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RIEFKA RIEFANI. An INFJ and geeky lady who enjoys the odd good film, find pleasure in books, listen to black music, and get lost in her mind

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17 Crazy Interesting Facts About Dopamine

What does dopamine do? Well, at the most basic level, everything you think, do, and are is basically part of one big chemical reaction. That’s not an altogether comfortable thought for some people - but it’s the science. It’s hard to deny when you start looking into incredible brain chemicals and neurotransmitters like dopamine.

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Are you a women? If you say yes, I am sure that you ever had a “self image” issue. How could I know? Because I had too. Not only me, so far, I know all of my friends experienced it. Women will never feel “good enough” about their physical appearance. That’s why, they do diet even they are skinny, they wear too much make up even they are very beautiful. Most of them always grumbled at mirror and mention her flaws until they loose their self confident. Have you ever confuse to choose your outfit when you decide to go out? After that, you spend much time in front of your wardrobe. Staring at your clothes but still can’t found the best one to wear. Huft. It’s not the end of struggle. After choosen your outfit, you must deal with your face. I am pretty sure you won’t get out with a pale face. You must wear some make up. And, again, you spend much time in front of mirror. The question is.. Why you do that? Why women willing to do such difficult things like that? You know the answer as I know. It’s because we want to look pretty. Not for people but for our self. We feel satisfied when we are look gorgeous. We feel such a big pleasure when we look at mirror and see a beautiful girl in there. I think it’s normal. It becomes NOT normal when you’re too worry about your appearance and feeling ugly all the time. Since my age turns 23, I feel less worrying about my physical appearance. I dont wear much make up again. I choose outfit that makes me comfort instead of outfit that makes me skinny or prettier. Idk why I feel so different since one year ago. I really dont care too much about it. It just like.. not really important to always wear make up everyday. I don’t wanna say that I don’t like make up and fashion anymore. Not. Not like this. I STILL LOVE that kind of things. But not too much. Idk it just me or many people out there feels the same thing at their 24 like me. Maybe I just realized there’s a thing that much MORE important than your appearance. It’s all about your SOUL and your THOUGHT. Also your ATTITUDE. It’s not make up that makes you look wonderful, it’s your SOUL. It’s not your outfit that makes you look elegant, it’s your THOUGHT. It’s not your body that makes people appreciate and admirer you, it’s your ATTITUDE. Just imagine. A very beautiful girl with bad attitude, a sexy girl with shallow mind, the cutest girl with cruel soul. Do you like her? Do you admire her? Off course not. But what we called “perfection” is a good looking girl with wonderful mind and soul. But I know it’s so rare. It’s hard to be like that. And.. believe me, nothing's perfect except GOD. It doesn’t matter if you are not really good looking, don’t be so hard to yourself. Just be grateful. There’s always someone prettier than you, than me, than us. Remember that physical appearance is subjective and temporary. But mind and soul are “eternal”. Make up your mind, stay healthy for your soul, choose the best attitude. And I am sure your beauty will be immortal automatically.

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...Yet, had Aylmer reached a profounder wisdom, he need not thus have flung away the happiness which would have woven his mortal life of the selfsame texture with the celestial. The momentary circumstance was too strong for him, he failed to look beyond the shadowy scope of time, and, living once for all in eternity, to find the perfect future in the present. . Those words are the last paragraph from Nathaniel Hawthorne's novel "The Birthmark". Its a simple yet meaningful story about a man who obsessed with perfection. He never value about his little happiness until he loose it in the end. He always focuses on the flaws. Every flaws must be removed. There's no excuses. Even with higher risk. In my opinion, this story really tell us about life-would be. Sometimes we are think too much about perfection, over proud of our achievement and refuse any kind of flaws. We forgot that flaws are the part of life. We try, try, and try to removes it until we do not realize we loose moments. Its so ironic. From the story, I learned that we must cherish our present. There's something more important than perfection, its happiness.

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From "Man's Search For Meaning"

I summarize some of my favorite quotes from the phenomenal book by Viktor Frankl, "Man's Search For Meaning".

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If there is a purpose in life at all, there must be a purpose in suffer­ing and in dying. But no man can tell another what this purpose is. Each must find out for himself, and must accept the responsibility that his answer prescribes. If he succeeds he will continue to grow in spite of all indignities. -VF

"Don't aim at success. The more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it. For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side-effect of one's dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself. Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge. Then you will live to see that in the long run, in the long run, I say! success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think of it." -VF

"Freedom of the will refers to freedom to choose one’s response to the conditions of life; it is not freedom from conditions in life" –VF

TRAGIC triad: conditions of life from which no human being can escape:pain, guilt, and death -VF

“One should not search for an abstract meaning of life. Everyone has his own specific vocation or mission in life to carry out a concrete assignment which demands fulfillment. Therein he cannot be replaced, nor can his life be repeated.Thus, everyone’s task is as unique as is his specific opportunity to implement it.” –VF

One of the BEST book I ever read!

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We all live in the world full of contradiction. But we never completely stand on one side. We are always in between. We are grey. We need days to get in our routines, we need nights to be relaxed. We want to be surround by positive people to get delightful life, however we also need negative side from people to makes us learn. There's always a good in evil and vice versa. We all ever experiencing some up and down moments in our life. Sometimes we need summer to come when there's winter, and vice versa. We will never be grateful for healthiness if we never get sick. We are all a walking contradiction. And there's no doubt about it.

