REVENDONNA.

[revendonna]

REVENDONNA,   a private portrayal of maddy perez. loved by dee. 

PROMPTS. INFO. META. PINTEREST.

affiliated with @tarote.

[juliadoyle]

Euphoria (2019—)

S03E5: The Little Piggy

[revendonna]

need to make a maddy playlist low key.

[revendonna]

mmm. some of my maddy things.

everything in first and second season happens for real, for real, but it's all during college years. i'm not boutta do all at with teenagers, and literally it makes more narrative sense than high school.

maddy is lesbian. that's all. all her relationships with men were comphet.

maddy is very loyal to her friends but she is also an opportunist. keep that in mind.

post finale, she starts up a PR firm with the money stolen from alamo. she also helps the girls at the silver slipper start their careers (OF, modeling, etc), funds rehab for some, and even employs a few to be her assistants or whatever.

maddy is a PR manager for multiple big names. HOWEVER, after a proposal to help manage drugstore tarot deck (@tarote) she ends up becoming their bona fide PR guy. she's ruthless, she knows exactly how to market those rats, she has the connections, and she'll go to war for them. the gunner teddy breakup had her working harder than the devil ifykyk ily @tarote

[notmorbid]

off-campus: season 1.

dialogue prompts from the first season of prime's off-campus.

you are intolerable.

do not give me the silent treatment.

nobody is expecting you to be _____.

take a shower. you smell like shit.

it'll come back to you. like riding a bike.

did anyone ever tell you that eavesdropping is rude?

has anyone ever told you your references are dated?

i'll pick out your outfit, you just do your makeup.

i plead the fifth.

i am always telling you to wear your jacket. you never do.

how do you suddenly know my name?

you can't just kiss me out of the blue.

you blush whenever i come near you.

get over yourself. i don't blush.

my single ass needs another drink.

this is the part where i tell you all the things i want to do to you when we're alone.

you're just giving me the bed because you feel bad for me.

i wouldn't know who i am without it.

you centered me.

you're overthinking. get out of your head.

you can put me down now. we all know how much you can bench.

i don't need your pity. i don't need you to be my therapist.

what if i'm broken?

if you're going to chase an impossible dream, chase one that actually matters.

this party's kind of dead, right?

are you driving, or shall i?

i think people can change, if they want to.

if i go, will you come with me?

you can't let the bad memories erase the good ones.

do you never have a shirt on?

people who care about you will understand. if they don't, they're not your people.

you said this wasn't a date. it feels like a date.

god, it's so hot when someone knows what they want.

this is a party. parties are supposed to be fun.

stop fucking with my head.

i'm a girl. i have to think about what everybody else is feeling before i can figure out what i'm feeling.

don't think. tell me what you want.

you scare the shit out of them, you know.

look how hard they're trying to please you.

you really can't be alone, can you?

can we hit dairy queen on the way home?

i can't take on anyone else's stress today. i'm emotionally raw. i'm a shell of a woman.

i don't know what your problem is, but i suggest you do whatever it takes to work it out.

we have to cling to the people who see us and smile.

just let me know you're okay.

we're on the same team. don't you get that?

don't you want to know what being single and slutty has to offer you?

let's start with the small stuff and work our way up, okay?

you didn't do anything wrong.

it has recently come to my attention that i'm a serial monogamist.

i'm actually so proud, i could cry.

what kind of _____ do you want to be?

have fun. do stuff just 'cause you want to.

i told you to stop opening my mail.

who says print media is dead?

i don't want you to look at me differently, or treat me differently.

i always knew. i just thought you'd tell me when you were ready.

you're not just one thing. you're everything.

the words will come when they come.

you reminded me of who i used to be.

you could be anywhere, doing anything, but you're not. you're here.

hey, look at me. i got you. i got you, okay?

i don't want to be that guy.

you're not as dumb as you look.

stop being chicken shit and tell _____ how you feel.

i know i said i was dropping out, but can i maybe drop back in?

i couldn't miss your big moment, could i?

i want to be more like you.

