"I love you, I need you"

Mandy | 29, She/Her, Ace | Spongebob fanatic, Warcraft nerd, and a lover for Bucky Barnes | I hangout mostly on my Stucky sideblog, Metalbvcky, than here nowadays | My AO3 | Destiel owns my soul and Stucky owns my heart | This specific blog has always and will always be about Supernatural and the cast, but these days random fandom posts will be more frequent. Ship and let ship. Owner of too many sideblogs: Thekandykrab Wehatemisha Winchesterssims Queentrikey

[metalbvcky]

There's No Cure For Love

Stucky • Doctor Steve + Patient Bucky • Modern AU • Longfic WIP

The day has finally, finally come. I set out to start this fic after finishing Aster last year, and I brainstormed all summer and into the fall. I've never planned harder for a single story, but what's even crazier is I originally had ideas for this in 2022 and expanded that in 2023. Currently, I have 12k worth of notes alone, which means there's no telling how long this will end up. It'll be a WIP for the foreseeable future and my #1 priority because it's overtaken my brain tenfold.

Now, I am not a medical professional. I've done countless medical research for this (still am) but there will be some levels of fiction because of the doctor/patient relationship. Bucky's disease/illness is made up, and obviously we're gonna have him and Steve making out in a hospital room at some point and more, so... 😘

🩺 Summary 🩺

Bucky, the son of a state senator and a real estate billionaire, leads a luxurious but troubled lifestyle. Even with the wealth and power of the Barnes family, Bucky is always one hospital stay away from death. Doctors are evil. Hospitals send him into a panic attack. Nobody knows what might be wrong with him. His body is broken. Former emergency physician turned pulmonologist, Steve spends his days between the hospital and the assisted-living facility where his Ma resides. He has a network of work colleges, countless lives to save, and enough nightmares to keep him awake at night. One lapse of concentration, one false decision, can mean the difference between life and death. Little do they know, their paths will soon cross. But will it be in time to save Bucky from his mysterious illnesses?

TAGLIST: @kingofsorrow20, @bonkybornes, @vintagebuckybarnes, @late-to-the-party-81, @chiseplushie, @stuckydrewx, @controlofwhatido, @sparkagrace, @hannahshattuck, @lavenderbuckyy, @ghostoffiction, @realmamabear79

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[valtsv]

i don't even gaf about shipping discourse because i'm a big boy and a bad person for other worse reasons but if i can be real for a moment "proship DNI" in bio means nothing to me. if you want to keep me out you're going to need to line your blog with salt and iron or rat poison or something.

[valtsv]

actually if i were to be less flippant and more brutally honest with you all my disdain for it stems from how much of it is just a thinly veiled excuse for people to fight about their fictional relationship preferences or simply for the sake of arguing without any investment in the reality of what they're claiming to represent and then take pride in their empty, performative activism. i still recommend the rat poison though.

[valtsv]

girl help they are calling me a pedophile sympathiser in the notes for trying to point out that being disgusted by something is not the same as meaningfully working to prevent and safeguard against it by critically engaging with the complex reality of it. can i please just have the rat poison.

[buckysknifecollection]

i feel like the youth should be reminded that the point of shipping is not for a ship to become canon. the point of shipping is to collect all the canon crumbs like starved mice, run away cackling and make some fun little scenarios with them just for the hell of it.

[bambicest]

it's so wild to me that you absolutely cannot force a hyperfixation to happen. like you'll watch the most perfectly tailor-made-for-you content that everyone says you'll love and feel absolutely nothing, and then the thing you watch on a whim to fill time will reach through the screen and put its damn fingers in your brain and start rearranging the neurons right in front of you and every single time you're like THIS??? THIS??????? and this happens like every 6-12 months forever

[monsterpotion]

"You can now sort your likes from oldest to newest on web and iOS. Do you remember what your first liked post was?"

oh dear

[monsterpotion]

oh its bad back there.

[headspace-hotel]

omg i gotta do this

[catchymemes]

[brainstreams]

[willgrahamscock]

almost 9 thousand likes I can’t take it anymore, it’s gonna be illegal to ship sasuke and naruto soon

[eluaofhearts]

“Let’s normalize kicking people’s sandcastles over and eating their ice cream from out their hand and unbuttering their lobsters”

[aaliyahsparrow]

Istg if one more person accuses me of using AI because they “ran the art through an AI detector”, or “it looks like the AI I requested”, or “that’s too good for someone to make”, I’m going to lose my shit and delete everything.