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Tick tock. Tick tock. Tick tock. All I can heard is the sounds of the clock. Then, I realized how time flies so fast. Makes me wonder about the past. I look at the clouds in the sky, Its always the same as I look before. I see some little birds fly, It makes me think about what they're searching for. Then, I keep thinkin' about the meaning. The meaning of life. Why am I a human? Why am I here? So, I try to count my blessings. There are more than five. Suddenly I feel satisfied to be a man. And glad to be here.

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Stevie Wonder is the 8th wonder of the world. He write, he sings, he plays multi instrument. The most talented man I ever know is him. His music accompany my whole life. When I feel happy, sad, bored, fall in love, broken heart, angry, and all the emotions I ever felt. His songs always on the top in my playlist. Maybe all the words I wrote can't describe how much I admire him and his music. In my opinion, Stevie is the most lovable musician. All the words he wrote in every songs captured it. He feels every situation very deeply. Thats why all of his song not only tell us about story on it, but also seasons, times, atmosphere. He is the master of phrasing words. Not only about the lyrics, his music always has the beautiful and magical tune which is so rare that we can't find it from another musician. His note is strange, weird, difficult to play. The kind of music which is challenging to learn even if you are a musician. I am a number one Stevie's fan and proud of it. Thankyou Stevie for your music. It makes me feel alive. Got so many inspiration from it. Once again, I can't describing him in many words. Just so happy that Stevie is exist. . (Image source: steviewonderfan)

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Why do people act FAKE?

Honestly, this question haunted me through the night. It's almost 1AM and I am on the analyze mode. As always. Back to the question, why do people act fake? I met any kind of people in my life, believe it or not, more than 50% of them are fake. Even my closest relatives. I examined them. I found that they are being fake because they NEED attention. They want to be "approved" by their social circle. Their deepest fears are being "rejected" by other people. So, they crafting for attention by destroy their own-original soul. They try to imitate their role models or being what people like. They don't realize they're just faking their self. It just a masquerade. And as far as I know, masquerade isn't eternal thing. It will be fade-soon. In the end, people who wears it, would be left by someone or circle they want to fit in. I do not give any respect for that kind of people, for sure. I think they are interrupt someone else's life when they try to copying others behaviour which isn't theirs. Sorry, but I think it makes you look so "cheap" when you are doing anything just to make people likes you. I would rather being unknown or left by people when I being original than having people on my side when I being fake. It's a must. And the last words, from the bottom of my heart, I wanna say that I don't like an attention seeker who pretends to be "someone else" just to get respect from other people. I know that sounds preachy but.. Go ahead and get your life, dude!

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Many people were anxious to be good and made many excellent resolutions, but they did not keep them very well, and were constantly saying "if only we had this" or "if we could only do that" quite forgetting how much they already had, and how many things they actually could do. One discovered that money couldn’t keep shame and sorrow out of rich people’s houses, another that, though she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with her youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful, feeble old lady who couldn’t enjoy her comforts, even carnelian rings were not so valuable as good behavior. Better to stop complaining and enjoy the blessings already possessed. Cherish those little things that makes us happy. . Inspired by Little Women, a classic fiction by Louisa May Alcott. Currently reading it!

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Lost in my own thought

I feel like I almost repeat all the events over and over again in my memory. My brain oftenly switch on backwards mode, and then turns into analyze mode which sometimes makes me so tired but I can't handle it. It happen automatically all the time. I think I am blessed because my brain has a big capacity to saved all the events and their explanation about almost-everything. But sometimes I think it's also a cursed because I can't make it switch into turn off or sleep mode. My brain never tired of thinking. It becomes more thirsty of "subject to analyze" day by day. It's a pleasure for me because I really like to think deeper. But.. okay, I say "but" again. But, it get worst when I loose in my own thought. I don't know how to solve it sometimes. It takes me longer time to analyze than usual. And you know, it's hard. It never stop  works until I found the resolution. Again and again. It's like a maze and there's no way out. Then, I trapped. No one can help. It just me, must find the way out. That's why I really like reading, self talk, meditation, wondering, imagining. Those things helps me to find the way out from that maze. It's always a cycle: questioning something - analyze mode - being "trapped" in very long maze - find the way out - in the end, the result is.. feel the BIG pleasure when I found the answer/resolution OR getting lost in a longeerrrr maze in my own brain.

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🍂Amelie Poulain (Audrey Tautou) a character from the movie: Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amelie Poulain . . #art #arts #draw #drawing #ameliepoulain #audreytautou #moviecharacter #sketch #actress #france

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I know it doesn't look like Ella Fitzgerald. But at least, I try.😂 . . . #maybedeletedsoon #ellafitzgerald #singer #legend #arts #sketch

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Made by my brother. He's great. . . #draw #drawing #arts

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try to sketch young Stevie Wonder, a musical genius. . . #sketch #draw #art #arts #steviewonder #musician #funk #soul #jazz #singer #legends

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🍂Frank Sinatra fave song from him? off course, can't choose just one. . . #singer #franksinatra #music #legend #art #arts #draw #swing #jazz #1960s

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🍂🌸🌿 Last day of holiday. . . #drawing #art #iseng2an #random

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everything grows. that's why everything changes. . . #art #draw #iseng #gambaranaktk #hehe