[5source]

✰─ 𝗠𝗘𝗔𝗡 𝗚𝗜𝗥𝗟𝗦 - quotes

quotes taken from the movie MEAN GIRLS (2004). feel free to change anything to your liking !! cw; cheating, cursing

-- " i'm ok, sorry. i'll be careful. " -- " talk to me again and i'll kick your ass. " -- " it's not you, i'm bad luck. " -- " my tee shirt is stuck to my sweater, isn't it? " -- " is that your natural hair color? " -- " won't we get into some sort of trouble for this? " -- " she is one of the dumbest girls you'll ever meet. " -- " she knows everything about everyone. " -- " she's the queen bee, the star. " -- " one time she punched me in the face. it was awesome. " -- " is your muffin buttered? " -- " is he bothering you? " -- " she's not interested. do you wanna have sex with him? " -- " wait, sit down. seriously, sit down. " -- " why don't I know you? " -- " so you agree you think you're really pretty. " -- " so fetch! " -- " on wednesdays we wear pink. " -- " she's fabulous but she's evil. " -- " do you have anything pink? " -- " I've only ever had one other crush in my life. " -- " if you break any of these rules you can't sit with us. " -- " whatever, i'm getting cheese fries. " -- " ex boyfriends are like off limits to friends. " -- " it'll be our little secret. " -- " get in loser were going shopping. " -- " you cannot do that. that's social suicide. " -- " do you think i'm an idiot? " -- " wow, your house is really nice! " -- " there are no rules in this house. " -- " do you even know who sings things? " -- " if you're gonna drink I'd rather you do it in the house. " -- " those bitches! " -- " oh hey guys, what's up! I didn't know you work here. " -- " well, this has been sufficiently awkward. " -- " come on she's never gonna find out. " -- " I know your secret. " -- " I can talk to him for you if you want. " -- " but wait, aren't you so mad at ___ for telling me? " -- " I can't believe you think I like attention! " -- " i'm mouse, duh. " -- " why are you dressed so scary? " -- " can I get you something to drink? " -- " what are you doing? you broke up with me. " -- " why would I break up with you? you're so hot. " -- " your hair looks sexy pushed back. " -- " she's so pathetic. " -- " why are you so obsessed with me? " -- " love ya! " *kiss* *kiss* -- " well, you're a good tutor. " -- " why do you like her? " -- " she's cheating on you! " -- " I was half a virgin when I met him! " -- " nobody understands me. " -- " I can put my whole fist in my mouth.. wanna see! " -- " you guys need anything? snacks? a condom? " -- " if someone said something bad about you you'd want me to tell you right? " -- " oh my god, she's so annoying. " -- " I can't go out, i'm sick. " -- " boo, you whore. " -- " you can't sit with us! " -- " fine, you can walk home bitches! " -- " I love that shirt on you. " -- " I like invented her! " -- " hey, i've been looking for you everywhere. " -- " you dirty little liar! " -- " buddy, you're not pretending anymore! " -- " you know what, it's not my fault you're like in love with me or something! " -- " you are a mean girl! you are a bitch! " -- " I want my pink shirt back! " -- " I don't wanna be punished for being well liked. " -- " can you pick me up? i'm scared. " -- " i'm sorry people are so jealous of me. " -- " wait, I didn't mean for that to happen! " -- " i'm trying this new thing where I don't talk about people behind their backs. " -- " so are we still in a fight? " -- " are you still an asshole? "

[dcminions]

alexa    demie    ,    euphoria    s03e03.

[revendonna]

maddy's "relationship" with alamo is not as murky at sam levinson thinks it is and because of his inability to do anything with nuance i'm going to do it my damn self. heavy trigger warning for r*pe, coercion, blackmail, et cetera.

it has always been clear : alamo brown is a fucking creep. a cartoonish version of an opportunist, a shark compared to all the little fish in his pond, a human trafficker, an abuser, a rapist. going into her business with alamo, maddy only knew the bits and pieces — drug dealer and club manager. she’s not stupid. she knew there was something in the underbelly of the silver slipper ; more than the average ‘ selling coke in the back rooms ’ situation. but it wasn’t her place, and she never intended to get more entrenched in that scene. all she wanted to do was manage some of the girls, secure the bag, and keep building up her name + rep.

