Self-reflection
It may seem hard to critique yourself every once in a while, to see what you’ve done so far in your life. I try to be as objective as possible with myself whenever I can. It helps me focus on things that I know that I’m doing wrong and try to fix that. But, most of the time, I can’t seem to realise what I do wrong or right... And sometimes life’s just like that. Things happen. And you can’t undo them.
I know that whenever someone doesn’t know what’s wrong with them, they can start to have sessions with a therapist (if they can afford it, of course). But I guess sometimes that person (also me) may not feel really unconfortable talking to a stranger about their personal issues. And I say this having years attending therapists whenever I needed, specially in my teenage years. It’s tough to face yourself. It’s like looking yourself in a mirror and trying to see something different in its reflection, someone that you wish you were. (I’m holding myself not to compare it with the mirror of Erised from HP.)
Dealing with yourself might be everyone’s biggest fear. Knowing that you need to change something, but sometimes you don’t know how. Or maybe you are doing things right but you may be afraid that everything could go wrong. In the end, resilience is always your best friend.
Whatever happens to you, you need to keep your head up. I know that pain and bad times are impossible to avoid, but there’s always something good to grasp between all the bad things, and you learn from that. I learned this the hard way. I was (well, still am) a bit pessimist... with myself I mean. But I always knew that I never had to give up on anything, no matter how hard I tried.
And that’s why I’m writing this, even though I know that nobody ever cares to read all this shit that I write. This, writing about myself, is my therapy. I like writing this kind of stuff, it’s like talking to myself... And, in a way, I am right now. I am talking to my reflection in the mirror. I do it everyday, in my mind. I sometimes can’t seem to realise the differences, but when I do, it’s the greatest feeling ever.
Because when I see myself in that mirror, I don’t see a reflection... I see what I could become. The person that I want to be.
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