How about you take into consideration that some of us have been doing this stuff for literal years? How about you think about the fact that AI models were literally trained on actual artists’ work?

Just because you can’t fathom how someone might put something together doesn’t mean that it was made by AI.

I’m honestly disappointed by the reaction from so many of you. I pour my heart and soul into my work, and it breaks my heart to see the accusations because it takes what I love doing and renders it meaningless.

Because of this, I’m going to be taking a break. I’ve got some bang and reverse bang commitments that I’m going to follow through with, but that’s going to be it for a while.

I love creating, and I love my fandoms, but this is going too far. I spent hours creating something I’m super proud of for a zine that I was invited to be part of.

My art involved photoshopping a reference image, creating pride jerseys from scratch, learning how to manipulate images to “fit” over the reference models, photoshopping the actors faces over the reference images, and then going through the process of layering textures and backgrounds and making it look like watercolours, adding the overlines and playing with the colours and tones.

I shouldn’t need to explain my process to everyone. I shouldn’t need to defend myself against baseless accusations. I definitely don’t have to produce a fucking “screen record” of my process to defend myself.

So, fuck you if you’ve jumped on the bandwagon. Fuck you if you think someone who has been in fandom since the late 90s would resort to using AI. And fuck you for not having the guts to say it to my face. You don’t deserve nice things.

[aaliyahsparrow]

The “explanation” and “apology”.

I was not contacted about anything before a post went up saying that my cover art was AI. I was not contacted before I made my own post in the discord asking what was going on.

I did not apply to be the cover art of this zine. I was *invited*.

In light of this, I will be releasing the cover art (without the zine title) in the upcoming days because I am proud of the work and I don’t deserve to be treated like this.

[late-to-the-party-81]

Aaagggghhh!

I’m so sorry, Jill. This is truly awful. It’s horrible to think that folk on a server, who have admired and requested your art, are so quick to condemn you instead of standing up for you and pushing back.

Your stance on AI is well established, and predates you getting back into art.

Fuck them all and the horses they rode in on.

[betrayedbycinnamon]

Abhorrent behavior. This is the second server I’ve heard of not even consulting the victim of a witch hunt and baseless accusations.

I bet these people aren’t doing anything about the server members feeding works into AI detectors, or spreading rumors.

Name and shame the server/zine so other people know to avoid it. “There’s literally no way we could prove you did or did not use AI and instead of trusting you we’ll punish you to pander to the folks destroying fandom and feeding AI detectors.” Absolute madness.

Stop the AI witch hunt, you’re killing fandom faster than any jerk actually using AI.

[solsticelosthermind]

That’s fucking horrifying and I’m so sorry they’re doubling down on being so disrespectful OP. I’m seconding the request to name the zine, because I definitely wouldn’t want to interact with folks who treat people this way.

For everyone else: Enough is Enough.

You literally cannot. CANNOT. Determine if someone is using AI. AI stole art and copied it just like they scraped fics to mimic. Of course AI looks like and sounds like us, it’s just copying us!! AI checkers are still AI and incapable of identifying itself!!

What you are doing is loudly yelling you don’t know how to make something and therefore it upsets you and has to be fake.

Knock it the hell off. All you’re accomplishing is the destruction of your own fandom and community.

[aaliyahsparrow]

I’m not going to name them, however, their original post with my cover art is still visible as a reblog on my blog, pretty much right below these posts.

I am so upset and angry about all of this. I was so excited about it, I’d even planned to order extra copies because I wanted to share in the excitement with everyone else and support the charities and other artists and authors who were taking part.

Anyone who goes through my tumblr will see how anti-AI I am. There’s even work I posted from over 10 years ago to show where my style started.