but things became more clear. did alamo ever respect maddy as a business partner? somewhat. he didn’t see a powerful woman in control of herself. he saw a gorgeous girl, he saw the curves, he saw the smile and the doe eyes, and that’s all it took. the collaboration was only a way to make a bit more profit, and become the keeper of ‘ his girl. ’ she had no intention of participating in the extracurriculars. he had access to her the moment she stepped in his club. he knew he could do anything he wanted to her. not because she wanted it or was even allowing it, but because he had the leverage. 

when she put on that swimsuit, she knew she was in trouble. this was to make a move, but not the one she expected. when alamo tells her to ‘ come a little closer ’ to talk about business, she knows two things : she has no choice, and if she tries to leave the jacuzzi, he’d do much worse. whether that’s killing her, taking advantage of the business dealings, harming someone else, selling her. she fully runs through every choice she could have, and all of them lead to … none. she convinces herself this is for self-preservation, or just a move to get what she wants. it’s none of those. he takes advantage of her in the tub. she doesn’t tell anyone, but a lot of their ‘ colleagues ’ can see something is wrong. many of them justify it in their own ways : she owes a large debt to alamo, she’s using her sexuality to play the game, she’s getting what she wants, she should’ve said no, she should’ve left while she had the chance.

but maddy perez never claims to be a victim. she doesn’t believe she can be a victim. but this shifts something in her. something unexplainable. again, she convinces herself that it was an important move on her part, to make herself feel better about it. but still. she seems to always move away from alamo. before she walks into the club, she takes a deep breath and steadies herself. she starts to look at the girls differently : had he done the same to them? 

it happens again. and again. it gets worse every time. but he offers more and more. he’s taken a shine to her. is it love, or ownership? she refuses to think it’s either. it’s something else she can’t put her finger on. but it feels a lot like nate : the abuse, the fear, thinking she puts the man in place, but she’s the one with a hand around her throat. she goes home, and she scrubs her skin until it burns, but she holds the rest of it inside, and refuses to speak about it. this is, again, what she thinks is a chess move, even though her body tenses and her stomach turns as she steps into that back room. the final moment, the pleading eye contact with bishop : that’s her only way of crying for help. 

when alamo is blasted by ali’s shotgun, she doesn’t scream, she doesn’t cry, she just wipes the blood off and realizes it’s over. all of it. the abuse, the fear, the club. so she takes the money she can, and she runs as far away as she possibly can. and when she goes home that night, she sobs, she screams, she lets it all out, knowing that it’s fucking over.

[revendonna]

“ the song's out of key again. ” ╰ @tarote

“ i don’t really care about the key, teddy. ”       phone glows, it lights up the almost-sneer. the electronic press kit : sent to the right people at the right time, something like ‘ drugstore tarot deck is rolling something new out. be ready. they’re the next big thing, and i don’t say that lightly. ’ one tap. email blast. that’s when the acrylics stop tapping along the glass                   the silence is loud, louder than the track playback. “ you hear that? ”       she gestures to the speakers, spins a finger, the producer nods and turns it up. her voice raises, so does her gaze.       “ that doesn’t sound like you. you sound weak. do it again with more teeth this time. ”

[revendonna]

don't even play lads her relationships with men were comphet.

[chosenstars]

݁ .⠀ ✩ REPLAY ROT. a collection of dialogue prompts from songs i've had on repeat lately, no rhyme or reason. some liberties taken to better fit the overall rpc, adjust as you wish.

give me your eyes.

i need sunshine.

your blood, your bones, your voice and your ghost.

we've both been very brave.

wait for the scary day.

we both pull the tricks out of our sleeves.

but i'll believe in anything.

and you'll believe in anything.

i'd share a life.

i'd take you where nobody knows you, and nobody gives a damn.

i could take another hit for you.

i could take the salt away from your eyes.

so changeable and such a lovable lamb to me.

there's nowhere to go but on.

heart on my sleeve, not where it should be.

the song's out of key again.

take it slow.

take it easy on me.

shed some light on me, please.

it's the dirtiest clean i know.

nothing will drive them away.

we can beat them, just for one day.

we can be heroes, just for one day.

you can be mean.

i'll drink all the time.

we're lovers, and that is that.

nothing will keep us together.

we kissed as though nothing could fall.

we can be heroes.

maybe we're lying, then you better not stay.

it's the terror of knowing what this world is about.

there are days it never rains, but it pours.

i turned away from it all like a blind man.

can't we give ourselves one more chance?

why can't we give love?

