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some shots i got of the community tank today 🐟

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The Shining (1980) paralells Doctor Sleep (2019)

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How can we feel so ashamed of something that constantly surrounds us?

Anxiety.

The man you sit next to in the harshly lit waiting room of your local medical centre. His roughed-up work boots tap at the ground in an erratic rhythm, while spindly flingers pull at uneven facial hair. To you, he is impatient. To him, the results of his STI check-up could mean four days spent in a severe emotional spike.

The girl seated a row down from you at the cinema. It’s a decent action movie, with scenes of the ocean and it’s rolling waves sized like sky-scrapers. Her petite frame clings to an armrest, face buried in the seat’s leather backing. To you, she is childlike in her fears. To her, just the audio of crashing waves will mean sporadic nightmares and migraines each day following.

The teenager a few feet from you in the grocery aisle. Unblinking eyes gaze at the open space between dairy products. In small intervals they break contact to glance down at their phone, but never elsewhere. To you, they are indecisive and killing time. To them, this is the first time in four months that they have left the house. There is limits to their concentration, in fear that anything more will trigger a destabilising breakdown.

The girl in your college exam session. Monotonous clicking of pens and subtle creaking of withered desks fills the air as students settle in to their first task. Someone towards the back of the room sniffs loudly. She sniffs again, this time muffled. Tears drip down and create swirling patterns of ink through her worksheets. To you, she didn’t study and feels inadequate. To her, waiting for the phone call regarding her partner’s heart surgery has left her hungry, cold and sleepless.

They all think they’re crazy. They all think it’s embarrassing or stupid.

The truth is they’re all beautiful, with their own strengths, and they’re going to be okay.

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*WARNING* Content may be distressing for victims of emotional abuse.

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“Your hair, it’s darker.”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

If one were to observe the conversation from a third-party perspective, it wouldn’t seem all that significant. Would they feel the silence shifting in violent waves between us, or notice that the outer corner of my left eye twitches in moments of unease?

That night, my hands become raw and tender with remnants of home-remedy lemon juice solution.

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Echoes of intoxicated laughter bounce off the tavern’s concrete walls, cloaking the rabid vibrations tearing through my jean pocket.

I hold the screen close to me, shielded from curious eyes.

9:42PM. WHERE R U. 9:45PM. ??????????????? 9:51PM. HELLO 9:51PM. Cool 9:59PM. Lol. Don’t come home

A friend offers a small smile from across the bar. My eye twitches twice in response, and I realise the cracks are becoming harder to hide.

That night, my skin is cold, unsheltered. I really did like my hair darker.

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120km/h. The yellowed glow of passing streetlamps throws streaks of light over the narrow road. For a second I reach to change the radio station, but my chest tightens and I retreat in the same breath. It was my misjudgement that even the tiniest movements would somehow go overlooked.

“I just don’t get it. You act like I beat you or some shit. Get a fucking grip.” The steering wheel is cradled tighter. 140km/h.

I’m directed not to make eye contact for too long, I’m told it’s provoking. I’m told it’s respectful to serve your partner’s wishes, and that their happiness is the key to my own. 165km/h. Mocking laughter rings through the vehicle, like I’m supposed to enjoy this. I sit, and thoughts scrawl through my mind about how much force it would take to fling open a car door at 180km/h.

Too much, it seems, when you have nothing left.

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[grimelords]

[just-shower-thoughts]

I have never seen grape ice cream.

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Actually, i know why this is:

Grapes contain a  a special molecule Anthocyanin that prevents freezing, so you’d keep ending up with grape milk. Many ice cream companies and manufacturers have made bold attempts at grape ice cream, hardly any of them successful.

But then, finally, those geniuses at Ben and Jerry’s did it. So why don’t we have grape ice cream?

Here’s the thing: Ben confessed in a People Magazine interview in 1984 that he had a huge crush on Becky and promised to create the flavor just for her. Knowing the history of grape ice cream, she coyly requested it, thinking it to be impossible. Ben began to include the grape skin and juice to better see the differences between batches. While he didn’t understand the science behind this at the time, he found that including the skins increased the levels of anthocyanin enough to make the ice cream freeze. “Becky was impressed,” he remarked, “We were at her house, alone. I gave her the scoop – on a cone. I was really getting somewhere. She was laughing and happy. She couldn’t believe I did it. I’ll never forget what happened next.”

“Becky jokingly gave her dog a lick from the cone. He liked it and took a couple of licks. Then he just gasped and dropped dead. He flipped down onto the floor and was just gone. I had no idea grapes are toxic to dogs. Specifically to the anthocyanin. Becky was devasted. I had invented a deadly dog poison, and I definitely wasn’t getting anywhere with her now.”

Yeah. 

tldr; The reason we don’t have grape ice cream is because Ben from Ben and Jerry’s killed Jerry’s hot sister’s dog with it.

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holy fuck

[queenentina-deactivated20180121]

my talents include avoiding difficult conversations and getting really sad over things i saw coming

[effulgentellie]

BEHIND THE NAME | 04/?! ➟ Buffy the Vampire Slayer

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This week's retail therapy purchase😁 #rosefield #rosefieldwatches

[fistinginferno]

jack black is literally the only human that never needs any context for me. I could see him going anywhere and doing anything. like if i got abducted by aliens and saw him just wandering around the spaceship putting bugle chips on his fingers to make it look like he has claws i would be like ‘that’s some classic jack black right there’ and not even question it

[blackgirlvevo]

Darth Vader: Luke, I am your father. Luke: Daddy Darth Vader: What the fuck

[bombcollar]

interests: that little fast walk birds outside do when they wanna get away from you but they’re not like super committed 

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for my birthday i am accepting Missguided and/or Sephora gift cards thanku ;)))

[princessofgenovia]

YOU GUYS. Remember how last night I said I felt hopeless?

I woke up to an email from Disney. I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE DISNEY COLLEGE PROGRAM!!

I spent the morning having meltdowns. I cried so hard I could hardly breathe and then spent the morning having meltdowns, going through extreme waves of emotions - excitement, fear, happiness and just general panic..

I can’t believe I even applied after so many years and I got in the first try. I don’t know, but I have to do this.

The logistics of it all are SO scary to me. I’ve been in such fear about my financial situation and what I’m even doing with my life and recovery and everything. I did not expect this at all. This is a HUGE life changing opportunity.

I have to pay the program fees within seven days to accept the offer, but because of my rent and bills for the first week of the month (I can’t even make my statement balances right now for credit) as well I just won’t have it. So… I’m doing a hard thing again and asking for help and a prayer.

https://www.gofundme.com/meredithsdisneycp

I told my mom and “how are you going to do that”? Well, I don’t know. Good question (so supportive).

The program fee for acceptance the offer is 350 total. If 20 people donate $20, it’s DONE and I’ll be going to Orlando and working for Disney.. and god only knows what would happen.

Thank you guys for listening and support; and if you can’t donate, please share. <3 I appreciate everything.