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Snippets of FASHION, FOOD & LIFE.

[riabelles]

[riabelles]

Hi kiddos! Today, I’ll be pouring my heart out again. This time, it’s going to be about my family. Honestly, I don’t know the word ‘family’ anymore. I’m not sure if they still know me, remember me, miss me, love me, or even just think of me. I felt like I was so left out and I don’t know how to ask them these questions that’s been bothering my heart and mind. I thought for awhile that even if your body’s too heavy, it’s always different with the heart because you know that there will be people whom you can rely on, and even call and ask on how you’re doing. But right now, none of that exist anymore. Three times they did forget about me.

The first time was when our clan had a grand family reunion during Christmas Eve. I was shocked when my brother called and asked me where I was. I told him that I’m at work and he eventually told me that there’s this family reunion going on. In order for me to immediately move on and ease the pain in my heart, I just told him that I’m so busy and that I had a lot of work to do. The second time was early 2016. They had this trip to Japan. At first, I thought it was just my brother who went there for work. I saw his picture on Facebook and I could tell that he’s in Japan. My mind went blank when I saw a family photo of them. Tears ran down my cheeks and I sat just quietly as if I’m not allowed to cry at all. My heart was so damn heavy and I felt like dying at the same time. Lastly, it was April of 2017 and they went to Europe. This time, I thought it was my 2nd brother who’s at Germany due to an exchange program at his school. I was shocked that they went there without me as well.

Questions are now rummaging in my brain: 1. Why didn’t they tell me? 2. Why didn’t they invite me? 3. Why are they doing this to me? 4. Don’t they consider me as family anymore? 5. Do they still love me?

I can’t even ask them these things because they’ll think I’m too emotional or sensitive. I was known to be strong and a survivor. I was taught not to let my feelings overpower my thoughts or actions. But I realized, you also need your emotions because it shows you who you are as a person. I need it to lessen the pain and heartbreaks. I need it for me to be able to forgive them and myself. I need it so that I’ll know how to make strong again. Right now, all I need is a person to listen to my thoughts and pain. I need a shoulder to cry on. I need a person who will give me wisdom in life and turn negative to positive. Do I love my family? YES. Always have and always will be. I'm just not that good in expressing it.

[riabelles]

For the love of coffee.

[riabelles]

Sautéed Bittergourd with Egg & Tomato

[riabelles]

Modified Sweet & Sour Pork 500 grams pork shoulder cut into small cubes Egg and flour 1 small white onion cut into 2x2 1 pc red & green bell pepper 1 cup pineapple bits/chunks Reserve the pineapple syrup for taste and adjustment 1/4 cup tomato ketchup 1/4 cup vinegar 1/2 tbsp soy sauce 1/4 cup white sugar for saucy consistency 1/4 cup chopped spring onions

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Liu Wen

[riabelles]

That Mickey! 😳😳

[gastrogirl]

red wine and hot chocolate black tap milkshake.

[brooklynhawaii]

Giving me life on the daily 🤗 @haleiwabowls

[bloodylunes]

morning

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[riabelles]

Another day in 2017

Hi grumpies! ☠️ Daughter monster is back and it’s time to share my hidden moments for the past months. Another year has passed and I’m hoping that this 2017, I can finally make my dream come true: TO HAVE A BUSINESS. There’s been a lot of ups and downs back in 2016 that I don’t want to experience ever again. Every day of my life wouldn’t be as meaningful without my family, friends, BFFs, colleagues and pets. 👍🏻👌🏻🐭🐕 💏As for my lovelife status, there were a few misunderstandings and problems along the way but we stand strong and more inlove each passing day. I love him even more! ❤️

Every day is another challenge that I have to face and conquer. I will welcome them with love in my heart and if I fail in every trial, it will serve as a learning experience to me. I will always have faith in myself, and to God who never fails to guide me. 🙏🏻

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[riabelles]

Coffee moment @ Cab Cafe

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