09/16/2023
Who you surround yourself with will eventually yet already be the way you end up similar as. That could look like similarities regarding reaction towards things, similarities in language, similarities in habits, similarities in mentality, the way of thinking, etc. I've always viewed myself different than most and I have a humble way of outcome. I've fought the negative thoughts, feelings. I chose to change the way of thinking, more towards positive and in a different angle. It takes a toll though when the ones around you are consistent and stuck in their ways. Its almost like a battle you're up against when these situations come up. I've felt that I've let go and allowed others thoughts, feelings, way of thinking to be said and allowed myself to not fight them on it. Reason for that is never making other people wrong especially when it all comes from their personal experience and beliefs. The way we feel or the thoughts we have towards a certain issue or what's being said is due to our experiences and beliefs we've conjured to be true to us. I guess that's also where we can feel "stuck" and have the feelings of, "no way out".
Going back to the main way to resolve this is God. We struggle so much with what we feel is all in our hands yet we still choose to defy God with what He stated himself: Trust in the Lord and leave your life in His hands. I know I'm not alone in this, and so many others that feel this way. I am announcing a commitment that I will be practicing the word of God and recreate a relationship with God. The main reason we do not move forward is due to the actions we choose not to take and place in our blindside. Here's the question: What is important to you? What fills your heart with pure joy and happiness? What people, human beings, truly want out of life is Happiness. Not the money, not success, not material things, etc. It's Happiness. Happiness can look like many things but really feeling that happiness is unique for every individual. We may not know exactly what can bring happiness but when you feel it, then you've reached it. We're all fooled with the social media, the movies, the fantasy of how we imagine it should look like. But do you honestly know it would bring that pure happiness? Once you get this, once you get that. Will that be it and you're happy? Honestly I believe that true happiness comes from yourself. Once you've reached a point in your life where you're present to oneself and no outside factor, once you've accepted yourself as you are, and truly find love for yourself; Happiness will appear and all things you've ever wanted in your life will fall into place how God had it planned for you.
I pray, God, to find pure happiness within myself.
Amen, RG.
