〖You go down just like Holy Mary, Mary on a, Mary on a cross. 〗
WARNINGS: Religious Imagery, Attempted Suicide, Manipulation?
But this, it wasn't normal.
Your heart beat almost 130 per minute, breath hitching at any given chance; almost as if a panic attack was threatening to happen at whatever moment.
You found odd presences of heat lacking in your house a well as chills running down your spine nearly anytime you were about to relax.
That's when such unfortunate message was broadcasted.
You could feel your chest being ripped open by your own pounding heart.
That such night you couldn't bring yourself to sleep, even if it was near a day that you last slept.
Even with the dread boiling inside you, maybe drowsiness was finally setting in you.
You tried closing your eyes, but your vision only got brighter. You couldn't even tell if it was morning anymore, you just felt brightness pierce through your eyelids.
But, the mistake was for you to open your eyes.
There stood before you, a creature, not sure to be recognized as a human or, angel.
"Do not be afraid, my child"
Oh but you were afraid. A frightened black sheep, in need of guidance from an angel. An archangel at that.
You could almost feel your mind completely shatter, not processing such entity being nearly next to you.
"Please, I don't know what you want or who you are but please, leave"
This, "Angel" only came closer to you, inches away from your face.
An almost deranged grin spread across its face, reaching the very tips of its eyes.
"My child, do not fret. I am merely but an Angel, here to bring you a message"
This was but a facade. You wouldn't be deceived by such creature. Or so you had wished.
Now, you were sure that night hadn't happened. An angel did not visit you, for it was all just a dream. Right?
More despair only came upon you however.
You couldn't comprehend such entity, even if it really was a mere hallucination or dream. This confusion only drove you to what seemed to be the brink of insanity.
Every morning after, you we're only left pondering. Thinking about what you had "seen".
And every morning, you felt closer compelled to what felt like the only true answer.
You sat down on you kitchen floor. barely recognizable anymore; all plates and cutlery stacked upon each other; the floor tiles filled with what seemed to be a mix of dust and mold.
You contemplated grabbing the now rusty knife, the slightest tip pointing at your stomach.
You knew it wouldn't take long, so, why we're you so afraid to do it?
There was no longer anything to live for if you had to "live" with the burden of this, insanity.
The point began tearing through your skin already, it was nowhere near severe yet you felt like fainting.
In such precise moment, you saw it, once more.
That, Angel. Alternate. Demon, even.
"Sweet dove, you mustn't do this."
Wasn't this what you were tasked to do?
You'd be satisfied for another human to die, soon to be replaced with its alternate.
But you just couldn't bring yourself to do these things to one of your flock.
These human like feelings had completely taken over you, dragging your own body closer this, black sheep.
You found yourself right behind such human, tightly gripping to the rusted knife, not exactly moving. Just stopping its motion.
"Child, you mustn't refuge to such selfish actions."
This angel's wings were now wrapped around you, holding you captive in a sea of feathers.
Th slightest of blood tainting the both of you, and as this ichor rushed, so did your adrenaline.
We're you going to die, now?
In the hands of an Angel?
"My child, be not afraid, your wounds shall be healed, never will you suffer this pain again"
You we're confused more than scared now.
"If you truly are an angel, why must you hav dragged me through Hell's insanity?"
It didn't respond, only held you tighter in its clasp.
"You are but a grain of golden sand, my pet. I must never let you slip through my fingers, into the deep. "
You choked out a sob, tears threatening to cascade.
"There is no need to cry, dear. You've sinned, but I love the sinner not the sin. "
Those whispers he told you only made waterfalls out of you.
"I don't understand why you've come to torment me, why must you drag me through hell only to say you love me?
Again, he remained silent. Incomprehensible whispers made themselves home in your now broken mind; there was really nothing for you to do now, only cry into its wings and beg for a fabricated forgiveness.
"Can't you see I've done this because I love you, my dove?"
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