leia

silly nation <3

[rexc0re]

haiiiii :3

My name is Leia <3

I write occasionally (mostly about ranboolive) and make silly posts about my other interests: watcher, smosh, try guys, the muppets, starwars & splatoon (which i have ocs for and will someday write about lol), etc+ !!

Come along as a i reblog things and post a fic or two every blue moon :3

[daydark4k]

things that I personally love to watch ranboo do

-chatting streams with gameplay in the background (like the recent pinball stream, maybe a game with less focus required? im always a sucker for slime rancher)

-chatting streams with friends too! feels like a big discord call

-roleplay streams like the magic stream, dinner stream, Valentine’s Day stream

-reaction/analysis content. watch ghost files please for the sake of one of my friends. but also just the deep analysis that comes from react is really fun

-game streams are always a winner. i love horror games and sad story games. puzzle games are also fun

-gaming with friends like the Mario party and Texas chainsaw massacre streams are so fun and silly

-silly vlog content is fun, even if it’s just a day in the life or vlogging making a sandwich. a “lets make a dry ass chicken cheese sandwich on white bread” vlog would make me laugh

this is literally almost everything they already do so like. keep going dude LMAO

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

I will now do none of these things and become strictly a nature commentator

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im that one friend who needs you to watch ghost files ranboo please im struggling it’s almost been a year ive been counting OVER 300 DAYS !!!

[aimseytv]

what song is stuck in your head currently

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falling behind by laufey my favorite song in the world

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨 omg why are they balding????

[rexc0re]

you don’t know what they’ve been through ?? what if they’re an old gay couple who’s been through a lot 😓😓

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Are you really enjoying what you're writing if you're not acting out an entire sad conversation that you have yet to write, bringing yourself to tears through it?

[lostfieldincidents]

CAN U STOP CAN U MAKE HAPPY CHARACTERS FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Happy characters are not really happy if they have never experienced sadness.

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Even gl ranboo was happy when he saw the sun

[rexc0re]

yea and then you TORE AWAY HIS HAPPINESS!!! pls make one character happy through the end please . im begging .

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Are you really enjoying what you're writing if you're not acting out an entire sad conversation that you have yet to write, bringing yourself to tears through it?

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this is so real stop . or when you write something so fucked up you gotta take a literal lap around the room cause you made yourself really upset :D

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hiiii tumblr ive been taking a break from writing (and also socials more recently) but i have lots of empty time to fill up so there’s gonna be lots of sad writings Serenity related and a new au ive been working on coming ur way hopefully next week <3

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Isnt it crazy that could accidentally type out nuclear codes and no one would know

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

2

[rexc0re]

good argument…but i think ur tricking us and it’s actually 4

[aimseytv]

does melatonin make anyone else have extremely weird but real dreams? i woke up in a cold sweat because i kept finding missing posters of my face on them and i kept running into people screaming “IM NOT MISSING” but instead of them all being people they were just zendaya

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ive been taking two melatonin gummies every night for like a year and have not once had a weird dream due to it . somethings up with y’all cause why is this happening

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HIIIIIII!!!!!!! be scared . im writing another genloss fic . (And it’s NOT serenity related)

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

They could have at least cut the other jean leg off for you

They asked and I said no because it’s really funny

[rexc0re]

you willingly walking around half jort half jant needs to be studied what’s wrong with you

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

Why did they have to make the Clark from my adventures from superman so like yknow?

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what did you think of his anime girl transition

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It hurts to be scared.

A Serenity Fic

A/N: Told myself I’d take a break from writing for a week and not exhaust myself . And yet here you are reading this. So. Anyways enjoy this there was lots of sad emotions going on when I wrote this!! Also I’m pretty sure this one is shorter then the last one i THINK. (Ps-Promise the next writing will be happier :3)

Warnings: Panic Attack

I shouldn’t be here. I got out. I left. I’m safe now.

((Wake up))

This isn’t right. These people are bad. They’re all bad people. They’re going to hurt me, I need to get out of here.

((WAKE UP))

The hands shaking his shoulders felt like they had a stronger, harsher, grip than they truly did. The voices were louder than they were. The room was brighter than it was. He wasn’t in the mall anymore but the feeling of dread had not left.

“…..Ranboo? You okay bud? You’re shaking real bad what’s wrong, what was the nightmare kid you can tell us it’s okay.”

Sneegs voice and Charlie’s gently brushing of Ranboos hair was more startling then comforting. He’d just awaken from a nightmare. A terrible one where they’re back in the mall and they can’t trust anyone. Not even Sneeg and Charlie. This fear, this dread that everyone around him only has bad intentions including Sneeg and Charlie starts bubbling up.

He can’t take it. They’re going to hurt him. They’re lying. He knows it.

Their breathing is heavier, more shaky, the air isn’t going into his lungs correctly and his quick shoves and punches only make it worse. But he doesn’t care. He needs these two away from him NOW. They’re going to hurt him.

