melodies of winter.

ren or renata / 26 / writer / ENG & RUS / chilling & hyperfocusing.

[renru]

renata or ren / 26 / esl writer. she/her and they/them, pref. for she/her.

✧ ao3 works. ✧ writing on tumblr / masterlist. ✧ edits.

I put my original character zarina sokolova/hawke in my hyperfixations because I can and we need more flawed and neutral evil women in fiction mwehehe :)

games I play: wuthering waves, path to nowhere (na), honkai star rail (na), reverse 1999. send me ur friend code if u want to add me on any of those. ;)

I love interactive fiction, dating sims, books, writing, and webtoons. this is a personal blog made solely to chill out, talk about my hyperfixation (so they won't be on my rp blogs lmao) and just interact with people I want to send love to or just to chill and have fun. I also love writing/making villainess/anti-hero characters, because we love complex women in this household.

current hyperfixations: supernatural, apt502, the fernweh saga.

I have a weird ass thing about an of my blogs is that I NEED to have tags so if you see any and all of my posts I reblog have tags? that's why. my ocd be kicking my ass.

have fun!

✧ zarina sokolova/hawke appearing in other IFs: the fernweh saga, shepherds of haven, apt502, children of cain. ✧ other ocs appearing in IFs: elena fiala (tfs).

[dateamonster]

tbh im not entirely immune to a villain with a tragic backstory but i do think villain origins are a lot more interesting when the focus is less "here is the original sin, the first big bad thing that happened to them that made them who they are" and more "here is the first time a person who maybe otherwise felt powerless in their life realized that they could hurt someone and get away with it"

[dateamonster]

you can get a lot more mileage out of analyzing a truly abhorrent character through the lens of like. what sort of conditions would allow or even incentivize this kind of cruelty? what kind of person benefits from those conditions and how? over the more typical who hurt them type analysis. imo.

[techgotchi]

[orirising]

welcome back mr wolf

[therealjuiceboxbird]

Faithby. Bursts into tears

[melis-writes]

THE WOLF AMONG US | Dev. Telltale Games.

[laigifs]

The Wolf Among Us 2 Trailer | Summer Game Fest 2026

[therealjuiceboxbird]

wasn’t gonna post this here originally so I’m trusting you all to be on your best behaviour. blatantly shamelessly self indulgent pose study using bigby as my subject

[renru]

so depressed i realized that my depression fandom that helps me not want to perish is supernatural and honestly???? watching 2 brothers suffer through godly plans with a dad who 'loves you' but still abuses you and makes you be the 'parent' is speaking to me at the moment

i was so happy and excited for a month. a month. i was full of life, of energy, even if i was sick and in pain. i was still looking forward to something. now i have to write my parents like 10 page letter about how they make me feel because my mom said 'if you can't talk to us, just write to us then!!!' when she and my dad explicitly said that i cannot do that because we're a family and should be able to talk it out with each other

ok bro

anyways, i feel like a useless waste of space and who, if not my family, can really hit it home. yay. doesn't help me not trusting them, not believing what they tell me, and not believing in me getting better with communication and holding my tongue back. i love being autistic and my autistic behaviors being called out as 'me being rude'. like me having a stoic/stone face when i think about my silly things, try to make myself smaller because i want to be less of a problem on my already stressed parents which is read as 'so you think of us as MONSTERS' like it's great pals. it's so great. <3

hate the return of suicide ideation. hate the return of feeling like everyone would be better off without me. and i need help but i cant even bring myself to reach out for it. i need to. but i feel so exhausted mentally and emotionally i just want to sleep, lay down, not be touched by anyone.

depression fucking sucks. and it's a shame my family would always believe they are the correct ones because i was 'americanized' when i say I'm autistic with adhd and depression.

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[renru]

@honeylemonbutte @alexeizzo so there was a crackdown on vpn in my country so I can't access discord ;_; in case you lose me for a bit... idk what'll happen for now but hopefully we'll get access restored in the next day or two

[renru]

THE WOLF AMONG US 2 AND REMASTER ARE FUCKING REAL

WE'RE SO BACK GAMERS

[quokay]

Carlotta💝🌸

[sebille]

I think we should treat bisexual people with more kindness this pride month.

[dismyth]

The next 4* attire goes to Coquelic!

[renru]

IM SORRY HOLY FUCKING SHIT IM SAT THE ONE 4* I WILL BE GETTING FOR SURE FUCK MY WALLET

[anxeious]

[carlottamontelli]

Hiyuki — Let There Be Snow