Cannibalove Lyrics Explanation
If you ever heard ''Cannibalove'' you may have thought of cannibalism immediately. The truth is that I've actually thought about cannibalism when writing the song. However, I subconsciously wrote about my past relationship that was pretty toxic and abusing and that's the song's second true meaning.
The first actual meaning was based on this what I've written down before:
Person A wants to kill and eat person B due to their strong, obessive love towards them. They want to be with person B forever.
Person B wants to be killed and eaten by person A, also due to their strong, obsessive love towards them. They want to be with and inside person A forever.
Person A is embodied by DEX, while person B is embodied by DAINA. If you can't tell the toxic/abusing meaning in the lyrics, I've written down the explanation for each verse/sentence.
Verse 1:
There's a desire floating 'round in my head
Extinguishing the right, intensifiying the wrong
I knew that I would lose all that what I had
But I am ready for giving up, so bring it on!
These sentences may already be self-explanatory. There's a desire floating around in person B's head and they're forced to think that it's the right thing to do, but at the same time they are also aware that the desire, they're experiencing, is wrong. In this case wanting to be eaten. They knew that they would give all their previous life away by being eaten, but they're ready for it.
Pre-Chorus 1:
You are the only one for me
And no one can change my mind
My body's yearning for this ecstasy,
Leaving my sanity behind
I've been through an estimated one hundred thousand sleepless nights
And with the hundred thousand and first night, grew my appetite
Person B is the only one for person A, as well as vice versa. Their bodies are yearning for the ecstasy that'd be given to them by the adrenaline of doing wrong things. If you're tend to do wrong things, you'll be seen as crazy and insane.
They've been through sleepless nights. There are a bunch of idioms where an exaggeration is used in form of a high number such as a thousand or a million. It isn't meant to be literal. The appetite of person A grew more with, or to be precise came to a climax with the 100.001 night. ''101'', ''1.001'', ''10.001'', ''100.001'' etc. is a popular expression used in song, movie and book titles.
Chorus 1:
Cut me up into lovely little shreds
And swallow all I've been
Destroy. what's been within
Tear me up just til there is nothing left
There's no remorse from
this love that's turned to sin
Break me apart
And crush my heart
Just swallow all I've been
Destroy, what's been within
Take my all
Raze out my soul
Oh, it's too late for
this love that's turned to sin
This is the part where the toxic/abusing meaning is very present. It still has the cannibalism theme, but at this point it becomes more shallow. I've been experiencing the obsession with a partner in my previous relationship. If I had to say which one of the persons in my song I was, I'd say person B, whereas I saw my partner as person A. He never really wanted to ''eat me up'', but he often gave me the feeling of wanting to kill me, whenever I wasn't acting to his likings/expectations. I became so used of him abusing my emotions that I wanted to be hurt more and more, even though I wanted him to stop. I tried explaining my emotions and feelings to him all the time with no success. In this case the lyrics are an irony, reflecting my own emotions.
The first part of these lyrics are about person B wanting to be cut up, swallowed, destroyed and torn up. If you experienced abuse in a toxic relationship, you may have found yourself in a place where you wanted to disappear completely due to several reasons. You were brainwashed into thinking you'd still love your partner, you experienced trauma-bonding which made you return to your partner over and over again. You couldn't disappear or escape, even if you wanted to. So you tried to cope with the pain your partner gave you. ''Destroying what's been within'' means nothing more than destroying the person, heart, soul and feelings that was/were once within you. ''There's no remorse from this love that's turned to sin'' is exactly what it means; The love that once existed turned to a sin (a sin in a cannibalistic way like wanting to kill/wanting to be eaten or in a toxic way like hate, anger, grief, jealousy etc) and there's no mercy, healing and no consideration from it.