“Stay away nonono let go of me ill fucking hurt you stay away get away you’re bad you’re all bad leave me alone.”

Ranboos punching, kicking, scratching, yelling at Charlie and Sneeg. Charlie’s trying so hard to calm Ranboo, through his own tears, but it’s no use. Sneeg pulls Charlie off of Ranboo who scrambles to sit in the furthest corner of his bed. They sit on the floor in front of him.

“Ran..buddy. You gotta talk to us. Whats-“

“NO get out of my head. Don’t lie to my face, leave me alone. Get out. Get the hell out. I don’t want you here. Get out. … Please get out.”

Sneeg gets up, walks out.

Charlie follows.

They’re gone. He’s safe. Everything’s fine. He’s okay. The bad people aren’t going to hurt him.

Everything’s okay.

It’s fine.

It’s not okay.

Oh god it’s not okay. Why does he feel this way? Whats happening. The pain in their chest is so much worse. The tears are blurring his vision. The grip on his ears only gets stronger. He can’t stop sobbing. Why is he sobbing? They were gonna hurt them. Right?

Nononono that’s not right. Why does he feel that way??? Sneeg and Charlie. Sneeg and Charlie. They’re his brothers. They’d never hurt him. They’d never hurt him.

Whats is wrong with them? Why can’t they just be normal? Why can’t they just let their brothers help him? He couldn’t accept their help. All he did was yell and hurt them. They’re gone now. They’ve left. Cause he was being irrational and couldn’t let go of the mindset showfall left him with.

Ranboo couldn’t stop sobbing. His sobs were considerably loud now. He was wailing out apologies to no body. He just wants his brothers to come back. He needs them back.

“I’m so sorry…please come back oh god come back please. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to yell I didn’t mean to hurt you I’m so sorry please come back I was scared. I don’t wanna be scared anymore please come back it hurts to be scared come back please.”

Their cries continue as he claws at his clothes, the bed, his own skin. He’s so sorry. He didn’t mean to push them away and now he’s alone. Why did he have to be so scared why’d he have to push them away? It’s all their fault.

Everything that happened was their fault and they’re leaving him cause he was such a terrible brother. He just wants them back, he wants it all to go back to normal. He’s holding onto his ears so harshly, digging his palms into the sides of his head. Their knees slam into his chest with every rock of his body, their lungs taking in deep jagged breathes.

His sobs are incoherent jumbled phrases now. The words “sorry” “please” and “it hurts” being repeated over and over. Every wail is almost a scream now. God it hurts to cry this hard. But he can’t stop it. They need his brothers back. Please come back.

Then he heard it. The click of the door being opened again. Charlie’s socked feet padding against the floor of Ranboos room as he comes over to Ran, Sneegs own footsteps following soon after. There’s a moment of disbelief. They’re really coming back. He’s stopped rocking now. The grip on his ears loosens a bit and with a shaky breathe he looks up through tears at the familiar silhouette of Charlie.

As soon as Charlie was in arms length Ran threw himself as close to his chest as he could. He needed to hear Charlie’s heart beat. They needed to know if he was truly there. Charlie shushed and gently raked his fingers through their hair, holding their head close to his chest. All Ran could do was cry, when Sneeg wrapped his arms around the two of them his sobs got harder. He couldn’t stop apologizing, the words falling out of his mouth like a prayer.

A prayer that they’d never leave again, a prayer that he could fix himself and never have to hurt them again, the prayer that everything would be alright again.

He shook in the embrace of his brothers. They held him as close to them as they could. None of them had any intention of letting go. They’d never let go.

Sneeg and Charlie cared for Ran so much. He was their brother. No matter the nightmares, no matter the paranoia or fear. He would always be their brother. They could kick, scratch them, make them bleed, and they’d do it all over again out of love.

No matter the pain Ranboo causes them. No matter the amount of cruel words he threw at them. They’d always love him. They made that promise to each other, they’d always be there for each other. They were going to take care of Ranboo just as he’d taken care of them.

They were going to get through this together.

From now and to forever,

They’d always have each other.

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was sososo busy today and didn’t have time to finish serenity fics soo expect one wednesday with another following Friday or Saturday :3

[rexc0re]

this was a total lie i am hitting a bump in my drive to write and i don’t wanna burn myself out so probably middle next week is when I’ll start posting again ^^

[ranboolivesaysstuff]

I do want to honestly get better at art LMAO maybe ill actually try one day

[rexc0re]

honestly the colors you used in the grimace shake drawing were very pretty you seem like you’d have a nice taste in color pallets!!!!! : )

[so-much-for-subtlety]

[daydark4k]

@rexc0re this is u

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SO REAL!!! this is exactly who i wanna be

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psa!!! all the fics ill be posting abt serenity don’t follow a storyline per say they’re just diff events all happening in this au!! thought id say that before posting more and confusing people :3