love's such an old fashioned word.

love dares you to care for the people on the edge of the night.

love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves.

this is our last dance.

how can you just leave me standing alone in a world that's so cold?

maybe i'm just too demanding.

maybe i'm just like my father, too bold.

maybe you're just like my mother, she's never satisfied.

why do we scream at each other?

i never meant to cause you any sorrow.

i never meant to cause you any pain.

i only wanted to see you laughing.

i never wanted to be your weekend lover.

i only wanted to be some kind of friend.

it's such a shame our friendship had to end.

you can't seem to make up your mind.

things aren't black and white.

remember twenty-four?

now isn't that a laugh?

just trust me, you'll be fine.

you take the man out of the city, not the city out the man.

how'd it feel to take the light from my life?

i'm a sucker for looks.

you asked for it, here it is.

i think you're scared of being basic.

i don't want your money, i don't care for fame.

i guess i'll thank you and spite your name again.

how can i convince myself to stay?

that work just won't do itself.

you doubt me now?

i'll just wait another day.

thought that you were on my side.

lonesome is a state of mind.

the ___ i love is gone.

is this how the world is?

it'll always be like this?

everybody knows that walls have ears.

what's the use of your backbone if you never stand upright?

i'll be on my way.

who are they to say what the truth is anyway?

i believe that with each other, we're stronger than we know.

it isn't for the few to tell the many what to do.

where is the treasure inside of your chest?

where is your pleasure, where is your youth?

[revendonna]

# REVENDONNA,       a private canon-divergent portrayal of euphoria's maddy perez. dearly beloved by dee / heavnhill.

[brittsmemes]

THE  GUILTY   (2021)   SENTENCE  STARTERS.

“i  can’t  breathe  and  i’m  fucking  scared.” 

“i  understand  but  it’s  your  own  fault,  isn’t  it?” 

“hey  man,  can  you  tell  me  how  long  it’s  going  to  take?” 

“aren’t  you  supposed  to  fucking  protect  me,  man?  jesus  christ!” 

“that’s  a  good  use  of  resources.” 

“yeah, political  geniuses  with  ideas  about  how  to  do  our  fucking  job!” 

“this  phone  duty  is  shit.” 

“tomorrow  you’re  going  to  be  back  on  the  street.” 

“i  can’t  wait!” 

“okay,  she’s  an  angry  woman!” 

“i’m  back,  sir.” 

“jesus, finally!” 

“hey,  i’ve  got  a  wife/husband,  man.” 

“i’m  just  on  business.” 

“why  did  you  call  us?”  

“ i  just  want  to  talk  to  you.” 

“okay,  i’m  hanging  up!” 

“who  is  that?”  

“yes,  i  understand.” 

“is  there  someone  with  you?” 

“do  you  know  the  person  you’re  with?” 

“do  they  have  a  weapon?” 

“have  you  been  abducted?” 

“i  have  to  hang  up!” 

“we  don’t  know  where  they’re  headed.” 

“they’re  not  here.” 

“where  did  they  go?” 

“they  just  left  me.” 

“you’re  going  to  be  okay.” 

“you  promise?” 

“i  promise.” 

“we’re  protectors.” 

“we  protect  people  that  need  help.” 

“i  get  scared  being  alone,  too.  you  know?” 

“do  your  job  and  i’ll  do  mine,  okay?” 

“i  just  have  a  few  questions.” 

“i’ve  been  an  asshole.” 

“we  should  get  a  beer  sometime.” 

“that  sounds  good,  man.” 

“you  ever  go  gome?” 

“am  i  interrupting  something?” 

“oh  god,  no.  this  is  more  boring  than  taking  a  shit.” 

“that’s  enough!  it’s  enough!” 

“what  are  you  trying  to  do?” 

“you  don’t  even  give  a  shit  about  what’s  best  for  everybody  else!” 

“i  don’t  really  think  that’s  such  a  good  idea.” 

“you  don’t  know  shit!” 

“i’m  fucking  afraid!” 

“this  isn’t  going  to  go  our  way.” 

“no,  in  here  is  fine.” 

“you  could  do  something  about  your  attitude,  though.” 

[ssoveia]

ALEXA DEMIE as MADDY PEREZ - Euphoria 3x02 - America My Dream