250715]

Ofc i didnt end up killing myself. Its all just a fucking cycle.

Wake up, enjoy the comfort of bed, realize life fucking sucks, Get depressed, smoke, drink, feel better, then feel worse, fall asleep, do it all again.

[beaten-dog]

Quite frankly, I'd rather be unconscious