The second part of these lyrics are about person B repeating similar things like wanting to be broken, crushed, taken everything from and have their soul razed out. In the last part person B realizes that it's too late for this love that once existed between them both, but turned to a sin later on due to their or one person's behavior(s). The last sentence can also be seen as a third person having a look at person A's and person's B relationship and assuming that it's already too late to save it. When I was in pain due to my ex partner's behavior, I always seeked for help. I would've even gone that far to message acquaintances and vent about how I'm feeling about my relationship. A lot of people have told me back then that this was really toxic and abusive and that I should consider a break up. Of course I always thought that he wouldn't have meant it all for real and it was just a phase, that a break up wasn't necessary.
Verse 2:
There's a sensation rushing right through my veins
Just like melatonin, it lulls my brains
It's a temptation, which I just can't withstand
I can't control this mess, no
(It's making me numb)
I can't take no more
In this part of the whole lyrics it shows person A's frustration. It's similar to Verse 1. Person A tries to suppress the wrong thoughts and ends up not being able to take more. The temptation to do/think wrong things is making them numb from pain, fear and any humane common sense. Melatonin is a drug (also a hormone) that's being used to control sleep. I used it in combination with ''numbing oneself's brain'' like ''making oneself's brain go to sleep''.
Pre-Chorus 2:
I sacrificed all of my life to you
My love I had inside of me's now inside you
I can't tell how much I'd do
Just to be with you forever
I've been through an estimated one hundred thousand sleepless nights
And with the hundred thousand and first night, I have lost the fight
Person B sacrificed all their life to person A without person A knowing or wanting to know about it. Sometimes you find yourself loving a person too much that you don't have love left for anyone else, especially for yourself. You're clinging onto them and you are depending on them all the time. ''My love I had inside of me's now inside you'' shows that person B was eaten by person A a.k.a person B gave all their love to person A and lost love for themselves. ''I can't tell how much I'd do just to be with you forever'' is a sentence that can be said by both. They both would do anything from giving themselves up to anything imaginable just to be with each other forever.
The second part is a repetition with the exception of the last sentence which now reads ''I have lost the fight''. Person B lost the fight against their own thoughts, the desire was too big and impactful. It can also mean that person B lost the fight against person A.
Chorus 2:
Cut you up into lovely little shreds
And swallow all you've been
Destroy, what's been within
Tear you up just til there is nothing left
There's no remorse from
this love that's turned to sin
A torn up heart
A work of art
Just swallow all you've been
Destroy, what's been within
Take your all
Absorb your soul
Oh, it's too late for
this love that's turned to sin
Chorus 2 is a repetition of Chorus 1 with the exception of person A being in focus this time. It shows the aggressive and abusive side of person A, if viewied from a toxic way. They think that a torn up heart is a work of art. This is how a narcissist would think and this is exactly how my ex partner has been. They like to play with hearts and make their own kind of art out of it that makes them proud. Absorbing person B's soul so they will feel dead and numb and be controlled by person A. This can hint towards manipulative behavior.
Bridge:
Cut me up into lovely little shreds
Just let me be with you
Forever just us two
Take away all the tiniest little dreads
and soon we'll start new
Forever just us two
Hey!
Hey,
I put all my trust in you all the way
I know, you're all that I need, please stay
I want to be with you
Forever only you
Hey,
you know, you can trust every word, I say
Just stick to me, it is gonna be okay
I'll be with you
Forever only you
The first part of the Bridge is self-explanatory. Person B wants to just be forever with person A. This shows how much depending person B is. ''Take away all your the tiniest little dreads and soon we'll start new...'': Person A manipulating person B into thinking that person A will be the only person to take away person B's fears and making them think that person A is all what they will ever need. ''[...] and soon we'll start new'' is the expectation of every partner in an abusive relationship, but also of every narcissistic or abusive partner who hurts their s/o. While the partner who's become a victim of an abusive person hopes that it's just a phase of their abusive partner, the narcissistic/abusive partner instead thinks that they can continue with their behavior again and again and know that their victim will forgive them everytime. A victim will think ''soon we'll start new and forget about what happened'' while their abusive s/o may think that ''soon we'll start new and I'll be able to hurt you over and over again''.
