Rex Williams

Artist and Nerd 🦖

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I’m auditioning for The Last Kids on Earth. They announced the open casting for the live action series and I think all the cards are in my favor.

I look like Jack Sullivan

I am very close in personality to Jack Sullivan (an awkward, comedic guy who likes to act cool)

And I’m a couple hours from where they’re filming. I CAN LITERALLY COMMUTE!

I’ve been practicing, and my line delivery is getting better and better. Crossing my fingers. I don’t want to jinx anything!

[rexwilliams87]

I genuinely have the WORST luck in raffles. My name could be the one out of two tickets in a bucket, and mine STILL won’t be the one drawn! But instead, we did a raffle with gifts like a new iPad (WHICH IS WHAT I WANTED!), AirPods, a coffee maker, a tv, night vision goggles, a blanket, and some Stanley’s, and the upperclassmen got to go first in the raffle.

You want to know what the first thing that left that table was? THE FREAKING IPAD!!!! The guy who grabbed it literally grabbed it, smiled, and then walked away. HE KNEW WHAT HE WAS DOING!!! And then one by one, the good prizes left the table.

When my name was finally called, IT WAS THE LAST ONE! BECAUSE THATS MY LUCK! It sucks. I grabbed the night vision goggles because that was about the only good option. I figured I wasn’t gonna use them, so I’d sell the for a decent price. Something like 100 because nv goggles are PRICEY!

I look up the goggles? 40 bucks. 60 if you’re not an Amazon prime member. But I traded them for the coffee maker my friend got, and that thing is worth 104. So I’ve got something. And then I’ll hopefully be able to finally work at the job I interviewed for.

On that tangent, I applied for the job over a month ago, and I couldn’t work because they needed one more person for orientation. NOBODY WAS GONNA GET A JOB THERE UNTIL SUMMER! But now, somebody applied and I should be able to work soon, thank goodness. So the 100 from the coffee maker, and a couple paychecks from work, I can by MYSELF an iPad. Might take a month or two, but I can get it!

Anyways, that’s about it. I had a fun time today, but now I’m tired and want to take a nap. BYEEE!

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[academiaatitsfinest]

April is the cruellest month, breeding

Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing

Memory and desire, stirring

Dull roots with spring rain.

— T.S. Eliot

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Whimsy 🦄

[rexwilliams87]

Hello again. Update on my crush.

He has a girlfriend…

And it sucked finding out because it ACTUALLY seemed like we were going somewhere as far as talking. But then I sent him a funny video, and replied “Yeah, my girlfriend does that all the time!”

But it’s fine! Because now I can be the cool, eligible bachelor looking for love 🌹(because that’s OBVIOUSLY me 😅)

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[rexwilliams87]

I want to live a life of love

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[rexwilliams87]

I just finished “Simon vs The Homo Sapiens Agenda”

I’ve watched “Love, Simon” but I haven’t read the book. And I thought I resonated with movie Simon? OH MAN, I’m basically book Simon. A nerd with a weird but amazing family and a group of friends trying to navigate high school. And every time he makes a decision to hang out with one friend, or deal with Martin (who I can’t forgive! I’m sorry! Martin is awful!), it ends up affecting something else in his life. His connections with his family, his friends, BLUE!

I don’t know. I feel like I resonated with him because I have such a similar life. My family is REALLY weird, but also so loving and amazing.

My friends….lets just say it’s hard to pick when it’s a small, country school with classes of about 18 students total. I’ve had the same class since kindergarten with the exception of about two or three. I’ve got my best friend, but she moved to North Carolina and is dealing with so much already that I don’t want to complicate her life with my stuff. One of my friends, we’ll call him Anthony, is pretty good. But I’ve hardly had a SERIOUS conversation around him. And half the time he’s attached to his girlfriend. And then a lot of the girls at my school are just drama to the max! And you can’t keep a secret here. You tell a secret to someone, everyone in the entire county will know about it by Friday.

So friends are slim pickings. I won’t say that I haven’t had any fun or amazing moments with them. Birthday parties, field trips, etc. . But that’s about it.

And I feel like everyone has beef with everyone. And it’s so hard to pick a side because as soon as that happens, one person hates my guts and won’t talk to me. So I’m in this web of drama, lies, and chaos.

I think I’ve only told two people at my school about the guy I like. And even then, details are limited.

And that’s another thing. I forgot if I gave him a nickname or not, so we can call him Jack. Now I’ve met Jack in person quite a few times. And we’ve had a conversation here and there. And we talk over text messages. But something about it makes me think that it isn’t real and I’m just imagining things. But my mind CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM! He’s constantly on my mind like Blue with Simon.