[princesscas]

This is insane. Artists and writers being accused of using AI by random users (and being witch-hunted) is already a big issue. It's an even greater problem when the mods of a FANDOM EVENT immediately dogpile a participant like they're worthless trash. Fandom is a community. Or it used to be. Because this is how fandom dies. One day, these people will start asking themselves, "where's all the fanart? the fanfics?" but it wouldn't hit them in the face even if they knew the damage they're actively doing. This is anti behavior 1000%. Witch-hunts, feeding someone's work through an "AI detector," failing to hold themselves (the mods of said event) accountable. If only these fucking people went after real things that affect our REAL LIVES instead of sabotaging someone's beloved hobby.

This. Is. How. Fandom. Dies.

[rogers-carter]

#superhero strut mode: activated

[hawt-me33]

Coming into a fandom late

[baxterdamus-deactivated20130513]

Coming into a fandom early and watching it become an angry clusterfuck

[valorious]

Being in a dormant fandom that suddenly comes alive again after a new book/movie

[leatherpatches-deactivated20150]

Don’t forget about those who come in the midst of a fandom war. 

[fauxmoux]

Accuracy at its best

[street-of-mercy]

Being in a fandom and not even knowing there’s a war going on…

[my-reylo]

all of this shit…lol

[nerdsagainstfandomracism]

When You’re Not In The Fandom But You’re Nosy AF

[not-so-secret-nerd]

When you get into a fandom only to discover it’s dead

[jupiter235]

This gets better every time I see it. 

[sageblackrose95]

@fuboos-mess

[inverted-mind-inc-sideblog-deac]

Being in a dead fandom…

[illogicalarchive]

Or being in such a tiny fandom that it feels like youre the only one

[erilias]

The accuracy hurts.

[fanfic-yes-please]

Being in a fandom that had a shit ending.

[it-is-bugs]

When you’ve been fangirling long enough, you’ve experienced all of the above.

[sweetferalbaby]

Being in a fandom meant for kids.

[teaganvamp]

This just gets better..

[hamboj2]

@mi-kleos

[thatcrazysonicchick]

When you realize that joining the fandom has ruined you

[knightofbloodcancer]

Fandom hell in general

[morathavictoria]

Yes.

[marvelanimelover]

This^^^ just… ALL OF THIS.

[stop-talking-babe-deactivated20]

Being in so many fandoms that you don’t even know what’s going on

[raise-cain-archived]

THIS IS THE SKULDUGGERY FUCKING PLEASANT FANDOM IN ONE POST!!

[crochanblackbeak]

Trying to recruit people to your fandom

[kateriverameliawolfe]

Annnnnnndddd it’s back

[ishipwhatiship247]

Being in a fandom which has so many antis

[ravenhilarious]

I’ve probably reblogged this before, but that was before these great additions.

[swanqueen-author]

Being in a fandom that actually works together

[commanderunhingedmongoose]

Why is this so true? All of it.

[pillowprincesslexa]

being in a fanbase but all your mutuals suddenly turn into Kpop blogs

[hangingfire]

I always enjoy it when a good post comes around again and has been improved by the reblogs like the years for a fine wine.

[priory-of-stars]

Being in a fandom when shit goes down and everyone has different opinions

[marianagmt]

When you are in a fandom and don’t care for others people opinion…..even if they are right…(believe me, I have met several of those)

[batbyte-alghul]

Being in a fandom you never meant to join

[tirnel-sutcliff-spears]

I love this. and it’s gotten better

[cartoonjessie]

After abandoning a fandom you’re still a little bit emotionally invested in….

[brit-is-bookish]

All of these are me. Lol

[thehikingastronomer]

Being in a fandom on Tumblr

[julietsemophase]

And it reached its epic conclusion

[isa-ghost]

I CHOKED ON FUNDIP

[van-arts]

HISTORY HAS BEEN ENGRAVED INTO THIS POST

[princesscas]

do you ever come across a blog that is so venomously aggressive in a non-satire way that makes you go PLEASE GET OFF THE INTERNET AND SEEK THERAPY

[forbescaroline]

its actually insane that gifsets that would've gotten 1,000+ notes 5 years ago barely get 100 now. this site is so inactive it makes me sad

[castielss]

SUPERNATURAL AESTHETICS SEASON 5

[bucketofli]

Angel on his shoulder how sweet I’m crying

[geeeeeeeeeeeeeeenji]

[geeeeeeeeeeeeeeenji]