The dependence of person B and the manipulation of person A continues on in the second and third part of the Bridge's lyrics as well. Person B is afraid of person A leaving and wants them to stay. Person A assures them or manipulates them again into thinking that person A will be with person B forever and that they can trust person A's words. They want person B to stick to them/be more depended on them, so they can hurt their feelings more.
Chorus 3:
Cut me up into lovely little shreds
And swallow all I've been
Destroy what's been within
Tear you up just 'til there is nothing left
There's no remorse from
this love that's turned to sin
A torn up heart
A work of art
Just swallow all I've been,
Destroy, what's been within
''I love you''
A lie of two
Oh, it's too late for
this love that's turned to sin
(It's way too late)
Chorus 3 is sung by both DEX and DAINA. It's a repetition of Chorus 1 and Chorus 2 together. There are two lines changed in the third part of these lyrics which is the ''''I love you'', a lie of two''. This sentence is portrayed by person C who is everyone who had a look at person A and B's relationship. Both person A and B never really loved each other when person A was ready to hurt person B and person B ready to give themselves up. Love has a lot of definitions, but this is none of them.
Outro:
I sacrificed all my life to you
My love, I had inside of me's now inside you
I can't tell how much I'd do
Just to be with you forever
I sacrificed all my life to you
The I, that was a part of me is now a part of you
It'll only be us two
Here as well it's an repetition of Pre-Chorus 2. I also repeated a sentence and replaced a couple of words with others. ''The I that was a part of me is now a part of you'' can be seen as cannibalistic or abusive/toxic. Here it's obvious that person B gave themselves up completely and let themselves be controlled by person A. ''It'll only be us two'' seems to be a normal sentence, which it is, but in the original it has a special meaning. The last word of the song ''two'' is sung by DAINA who's portraying person B. This has a huge meaning because it shows that only person B was in the thought of person A never leaving, alone all the time. It can be interpreted as person A leaving OR person B leaving the other in the end. Now, since I wrote it from my own experience subconsciously, I knew that it was going to be person B leaving, since I managed to escape from my abusive partner, but still thought that him and me would be together forever in the end.
There are background vocals playing at the same time throughout the whole Outro which I don't need to mention because they are different versions of ''Just to be with you forever''.
Now, as we've come to the end of the explanation of Cannibalove's lyrics, I want to mention a couple of other things.
Not only Cannibalove has well thought-out lyrics but also a well thought-out instrumental. When I was writing the song, I had a hard time thinking about a topic, but the emotions in the instrumental helped me a lot with that. From the first couple seconds up until the Bridge that's coming in at around 2 minutes and 3 seconds, the instrumental is conveying an aggressive feeling until it transitions into an emotional one while the Bridge is playing. If listened closely, you'll also be able to hear SFX in the Choruses that match the cannibalism theme.
The abusive relationship I've been in ended in May 2018 and it lasted for 2 years. Throughout these 2 years I've been emotionally and mentally abused and manipulated repeatedly. Negativity was around me most of the days, I was blamed for things that weren't my fault, I've been played with and lied to constantly. I experienced trauma-bonding and several other mental states. I am glad that I managed to realize how I was being treated in May and managed to see a chance to escape, which was not to his expectation. The same person then kept on harassing and stalking me for several months. It stopped after a while.
If you're in an abusive and toxic relationship and you're aware of it, please seek help. There are a lot of professionals who can help you, your friends also can help you. There are also hotlines you can call if you have an access to a (mobile) phone. Anyone you trust can help you. Speak up. Don't be afraid of telling people about what's happening.
If you're in an abusive and toxic relationship and you're not aware of it, but you find yourself ranting about it to your friends or anyone, listen to what your friends or the people you're talking to have to say. Listen to their advices, especially the ones who have experiences with such a relationship.
Don't let your partner bring you down. Be strong. Fight. You're strong!
I believe in you. You can do it.
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