And that’s actually where I got the inspiration for this tumblr. To be honest yet completely anonymous. And it’s turned into my little world where I can be whoever I want to be and nobody will really care.

But yeah. Book was great! Highly recommend, especially if you love queer stories.

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So I made strawberry banana bread. Which it turned out great! I found the recipe on Pinterest.

But I texted the guy I like a picture, and this is how the conversation played out.

Me: (Picture of bread) I got bored so I made strawberry-banana bread. First time too. Seems like it turned out ok 👍

Him: Awesome! That looks scrumptious!

Me: Dude it tasted so good 🤤 (🩷 by him)

Him: Booyah! Congrats man!

Part of me is like “Wow. He’s so weird using words like scrumptious and booyah.”

But the other part of me is like “WHO THE HECK SAYS BOOYAH!?!”

Am I reading too deeply into this? Am I delusional? Ik he’s not straight, because he told me he’s openly bi. But the energy I’m getting is “bro best friend”

Overall, the bread tasted good…..and this guy is driving me nuts.

[rexwilliams87]

So I’ve mentioned that I identify with the queer community before. Well, I kinda wanted to let you know my current situation.

About a year in a half ago, I met this guy at a tournament. Now he’s no Hugh Jackman or anything. More like a young tom cruise mixed with Timothée Chalamet in Wonka. But he was really nice and funny and chill! And I had fun hanging out with him, so much so that we exchanged contacts afterwards so we can talk later.

Well…I talked to him right after we left the tournament….and then never texted him after that. IN MY DEFENSE, I didn’t know him that well enough to know what to talk about or what his schedule was so that way I could text him when he was free. And I told my best friend about this and she was crashing out on how I needed to talk to him (she also said that my life was the closest thing to a WEBTOON, which honestly checks out).

So I didn’t talk to him for an entire year. He just stayed in my phone like an old stuffed animal in the closet. Waiting for its time to come.

But then, in November of last year, I saw him at another tournament. He was a little taller, and his hair had grown into a pony tail. But I felt so awkward with not talking to him that I kinda, maybe, sorta avoided him the entire day. But he won first place in his event, so in my head I was like “oh! Well I have to at least congratulate him!” But my coach was like “We’re done! We’re going home!” So I didn’t get to talk to him in person.

Instead, I texted him finally. And part of me was worried that he got a new phone and I just ended up texting some old man “good job 😉👍”

But he responded! And ever since then we’ve kinda been mutuals on social media and stuff like that. Nothing too crazy. When regionals were over, I asked if he made sectionals for his event. He said no. So I was expecting not to see him again until next season.

Sectionals come around, and I’m roaming the halls when BOOM! A door slams open and a bunch of people file out. And among those people? The guy I’ve been talking to in a brown, v neck sweater, beige khakis (with quite a bit in the back if I do say so myself 😏😂), and his hair was messy, but presentable.

Let me tell you that when I saw him, my heart SPIKED!! Partially out of fear, partially out of hope, and then the rest I don’t even know!

But we talked for quite a bit that day. And at one point, so I wouldn’t get lost in the sea of people, he grabbed my hand and guided me outside the room. And when I had to leave, I changed into more comfortable clothes, and he saw me and went “Woah! Rex! Loving the comfy vibe! You should dress like that more often!” And we hugged goodbye.

Last night, I had a dream where HE was in it, and he basically spent the day together doing who knows what (my dreams are really weird tbh, lmk if you want to hear about them). And we held hands again for a split second before I woke up.

What is bothering me is that I am feeling all these feelings, but I don’t even know if he feels anything back. Because I’m usually the one who initiates a text conversation, and he takes for-freaking-ever to respond. But still, I don’t entirely know his schedule so I can’t be too mad.

He’s a nice guy and it would be cool if we made it work out, but he also lives AN HOUR IN A HALF AWAY! I ain’t driving that far! My truck gets horrible mileage!

Idk. But that’s my story so far. I’ll keep updating if anything happens.

[rexwilliams87]

Youtube is back online (For Now)

Youtube is back online for me!!! I hope its that way for everyone else. Also, apparently my tiktok account got banned when I literally JUST created it. so that was weird. BUT YOUTUBES BACK!

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YOUTUBE IS DOWN!!!

Why isn't youtube working? I COULDN"T WATCH YOUTUBE WHILE EATING MY MAC N CHEESE!!!! WHY IS IY DOWN!?!

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I want to have this aesthetic SO BAAAAD!!!! The light academia, prep boy style.

Unfortunately, I’m weird, have hardly any sense of fashion, and this is the aesthetic I was destined with 😂😭